My name is Valentina and I am 18 years old. I have always been passionate about arts and colors, so I decided to study Interior Design in college and I must confess that I've fallen madly in love with decorations. I can see endless possibilities in an empty space and my mind travels, creating each one of them. I started college a year ago, away from home, and it was painful to leave, but having Gustavo with me was my only relief.

He gave me trouble with his possessive jealousy, but he also gave me his unconditional love, making the distance from home less cruel.

After the worst year of our lives, I wake up early and say a prayer. Praying has become part of my daily routine after the miracle that God performed in Cecília's life.

I get up and have breakfast with my parents. I came only for the wedding, but I'm making the most of this time with my family. I walk slowly, admiring the sky, towards my Uncle Bernardo's mansion. Things are bustling over here with Cecília and Ana's double wedding. I see Souza from a distance, and my heart beats so fast that I don't understand how that is possible. I've never even spoken to him, but since I was 16, I've been secretly head over heels in love with Souza. I stay with the girls in the room and get ready with them. My mother pays attention to our conversation and I'm afraid she will find out about Souza. The party is wonderful, and I'm moved at various moments.

Souza bids farewell to the newlyweds and heads to his room. I stay at the party for a few more hours, waiting for a moment of distraction, and slip away quietly. I tiptoe into the security guards' dorm, walk to Souza's room, and knock softly, afraid of being seen. He doesn't respond. I open the door slowly, luckily he didn't lock it. I lock it from the inside and look at him sleeping peacefully. I take off my shoes and dress, climb on top of him, and kiss his lips. He responds to the kiss with the same intensity, and I feel his erection forming. I try not to think too much about it because he seems to be well-endowed. Souza sensually explores my mouth, driving me crazy.

(Souza, property security guard. 28 years old)

Souza: I feel wet lips touching mine while I sleep. I have such a real dream that I can feel the soft, curvy body driving me crazy, and I become aroused.

Valentina: Souza's big, firm hands roam my body, making me shiver. I let out a moan between our lips, and we pause the kiss just to catch our breath.

Souza: I open my eyes and startle to find Valentina in lingerie, on top of me. I quickly grab her shoulders, realizing this is not a dream, and pull her off me.

What are you doing here?

Valentina: I'm shocked by Souza's reaction, as he roughly removes me from on top of him.

I thought you were enjoying the kiss.

Souza: Get dressed and leave, miss!

Valentina: I approach Souza and place my hands on his chest. He holds my wrists and closes his eyes, taking a deep breath.

Souza: Don't make me kick you out of here in those clothes. What did you think would happen, Valentina? You're a spoiled girl, without boundaries, who doesn't think about the consequences of your actions! Have you ever imagined what would happen if Mr. Lorenzo finds out that his little princess, in the middle of the night, invades the security guards' rooms?

Valentina: The security guards' rooms?

My voice comes out choked and I struggle not to cry.

Souza: I've been in this profession long enough to know that there are spoiled little girls, like you, who like to use employees for fun. However, you chose the wrong security guard!

Valentina: He's an idiot, judging people without hearing them out, based on social class. Ever since I was sixteen, I've been in love with you, you never noticed me because I was a girl and for that reason, I never directed a word towards you. But today, I saw you and my heart raced, I wanted to come and tell you, but you were asleep, and I gathered all the courage I had in me to show you that I'm not just a girl anymore. I was impulsive, I know, but you have no right to judge me like this. I've never even been touched by a man, Souza, so if you believe that I go from room to room, in search of a pleasure I don't even know, then you're mistaken!

Souza: Valentina gets up from the bed, it's impossible not to notice how beautiful she is. Her body is perfect and full of curves. She quickly dresses, drying the tears on her face. I don't approach her, she leaves the room in a hurry and I run my hand through my hair nervously.

What the hell was that?!

Valentina: I run home, enter my room, and lie down on my bed, hugging a pillow and crying. I was such an idiot, I've never even dated and I don't know how I could think that Souza would see me as a woman like that. Now he thinks I'm a spoiled and shameless girl.

Alice: I notice Valentina's absence at the party, I go home to find her sobbing in her room. I sit down on the bed and she hugs me. I wait for her to calm down and she tells me everything that happened with Souza.

Daughter, Souza is a serious and respectful man. He would never dishonor you like that. You should have trusted me and told me what was going on. He could have advised you!

Valentina: Now I can't change what I did, mom, he'll never give me a chance and I had to see the way he looked at me. I'm so ashamed of myself, Mom, I didn't think, I just did it and I realized my mistake right away.

Alice: If he doesn't notice you, he's a fool, he's made a mistake, my child, but you're an incredible woman who just had an impulse for a repressed passion. Give Souza time, after his trip to the beach, he's going back to college abroad and maybe it's for the best.

Valentina cries, she calms down, I bathe her and wait for her to go to sleep before I leave the room. It's her first love and first love isn't always what stays.

(Gustavo, Valentina's twin brother)

Gustavo: I go after my mother and Valentina worried, after looking for them all over the party hall.

Mom, is Tina okay?

Alice: Hi my love, she slept. It's a woman thing, but don't worry, she's fine.

I say, running my hand over Gustavo's face.

Gustavo: Tomorrow I'll bring the chocolates she likes. Did you cry, Mom?

Alice: Cecilia was my maid of honor, in fact my cupid. She was by my side when grief hurt me in a cruel way and to see her healed, with little Maicon in her arms, getting married, was very emotional, my son.

Gustavo: I hug my mother and kiss the top of her head.

We've been through yet another mother. Life isn't perfect, but I hope that from now on you'll be more generous with this family.

Alice: I doubt that very much, but I'm sure there's no shortage of strength here. We are proof that love can withstand anything.

Gustavo: Yes, you're right, Mom. Theo's getting married soon, are you ready to see him move out?

Alice: Camila's going to put him off for a while, but I'm sure he'll wait patiently for her. When are you going to give me a daughter-in-law and grandchildren, my son?

Gustavo: Not any time soon, I want to enjoy my freedom.

Alice: I'm in no hurry, he's an incredible man and when he finds the right person he'll stop being a confirmed bachelor and will help leave this house full of children.

Gustavo: Who knows. I go back to the party with my mother, my father is with my uncle Beestádo laughing out loud, it's nice to see everyone so cheerful after this complicated year! I join my cousins and enjoy their company well into the night. I get home at dawn and get ready for my trip.

Valentina: I wake up and curl up in bed with a mixture of sadness and shame. I get up, do my hygiene and put on the biggest glasses I have in the hope that no one will notice my swollen eyes from crying so much.

(Alice, 48, and Lorenzo, 50. The main characters in "The Impious Widower And The Babysitter". The photo is just to remind you of the characters).

Lorenzo: I put the suitcases in the car, Valentina comes out of the house dejectedly wearing a pair of sunglasses. I hand her bag to Souza and walk over to her. I take off her glasses and she looks away.

Have you been crying, my love?

Valentina: Souza looks at me and I look away in shame.

Dad, it's okay!

Lorenzo: You're not, daughter, because I've never seen you like this. What happened?

I ask worriedly.

Alice: Souza watches Valentina from a distance and I can see how uncomfortable and embarrassed she is.

Love is nothing, I've already talked to Tina.

Lorenzo: Alice looks at me seriously, Valentina puts her glasses back on and gets into the car with her head down.

I want to know what happened!

Alice: You'll have to trust me, it's a woman thing.

I say, kissing Lorenzo, hoping he hears me.

Lorenzo: Daughter, Souza will accompany you on the trip, Lucas has chosen him to be your bodyguard.

Valentina: My eyes burn and I don't even change my expression. My father cannot suspect anything, I don't want to harm Souza. Souza doesn't say a word and gets into the car to drive, we all follow for the family trip. Gustavo tries to play, but I'm not in the mood for that, and I stare at the road without looking forward, afraid that Souza will see me through the rearview mirror.

Souza: Valentina's words don't leave my mind, her saying that she fell in love at sixteen, the kiss, her body pressed against mine, it's driving me crazy. I've never tasted such an intense kiss that messed with my mind so much. Her surrender and especially her disappointment when I judged her harshly are tormenting me. I asked Lucas to let me accompany her, wanting an opportunity to apologize to her. I never really noticed any of the girls in this mansion, except for one time when Cecilia appeared at the hotel door in a bathrobe, I confess she caught me off guard, but I didn't look at her with malice. Lucas went crazy that day, he seemed like a psychopath, and I decided to keep to myself because I can't afford to lose my job. I have a friendship with Ana, she's special, and I consider her like a younger sister. I can't believe she's moving away, she'll be greatly missed. Lorenzo notices something wrong with Valentina, her eyes are red and swollen, I feel guilty for leaving her like this. I was also hasty and judged her wrongly, during the trip she keeps staring at the road in silence.

Valentina: Dad, can you please stop? I feel very nauseous.

I struggle to speak, holding back the urge I feel.

Lorenzo: I ask Santos to stop, Valentina needs to go to the gas station bathroom. She comes back a little pale, she has always felt sick on long trips, since she was little.

Are you feeling better, my love?

Valentina: A little, Dad.

I say as I hug my father. I notice Souza's concern and look away. This couldn't get any more embarrassing.

Lorenzo: We'll wait for Valentina to feel better and then continue the journey. Alice hasn't said anything yet, but I'm worried about Valentina's sadness.

Valentina: We finally arrive at the beach house. I get out of the car and head towards the beach barefoot, I move away a bit and notice Souza following me. For a moment, I forgot that he is my bodyguard on this trip.

Souza: Are you feeling alright, Miss Valentina?

Valentina: I'm fine, thank you.

I don't want to be alone with Souza, so I silently head back towards the house. I just wanted to feel my feet touching the sand. I go up to my room and change. I grab a bikini and call everyone to go to the beach. No one wants to go and I feel frustrated. I don't want to go alone with Souza, but I need to get out for a bit.

Come on, Mila, please.

(Camila, 18 years old. Claudia and Angelo's daughter)

Camila: Later, Tina. I want to enjoy these delicious babies.

Valentina: I silently head to the beach, take off my dress and sit on the rocks to sunbathe. I love the feeling of the sun touching my skin.

Souza: Luckily, I'm wearing sunglasses because I can't look away from Valentina. She has a sculpted body, with mesmerizing curves. She's beautiful and extremely sexy. I remember her in lingerie, her smooth and fragrant skin. I can still taste her lips, it's impossible to forget!

Valentina...

Valentina: The sun is blocked, I open my eyes and Souza is standing in front of me. He takes off his sunglasses and gazes at me deeply and intensely.

If it's about yesterday, I'm sorry. It won't happen again. I know you're a respectful man, I was impulsive and didn't want to jeopardize your job.

Souza: I want to apologize for speaking to you so rudely. I judged you and offended you, I'm sorry.

Valentina: You're forgiven. Can you forgive me too?

Souza: It's in the past, Valentina.

Valentina: Everything is clear now, thank you. I'm going for a swim, excuse me.

Souza: Do you know how to swim?

I ask, more concerned than I should be.

Valentina: I've known how to since I was little, and I'm great at it. Don't worry.

I walk away from Souza feeling suffocated, I enter the ocean and calm my heart. I love this feeling of freedom in the water, swimming calms me. In fact, everything in nature calms me.

Souza: Valentina has fun in the water and I keep an eye on her. She comes out of the sea smiling and I can see that she feels lighter. We silently head back to the beach house and the rest of the day flows peacefully. I will be professional with Valentina, I don't want to mix things up. We come from different worlds and I need this job.

Valentina: I decide to shift the focus away from this Souza situation, everything is clear now and despite really liking him, I believe he will never look at me the way a man looks at a woman. He's ten years older than me and more experienced. I value his opinion about spoiled girls. I will focus on my college and my career.

I make the most of the trip, the babies are the highlight and we fight over them. I start to think about having children, it's a dream and I know they will come at the right time.

We go back to college and I decide to forget about Souza, it wasn't an easy task. I was closed off to relationships and had difficulty opening up. I met Rafael, an incredible man who is kind and very polite. Even my father liked him and we dated seriously for a year. It was an intense year with college and exams. There was desire and chemistry between us, he was my first man, but there was nothing more than respect and friendship between us. It was a good year, it helped me forget about Souza and get to know myself better. We decided together to end our relationship in a mature way, without fights. We remain friends and after our breakup, I didn't get involved with anyone else. It has been eight months without a kiss, but the truth is, I can't just be with someone for the sake of it.

Time passes and I finally graduated, I worked hard and succeeded, now I am anxious to start working in my field. Gustavo is starting his residency in Seattle and I am going to open my own office. We are coming back for Theo and Camila's wedding, we are staying for good. The pregnancy revelation during the vows and Klenia catching the bouquet was exciting. The party is perfect and it's wonderful to have everyone in the family together, going from table to table catching up with everyone. Pedro is getting more beautiful each day, he looks just like Theo and it's scary how identical they are. He is very affectionate and I am completely in love with him.

I was very happy and emotional about Cecilia's pregnancy, another beautiful miracle from God in this family. We have every reason to thank God's infinite kindness towards us. I can see God in the details, acting and taking care of all of us. I feel that up until now, I have lived my 21 years very well and I know that many good things are still to come.

Gustavo: I am heading home when some oblivious, clumsy woman bumps into me and splashes me with a glass of champagne.

Can't you pay attention to where you're going? Damn!

Emma: That was rude, it was an accident!

Gustavo: I stare at the woman in front of me with an intense look that lingers longer than it should, I straighten my suit and leave without bothering to respond to her.

Emma: How rude!

The man walks away and I try to clean myself up, ending up getting dirty as well.

Valentina: What was that? What intense eye exchange was that, Gu?

Gustavo: There was no exchange of anything, Tina, stop being crazy. That clumsy person splashed me with champagne and that was it. Why are you looking like that?

Valentina: Nothing, let's go home!

I look at Souza one last time with a woman leaning against the car. He notices my gaze and I look away, it's not possible that after all this time, this man still manages to affect me this way.