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...Autism-  Autism  spectrum disorder (ASD) is a developmental disability caused by differences in the brain. People with ASD often have problems with social communication and interaction, and restricted or repetitive behaviors or interests. People with ASD may also have different ways of learning, moving, or paying attention....

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Have you ever felt miserable ? Like I did !! Well I'm still terribly broken since the day my heart died in my arms .

She was autistic she wasn't normal like us yet I fall for her . She was introvert never liked talking to other whenever she used to feel sad or didn't felt like talking she used to stay silent yet I used to read her beautiful hazel eyes.

Which used to talk to me , we met under really bad circumstances we had a pretty good age gap she was just 20 and I was 28 that time.

She died when she was just 22 we were engaged . I was going to marry her but I couldn't.

She wasn't mute , but she didn't like talking.

She wasn't child , but she was the childish thing happened in my life.

She was innocent , pure .

I used to be rude , arrogant upto the date she came to my life I was her doctor that time . The first time we met was when she came for her monthly checkup that time . The Doctor which used to treat or help her was already retired and I'm the new Doctor appointment for her.

That was the first time when I layed my eyes on her , she was pretty .

Her pretty Hazel eyes, which was tearing up terribly as she saw me taking my glasses off.

Her long silky brown hairs were messy ..

Her cute botton nose , which for the first time I wanted  to boop .

Her pink lips , which were shivering uncontrollably her body was shaking she was closed to have another breakdown .

And that time I realised she was scared of me...

Yet I wanted to hold her in my arms .

Was it normal ?

She falls on her knees screaming as she was having her panic attacks because how loud the waiting hall was!

She started pulling her silky brown hairs as she was scared and misserable .

Shutting her eyes and crying her eyes off as tears were flooding down her bambi hazel eyes.

"No loud please no loud"

She was screaming in my office as I ran towards her she back off , she was so scared of me .

She didn't wanted to get touched by unknown person yet I wanted to hold her.

She didn't wanted to talk to anyone , but my heart wanted to speak with her.

Gathering all my courage I pulled her closed to me , I pulled her close as I burries her head in my neck .

She was struggling hitting me her shivering teeth were bitting me yet I endured it calmly because I didn't wanted to hurt her .

I rubbed soothing circles on her back whispering soft things she likes...

"Darling calm down I got you , no one will hurt you love calm down".

Words just came out of my lips as my nurse looked at me with shocked expression because I wasn't this soft with any other patients then why her ..

Is she special?

Yes she was . She was unique . And that time I realised she really loved getting praised .

"Calm down darling , yes try to breathe like me " and she looked at me with those bambi teary eyes and I don't know but I felt many butterflies in my stomach struggling to came out .

Heart pounding with unreasonable speed yet I took a deep breath and managed to speak , my words aren't forming her this state still manage to keep her so beautiful .

She started breathing as I hold her right hand and kept it on my chest .

"Breath like me , yes like that you're doing great you're such a good girl keep doing".

And she started breathing normally but her cheeks was red because of getting praised .

I wiped her tears as she was sniffling her eyes were fluffy and lips bursied .

"Are you Alright now can we stand hm?"

I asked her but she just nodded aggressively I held her again I stopped her from shaking her head so violently .

"You shouldn't be shaking your head like this Darling "

And then she just whispered small 'sorry'

Her voice was soft like nature's beauty .

I made her seat on chair wearing my glasses I got back on my seat as I looked at her mother . She was on the verge of crying.

She was hurt , she had bandage on her head . Red dark scratches I was concern yet scared to asked yet I asked her like the a good Doctor who just wanted to offer them a help.

"Doctor is she alright ?"

And I gulped before speaking

"She is fine Ms. Carter , just avoid taking her to the crowed places . Use voice blocker and don't give her any kind of stressed and here's my number call me whenever she is having another breakdown ".

I said Anna looked at me with pout on her lips.

"Mister Doctor"

She whisper speak and my breath hitch as she walked towards me .

"Can you give candy to Anna?" She said

Tilting her head biting her lips .

"Yes you can have as many as you want "

I said as I patted her hairs  and she smiled as she kissed my cheeks.

Whispering small thank you and I was already on cloud nine.

"Ms. Anna please take care".

I said to her as she mumbled small 'yes' .

And When she was leaving my cabin , she turned back and waved her hand . I just wanted to stop her from saying bye but I couldn't.....

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It was Sunday Night when I got a sudden call from unknown number . I did attended the call and it's was Ms Carter her voice was shaky like she is panicking I got worried . Sudden mould of anxiety twisted in my guts and I was so worried about Anna when Ms Carter told me about her another breakdown.

She texted me her address as I ran down to my car and soon I was standing infront of  of Anna's house .

"Oh Dr. Davis thank God you are here she is having her breakdown she locked herself and crying I'm so scared to do something ".

I didn't understand what I might do to calm her but I did what my heart wanted to do . I stood infront of the door knocking it.

"Darling"

And I soon heard the clicking of door and she open it for me. She threw herself into me .

She cried her eyes off clutching my shirt like her life depends on me . Like I'm the lost moon she found alright!

"Mr. Doctor hurts".

She said holding her head as she was so tired I can see her pretty Hazel's droopy and sleepy.

I wish her to be mine and want her mine .

"Darling are you sad".

She just nodded as I hold her in my embrace she burries her head in my neck as she sniffles me .

Do I smell good to her?

She calmed

She didn't said anything but pointed toward the bed and I layed her on the bed she was such a ball of fluffy . Like the snow ball.

I walked towards the balcony to freshen up my mind. I never thought I would fall for someone this hard that I couldn't stand staying away from her.

That night moon was glowing prettily such a wonderful scenario it was but She was the Prettiest of all.

I flinched when I felt small arms around me and I didn't turned because I know who it must be . And it was my baby.

"Anna can you see the stars".

"Yes they are so beautiful "

She said as she didn't let go of me and I couldn't found a mere word to tell herr.

"Mr. Doctor can I keep you to me".

my breath hitched listening to her innocent request . I'm falling harder and harder since that day I saw her .

"What do you mean pretty girl ?"

"Like the teddy bear in my room . You are so warm I like it with you ".

I smiled as my heart was swelled up due to the fondness as my heart beats started raising .

Its just two days I'm whipped for her I'm deeply into her.

"You can't keep me darling I'm not a teddy bear but a human".

And she back of walking in front of me .

"Can you be my boyfriend then?"

I found myself on cloud nine . She actually asked me to be her boyfriend and I couldn't deny her shy request and I accepted her to be mine.

"But do you think you love me Darling".

She nodded her head aggressively like the first meet I held her head and scolded her and she  said nothing but giggle making me chuckled at her pretty self..

"Bed ".

She said I guess she is already sleepy ,oh man how much more surprises had God planned for me that today.

"Sure sweet girl we are going to get a good sleep tonight ".

She hummed as she hugged my neck inhaling me again damm she is so cute and puppy, and then I couldn't stop my hearty earge to kiss her forehead.

"My sweet girl do you want a good night kiss".

I asked as she looked at me leaving me panicked.

Did I asked something bad to make her uncomfortable or what?

But she just nodded and pressed her beautiful soft lips on mine , those tasted like strawberries.

"Ohh my beautiful baby you're so cute ".

I picked her up in bridal style in my arms ,as she snuggles to me more closer.

"So warm"

She said and my stony heart was already melting for her .

"Are you cold Anna?"

She nodded and I hurriedly made her lay on the soft mattress , and she closed her eyes still holding on me , holding on my hand.

Like she never wanted to let go of me ,

Like she wanted to stay with me,

Till the end...

Like she want me to be her forever.

Yes,

I wanted to be.

But the saddest part of the reality made me realise , those are my inner thoughts.

God can you grant her my own life?

I want her to live longer.

I want her to hold on to her dear life...

"Mr. Doctor cuddle me ".

And I can't resist my girl's request immediately I gave in and lay besides her . I hugged her from back and she relaxed in my hold .

My inner child was squirming inside of me in excitement . Finally I have someone to rely  on.

She turn to face me and stared back at her pretty face .

She smiles a warm smile and I was feeling content, she made me felt the butterflies which had been stuck in coocon of my guts and now they are all flying in my stomach.

That was strange yet happy feeling.

I never dated someone.

I kissed her cheeks .

"C'mon sweet girl get some sleep , I'm here when you will wake up".

And soon the deepest slumber caught me off guard and now I want to get the most happiest and best sleep from now on.

I never dated someone.

I kissed her cheeks .

"C'mon sweet girl get some sleep , I'm here when you will wake up".

And soon the deepest slumber caught me off guard and now I want to get the most happiest and best sleep from now on.

Next morning I was the one who woke up early morning to check on her , she was sleeping like a glittering angel . I booped my nose with her cause her to squirm.

Should I wake her up?

No no she must be tired of last night breakdown, this reminds me how much she is struggling for her life couldn't god be fair to me and her.

God I have saved everyone , but can't you save my heart from shutting down till it dies.

I want to ,

I really want to stay longer with her,

I want to get old with her ,

I want to travel the corner of the world.

The only thing destiny choose for me was you .

That to be going to fed out of my hands soon.

I'll try ,

I'll try upto whatever I can do ,

Only to save u from closing your eyes shut.

Because I like yours eyes.

And want you to always smile .

I walked downstairs maybe incase I could prepare something to eat for me and her family .

As I walked a hunch of smell hit my nostrils damm that's gross .

Someone had pucked in the middle of living room.

"Who are you and what are you doing in my house?"

The man in this middle aged asked me and was on the spot confused "sir mind telling me who are you?"

"Your standing at my door steps and asking me who am I".

"Sir are you perhaps Anna's dad?" I asked with leash of curiosity bubbling in my stomach and that man laughed manically and I stared at him.

"Yes unfortunately I'm her father , now get the **** out of here ." Damm this man got some guts to be honest he pissed me off .

I didn't wanted to argue with that old man didn't wanted to make an old impression on my new girlfriend's family.

And the man left from there . I made a simple breakfast for them and left from there .

Even though world doesn't want us to be together ,still I want her to be mine , I want her every gorgeous features to glow more and more . I want to get old with her .

I want to cherish her eternity, I want to drown in her beautiful eyes .

I guess her wonderful features are enchanting in my head and wanted me to fall for her even more , deeper and deeper.

She was the star beside me and I'm her lone moon . I intertwined our her heart to form moonbyul (Korean name stars and moon)

And here I'm waiting to finish attending my last patient of the day , literally I'm so tired today that I can't take anymore . I wanted to go back to Anna's appartment and wanted to see her beautiful face but guess what ?  I'm to busy today to visit her after the last patient I had to perform an emergency surgery of a patient too.

I thought to call her but then one of a nurse came running to me and  told me that one of our patient making ruckus in OT.

I ran to the OT and saw a cute small boy crying hugging his legs , I guess he is scared.

"Hey little boy are you okay?"

I asked but he backed off from me.

"It's okay sweet boy I'm not going to hurt you I promise."

And I closed my eyes . Lies everything is lie . I want to save this little sunshine just like her but is it in my hands ? But I can try and give my best and I'll do it for them.

"Promise".

The boy mumbled and look up in my eyes and I can't even happen to make eyes contact with the boy , but I still forwarded my pinky finger towards him. And we entangled our tiny fingers together as a promise.

"Are you still scared c'mon come to me let's watch doremon together".

I tried to lul the boy and he immediately sat on my lap , I took my phone out from my pocket and started to show him few videos of doremon and when he got to much busy in watching his favourite cartoon I immediately injected anesthessia injection in him and soon the boy started to loose control and fall in my arms closing his eyes.

"Please be with me ".

I said as I picked him in my arms walked upto the bed and soon the surgery begins.

Throughout the surgery I was thinking about the sweet boy who was lying on bed . He was really kind baby boy . I want to save him for the time I let my hands work and was silently praying to God to give me success . Because today I want him to see the colours of life how beautiful life is.

Two hours passed in a blink and I smile as the surgery was literally big hamper of successful.

I wash my hands and walked outside where his parents were waiting and as I walked out I saw what I like the most and that was trust and hope.

"Say something Dr. Davis is my baby alright?"

The mother of a boy asked and I just smile and told them that the surgery is successful. The father of the boy hugged me and said " you're really god for us Doctor , thank you thankyou very much for saving our child". Only if I could tell them that I'm not a god nor god's favourite child just a little believe and trust and most of all the promise he had made with a boy to  keep him safe without any harm.

"Thank you sir and please excuse me ".

I smiled and left from there. I was about to heed out of hospital when my phone rang and it was my baby it's was my Anna . I smiled and picked the call and we talked for a while and she falls asleep while talking to me.