My story begins when I was three or four, I don't remember... but I was younger then. It was a sunny day near the end of summer...

Me and my brother and I were to stay at my babysitter house. AKA, my cousins house... she had three sons....(I'm not telling the name bit ill but their first letter in their name.) M was the oldest, L was the middle child, and there was E.... the boy who bullied me and my brother.

Mom paid B (my great cousin, on my dad's side, who is also a monster) $100 for each kid. We were poor for years. B would leave us in a strangers care, and her sons care too. When we were sick, she'd still wanted mom to pay her money. Dad would buy expensive stuff on top with us going to school.

One day was sunny.... but I had a bad

I'm feeling but ignoring the fact. Later that day, my whole life changed.... I was never normal ever again. M was in football practice, so he didn't know the whole situation. I was nearly raped by my cousin, both boys, BTW. I could not escape, but luckily they never hurt my brother, he was in a different room at the time... They took a gun to my head with a knife to my neck. I thought I was going to die as a three-year-old. But that's all I remember, I told mom about the weapons, not the other issue.

I could not tell mom nor my brother and my dad... I bottled it up inside for years, I felt pure guilt. Not only that, but I was alone and shocked. Likewise, I was traumatized, I could not make friends... my peers would not understand me. Furthermore, I was bullied for that reason for 13 years, alongside depression and was isolated from my brother.

Later, my parents divorced because my dad was cheating on my mom threw marriage. He remarried her in 4 months. They had a child but departed the child. He was afraid of keeping three kids and mom founding out. But I know that child is somewhere happy and free.

Then, a year after that, my cat passed away. His name was Pumpkin and orange Cat, and he loves me petting him and purrs loudly. Unlike his brother Sparrow. He's quiet and doesn't like to be cuddled. I love both cats dearly.

Later this year, my mom found her love, her childhood friend who has had a crush on her for years and still loves her. He's kind and involves me and my brother in opinions and family fun, I was never given that treatment. My father disliked my brother. Every time my brother was kicking his legs, dad would hit his feet on my brother. So I would sit in front of him beside my brother, who is in front of mom. Every seat in a restaurant we sit like that not once then we sat differently. He kept us in separate rooms for 13 years before the divorce.

This year, I told my family on my mom's side about my trauma. They only know a part of it. I needed to tell them for years now, but I need to tell them as a while, I can't tell my grandparents on my dad's side nor himself.

Simple and Clean

When you walk away

You don't hear my say "Oh, baby, don't go!"

Simple and clean is the way you are making me feel tonight.

it's heard to let go

you are giving me too many things

Lately, you're all I need

You smiled at me and said

"Don't get me wrong, I love you" "But does that mean I have to meet your father?"

When we are older, you will understand.

What I'm meant for what I said

"No, I don't think it's that simple."

When you walk away, you don't hear me say,

"Oh, baby, don't go!"

Simple and clean is the way you're making me feel tonight.

It's hard to let it go

So simple and clean

The daily things

(like this and that, what is that)

That keeps us all busy, which confuses me

That's when you came to me and said,

"Wish I can prove to you that I love you"

But does that mean I have to walk on water?"

When we are older, you'll understand

It's enough when I say so

And maybe some things are simple

When you walk away, you don't hear me say, "Oh, please baby, don't go."

Simple and clean is the way you're making me feel tonight

It's hard to let it go

Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning

is a little later on

Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me

At all

Nothing is like before

When you walk away You don't hear my say

"Oh, please baby, don't go!"

Simple and clean is the way you are making me feel tonight

It's hard to let go

Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning

is a little later on

Regardless of warnings the future doesn't scare me at all

Nothing is like before

END

Light em' up

Ohhh, Ohhh Ohhh

Be careful making wishes in the dark, dark

Can't be sure if they hit their mark, mark

And beside in the mean, mean times, I'm dreaming of tearing you apart.

I'm in the de details with the devil, so the world can never get me on my level, I just gotta get you out of your cage

I'm a young lovers rage gonna need a spark to ignite.

My songs know what you did in the dark

So Light em' up up

Light em' up up

I'm on fire!

So Light em' up up

Light em' up up

I'm on fire!

ohhh ohhh ohhh

In the dark, dark

ohhhh ohhhh

In the dark dark

All the writers keep writing what they write

Somewhere another

Pretty vain just dies

I got the scars from tomorrow, and

I wish that you could see that your antidote except, for me

A constellation of tears on your lashes

Burn everything you love

And burn it on the end

Everything collides with my childhood

Spat back out the monster that you see

My songs know what you did in the dark

So Light em' up up

Light em' up up

I'm on fire!

So Light em' up up

Light em up up

I'm on fire!

Ohhh ohhh ohhh

In the dark, dark

Ohhhh ohhhh ohhhh

In the dark dark

My songs know what you did in the dark

My songs know what you did in the dark

So Light em' up up

Light em' up up

I'm on fire!

So Light em' up up

Light em' up up

I'm on fire!

In the dark dark

In the dark dark

Ohhh Ohhh ohhh

END

Take a deep breath in an unusual place...

I'll make your deam come true, so wait, lady...

So rather than those basterds, how about me?

I'll dye you on spectacular colors...

Everything is all right. It's no lie

(like a dead end, covering you little by little)

I won't forgive any disruptors anymore

(round 1 KO play, but we are still even)

I want to be your number one

But maybe I can't love you that deeply

If you choose one person from us,

You can't go back. You can't go back

In my dream, you're my captive

Nothing else matters right now

All the way, deep breath, deep, deep back

Once you get addicted, there's no way out

Fly away to somewhere to a place we can't be seen

Can't be over if it's a dream, lady

Rather than those basterds, how about me?

I'm falling for your bewitching colors

That's all right, it's no lie

(Don't be afraid, keep your eyes on me)

Don't resist the temptation

(No one knows I want you)

I want to be part of you

But maybe that selfishness won't come true

If you drown in this desire

You can't go back, You can't go back

You are shining in the darkness

That's the only thing I'm relying on right now

That's what deep, deep inside

One, you get addicted. There's no way out

(Yeah, yeah, yeah, where's my lover baby)

(Yeah, yeah, yeah, you're the only one for me)

(Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm falling for your badly)

I'll chase after you, the you who's only mine

Inside the dream, I'll follow you

Right now, that's the only thing I can do

In this feeling, I can't deny this truth

END