I know I'm writing this novel on a very sensitive issue, and that is society. People always say that the one person who commit suicides are cowards. But is that truly real? I don't think so. The person who commit suicides are not cowards, for me at least. They are the real courageous people. Because killing someone is easy. Committing a murder or crime is easy. But killing oneself is the most hardest thing in the whole world you can ever find or do. So, for me, suiciders are not cowards. They're absolutely not. And whoever thinks that suiciders are the cowards who escape from their lives that they don't like or because of depression, no. They are just tired of everything. And even if they want to end their life, is it really wrong? I don't think so. They are living, they are suffering, they are enduring their pains. So if they want to end all of their pains, is it wrong to commit suicide? Really? I don't think so. They have their body, mind, perspective, ideas, intellectuals. So if they decide to end all of this, is it society's matter? No, it's their own decisions. And they should not feel ashamed of it. They are not cowards. They are the real courageous people. Exactly, they are the courageous people. I have never seen someone as courageous as a suicider. Even murderers can be cowards, thieves can be cowards, and normal people can be cowards. But a suicider will never be a coward. They are courageous enough to take their own life with their own hands. People always believe that those children who commit suicide are the real, they never go to hell. So please let me tell you, God knows past, present and the future. So God knows what children are going to do, what that person is going to do. So even if they commit suicide, I believe God will forgive them. Because they had to live such a hard life. Or God should maybe even apologize for leading them such a life that lead them to commit suicide. God will maybe give them a better life in their next life. I know my this statement may offend many of you. Because in many religions, society is considered as taboo. But is it real? I don't think so. I think it's not. Even God knows the past, present and the future. That's what all people say. So if some people commit suicide, I don't think God will get angry. Because they know what they are going to do. It will not be a surprise to God. Also, what one wants to do in one's life is none of the business of the others. But society always wants to indulge in somebody else's business. That's not even their own business. So some of you might be criticizing me, telling me that I am writing sensitive content and also promoting suicide. So let me tell you, let me be clear, I am not promoting suicide. I am not telling anyone to commit suicide. I am just telling that suiciders are the most courageous people. They have the courage. So society should not blame them even after death. They are not cowards. Especially they are not cowards.

Let me explain the facts with two scenarios. Both are the suicidal scenarios and you will have to decide whether they are wrong or right. So the first scenario is a woman in late her 30s is suffering from cancer disease. She is in immense pain and she don't want to continue living because she lost all hope, because she know that she will not live. It is the last stage of her cancer. So she thought rather than enduring all this pain, it's better for me to commit suicide. It's better to end my life rather than die in tragedy, because painless death is the real blessing. So she goes to the hospital's rooftop and just jump off from there. And the next day, when her family see this, they were crying out their hearts. They were saying, why did you do that? Why did you leave us? You don't love us? Why did you do that? They were crying. People were saying that if she could wait longer, maybe a surgery will help. Maybe she can live long, but leaving behind her small children and family, how cruel she is. They people were saying all that. Do you really think she did wrong? From my perspective, no. She was suffering from immense pain and you know, last stage of the cancer. It's not something that can be cured in a day. It's almost like that person has to die a very painful death. And I just think she did absolutely right by jumping off the building, ending her pain, because a painless death is the most blessed one. And I don't think she did anything wrong by jumping off the rooftop. People may be criticizing her, her family may be criticizing her for committing suicide, but I don't really think she did anything wrong. But if you think that she did wrong, then you can comment, you were a bit wrong, maybe. Maybe not. You were really wrong if you think she did something wrong. Now I will give you another scenario. There was a student and his finals of medical exam, he failed. Next year, again he failed. He failed 3-4 times. Now he lost all of the hopes. Even his father was yelling at him, telling him that you are useless. You must not study. That's why you always fail. There are so many friends in your batch, they have cleared their examination. Why the hell are you not clearing your examination? Even relatives were telling their child of making him as example that you should study hard, not like him who didn't study and always fail in every year. He was so depressed, so much. And you know in India, there is a system of generals and all the reservation policy and whatever. He didn't manage to get because the score that needed to be on the high marks. He failed every time. It's not like he failed dramatically, it's just like he didn't get the pass. Again, this year he failed and now this year his father said you should no longer continue to waste my money. Just to go and do some business. Don't waste my money on something that you cannot achieve. Now he is in great depression after listening all that shit. Even his mother slapped him and asked him to leave. Why the hell are you making our life even more terrible? Her mother said, he was completely broken. And that night he just, he just expressed himself and said, yeah exactly. What about this case? What do you think? Was his suicide was acceptable or not? Whatever he did, do you think he did right or not? His only dream in life was to be a doctor. But his father said that he will no longer give money to him to continue his studies. And without the support of his father, did he really get medical degree? Maybe after giving so much, some of you may say that he didn't study, whatever. Now it's up to you to decide whether they are the victims or the criminals. People in this society may criticize society, but is it really the first time?

Day and night are all the evidences of the human suffering. Day shows the brightness that humans have in their lives, while night shows their sadness, their grievances, and all dark things about this human world. I'm just using a recorder to speak all this because I don't have the courage to write all this. It's not about courage, it's just like writing too much is quite boring. And I don't know why I decided to write on this topic of sucide. I mean, sucide is not courageous, it's all what people think. But I have quite a different view, as I have already read about the chapters earlier. And I somewhat feel like this world is quite complicated. Not all humans are happy, not all humans are sad. Some are neutral, some are happy, some are sad. Life and death are the parts of human being. Once you are born, you are old enough to die. I have heard about this thing a lot of times, a lot of times. You know, society is not a thing that I encourage anybody to do. They should never do that. But if their pains and sufferings are way too much to handle, then I guess that will be quite acceptable to do it. But still, one must try to live as long as they can, because we don't know whether there is truly an afterlife after death or not. These are just theories. Nobody knows miracles really happens or not. So as long as we are living, we should try to be happy. At least we should try. We don't know what the results will be, what will be the life. If there is even life after death, I don't know. We all don't know. It's all a mystery. So as long as we are all living this life, we all must try to be happy. We must not encourage a behavior that will only harm us. Suicidal thoughts and all these things should stay far away from us as much as. But things can't go on the way we always wanted. And in this chapter, I am not going to recite any story, because I really don't have any. And if you have any, you can tell in the comment section below. Thanks. Now let's think about the world. It's absolutely very big, and some criminals get death penalty from courts. And I sometimes wonder, you know, that's not the kind of society they are forced to do that because of their own doings. And some of you may say that death penalty is way too much, but sometimes person's wrongdoings overweights their right doings. And sometimes it's fine to stay silent and watch out everything. You know, those people who are silent have a miraculous eyes that can see things what a great chatter/talker can never see in their lives. What a silent person can do, a talkative person will never can. Because a silent person sees everything through their eyes, understands everything through their minds, and calculates the pros and cons. I am not saying that all silent persons are smart or clever. I just see many of them. I just see a lot of person who are silent are especially much more clever or more brief thinker than those who are not. I myself a very silent person whenever I am with my group of friends. I usually don't really hang out with any one of my friends. I just want to quit and go back home and use my phone, read mangas, write books.