This whole story based on a main character name Dhruv and he's first love krishi . both are friends from nursery, "Dhruv" belongs to Hindu family and "krishi' belongs to Christian family.

here 'I' refers to main character Dhruv who's going to hide on the garden of memory where he saw butterflies , wild grasses and beautiful flowers, simply we can say memory.

i (Dhruv) Rember those days when i sit with krishi for the first time on class nursery , we we're fighting who's eraser is more white , we rough our eraser on wall and make it more white and doing argument that i have whiter eraser more than you!

i said wait tomorrow my dad will buy Ben-10 eraser and i will show you it's whitness and how big it is , then krishi said my mumma will buy me pink eraser that will look very beautiful than yours.

i laughed at him and said are you girl? pink colour are for girls you don't know! we boys choose blue and black type colours . krishi said eww black i don't like it , i hate dark things i like shinny and light colours krishi said . i said you don't know anything about boys and girls choice , is your papa also love colour pink i laughed. krishi get silent and said he's don't have father only he and his mother are there in home. i was a nursery kid i asked who buy breads and vegetables for you all ? krishi replies ofcourse my mumma he said his mom buy fancy toys for him to , i said fancy toys like Cars and robots right? krishi said yes i have teady bears and cars but my mother don't buy me dolls ! Again i laugh hard which boy play with teady bears and you want dolls ufff when you become big krishi i said .

we become friends,

after year we promote to kg class and krishi was getting medal and certificate because he top on class . I don't know my exact rank but i know my mom and dad was happy i got A+ on every subject. me and krishi is friends so our mom was also talking with eachother and my mom invited krishi mom on lunch .

next day krishi mom come my house with krishi she brings chocolates for me and fruits for our whole family, my mom said oh my god it's ok no need to brings gifts here , i take krishi to my room well i have one elder sister who's 5 year older than me she was watching a girly show where one women teaching about dressing style and makeup , my sister say hello to krishi and mom's call me so i went kitchens but when i come back i saw krishi sit near my sister and he's also watching that show , i said krishi stop watching that lets play soccer together, he said no it's boaring, i left him in my room and i went outside my house to play cricket with my neighbour friends , i was bored with krishi !

my mom send krishi to call back me home so krishi came and he said your mom is calling for lunch , then we both were going together he holds my hand , i take back my hands and said Ahh ! don't hold we are boys he didn't said anything and run to my home and sit on dining table and start eating, my mom scold me why you left your friend on home alone and gone outside to play!

i said i was bored he's girl type, krishi mother's laughed and say i always push him to go play outside but he shy type. only play alone and watch tv but he's good at studies so i don't scold him let him do what he like .

next day on school my 2 old friends Raghav and Rohan come in my section and Automatically krishi also become there's friend just because of me !

now i don't sit with that boaring guy anymore our teachers fix our sits.

i sit with Rohan , Raghav sit with our new friend pranav and krishi sit far way on first bench with a girl , her name is Shoniya she's also topper by the way .

i enjoy with my friends Rohan , Raghav and pranav , like our very cool group created, we both are same type thoughts, like we both love playing cricket and solving Mathmatics so they are the reason i go school daily.

but krishi is get distance with me and i didn't care but our mom's become friends now, so we mostly meet occasionally .

on Games period krishi come to me and asked he's going shopping with her mom today so he asked me what's new toy he can buy, i said buy cars or video games, he said then will you come my home to play with me ? i saw he's shiny eyes i said ok . i will come but Raghav and Rohan can also come your home?

krishi said sure it will fun to play with you guys come my home on 4pm .

on 4pm we started playing soccer on ground and we all forgot to go krishi home ! next day krishi said i tired of waiting for you guys why you didn't come , i suddenly realised oh yes i forget sorry krishi next time. well it's boaring to play on home why not you come on 4pm on ground we together play soccer.

krishi said he will try ,

now we are playing soccer as usual but we didn't care krishi came or not !

next day krishi come to us and saying sorry i wasn't come because i was studying, we say it's ok brother even we didn't know you said you would come!

actually i feel krishi was come to check we care about him in our group or not and he got his answer.

now it's our result day i come 5th on my class and Raghav and Rohan also pass with good number, pranav come and say guys i also pass with good number we 4 friend together got 100/100 on maths , Rohan said krishi top on class and Shoniya second on class .

krishi mom's come and say what's your percentage dhruv ? i said Aunty it's 92 , she clapped and say it's good , study more hard you can also top .

i was feeling Aunty making me feel low indirectly she compared me with his son krishi.

now we came on standard 8 .

we friends divided into different sections, me and pranav promote to 8 'c' and Raghav and Rohan promoted to 8'D'

and my nursery friend krishi promoted to 8'A'.

i am not surprised that one my friend krishi whom i know from 9 years now he's not in my class. Actually i am confused at same time am happy and at same time i got wired feelings that he's not in my class .yes am not liking it at all.

Our school life started in the new class and I saw almost all the boys in my class talk about girls only.

they talk about A beautiful girl should have a good figure and there were some boys in my class who used to rate girls.

Till date my friends Raghav, Rohan and Pranav have never talked in this way and in this topic.

I have an elder sister in my house, now I understand the way people talk about a girl, someone must be talking about my sister too and I don't like it at all.

One more thing I noticed Pranav was befriending those boys and now he started distancing from me.

I used to be the guy who loved solving math and playing soccer with my friends. But, now these guys used to talk about porn so much that I thought I might as well watch one.

So I came home and I didn't have my phone yet but I had my laptop So I saw one episode of porn and I was in complete shock. because Earlier, I used to watch movies, which did not do much in the movies but used to see kissing of boy and girl. now what the FK i saw ,I saw the whole process and I was excited to share this with someone.

The other day I thought that I would share this matter with Pranav.

So I sat down and told Pranav that see bro I saw it for the first time.

Pranav was overjoyed to hear and started sharing more knowledge with me.

He told me that he does masterbating and he finds it very pleasurable and told me to try and tell.

Then there was a library period of one day A section and one C section, so I looked at krishi and thought what did he know about all this?

I smiled in my heart and thought that he is a small child.

Then Krishi's eyes met me and there was a unique glow in her eyes, he said hello how are you and he was looking very happy to see me.I went to him and talked to him and told brother everything is fine whether you have any friends or not. he said that Shoniya is her friend and he told that he has two new friends, Angela and Simi.

I said that brother, 3 girls, your friend, your life is set. krishi again looked at me again and I saw anger in his eyes as if he understood the meaning of life set.

Now living with the boys of my class, I also wanted a single girlfriend in my life because Pranav and other people also had.

Now I fixed my eyes on krishi's friends and saw that hey brother, all his friends are very pretty af! Even then I used to consider krishi as a small child.

It was raining one day, at the end of the school day, I saw that krishi did not have an umbrella, then I said krishi, come with me, I will walk some distance with you, then you go home. All the way he was just talking about studies and my ears were tired of listening.

So I randomly asked him do you know about porn?

He suddenly became silent and he told me that he knows

I could not believe that who told this child, so I asked when and how did you know,

He told me that when he was in class 6, he was doing homework with the help of internet, then the link opened automatically And he had seen it for the first time, he told that the first time he had closed his eyes and the second time he had curiosity to know what these people were doing.

I thought this dumb bro knew this in class 6 only and I was considering him as a child.

One day again we had a game period together and no girl was interested in me and I saw that Krishi is very popular among girls.

When Krishi was playing basketball, all the girls in the class were cheering Krishi like crazy, everyone was talking about Krishi.and I was most jealous krishi that day.I could not help it and I asked a single girl, why are you all shouting krishi so much?

That girl told that Krishi is not like other boys, he is very smart in studies and very good in sports too.He is very beautiful, you can't see when he plays, his hair is scattered here and there in the wind, Even after being so perfect, he is not proud at all, he helps everyone and talks very sweetly.Every girl wants Krishi to be her boyfriend.

After hearing so many compliments about krishi,I thought yes he is beautiful.

now i had huge amount of jealousy now i decided i will become more popular one day among girls.

I am also ready to talk sweet but no girl talks to me . my sad life .

Now we come to high school and this time my friend Pranav and others are separated and this time I have krishi in my class.

krishi has become very popular in the whole school and in other schools too, krishi's name is always discussed.

Any random girl says I love you and this guy shows no attitude at all and smiles and starts blushing.If someone comes to me and says I love you Dhruv, I will say yes at once without getting blush.

I have seen that krishi is so popular, but he has never talked to me in attitude since childhood.And I have been making fun of him since childhood and never gave any importance to him.

now i know who the main character is.

I am scared to talk to krishi in person because I am bad in studies, sports or good looks everywhere!

krishi comes to me and says from now on he will sit with me.

I said go stay with your smart friend why did you stay with dumb like me!

He hold my hand and said who said you are dumb, you are the most intelligent from nursery Dhruv you taught me lots of things and glad to have friend like you.

When he used to hold my hand in childhood, I used to release my hand and used to say don't hold it but Now that he's holding my hand and talking to me looking into my eyes, I feel so good.

I just feel that he is just talking like this, I will keep listening, But he left my hand by himself and started making notes.

When he let go of my hand, I wondered what the FK i was thinking.

i was thinking like a Gay ! no no i'm so straight, i am not gay btw!

Now we have come to high school, so everyone has a bike and a phone of his own.I don't have my own bike, sometimes my father gives it to go to school. So I was going home after school in my bike and Krishi said give him a lift. i said sure come sit

There was a lot of traffic, so I brought the bike in the middle of a narrow road and there is also a shortcut on that road.The road was bad so we were shaking so krishi caught me, he hold me from bike so tight i can feel he got scared.So I slowly came to good Road

Now my bike is running smooth and still krishi is holding me.

I didn't say anything, just kept riding the bike till he's came home.

When he came home, he got down from my bike and said thank you, go home properly.

I kept thinking about krishi all the way and even after going home. like whole 24hours i was thinking about him god save me .