I'm a woman. I can feel it too. But yes, I am a matured enough. ive been 2 years relationship with the man I've been dreaming for. He's Kent. I met him in high school, he used to be known as a 'playboy' on campus but despite that, I still admire him. I met him through my friend's boyfriend. I'm always the third wheel when I'm with my friend and her boyfriend so one time, they prepared for a double date but I didn't have a boyfriend so they invited their friend and introduced me and that's it Kent. That one time became a habit, until we were together almost every day, sometimes we were left alone. And it didn't end just like that, after a couple of months my feelings grew bigger and bigger when I'm with him. Who doesn't, he's that guy who's comfortable to be with, apart from being handsome, he's also a very gentleman. Complete package they say. Luckily, I'm not the only one who felt that because he confessed his feelings towards me. And yes, he feels the same way as me. He courted me just how I wish to be courted. He always sings to me, takes care of me, cares for me, protects me, his family already knows me though I haven't answered him yet and my parents also know him because they were the first ones he dated before me. The way he's treating me, I felt like I was a princess. His courtship lasted for a year, and on his birthday, I gave him my answer as a gift and that's a YES. I saw the overflowing joy in his eyes, he hugged me as if it was the last, he also kissed me on the forehead and thanked me for a hundred times. Within a year, our relationship went so perfect. Envious and admired by many. I can say that I'm so lucky for having him in my life. How much he valued me before is still the same until now. It seems that until now, he is still flirting with her. But as they say, everything changes. He became busy and the reason is I don't know. He said he doesn't have much time because while studying he's also helping run their family business. I believe him but there's something suspicious because his dad said he only sees him often in their company. But damn that man. Just give me a little tenderness, I'm fine. His smile, his kiss takes away every negative thought I have in my mind. Yes, he's sweet but most of the time now, he's getting colder. I tried to understand because I knew he was tired. But even if he's not tired, he's still like that, I'm just hiding because I hate arguments. I don't want a fight because I can feel that anytime he can just drop me. Anytime I feel, he will divorce me, he will leave me. Today is his birthday and at the same time our 3rd anniversary. He was still in school then, I invited my family and his family to surprise him. We prepared everything at their house, everything was fine, the foods, the balloons, and everything, he was the only thing missing.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENT! AND HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY!"

we all shouted. Kent looked shocked, obviously tired from the flight. "t-thank you" he briefly replied. The coldness of his voice, and his uninterested aura triggers the whole room but that did not become a barrier to celebrate this special day. While we were eating, he didn't talk to me, he couldn't even look at me. I want to ask him what's the problem but I'm too scared to know that his answer is; Our relationship. Suddenly, he said goodbye and went up to the room because he said he was tired. His mom gave me his phone, maybe he forgot it because he was tired so I brought it to his room. I was about to go to his room but my confused mind bothered me. I opened his phone, and that's when I felt pain. His lock screen is no longer us. Before, he didn't want to change it because he said he lost his tiredness when it was exposed to him the moment he opened his But now, what happened, baby? I mustered up my courage, I tried unlocking his phone, and the pain I felt when I opened it decreased, his password is still the same. It's our anniversary. I explored his phone. I didn't look at his Facebook and other social media accounts because I was in charge of those too. But something caught my attention and triggers my curiosity, there are three unread messages. I held my breath before pressing it. I closed my eyes. I'm afraid to see, I'm afraid to be hurt. I was afraid to find out that my suspicions were true. I slowly opened my eyes and that's it. I felt a sudden stabbing on my chest. My world literally stopped for a moment. I fainted when I saw a text from a girl. "Old behavior, hon? Let's go to Starbucks tomorrow at 10am? See you, iloveyou!" It reads. I deleted the text right after. I laughed a little, my knees got weak so I sat down and dropped my cell phone. I covered my mouth with both of my hands so that I couldn't hear my cry. Simple laughter turns into sobs. I cursed and cursed while pulling myself out. Fck. Today, it's 10:23am. I went to the nearest Starbucks to Kent's school, hoping that girl would be there. My eyes are still swollen but I managed to look good today. I want to meet that ******* hoe. I want to hurt him, drag him and something else. I entered that coffee shop and I noticed that there were only a few people there and I immediately noticed a beautiful woman, tall hair, white with a gentle face sitting at the end, she kept looking at her watch as if she was waiting for someone. I immediately walked towards her direction. "Hi" I greeted. He turned around next to her, making sure if I am talking to her. I need you, shunga. "h-hi?" she replied, "what can I help you with, sister?" I felt guilty. Her voice is too innocent just like her face. She looks like 2 years younger than me. Why doesn't he seem to know me? "You're waiting for Kent?" I asked. "Yes," she answered shyly. "He can't come, he's busy. I'm his..... f-friend, Monica. And you are?" She stood up and reached for my hand, "Hello, I'm Aya, his girlfriend" she introduced herself. hee face is so cute haha. "Sit down" I sat in the empty seat in front of her that was supposedly for her boyfriend— my man. I just stared at her innocent face. She is beautiful when you look at her, her smile is too cute. I feel like she doesn't know anything. She's not aware that she's stepping into someone's relationship. Just like me, I think she's a victim too. He just loves too. "So, how long have you and my friend been together? How's your relationship with him?" I opened up. She automatically plasters a smile as if she's going to tell a good news. "We turned one year yesterday, sister!" She said. "One year? Does that mean you were at his birthday last year?" I will ask. "Yes, that's the happiest day for both of us sister" Wow haha. "T-tell me about you haha, because that friend of mine is very secretive." "Sure!", she paused "I met him right here at this coffee shop, at this exact table last year. He was with his friends then we had a mutual friend so we got to know each other. To make the story short, we always get together after non, then we go to the same school, he is my assistant in everything, in projects and so on. He's too sweet and caring HAHA. Even if he has a class, he goes to my room just to bring me a sandwich and juice HAHA. I didn't notice that he was flirting with me, and who wouldn't accept him as a boyfriend, right? So when it was his birthday, he said YES me to him— w-why are you teary, sister?" "H-huh? N-no. You're just so excited.." I stuttered. "Hahaha yes. And you know? He's so nice to be with, he's a gentleman, he's every girl's ideal man!" I know of course, it's my man. It's mine. "Then sister, even though he's busy and I'm busy, I always find time to talk to him , I know how tired he is, and sometimes it's sad, so I'm the one who makes the effort for him, I go to his office, bring him foods, and while he's working I sing to him and sometimes I am telling him how much worth it he is even if I look like a fool it's okay just to get rid of the tiredness of my love" she continued. That's why Kent loves me. It's smart. He filled my lack of Kent. "Kent is too lucky to have you" I didn't say on my own. "Oh HAHAHA it's not like that. It's just sometimes because women also need to make an effort because men get tired of that too", she smiled, "I don't want us to break up, so if you don't want the person you love to cheat or divorce you, don't just demand, you should We also supply effort to them to make them feel valued" That hit me so hard. He is younger than me but why does he think like that? I can't blame Kent for cheating on me, because Aya was right. Maybe I didn't appreciate her just like Aya's treating her. It hurts but, She deserves my man more than I do. I couldn't stop myself from crying. Why does it hurt like hell? I want to slap this girl in front of me, I want to tell her that the guy in your story is mine, the guy you love is mine. But I can't. Because she's not just the girl who took my place in my man's heart, she's the girl who covered what I lack in my man's life. "Sister? Why?" She asked. "Y-you k-now? I wish I was you. I envy you a lot. M-my man is cheating on me.." "What the heII? Don't cry over that guy sister, he doesn't deserve you— "No. Its me who doesn't deserve him. So you, while it's still early, take your man seriously, take care of him, love him, okay? " She nodded. "He's here! Kent!" She shouted. I turned around, and there I saw my man holding a bouquet of flowers and a cake with a text on it saying "Happy Anniversary, honey" Aya immediately ran over him gave him the tightest hug and they kissed right in front of my face. The moment Kent saw me, his eyes widened and his jaw dropped. "M-Monica?" He uttered. "No, its okay!" I said and wiped my tears. "It took you a long time, Hon, that's why your friend and I talked first, I was telling her about us and there, she burst into tears because she was so excited haha" Aya said. Fck, why so innocent? "Hon? Why are you so surprised? Come on, let's sit down, your friend is waiting oh" Now, the three of us are sitting, facing each other. I want to cry in front of them, curse them both but no, I can't. "Let's have your cake and eat it!" I said. "Oh wait, I'll ask for plate" Aya said and got up to go to the counter. We were left with two. He instantly grabbed my hands and started crying while saying sorry. Oh, my man, it's okay. "Shh. It's okay" I said and smiled. "Love, sorry, sorry, sorry" he said crying. He's now kissing my hands. "Its okay, its really okay", I pulled my hand and touched both her cheeks, "D-do you love her?" "I'm so sorry" he continued crying. "Do you?" I'll say it again. "Y-yes." he whispered. Fck. "G-good. Take care of it, you're lucky, it's smart, it's beautiful" my tears started flowing. "What about you?" That question made me cry even more but I managed to talk, "I'm happy to see you happy even if I'm going to crush you" "Monica.." He cried..I love you so much", I said, "but kent.. If he hurts you, come back to me, I'll accept you" I saw Aya coming back so I quickly got ready. "It's okay, I'd rather I'd rather break me, than break you.." I whispered. "Why are you two crying hahaha?" Aya asked. "'Your boyfriend is making me cry because of your very exciting story,' I replied. , she was crying a while ago and you made her cry even more!" She laughed. "I'm going to go now! Enjoy your day! Keep each other okay? Stay in love!" I stood up and started walking away from them. I forced myself not to look back because I might cry even more and worse I might take it back, he's mine. But I will let him go, not because he cheated on me, but because I love him so much.