Five years ago.... my wife (Anya) died on a rainy night, I can't forget those moments...

We were walking between rain pumps rushing home while protecting our young son between her hands and inside her arms from the rain, and I was holding her hand so that she would not fall, we had come home, and all our clothes were wet, I went to take a shower and changed my clothes while she stayed with her wet clothes to change the clothes of our young son, She took a lot of time until she bathed him and put on other clothes instead of the wet ones, and even waited beside him until he slept....

She stayed on the ground, steadfast, when I came out of the bathroom and found her lying on the ground, I called her repeatedly....

" Anya... Anya.... Anya......." I called her while I was drying my hair but she didn't reply, "Don't sleep with your wet clothes, Anya" I stood and looked at her, "Anya....." Still no answer....

I moved towards her and moved her slowly and gently, and said in myself _she might be asleep_ But when I moved her she fell between my arms, She was already sleeping, but it is a deep sleep, she will not wake up from it anymore.... SHE WAS DEAD!!!

I didn't know what to do, all I was doing was calling her and crying... "Where did you go?..... Those beautiful years didn't start yet, Why did you leave before I kept my promises?....... Why did you leave me and your one year old child?...... I know that God has wisdom in managing things, but I started to miss you from now on, as if I had not spoken to you in a long time, Anya... Answer me please, is it possible that you are unconscious, Do you suffer from hypoglycemia?..... Anya please tell me, don't stay silent, don't leave me alone, you can't leave me, you are all my family..... Anyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"......

My tears rolled, my pain and my anxiety increased, my thoughts were distracted, my heart was torn of sadness and I felt an emotional emptiness and lost the value of everything in my life....

Anya was my wife, my family, my sister, my daughter, my girlfriend and every person can be discribed as the best in my life... I wish I had known her since the childhood and spent more time with her or there would be a miracle of time saved and brought back to life, but this is impossible, for every person has a certain number of days in which to live does not increase or decrease, whatever the circumstances, whatever the way he/she died, everyone has a date to leave that land, which may seem bliss when we are happy and become hell for the remainder of time, this is my problem that I always face with my back, running away from them, that I wish what could never happen....

The next day, she was buried and prayed for her convenience in her grave... All the attendees were one friend of mine and his young brother, me and my little son, we both didn't have any friends, I was an introvert, I left my family after I finished the high school and left away from them and lost any contact with them, but about her, she has another story...

I stood in front of her grave and the wind moved my clothes with great coldness and sadness, my tears fell against my will, I came down with my feet touching the ground and my tears watered the red rose on her grave, I said to her in fade : "Rest in your grave and live in my heart, so it was not and will not be anyone else but you in my life and my heart, I love you, Anya..."

On our way back, my friend was driving the car, while I was stuck in my mind, thinking about those moments, I was feeling that Anya was still alive, I was feeling that those memories were really reviving, I was feeling that she was still here, in that life, I thought I was returning Home to her, coming back and I missed hugging her tightly, hugging her and crying and complaining to her about that pain inside me, while I remember once again that I buried her, that she already died, that Anya is no longer but a memory in my life and the life of everyone who knew her ....

When I came back from the graves, I remained silent, while my friend made food for me and his little brother played with my son .... I was sitting stray, I could not forget those moments, my heart was in a lot of pain, you cannot believe in that, but inside me there was real pain, pain whenever I tried to lean on my hand was lost, its place was not overwhelming me ....

My friend put the food on the table and quietly presented to me and said to me "If Anya was still alive, she wouldn't like to see you abstaining from food .... For her and for that love inside you, come and eat something, I heard that the souls remain Next to the one they love, if she comes at once and sees you crying and do not eat, she cannot stay and her soul will go, because the souls do not like to see tears ... Come on, come and eat something."

I shook my head refusing, I couldn't bear hearing any word, it was a feeling that you lost a part of you, a part that I suffered for happiness, a part that stayed up to relieve its pain, a part that was mysterious in my life, an integral part of me , it was a reason for my joy that I found in my last days And here she had left me and left her young son.....

my friend said in a sad tone, "Anya loves you so much, believe me if she was here, she wouldn't like that ..." So I shouted In a choppy sound and said to him in sadness, "Anya, if she was here, if she loved me, why did She leave me .... "

My words were not those of my heart, she loved me, and that is her destiny,"Anya .... I had nothing in my life except Anya .... I had no one to love him just as I liked Anya .... No one could bear me, no one took care of me, I did not rest with anyone's embrace except Anya !! I do not want to eat, Please let me, Sami, I am very tired now, I apologize for screaming at you, but I am really in pain, I feel that I have lost the meaning of life, I hope you will never know this feeling or try it, it is painful my friend .... it is painful. "

my voice was choppy, my words were sporadic and my friend's tears descended from his eyes against his will, I knew he felt me, he wanted the best for me for my health, but I can't move now, I just want to sleep a little, maybe this was just A sad nightmare .... * maybe *.... My friend attracted my attention with sad words "Do not forget that part of Anya is still alive ..."

I looked at him and tried to gather my strength to break the path of sadness on this day and understand his words .... "Your son is also her son, He is a part of both of you. He is you and she at the same time, your son is still a part of her, a living part miniaturized from Anya, she is still alive, alive in your son, in your heart and in the hearts of everyone .... Do you refuse to eat? Come on, my friend .. Death is the end of all stories ... "

I cried and put my hands on my eyes and turned around towards the voice of my son, I went to him and took him from the hands of my friend's brother, I carried him in my arms and kissed him and said to him" I will take care of the last of you. Anya, trust me, I will take good care of him and fulfill those beautiful dreams that I have wished .... I will take care of him as much as I can. "

Me, my friend, and his little brother, we gathered at the table, I did not look at the food, but ate lustfully closed, ate very little, then I held my son in my hands and fed him rice with soup, he was laughing a lot when I fed him, my tears poured in sadness * part of Anya is laughing While I fed him * my tear descended on his left cheek, so he looked at me and plumped my face and smiled, so I took him in my arms, held him to me and tried to imagine Anya in my hands,My friend and his brother remained steadfast looking at me while I was crying, my friend was very touched by what happened to me, while his brother wanted to conceal his tears that I can see before they even form !!

I asked my friend to visit me for several days, because I need some help, my soul is ruined, I cannot take care of him in the midst of these sorrows, and I cannot deliver him to a shelter or an orphanage because he is a part of me and Anya, That cute boy, whose eyes are like his mother’s eyes, makes you happy by looking at them, his little lips, his nose and skin color, that Anya is embodied in my son now, I never knew before that he is so beautiful because he is like his mother, I really miss you Anya....

I spent the first night in Anya's dimension with pain, loss, sadness, misery, and a deadly calm, Not so, the calm that filled Anya's breath, Everything changed, I was unable to discern the time, I would have liked to have met each other, even if that cost a lot, Not so much about her and her love, I was trying to sleep, I flip over on the bed and tears flipped from right to left,and from left to right, my son was sleeping, but the distinctive dark blue color in the room from the balcony, my sorrow increased with it more ....

My son, his name is Danny, Anya is the one who chose the name, she said, "Danny's name has a beautiful meaning, indicates proximity to the place or heart, Danny is an Arabic name, a beautiful name, a very beautiful name ... Danny ..." she smiled a beautiful smile After saying his name ... "Danny", I fell asleep and did not feel anything, and after that I woke up to Danny crying as he was beating me with his little hand, as if he wanted something, but he wanted to eat, he was sleeping with me last night, I was afraid that I would leave him in his bed so I could not hear his voice when he woke up ......

I wanted to call Anya, but then I remembered that she was no longer there, I got up and took my son in my arms and went to get him food, I don't know what he might eat, I gave him a biscuit and left him in bed and I opened the TV for him so that he would not move from his bed, and I went to take Bath and wake up ... I wake up from my sleep, my dream, or a nightmare that embodied on the ground ?! I was broken at the time, so I couldn't stand it ...When I got out, I found Danny asleep, I smiled and kissed him ....

The manager called me yesterday and told me to rest until I gathered my strength, I was seeing that if I went to work, that energy expended from me at work would come out of that negative energy inside me even if temporarily, but what about Danny? I cannot take him to work, and it is one of the biggest impossible things in my life to take him to my family or ask for a babysitter for him, it is the last thing that remains, I just want him with me, in front of my eyes, I do not want him to go anywhere or be with anyone, whatever !!

"It is eight in the morning, Sami will come at any moment now ...." I whispered to myself and said that I may have to take care of some of the issues in the house so as not to be a burden on him ...

"Trrrn trrrn, trrrrn trrrn....." My phone was ringing, I grabbed my phone and looked at the caller with no interest, but in fact he was Sami, "Hi Sami!" I told him calmly and sadly ... "Sorry, I can't come Neither today nor for days to come ... "His tone was broken," It's okay, don't worry, but are you okay? It doesn't sound like it to your voice! " He didn't answer me for about five seconds, after which he said, "My father died, when I returned from you yesterday, his temperature rose and he died before we even asked the doctor, my father could not bear the pain, he died at its moment !!" I was shocked unexpectedly, I was feeling very sad inside me, I answered him in grief, "Life is in the hand of God, * We belong to God and to Him we shall return. * Hold my friend ....Railroad distance, and I will be with you"

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Hey! I didn't read any new stories because I am too lazy, but these stories are in my heart...

For Romance, Comedy and Modern stories, I suggest

"The Hidden CEO"

For Horror, Fanfic and Adventure stories, I suggest

"LOVE OR WAR? HBP

The story was called" HELL ; EARTH ATTACK " and changed to the current title.

For Horror, Fantasy and Mystery stories, I suggest

" Unseen Tears "

For Romance and Comedy stories, I suggest

" Small Story, why? {HBP}

Whispers *the chapter no. 10 is so sad 😭*

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