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 */email sent to>gelo@gmail.com

"I wonder if he receives my email. It's been 3 weeks since we broke up. Is he fine? Doing alright?"

So, like, it had been a solid three weeks since he hit me with that Facebook and Messenger block. Classic ghosting move, right? But then, out of nowhere, I spot that he's unblocked me on Facebook. What gives, seriously? I mean, unblocking is like opening the door a crack, but then the dude doesn't even bother sending a text? Talk about confusing AF.

Yo, it's been like a solid three weeks since the Facebook block-off saga. No lie, that missing feeling hits at the weirdest hours, and you end up just zoning out at your screen. But then, plot twist: you spot the unblocking. Cue dramatic music, right? Like, okay, cool, unblocked, but seriously, what's up with the radio silence?

Late-night thoughts turn into email drafts. You know the vibes – those "pouring out my soul" messages you shoot when you're in a mood. Sure, you're missing the dude, but you're not about to be that constant bother during his hustle. You've got a sixth sense he's not up for another convo round just yet.

As you type, the big question pops up: is this your bad for not playing it chill? Maybe you should've been all calm and collected. But then again, maybe this whole mess is like a crazy game of Jenga waiting for its epic fall. Anyhow, it's clear the heartbreak-prevention gig isn't your gig anymore.

"Lesson learned," you mumble to yourself, fingers still clicking away. The screen does its blinky thing in the dark, your words cruising off into the digital abyss. Who knows if he'll actually get them, right? But hey, you're doing something. Even if it's just giving your thoughts a crash pad.

So, check it, he and my friend are in the same college. My buddy, bless his texting quirks, spills the tea sometimes. Guess what though? Dude got into his dream university! Remember when we were a thing and we used to toss up prayers for that? I'm seriously stoked for him. Life's wild, huh? From exes to pals, and who knows what's next on this rollercoaster?

Ah, the countryside college life, where rolling hills and quiet vibes are the norm. Here's me, feeling a pang of envy as my buddies – especially the unstoppable Anna and the one-and-only Gelo – waltzed right into their dream universities. I mean, seriously, Anna and Gelo even ended up in the same place, talk about squad goals.

But hey, life's like a quirky novel, right? I landed in this rural college, kinda like a fish out of water. Loneliness started setting in, but I knew deep down that giving up wasn't an option. It's time to channel that inner warrior, folks.

Sure, I might not have the bustling campus or the happening hangouts, but guess what? Life's got surprises up its sleeve. The library? Became my new best friend. College crew? A quirky bunch with stories that would put a Netflix series to shame.

Day by day, I embraced the slow pace, found joy in the little things – leaves rustling, stars shining – you get the drift. The real plot twist? I wasn't just studying to prove a point, but to show myself I've got what it takes. Cue those late-night cram sessions and heart-to-heart convos with professors who were like life gurus.

As I traded FOMO for JOMO (Joy of Missing Out), something amazing happened. The loneliness melted away, replaced by a feeling of belonging. Those weekend market adventures and random strolls with newfound friends? That's the good stuff right there.

So, in this tale of twists and turns, I learned that life doesn't follow a script. Dreams don't care about GPS – it's all about the detours and the unexpected pit stops. As I stand here, ready to tackle whatever plot twist comes next, I know I'm the author of my own story. And dang, it's turning out to be one heck of a page-turner.

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Alright, so it's July 19, 2022, and we're kicking off high school like rookies. You step into the classroom, and it's like déjà vu - why does everyone look like they're questioning life?

The place is buzzing with excitement and irritation, thanks to the school demanding registration and ID fees on day one. People are whispering, grumbling – you'd think they're testing our patience for some secret club.

Imagine a scene from a teen movie: there's the brainiac with glasses, the laid-back athlete, and the artsy kid doodling in the corner. All of us crammed into this one room, like a bunch of puzzle pieces that kinda fit.

As time rolls on, frustration somehow turns into this weird sense of unity. Laughter sneaks in between the complaints, like a surprise guest at a party. We might not all be best buddies yet, but we're in the same boat.

Who would've thought those crazy first-day vibes would lead to who knows what? The start of friendships we didn't see coming, stories we'd be telling with a grin down the line. So as the clock does its thing, day one fades away, leaving us with a hint of all the high school craziness still to come.

Gathering once again, your old friends are still right by your side as you celebrate six wonderful years of friendship. The weekend unfolds beautifully, marking this special milestone. Reminiscing about the journey, you all find yourselves in the same senior high school strand – Accountancy, Business, and Management (ABM). Your tight-knit group sets "squad goals," aiming to stick together in this new phase. However, a surprising twist unfolds as fate places all of you in the same room as the STEM (Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics) students. The classroom mix-up leads to an unexpected blend of personalities, passions, and a whole lot of humorous interactions. As you navigate through the challenges of sharing a space with STEM enthusiasts, your bonds grow even stronger, creating a unique and unforgettable chapter in your friendship story.

In the halls of the school, amidst the hustle of the new semester, a flirty heart found its rhythm within her. Its beats echoed my thoughts of "AJ," a familiar face from days gone by. Two weeks seemed a short span, yet feelings knew no calendar. AJ, an old classmate turned into a chance encounter, his gift at the 2019 Christmas party a mere hint of what could be. With looks that caught my eye, I found myself entangled in emotions both known and new. In the story of school days and exchanged presents, our paths converged, painting a picture of curiosity and possibility.

 I've got a blast from the past for you! Back in grade 7, I had this major crush on a guy. He actually told me he liked me, and I was totally into him too. But here's where it gets a bit cringy: I had no idea about the whole commitment thing. Like, I was just a young teen, and the thought of askingIn the realm of academics, there's AJ—sharp-minded, a maestro of math, and someone who commands attention without even trying. His physique is a juxtaposition—tall and lean, a living contradiction that defies expectations.

With a complexion that bears witness to sunlit adventures, he wears his tan with pride. Perched atop his nose, his glasses lend an air of erudition, adding to the enigma that surrounds him. And then there's his voice—a symphony of uniqueness that dances between familiarity and novelty, resonating with authenticity.

My path crossed with AJ's back in the corridors of 2019, a chance seating arrangement throwing us together. Over time, that mere proximity evolved into something more, morphing into comfort and camaraderie. Our shared laughter and whispered conversations became my daily sanctuary.

As days flowed like the steady current of a river, admiration took root within me. What once were simple chats now carried an electric undercurrent, the anticipation of each interaction leaving my heart aflutter.

So it happened, almost imperceptibly—a feeling that wove itself into my existence. Simping, they called it—a journey of affection, a heart ensnared by someone's essence. With every stolen glance and every shared secret, the pages of my story with AJ were written.

In the grand tapestry of academics and emotions, I found myself gravitating toward AJ. Amidst lectures and laughter, we forged a connection that felt ethereal yet tangible. As the story continues to unfold, who knows what destiny holds for us? Only time will weave its magic and reveal the next chapter of our tale... him out? Nope, not on my radar. Looking back, that might've been why things fizzled out. Lesson learned: communication is everything, even when you're a bit clueless about dating!

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So, about a month later, I finally mustered up the courage to spill the beans to AJ. You won't believe it, but he turned me down. Honestly, I kind of had an inkling that would happen from the start. But hey, I wasn't trying to make him fall head over heels for me or anything. I just wanted to keep things chill between us, no awkwardness.

Funny thing is, things did change a tad after that. Not that I'm blaming him for it. We ended up getting a bit closer, oddly enough, but there's this subtle chill in the air now. Texting him isn't the same as before – he takes forever to reply, and his go-to excuse is the classic "I'm super busy." Yeah, right.

I get it, people have stuff going on. Maybe he's actually swamped. Or maybe he's just trying to create some distance without outright saying it. Who knows? All I can say is, my confession did shake things up, even if I didn't intend it to. Life's like that sometimes, you know?

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As the clock struck 7 pm, I couldn't help but notice that he was busy at the moment. I thought to myself, "Well, it seems he's tied up right now." However, a glimmer of hope emerged as I considered that 9 pm might offer a better chance to catch him when he's more available.

Later, when I saw the unread messages, frustration bubbled up within me. "Seriously? He hasn't even read my messages?" Indignation surged as I muttered under my breath, "How dare he ignore me like this?" A mix of disappointment and irritation stirred inside, leaving me torn between different emotions. I wondered if I would ever manage to capture his attention or if my messages would simply fade into the vast expanse of the digital world, unanswered.

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3 days had gone by, and still no word from him. Annoyance was starting to get the best of me; I found myself fantasizing about giving his hair a good tug. With the long weekend ahead, the chances of us meeting were slim. "***What on earth is he up to? Why is he so swamped***?" I grumbled to myself. I had sworn not to reply right away, but all it took was a one-word response from him to trigger an essay from me, detailing every twist and turn of my past three days. Little did I know, that was just the beginning of the rollercoaster ahead.

In the midst of dealing with this incredibly frustrating guy, I'm picking up a few valuable lessons that I'm trying to weave into my own life. But the tricky part is, I've somehow become so attached to the whole situation that I can't seem to forget the main lesson: never let a guy string you along. Yet, here I am, waiting way too long for a simple one-word reply from him. It's honestly pretty embarrassing when I think about it.

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***Reminder***:

Self-Awareness: Begin by acknowledging your feelings without judgment. It's normal to experience a range of emotions, and each one holds valuable information about your inner state. Reflect on the specific feelings you're grappling with and try to identify their sources.

Allow Yourself to Feel: Emotions are neither good nor bad; they just are. Allow yourself to experience your emotions fully, even if they're uncomfortable. Suppressing or ignoring feelings can lead to further confusion and stress.

Self-Reflection: Spend some time in self-reflection. Ask yourself why you're feeling this way, what might have triggered these emotions, and whether they are tied to a specific situation, person, or event.

Seek Clarity: If your feelings are related to a particular person or situation, consider seeking clarity. Engaging in open and honest communication can help you understand the situation better and potentially alleviate any confusion or uncertainty.

Write it Out: Journaling can be a powerful tool to explore your feelings. Writing down your thoughts and emotions can help you gain insights and uncover patterns you might not have otherwise noticed.

Talk to Someone: Discussing your feelings with a trusted friend, family member, or therapist can provide an outside perspective and emotional support. Sometimes, voicing your emotions can help you gain clarity and a fresh outlook.

Understand Your Values: Consider whether your feelings align with your values and long-term goals. Sometimes, our emotions can be influenced by external factors, and assessing alignment with your core values can provide guidance.

Embrace Uncertainty: It's okay not to have all the answers immediately. Embracing uncertainty is a part of the human experience. Take the time you need to navigate your emotions without feeling rushed.

Take Care of Yourself: Engage in self-care activities that nurture your emotional well-being. Whether it's spending time in nature, practicing mindfulness, or engaging in creative outlets, prioritize activities that help you feel grounded and balanced.

Give Yourself Time: Feelings can be complex, and it's important to give yourself the time and space to process them fully. Allow your emotions to evolve and change naturally as you gain new insights and perspectives.Remember, your feelings are valid and deserve your attention. By taking proactive steps to understand and address your emotions, you are investing in your emotional well-being and personal growth. Whether the path ahead is clear or uncertain, this journey is an opportunity for self-discovery and learning.