My Heart Is Just A Dumb Pump
Story I : Ep - 01
I miss him so much. How do I stop thinking?
The brain had this figured out months ago.
Brain 🧠
Don't care about someone who doesn't care for you. Simple. Logical. Beautiful in its practicality.
Heart ❤🩹
He does care. He does need me. He does value me. He is confused. He needs my help to see the way. We know each other, we like each other, we are connected. Deep down, he's still mine, we are still strong.
Brain 🧠
That's guessing.You have no evidence. That's wanting, not thinking. ತ_ತ
Heart ❤🩹
Maybe it is just wanting. But would it kill us to try? (◕ᴗ◕✿)
Heart ❤🩹
To make every effort? So we can walk away knowing we didn't leave behind something wonderful, something that needed us to grow and be a bigger person? I mean, this is our life. We don't walk away when things get difficult.
Brain 🧠
What about all the times he ignores you?🙂What about days of no contact?🙂
Brain 🧠
What about all the times you have told him EVERYTHING in you, heart, everything, the things that burn me and enrage pride? And he had no response. 🙂
Brain 🧠
He didn't give a shit. Probably didn't even read the parts that weren't about him. 🙂
Heart ❤🩹
This is all true, But there is more than that. You know it. 😕💔
Brain 🧠
I don't know it. 😐🖐️
Brain 🧠
All I know is that you are short-circuiting me and bypassing me. Give me back the controls.😐
Heart ❤🩹
You will make a mistake. A big mistake.😕💔
Brain gives a deep, shuddering sigh.
Brain 🧠
😔 Heart, you are making it impossible for us to function.
Heart ❤🩹
I'm sorry,😔💔 I really am. But I have a directive.
Brain 🧠
I didn't give you a directive 😐
Heart ❤🩹
No, not from you. All hearts have a directive. It is why we exist.
Heart ❤🩹
It is why we can override all your systems. We connect. We don't let go. We can't let go.😕💔
Ep 02
Heart ❤🩹
We don't let go. We can't let go.
Brain 🧠
Sometimes you have to 🙂
Brain 🧠
Sometimes you don't have a choice. You need to see when the connection is broken. 🙂
Heart ❤🩹
It's not that easy 😕💔 *whispers heart*
Heart ❤🩹
Connections don't have a switch. They are rare. 😕💔
Heart ❤🩹
We may never find another. And the connection never goes away, even if it's broken. I still keep it here. I nurture it.😔💔
Brain 🧠
That's unhealthy, heart.
Brain 🧠
You know it is. I could shut you down. ¯\_ಠ_ಠ_/¯
Heart ❤🩹
Yes, you could 😬
Heart ❤🩹
But you and I both know that I may never restart.😒
Brain 🧠
I'm willing to risk that (눈‸눈)
Brain 🧠
Maybe our life would be better, more productive, more successful if you did just shut down. ತ_ತ""
Heart ❤🩹
At what cost?What is success without love? 🥺✨
Heart ❤🩹
What is productivity without someone to share it with? You are going to travel and see the seven wonders of the world... and have no one to share it with? Solo memories are so... empty. ಠ︵ಠ
Brain 🧠
It would be an empty victory <(￣︶￣)> *agrees brain*
Brain 🧠
You are the driving force in our life. But if you would just shut down, if you would just stop fûçking caring so much for a while, I'll start you back up when the pain isn't so fresh. ┐(￣ヘ￣)┌
Heart ❤🩹
You can't shut me off entirely ┐( ˘_˘)┌ *reminds heart*
Ep 03
Heart ❤🩹
You can't shut me off entirely ┐( ˘_˘)┌
Heart ❤🩹
I wish you could, but you can't.🥲💔
Heart ❤🩹
You'll shut off all the good and the wonder and be left with the cold and the lonely. 🧸💔
Brain 🧠
I think we need to try 🙂❤️🩹
Brain 🧠
Its time. I'll deal with the loss if you can just stay down and stop waking up every time he text you and says a few pretty words. 🙂
Brain 🧠
You súck them up like a crazy addict and all the systems light up like fuçking fireworks. 🙂
Heart flares up, beating wildly.
Heart ❤🩹
You say that like I can help it, like I do it on purpose.🙃💔
Heart ❤🩹
You need to stop replying the messages. I can't ******* help it if he knows every button to push to light the connection back up. That is what I do. It is your job to run interference. 🙃💔
Brain 🧠
Oh, don't put this on me 🙂🖐️
Brain 🧠
I see the name and I give the direction to put the phone down. It is not me replying messages . I mean, every fuçking time. You answer every text. It is pathetic. 🙂
Heart ❤🩹
What the hell do you want me to do? 😭💔
Heart ❤🩹
This could be the message that fixes everything! This could be the message that says he's realized that he can't live without us!🧸💔
Heart ❤🩹
This is the time he's going to apologize for everything and tell us he understands what we've been going through and no matter what happens, he doesn't want to go through life without us as a team! It's going to happen, I know it is. 🧸💔
Brain 🧠
You know that's never going to happen.🙂
Heart ❤🩹
I don't know it.
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