"Is she online? Is that her number? Does she want me to message her first? Will she respond to me if I contact her?"

If I were to meet her in real life.

She'll accept me??

Even if I'm thin, ugly and have no career in life??

xx year,

it was a time when the corona virus was spread all over the world.

The government orders us to not leave the house unless it's an emergency.

It was the worst year for other people. But for me nothing changed. Even before corona, i never leave my room unless I'm hungry or I'm out of cigarette packets.

Where everyone was taking care of their health, I was ruining mine.

I was also infected by that virus. But that fu**ing virus wasn't able to kill me.

It was luck or god didn't want me, i survived.

It was the start of xx day. Instead of studying, I became an idiot who only played games all day. To save game data, i need an account. I made an account on Facebook for the first time and it was the worst mistake of my life. I used the dp of the anime character and named it winter.

It was a cringey name I got after thinking for 10 minutes. With curiosity i started to scroll around Facebook, send requests and messages to randoms. Then one day I got a reply from a girl with the cute name "avya". Although, i didn't know if that person was he or she. But who cares, a person who had zero interaction with any girl for 20 years , will go crazy even if they're fake or ugly.

I started to exchange messages with her everyday. She was an angel, she talked to me whenever I wanted. We talked for 4-5 hours everyday and got so close that we exchanged our phone numbers.

Of course, we didn't start to talk on call right away. It was only limited to

chats.

The person who was addicted to games.

Now he will close the game even if he's in the middle of the tournament to check her messages.

Can you please send your picture? I really want to see you.

After a month, I asked for her picture.

Yeah sure, you can have it even without saying please, But you also have to send yours as well.

I got into a very problematic situation. I never clicked my pictures even once.

I asked my brother to click some good pictures of mine.

He laughed. Sure but you have to wear clothes that I will choose.

he clicked 15 nice photos of me.

Everything was good but my face....

I used 10 types of filters but that can't convert my dumb face handsome.

At last, I sent her my one picture which I edited for 1 hour.

At night, she texted me," you're quite good, here that's me".

At 1 am, I wake up to drink water. I was half asleep and checked my phone.

Holy sh*t..... she's fu**ing.... awesome.

She' was so cute that I had to check again and again if she's real or not.

She had a thick and echhi body that every man wanted. Her eyes were like a wild cat who's ready to devour anyone.

I can't sleep, if she's that cute, why does someone like her be talking to bum like me. After gathering my thoughts for the whole night I decided.

I will stop myself from texting her anymore, if this continues, it' will only hurt me in future. So I uninstalled Facebook from my phone.

I started studying for my preparation for college. It was somewhat manageable for a week but after that ..

I can't sleep anymore..

The next day, i decided to do some physical work to tire myself. At night ..

I still can't sleep.

F**k..

The next day, I brought a dozen beers to pass me out.

After drinking, i unconsciously downloaded Facebook and opened my message box.

20+ messages...

Is she like me?? If not then why the f**ck she's texting me.

She texted me everyday....everyday

..

and asking me ..

What happened?

Is she's stupid or does not have any friends? Or he's a guy using fake photos.

Ah ...F**king hell, my head hurts..ah..

I don't care anymore who she is, I will only be her friend..and that's all.

"I was sick for a week, I'm fine now,"i responded.

Is she a ghost...

She saw my text immediately as if she was waiting for me.

Where were you, are you crazy you should've at least told me that you're sick, I was worried you know.

Cuuuuuttee...is she an angel?? who's descended from heaven for me..

"I'm sorry, I will tell you beforehand from now," i responded.

After she lectured me for an hour, we texted till 4 am.

We should sleep now, I've some work in college in the morning and you should sleep too either you'll be sick again.

Sure, good night Miss.

Hmm, why am I smiling ...I am smiling like a stupid... Ah...my jaw hurts..is it because I laughed at her jokes? Or i just need some calcium..

Well It was natural because it has been a while since I laughed this much.

My heart is calm now ...no ... I'm feeling something strange, Is it pain or pleasure??

It's a pleasure to be in love..

I'm in love??...hehe...

Hehe...

Heheheheh..

Hehehhehehwhwhhw...

"Shut up f**ker, you're scaring me, I'm studying right now," my brother said.

Zzzzzzzzzz

Zzzz i love her 💤

I had the sweetest dream for the first time in my life.

..that day we became so close that we can talk about any absurd topic with ease...

HELLO, HELLO CAN YOU HEAR ME, ITS ME, DO YOU HAVE AN INSTAGRAM ACCOUNT??

I'M GOING TO LIVE STREAM THERE WITH MY FRIENDS YOU CAN JOIN TOO..

For god sake, she called me for the first time, instead of talking, she' wants me to join her livestream..aahh stupid..

I can't miss her stream, so i immediately made an account on Instagram and sent her a request .

If I knew that, she was on insta.

I made my account more early..

..Sigh ... Whatever..

She accepted my request right away.

Now it's time to stalk her account followers and photos...

Heheheh...

I checked everyone's account, she had followed.

There were a lot of Korean people..

Why the hell do people love Koreans??

Well I can't complain about it, coz I also love Japanese (⁠ ͝⁠°⁠ ͜⁠ʖ͡⁠°⁠)⁠ᕤ(⁠ ͝⁠°⁠ ͜⁠ʖ͡⁠°⁠)⁠ᕤ

She started her stream and messaged me a link.

Awww.w..w.w..she was cute as ever l really really adore her..

She asked me to join her livestream but I rejected her.... I really can't do that..

I didn't have confidence..

I'm happy by watching her stream.

After she ended her stream, she was angry because I didn't join.

She started lecturing me that I should be more confident and blah blah blah...

I was happy that she cares about me.

But I really can't do that..

I want to have a video call with you.

Okay, I will try..

...

she want to have VC with me tomorrow

My stomach hurts..

Did tension make my stomach go bad??..

Sigh....

Umm.. hello..

Where were you?? I was calling you in the morning but your phone was off. Are you okay??

No..no you got me wrong.. i was really busy..

Are you free now??can we talk on video call??

Sure ..

with zero confidence I said yes

...

She's calling, I picked up.

Hey, handsome..

He, cutie..

...

..silence .

Say something idiot..

What do I say?? I'm nervous

But you're boy, you should be daring.

you know.

but..

..ladies first..

"I'm not a lady" ..

"I'm not a boy" ..

"Then you're gay??"

Noooooo.... I'm a boy ..

I'm just nervous you know...

I can't think of it straight.

We talked on VC for 2 hours, we showed our surroundings and had a lot of fun talks ..

I was so happy ...

AT xx day..

I woke up at 8 am..

And my Instagram was filled with a lot of messages and tags..

I checked her message First..

She had written about 3 long paragraphs about me with sweet words,

It takes a lot of time to think and write this Much. Right?

Well, I forgot about all her paragraphs ..

I only remember these lines -

It's raining in my city, and the weather is really cool ..

I want to say something to you

"I don't know when I started to have feelings for you but the time I spend with you is really pleasant and sweet .

I really want to meet you and say these lines in front of you ..

Babe, I love you .. i really really love you a lot ..you don't have to reply to me right away, take your time..

I really didn't expect her to have feelings towards me.

Maybe my black magic worked..

..just kidding.. hehe.

I was so happy that I showed it to all my friends..

*We were in a long-distance relationship for one year.

I was returning from kanyakumari to my city.

But I stopped at her city station. I decided to meet her, I called her

" Hey, I'm here in your city, are you free right now, can we meet??"

Of course. She was really excited for our meeting but ..

She texted me, can we meet some other day please.

Dad is here, i really can't get there. I'm sorry.

"Yeah sure".

I really wanted to meet her that day.

I don't know why but I had a feeling, maybe it's my first and last visit to this city.

Well, that feeling comes true.

We had a Little argument on xx day.

And It ended just like that.

I waited for a week, then I called her.

I thought maybe I should be the first to apologize for patching things.

But, maybe she decided to end our relationship beforehand.

She blocked me from every social media and phone call.

I waited for a month,

3 month,

6 month.

I've given up on her, but I still hope that she will contact me someday and we will

Again become good friends.

There was a legend saying -

''' Every time your heart is broken,

A doorway cracks open to a world

Full of new beginnings,

new opportunity.'''

But for me-

The door gets closed one by one and at last I will be alone and suffer there as a pig.

...I'm so lazy that I can't even clean my room, I'm like a pig who lays around his bed all day....