Do you have anything that you wish from your life but it never comes the way you ever wanted. It can be analyzed by the thing that you would end up changing if you are given a second chance.

These types of chances are not given in real life. All the struggle and obstacles that we suffer in our life would make us the strong and better version of ourselves. There is one question in my mind that, the pain and sorrow that I have burdened myself for all these years have an outcome for me or not. Should I sacrifice my life for the person who doesn't even care if I am alive or dead.

The memories of my life float over my head....,there was the helpless me in the past that would do anything to make my family happy or it's really not the family.

my name is eve . I got to live with my parents but not more than I thought.. I was seven when my parents died. I was sent to an orphanage. I felt that I had lost the thing that I have ever got or ever had. The family of mine was the thing that I would have wished or wanted. I was free in orphanage because I got the simplest joy that I got even a little more time with my parents than the guys in the orphanage. I made friends there. it was a peaceful and joyful moment of my life. when I was 13 years old my parent's relatives found me and took me in. I was happy that I got a place to call a home but never knew that home isn't the place but a place full of love, care and affection. The place I ever called home was never mine and the family I care was also never mine. It was the only place I lived or grew up. My wish for life was to find the warmth that I felt when I was with my parents. So I thought to make my own and live a peaceful life. when my adopted parents made me hitch with the person that I had never met. I never knew the choice I chose to make my life better would make me this miserable. I never knew that the marriage was the set up that our parents made for us. It's been a few years of marriage but I never had a peaceful talk with him. It's been like we have been avoiding each other all through these years.

Even while I am in my death bed, I got the lesson that the feeling I ever wished was not a dream but it's the thing that would come eventually when there is love, care and affection between each other. That's the thing me and my husband never ever had. I am at my last minute but he is nowhere to be found. I don't even know if he would ever miss the presence of me in his life. That is to end anyway. So let's say goodbye...

" LESSON LEARNED,TIME TO MOVE ON ."

Where am I . I thought I was dead.

Is this the afterlife. I know this place, it's a place where I lived with my parents. When I saw this place I kinda missed them. When I looked, I missed the time I spent with them.

The moments that we spent made the place very special. We all need love, care and company of our parents until we ever leave this world. But life is a little unsatisfying, because it never stops. Thus, we should never take anything or anyone for granted.

There was this feeling that I wanted to stay there for a moment. I don't know this feeling , is it that I long for the days we spent or just want to be in the place where I felt happy the most . So i went to the house where we all lived. I stayed there for a week or until I found a book with a letter.....

The book gives the familiar vibes. But when I open the book it looks blurry. My eyes felt heavy as I opened them. I looked at the surroundings, it was a hospital. I was injected with something. There was a person sleeping in a chair. Until I adapt to things, the man comes over and asks me are you okay.

I tried to remember who he was.... there was a sound called Adrin. Suddenly my subconscious told me he was calling me. It hit me hard where the hell I have been.

With a confused mind I say who are you? With a worried look he says you don't remember. He asked the doctor that came right in when I woke up. The doctor says I think your wife has amnesia. She is also very weak please take care of her.

Amnesia me I panicked. I don't remember anything like this that happened in my life. I was in a dilemma with many questions in my head.

Until the thoughts were to be washed the man came close to me and said I am your husband Kristen. We had been married for 6 years, and also we have a son named Aaron.

The man left after telling me he is going to bring me something to eat letting me be with myself for a while.

I know this isn't my life. How can I live as Adrin when I am not. I felt like being left out in this new place.

"It's really difficult when you feel like you don't have anyone"