GOOD KINDS OF BUTTERFLIES (TAEGISEOK, JIKOOK, NAMJIN, TAEGI, VHOPE, YOONSEOK / SOPE)
The Dead & The Disgraced
This is a sequel but don't worry it can be read as a stand alone. If you do want to read the prequel, it is on my page titled "BAD KINDS OF BUTTERFLIES".
DISCLAIMERᐕ
𖦹 M/M/M
𖦹 MPREG
𖦹 ESTABLISHED TAEGISEOK / JIKOOK
𖦹 side ship - NAMJIN
𖦹 mental health
𖦹 drinking as a coping mechanism
𖦹 starving
𖦹 depression
𖦹 eating disorder
𖦹 lots outf angst
𖦹 fluff
𖦹 smut
𖦹 happy ending
Taehyung
You look gorgeous.
A scoff leaves the mouth of the man as he examined himself in the mirror and he looked nothing close to gorgeous.
Taehyung rolls his eyes before he walks up behind the older and he snakes his hands around his waist, gently caressing the lump of his stomach and a fond smile finds Yoongi's lips as he stares at them in the mirror.
Taehyung
You're not fat...You're just thick.
Taehyung spoke softly as he peppered little feathery kisses behind Yoongi's sensitive ear, and it earns him a tiny **** from the pregnant male.
Yoongi
Stop before you make me horny.
Yoongi warns, and he pushes Taehyung away and his eyes travel to the bathroom door, and it stays there for a while before he sighs heavily.
Taehyung
Do you think he's okay in there?
Taehyung raises and Yoongi shakes his head before he walks over to the broad bed and he takes a seat, instinctly, his hand clutches his stomach.
Yoongi
It's the funeral of his dad today so, surely he can't be fine.
Taehyung sighs before nods.
Taehyung
I just wish he'd talk more about this, He's been so closed off and distant for the past few weeks.
Yoongi shrugs, he thinks that Hoseok did speak less, no doubt in the past few weeks but he thinks it's valid. He lost his father whom he loved despite all the crazy shit he put him through so of course he'd start acting a little weird before the funeral.
Yoongi
I mean, it's hard to get used to not having a parent around.
Taehyung
Mr. Jung was literally making him depressed and sad, he said himself that he doesn't care.
That takes Yoongi off guard a bit, Why would Taehyung think like that? Especially since he's previously been so vocal about how Hoseok had to miss his dad, even if he treated him like garbage.
Yoongi
But he was still his dad, Taehyung.
Yoongi
And you know more than anyone how much Hoseok loved that man so how can you expect him to be fine?
Yoongi raises an eyebrow at the younger, who rolls his eyes.
The door of the bathroom opens and Hoseok steps out, his suit neatly fit, and his hands finds his pockets before he speaks.
Hoseok
Are you guys ready to go?
Yoongi
Yeah... Just let me grab my coat.
Yoongi says, and he stands, slowly and Taehyung has to help him get all the way up, before he made his way into Hoseok closet, picking up a pitch black coat, and he throws it on before he steps back out of the room, closing the door behind him, and he pauses at the question Taehyung asks, and it puzzles Yoongi's mind why he even thought that that was something even remotely appropriate to ask Hoseok right now?
Taehyung
Do we have to go?
Hoseok looks at the younger confused.
Hoseok
I don't want to, but what do you think's going to happen if I don't show up to the funeral of my own father? Huh?
Hoseok
Fück's sake, they'd probably think I had something to do with his death.
Yoongi links his arm in Hoseok's before he rubs at the younger's shoulder. Yoongi could see he was getting upset and then that would lead to him and Taehyung arguing just before a funeral which couldn't be a good thing.
Yoongi
Come on, let's just go now. Okay?
Hoseok sighs before he turns, with Yoongi still on his arm. Taehyung sighs and shakes his head before he stands from the bed, and he follows behind them just as Hoseok pulls his arm away from Yoongi. Right, they were still in hiding.
The ride to the church was rather quiet, the only noise being made was Yoongi's heavy breathing, it make Taehyung smile a little. Yoongi being pregnant was one of the few things giving him joy in a while. Knowing that in only 3 months he'd finally be able to meet the baby made him all giddy.
That's kinda weird, given the fact that it's not his child.
Sure, he could say it doesn't bother him much that his boyfriend's having a child with someone else, who happens to also be his boyfriend but...it's all just so complicated.
The car pulls to a stop, jerking Taehyung out of his thoughts, and he looks over at Hoseok, who closes his eyes and takes a deep breath, then another and then another. He was clearly not doing well.
Hoseok nods before he stands in the limousine, and he opens the door, the flashing lights surround him outside the car, and it makes Taehyung uneasy. He really wasn't looking forward to being mobbed today.
He sighs before he makes his way out behind Hoseok, turning to help Yoongi out as well.
Paparrazi 1
Hoseok, Is it true that you've completely abandoned Jung. Co?
Paparazzi 2
Where is Mirae? Did you two have a fight?
Paparazzi 3
I heard you and Mirae broke up, is that true?
Paparazzi 4
Why bring Taehyung to the funeral and not your fiancé?
The questions just keep coming but Hoseok ignores each one. What could he even say? Better yet why did people even care to ask these questions? Especially in a time like this, at his father's funeral.
Hoseok hurries up the stairs moving through the crowd of people shouting at him with cameras in his face and it makes him uncomfortable. At that thought, his mind runs on Taehyung and Yoongi. Were they okay? He stops for a minute before he turns and he spots Taehyung, arms wrapped around Yoongi as they make their way through the crowd.
Hoseok could see just how anxious Taehyung had been, shaking a bit as he moved through the crowd. He still struggled with his anxiety but some days it was worse than others, and thankfully, today wasn't one of those days.
Hoseok sighs before he turns and he opens the door of the church and he steps inside. Practically everyone was there, he sees his aunt, his granddad and his grandmother and he guesses it sinks in a little more.
He was at his dad's funeral...
He feels tears threaten at his eyes just as the doors open again, and he quickly turns wiping his tear away before he turns back to Taehyung and Yoongi, who both look at him with worried eyes.
Hoseok
Let's go find our seats.
Hoseok speaks up and he goes to walk off but Yoongi grabs his wrist, shaking his head.
Taehyung points and Hoseok sighs before he rolls his eyes.
Hoseok
Well, if you guys know then why do you keep asking me? huh?
Hoseok whisper yells and his eyes get teary again, He looked so fragile, like he didn't really know what to do with himself.
Yoongi
Hoseok, we're just trying to help you?
Yoongi tells, and he takes a step closer to the other, but he only backs up, pulling himself out of Yoongi's grasp, and it hurt Yoongi, more than he'd let on, especially since he was a hormonal pregnant omega at the moment.
Hoseok
I... I'm gonna go talk to my grandparents.
Hoseok announces before he turns and walks away, up the isle leaving Taehyung and Yoongi equally concerned.
Taehyung
I know he's hurting and all but he's such an åsshöle
Yoongi sighs but nods regardless.
Yoongi
I just hope he goes back to normal after all this.
They walk off and find their assigned seats, each of them keeping keen eyes on Hoseok, who had been holding a conversation with his grandparents.
When Hoseok had approached his grandparents, he'd be lying if he said he hadn't expected at least a hug from both of them but then again, they didn't care about him. Much like his dad, much like his mom.
Mrs. Jung
Wipe your eyes dear, people might see you crying.
Hoseok does as he's told but that comment makes him more emotional because his entire life his dad told him what and what not to be and even after he passed, that hasn't changed.
Hoseok blinks a few times before his eyes his grandfather, who hadn't looked at him once since he came to stand before them. He seemed almost pïssed or upset.
But he hasn't done anything.
Hoseok
I uhm...I'm gonna go find my seat.
Hoseok announces, only receiving a nod from his grandmother. He gulps as he struggles to put his foot before the other. He finds his way to Taehyung and Yoongi, feeling a little pathetic.
They fit him between them on the bench, and he feels Yoongi's hand slip into his own, gripping it soothingly and he breathes for the first time in minutes.
Taehyung
Did something happen?
Taehyung questions as his hand plays with the small hairs on the back of Hoseok's head, something Taehyung has been doing to sooth him for the past couple of years.
Hoseok nods, closing his eyes as he takes another breath.
He sighs before he opens his eyes and he leans back on the bench, seemingly pulling himself together, but he doesn't pull himself away from Taehyung nor Yoongi, he'd gotten a little too comfortable.
He just hopes his grandparents don't look back and see him.
As time goes by, the remaining guests file into the church, taking their seats, some even coming up to Hoseok asking him how he'd been doing and Hoseok being Hoseok would lie with the fakest smile, telling them how he's been doing get when that's the furthest from the truth.
He'd been doing fine when they decided that they'd get back together but as time wind down, the older would just get so distant and he'd shut down and isolate himself the closer it got to the funeral.
He wouldn't even see his therapist anymore, which concerned the shït out of Yoongi, so much so that he and Hoseok even had an argument over it.
The program ran over quite fast, it was only minutes away from ending, everyone who had some significance in Mr. Jung's (hoseok's dad) life had already given their eulogies. Taehyung had already known that Hoseok said he wouldn't do it since he didn't have anything he wanted to say. Taehyung doesn't think that's true. He knows there are things on Hoseok's mind that he doesn't feel like sharing.
Every thing was going smoothly and Hoseok was doing well, only sharing an occassional tear ever now and again but what his Granddad said had him breaking all the way down.
Mr. Jung
I think that there shouldn't be a world where sons die before their fathers. Especially not my son. Jaewon was an exceptional son, who...who made me unbelievably proud. For the past 30 years he's run my company, making it greater than ever before and he did all that despite the family he'd gotten...presented with.
Mr. Jung
A wife who ran away after stealing his money and left him with a disgrace of son. A son who cannot carry on his legacy but I know Jaewon tried. I saw him, heard him cry every night at what he'd brought into the world and it...as his father it made me sick seeing him like that.
Mr. Jung
But as he did for all those years, he hoped and he succombed to the life he'd been dealt so I shall use today to implore you all to be a little like my son....An amazing son, an amazing husband and business man and an even more outstanding father.
Mr. Jung
Let us now put my darling son to rest.
Hoseok had still been stuck on some specific words. He could almost laugh. Why was he being targeted? " A disgrace of a son" He feels his tears falling from his eyes, and he's on the verge of breaking into sobs, but luckily Taehyung just pulls him up out of the bench, and he starts escorting him outside the church, a hand around his waist to keep him from falling.
He pants heavily as he gets in his head and his sobs are loud. Why did he come?
Taehyung
Come on, Hoseok. We have to get to the car.
Taehyung speaks, seeing the paparazzi make their way towards them and seeing as Hoseok wasn't going to listen to him, he quickly picks the older up before he hurriedly brings him to the car, placing him on his back on the seat before he turns and finds Yoongi behind him, who wastes no time before he hops inside the limousine as well.
Taehyung follows in sync as he hears the flashes of the paparazzi, and he'd much rather hear those shutters of the cameras than Hoseok breath hitching every two second from how hard he'd been crying.
Taehyung looks to his left, and he sees how Yoongi had already let himself be a pillow for Hoseok.
Yoongi looks up from Hoseok, hands still playing in his hair as he shares a knowing look with Taehyung. For a while know, they had been talking about what they'd do when Hoseok eventually couldn't fight his pain anymore and ultimately, they never came to an agreement, so now they'd just have to wing it.
Taehyung moves to the window separating them from the driver, and he announces that they were ready to depart before he makes his way back to Hoseok's side caressing him as good as they could.
It took a while for Hoseok to stop sobbing and eventually he fell asleep, at least they had just assumed that he was sleeping since his breath had evened out so much.
Yoongi
I can't believe that man said that.
Yoongi hissed, very pïssed that Hoseok's grandfather would ever say something so disgusting especially while Hoseok was there.
Taehyung
I'm just sad that his family really has no respect for him, but it's more frustrating when he just lets it happen. He doesn't retaliate and it pïsses me off so much.
Taehyung voices as he plays in Hoseok hair, and he sees Yoongi opening his mouth to say something but he closes it when Hoseok speaks before he can.
Hoseok
If I say anything, they'll think worse of me than they already do.
He clarifies and he lifts himself off Yoongi's, settling against the seat with a serious, puffy face.
It shocks Taehyung a little, he hadn't known the older was awake, otherwise he would've kept his mouth shut. He doesn't want to argue with Hoseok right now. Not when he's hurting like this.
Taehyung
How are you feeling?
Taehyunh asks, changing the subject and his hand finds Hoseok's knee, offering support as he sees tears pool in the older's eyes again.
Hoseok
I don't know...I...
Yoongi
It's fine...just...say exactly what you're feeling.
Yoongi urges, and he moves closer to Hoseok who sighs, and his tears fall making him shake his head.
Hoseok
I just...after dad died I... I thought that I wouldn't be as much of a disappointment as I am but...
Taehyung opens his mouth to object about the whole "disappointment" statement but Yoongi shouts him a look telling him to let Hoseok finish, so he bites his lips and waits for Hoseok to finish.
Hoseok
...my family treats me worse now that he's gone. *sobs*
He sniffs a little, shaking his head almost as if he's trying to tell himself not to cry.
Hoseok
it's almost like they hate me.
He barely manages to let out and Yoongi shakes his head.
Yoongi
They don't hate you, Seok.
Hoseok
Then... why would he say all of that infront of so many people?
Hoseok
Why does the room go silent whenever I visit. Why is their a specific part of the mansion that I have to stay.
Hoseok
In their eyes I'm a mistake and as much as dad was an asshole, he never made me...made me feel like such an abomination.
Hoseok's fit of sobbing starts again and Taehyung just pulls him into his chest, rubbing his back soothingly and Hoseok feels small kisses on the back of his neck from Yoongi, and it calms him down a little.
He doesn't remember the last time they've had any kind of affection like this, mainoy because of him and the more he thinks about it, pushing them away was probably the worse thing he's done in the past 3 months and he's done a lot of shit.
Some times he wonders how they don't hate him, because he makes it so easy but somehow they always stick by him and are always the first two to help him stand when his own two feet betray him.
He's been failing to do so for a while now.
Baby Issues
Yoongi
Hoseok told us a lot in the limo last night.
Yoongi speaks up as he lays on Taehyung's chest in the couch, careful not to hurt the baby. His stomach was getting a little heavy. He smiles at that, resting his hand on his bump before he looked up at Taehyung.
Taehyung
Yeah, didn't think he'd tell us that much. He's been distant lately.
Yoongi
His whole family are just a bunch of åssholes
Taehyung
I know, but he loves them...why I'm not entirely sure.
Yoongi
He... I guess because he's so desperate for their love and acceptance.
After what happened last night, they hadn't pressed Hoseok to talk anymore about how he felt. Mainly because they knew Hoseok didn't like expressing himself, and they didn't want to work him up more but now, they think they need to.
Yoongi
We have to get him to talk today.
Taehyung chuckles knowing that would be far from easy.
Taehyung
I've been trying to get him to open up for the past 3 months Yoongi. He just won't.
Yoongi
Maybe now that it's over, he'll be more willing.
Taehyung admits and just as he does the door opens revealing a very tired looking Hoseok.
His eyes find theirs for a second before he walks away, headed for the bathroom.
Taehyung
Yeah, and you think he'll open up.
Taehyung laughs, throwing his head back against the handrest of the couch making Yoongi sit up to glare at him.
Taehyung
You're delusional.
Yoongi rolls his eyes before he lays back down on Taehyung's chest, and as he goes to clutch his stomach again, he finds that Taehyung's hand replaced his hand on his stomach.
Taehyung ask, interrogatively as if he had already known the answer.
Yoongi
I could ask you the same thing.
Taehyung
I've got photoshoots in a few days so, I can't.
Yoongi
Well, I just have no appetite, okay?
Taehyung
But you're pregnant. You should be craving.
Yoongi sits up again, facing Taehyung before he shrugs, then he shakes his overgrown hair out of his face.
Yoongi
Every time I eat, I throw it up.
Taehyung eyes the older with a raised eyebrow. Yoongi was almost 5 months along, shouldn't he be over puking already?
Taehyung questions, a little worried.
Taehyung
Why didn't you say something?
Yoongi
I...I don't think it's that important and...I also didn't want to stress Hoseok out so I...I kept it to myself.
Taehyung sighs and shakes his head, he knows Yoongi was trying to put them first, but this was a big deal. Something could be seriously wrong with him or even the baby.
Hoseok
What would make me worry?
Came Hoseok's voice from behind them, he seemed a little shy as he took a seat in the couch, at the far end from them before he pulled his knees to his chest.
and Yoongi shakes his head with a smile.
Yoongi
Nothing, It's silly. Don't worry.
Hoseok doesn't quite believe that so he narrows his eyes.
Yoongi sighs before he turns himself fully to Hoseok before he opens his mouth.
Yoongi
I... I've been throwing up everything I eat.
Hoseok's eyes widen a little and Yoongi could see the panic in his eyes and as Hoseok opened his mouth Yoongi already knew what he was going to ask so he just answers.
Yoongi
I'm fine. I just... Maybe I'm eating too fast.
Yoongi
Don't worry about it.
Yoongi tries to reassure but it doesn't seem to relieve Hoseok much.
Hoseok
Did you check with Seokjin?
Yoongi sighs, and he looks down, but he shakes his head and a swear leaves Hoseok's mouth making Yoongi feel bad. Was this really that bad?
Yoongi
Seokjin's busy in Japan right now so I... I didn't want to bother him...
Yoongi defends and he hears a huff behind him from Taehyung, who he knew was judging him and it pïsses him off.
Yoongi pipes up as he spins around to face Taehyung instead, who just chuckles before he responds.
Taehyung
You could've texted him, he'd have responded when he saw it.
Taehyung
You're making excuses when there could actually be something wrong with the baby.
Taehyung lets out and it hurts Yoongi a little because he knows it's true but that pïsses him off.
Yoongi
Well, it's not your child, so I really don't care what you think.
He lets out harshly and the moment he does he closes his eyes in regret and he whispers a sorry which Taehyung only laughs at humourlessly.
Taehyung
Right. It's not my child so, I'll go take a shower and leave you two.
Taehyung responds, getting up from the couch, clearly upset as he ignores Yoongi's apologies and he walks away.
Yoongi cuts him off before he can finish.
Yoongi
mean? I know, I just...
Tears pool in Yoongi's eyes, and he feels super shïtty for doing it in front of Hoseok because he's probably in so much pain with everything that happened yesterday and here he was being needy and hormonal for nothing.
Yoongi
I'm sorry... *sniffs*
Yoongi quickly wipes his eyes as he shakes his head and he really didn't expect Hoseok to pull him into a hug. It shocks him to say the least.
He doesn't think Hoseok's hugged him in maybe 3 or so months, and it felt so good. He immediately melts into the older's embrace hugging him back as tears fell from his eyes.
Hoseok
He knows you didn't mean it.
Hoseok
but still, I know it hurt his...his feelings.
Yoongi
He's gonna hate me... *cries*
Hoseok sighs as he rubs Yoongi's back.
Hoseok
Trust me, if he doesn't hate me, he's not gonna hate you.
Hoseok chuckles a little and it makes Yoongi smile a bit and he sighs in content, letting his body weight fall on Hoseok, who held him so tightly.
Yoongi
I missed hearing you laugh...
He admits as he places a tiny kiss behind the other's ear and Hoseok pulls away from the hug before he rests his forehead against Yoongi's.
Hoseok
I'm sorry for the way I completely neglected you and Taehyung... I don't think things through as you already know.
Hoseok apologizes and Yoongi feel his sincerity, but he just hopes that this apology meant he'd be making an effort to be like before. Of course doesn't expect Hoseok to just be happy and bubbly like before but he... he just wants to know that he was doing alright.
Yoongi
I forgive you, but it hurt a lot when you turned down my affection. I felt... like... like you didn't want me or the baby and it... it's been killing me for a while now.
Yoongi admits and his voice struggles while he speaks.
Hoseok's hands finds his cheeks, sweeping away the tears that slid against the smoothness with his soft thumbs before he shakes his head.
Hoseok
I never... I swear I do want you and the baby Yoongi, I just... I was angry at myself and I took that out on you and Taehyung.
Hoseok
I didn't want to be consoled because I... I didn't think I deserved to feel better. I... I'm sorry I made you feel like that.
Yoongi
You need to stop taking your pain out on yourself Hoseok, it hurts watching you get so isolated.
Yoongi
and I... I'm not even that angry with you, more just... sad and sympathetic towards you but Taehyung... he's probably livid but he masks his emotions well.
Yoongi
You hurt him again Hoseok, in more ways than one.
Hoseok
I know. He doesn't show it but I can feel it.
Yoongi sighs before he just closes his eyes and then he goes to turn away but before he could, Hoseok's hands hold his head back in place before he kisses his gently.
and on instinct, Yoongi's eyes flutter shut and he leans in, letting himself be swept up in Hoseok. He's been dreaming about this for s while but could never doing in fear that Hoseok wouldn't let him.
Hoseok pulls away first before Yoongi pecks him again and he smiles a little as he sees the big smile on Yoongi's face.
He admits as he pulls away.
Hoseok
It does, but now I need to go talk to Taehyung, which is probably gonna be harder than this was.
Yoongi
Doesn't help that I also just pïssed him off.
Hoseok sighs before he stands, adjusting his shorts before he speaks up.
Hoseok
Maybe try to text Seokjin, that might help the situation.
Hoseok
and try to eat or drink something.
Yoongi complies and Hoseok watches as he pulls out his phone, doing as he's told and Hoseok smiles a bit, he remembers when all Yoongi'd do was sass him and throw fusses whenever he asked him to do anything. The character development was crazy.
Hoseok turns before he makes his way to the bedroom, he knew Taehyung said he'd be taking a shower, so he decides to wait for him on the bed.
That's until the waiting turned to 10 minutes, and he realizes the other wasn't coming out any time soon.
He sighs before he stands, and he goes over to the bathroom door, opening in, and he steps inside.
His eyes meets Taehyung unapproachable ones which quite literally shows that he was not in the mood for a conversation but Hoseok wants to get this over with.
Taehyung
Whether you wanna be shouted at.
Taehyung
I'm upset and I don't have it in me to pretend like everything's fine between us so you should probably wait until tomorrow.
Hoseok
Okay but I hope you know I'm sorry.
Taehyung
For what? You've apologized like 50 times this year. It's getting hard to keep up.
Taehyung digs and Hoseok just chuckles, he did tell him he was not in a good mood so he can't even be too upset.
Hoseok
Can I at least join you?
Hoseok asks, and he begins unbuttoning his shirt before he even before he gets an answer from Taehyung who had closed his eyes.
Hoseok doesn't recall the last time he's used to bathtub. Showers were more of his thing but he guesses using the tub today wouldn't hurt.
After he finishes stripping, he hears Taehyung speaking up before he sinks lower into the water, getting more comfortable.
Taehyung
There are 9 bathrooms in this house. I'm sure you and Yoongi can go play with each other other in the other 8.
Hoseok sighs, rolling his eyes, before he puts his right foot in the tub between Taehyung's own legs and his eyes fly open, before he glares at Hoseok, who replies.
Hoseok
The thing about them is that, they're all mine so I get to choose whichever one I wanna use.
Hoseok chuckles at himself and Taehyung mocks him before he rolls his eyes before he sighs and sinks deeper into the tub again.
Hoseok picks up a lofa from the pouch next to the tub before he grabs the soap, and he loothes it into the lofah before he creeps closer to Taehyung, now laying directly between his legs.
Hoseok
Do you want me to shower you first?
Hoseok questions, his breath fanning over Taehyung's ear before he moves his head, so his nose dragged lines across the younger's jawline making him let out a little squirm.
Hoseok smirks at Taehyung quivering beneath him, but that seemingly makes Taehyung upset and the next thing Hoseok knew is he's flipped unto his back now he's beneath Taehyung, lofa still clutched tightly between his slender fingers.
Hoseok's eyes meet Taehyung's domineering ones, and he gulps a little, and he opens his mouth to speak, but only a **** comes out when he feels Taehyung's knee brush against his crotch.
Hoseok lets his eyes fall shut as Taehyung leans into him, pressing their bodies against each other before he places rough kisses along his neck, pulling low moans from Hoseok.
Hoseok throws his head back as Taehyung moves his hips against his, causing the ***** lengths to rub against each other and it felt so good, mainly because neither of them have had any action in the past 4 or so months. It was long overdue, actually.
before long the loofah falls from Hoseok's hand as his moans get louder, and he lets his hand find Taehyung's hair, he pulls roughly trying to get Taehyung to stop kissing his neck and instead attack his lips.
Eventually he manages to pull Taehyung's head away from his bruised neck and now their faces were moving against each other, breathes mingling as Taehyung continued moving his hips.
Hoseok moans before he leans in even closer and he struggles to let out a full sentence.
He begs eyes lost in Taehyung pretty chocolate brown ones, and he seemed adamant and mischievous as he leaned in, noses brushing against each other and Hoseok's eyes fall closed as he anticipates the kiss but all he feels is his lower lip being pulled by Taehyung's teeth before he opens his eyes and Taehyung pulls away with a smug look before he head falls onto the left side of Hoseok's neck, and he goes back to making pretty little love marks.
Hoseok sighs as he arches his back and his falls and it hits the tub a little hard making him let out a noise between a wince and a **** and he feels it straight in his dîck.
He was going to cüm any minute now if Taehyung kept this up and he knew too, because Hoseok's moans got louder and no doubt that Yoongi could probably hear him from wherever he was.
Hoseok lifts his hip as he felt himself about to climax, and he moans nonstop trying to relieve himself but just as he's about to cüm, Taehyung pulls all the way back, and he's left just like that, hard yet a little overwhelmed and Hoseok takes a minute to catch his breath before he sits up, and he glares at Taehyung who had the smuggest smile on his face.
Hoseok
You didn't have to...to...do that..
Hoseok whines and Taehyung just chuckles as he grabs the loofah and he starts washing himself, with Hoseok's eyes on him.
He says drawing his words out, in a way he knows would annoy the hell out of Hoseok.
Taehyung
..but, I wanted to so... I did
Hoseok rolls his eyes and he leans back against the tub before he stands to his feet and he turns the pipe on, standing beneath it to help him with his little erection.
Out of nowhere, Taehyung speaks up.
The younger asked, seemingly not as angry as he was before.
Hoseok sighs before he turns to Taehyung and he folds his arms over his chest before he speaks.
Hoseok
Well, I'm doing great but I mean... I guess now that he's been put to rest I can... breathe almost.
Taehyung chuckles, startling Hoseok.
Taehyung
That's not what I meant but continue.
Taehyung encouraged as he continued scrubbing his skin clean.
Taehyung
You hit your head earlier, so I was worried but since you started talking about how feel in general, continue.
Hoseok apologizes which makes Taehyung looks up confused, and he asks why.
Hoseok
Well, I... nevermind.
Hoseok
I'll tell you once we're out of the shower... Yoongi'll probably want to hear about it too.
Hoseok thinks before he turns again and he laughs.
Hoseok
You know he thinks you hate him because of what he said earlier?
Taehyung hums, before he drops the loofah, and he steps through the water over to the shower, where he turns the water on, letting it engulf his entire body and Hoseok's eyes find his.
Taehyung
Yep, I like that he's feeling guilty.
He smiled smugly as his hand ran over his body.
Hoseok
Cut him some slack, he's pregnant, so naturally he's hormonal, and I guess you pïssed him off, so he just said something to pïss you off too. I know you know he didn't mean it so don't be so petty.
Hoseok chuckles, he'd forgotten a little how petty Taehyung could be when he wanted to be.
Taehyung
I know, you're forgetting I had a pregnant best friend who'd come for me every 2 days...it's just...them being pregnant doesn't make what they say hurt less.
Hoseok gets it, just because Yoongi didn't mean didn't mean that it wasn't true because it was. Taehyung had no relation to the baby, but that didn't mean anything, honestly. At least not to Hoseok, and he knew not to Yoongi either.
They slip into a comfortable silence and Hoseok feels like maybe Taehyung wasn't angry with him anymore, or at least not as angry as he was but he's glad.
Yoongi
Hey hyung! I know you're on that trip with Namjoon but I have an important question.
Yoongi
Is it a problem if I'm throwing food up, every time I eat?
Yoongi
😆 it's not a big deal, right?
It had been a few minutes since he'd sent those message to Seokjin but still, they were unread and the food before him was getting cold but he was just too nervous to eat it.
But did he have a choice? No. The baby needed it, so he sighs heavily before he picks up the sandwich, and he takes a bite, and he eats it slowly. Perhaps, he eats too fast and that was why he kept throwing up.
Yoongi ate the entire thing, and it took him at least 20 minutes to finish it.
Usually, the food would take only just 5 or so minutes to come right back up so when Yoongi sees that it's been well over 10 minutes and still he hasn't felt nauseous he smiled brightly feeling so happy and relieved.
He picks up his phone to tell seokjin to forget he asked but then he feels it, the discomfort and the lump in his throat and he knew. It was coming up
He drops the phone before he runs to the room as quickly as he could, he would have went to the other bathroom on the outside of the room if he hadn't thought that that was where Hoseok and Taehyung had been, but he was in for a shock when he burst into the bathroom and before him stood both of them drying their ***** bodies but he can't stop to admire them as he bends over to toilet, emptying his insides.
Hoseok and Taehyung rush to his side, rubbing a hand over his back as he hurled everything his stomach up.
Taehyung
You're fine. you're fine.
Taehyung reassure as he moves Yoongi's outgrown hair out of his face.
Yoongi sits up after he's finished and he starts crying and shaking his head frantically.
The older struggles as he tried to speak.
Yoongi
I think something's wrong...
Yoongi lets out and he breaks down at that, and Taehyung pulls him into a hug as he sobbed uncontrollably.
Taehyung
There's nothing wrong with the baby and if there is, then we'll find a way to fix it, okay?
Taehyung tries and he manages to calm Yoongi down a bit.
Hoseok
Should we go to the hospital now.
Taehyung
I think it's better to go to the clinic since they're already familiar with us
Hoseok
But we'll have to make an appointment for tomorrow, it's about to rain and you just can't afford to get sick right now.
And both Yoongi and Taehyung nods.
Yoongi sits up and he looks at Hoseok before he looks to Taehyung and a gasp leaves his mouth at the realization that they were *****. He quickly jumps to his feet whispering an apology before he runs out of the room, a little flustered and Hoseok smiles before he sighs.
Taehyung
The baby's gonna be fine.
Hoseok
What about Yoongi? what if-
Taehyung
He's gonna be fine, Hoseok.
Hoseok nods and he quickly wipes his eyes, he guesses losing his dad has made him fearful of losing anyone else. He doesn't want to do it again.
Hoseok stands to his feet and Taehyung throws him his towel before he exits the room, waiting for Hoseok to follow him.
Hoseok
Do you want to try eating something else?
Yoongi shakes his head, it made no sense if he'd just barf it up in the end. He just wants to hurry and go to bed, so he could get to bed so that he could go to the clinic and see what was going on.
Hoseok
Okay, then at least drink this.
Hoseok passes him a glass of water which Yoongi takes, and he takes a few sips before he puts the cup down, and he turns when he hears Taehyung still shouting in the living room. Clearly frustrated.
He had gotten a call from Mirae, at least 30 minutes ago, and they've been arguing since.
Yoongi
Do you think it's serious?
Hoseok
Yeah, I mean he doesn't usually argue with her so. It has to be bad.
Hoseok sighs before he leans up from the counter of the kitchen and he makes his way to the living room, with Yoongi following behind him.
Taehyung was clearly by whatever Mirae was saying to him and the conversation didn't seem to be going anywhere.
Taehyung
It's not a big deal. Why would you want to be there anyway?
Mirae
Because, I'm supposed to be his wife. What do you think the public are gonna think about me when they found out you went to his dad's funeral and not me?
Taehyung
I still don't get why you're upset.
Mirae
He won't answer my calls, won't see me or text me back. We are in an agreement, and he's not being compliant so yes, I'm fücking upset.
Taehyung
Why do you care so much about the fake relationship?
Mirae
It's not a fake relationship Taehyung, we're in an arranged marriage. It's different.
Taehyung sighs before he hangs up the phone, and he closes his eyes before he plops himself into the couch, running a hand over his face.
He loves his sister but shït, she was a pain in the åss.
Taehyung
Why aren't you talking to Mirae?
Hoseok
Is that why you guys argued?
Hoseok asks and he sits in between Taehyung and Yoongi, who had been seated for a while now.
Taehyung nods, turning his body more to face Hoseok, still waiting on an answer to his first question.
Hoseok
Well, she... I don't think she thinks our relationship is fake and I... I don't want to play in that game anymore.
Hoseok
I hate going online and seeing people talk about me and her as if we're this perfect couple and I hate seeing all the articles about us. It... it's all fake.
Hoseok
but she feeds it to them so well, almost like she believes it's real and it scared me so I... I stopped contacting her for a while now.
Yoongi stays silent, he doesn't know what to say when it came to the marriage and Mirae. He had always kept his mouth shut when they spoke about this like that because he doesn't think he has the right.
Taehyung
So, you think she likes you?
Taehyung asks, a little confused and when Hoseok nods he laughs.
Taehyung
My sister doesn't like you Hoseok, she knows that we're together so why would she like you.
Taehyung
She wouldn't do that.
Hoseok sighs and shakes his head before he lays back onto the couch. Taehyung was as stubborn as one could get. He wouldn't believe Hoseok until he saw it with his own eyes and it was so annoying but still one of his best qualities.
Sensing that things were getting a little heated, Yoongi intervenes.
Yoongi
Your hickeys are pretty.
He pipes up, earning equally weird looks from both of them before Hoseok, put a hand under his neck and he realizes he never really looked at them when he came out of the shower.
Yoongi
How are you gonna go out in public looking like that?
Hoseok
There's a little thing called make-up.
Taehyung
And trust me, he knows all about it.
Taehyung
Have you never had to hide hickeys before?
Yoongi gulps, and he looks away, seemingly a little uncomfortable, and it makes Taehyung a little curious.
Taehyung
Can I ask you something really personal?
Yoongi looks back at the other, his head cocked before he nods.
Taehyung
Why do you always get so tensed up when we talk about sëx?
Yoongi gulps again and he laughs nervously before he shakes his head.
Hoseok
He's right. Your demeanor changes, almost like you're uncomfortable.
Taehyung
Is that it, are you uncomfortable?
Yoongi shakes head and he sighs, blowing breath. Were they paying that much attention him that they noticed those little things too?
Probably not, he doesn't want them to be weirded out.
He let out and he fiddles his finger a little and Hoseok sees this before he takes Yoongi's fingers in his hand, stopping him from his nervous ticks.
Taehyung
It doesn't seem like nothing.
Taehyung chimes and they earn yet another sigh from Yoongi before Hoseok speaks again.
Hoseok
You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to. We'll understand.
Hoseok speaks with a smile and he squeezes Yoongi's fingers in his and Yoongi thinks about it.
He told them he was pregnant as a teen, and neither of them made him feel bad, told them about how he'd dreamt of being a musician and they made him feel comfortable with that dream so why would they judge him for this.
Yoongi sighs before he pulls both his legs up from the floor, to make himself more comfortable.
Yoongi
You guys know I'm from daegu, right?
Yoongi
Do you remember a couple months ago when I told you guys I was going back to Daegu?
Yoongi
You asked me if I'd be happy going back there and I said yes.
Yoongi looks down a bit before he straightens himself.
Yoongi
I... I came to Seoul because I hated the life I lived in Daegu.
Yoongi
I never felt safe there...
Yoongi
at least, not after I turned 14.
Taehyung
Did something happen?
Yoongi looks away and he nods, blinking his tears away. Watching Yoongi getting so teary while talking about this had Hoseok and Taehyung feeling a little shakey. Was whatever happened really that bad? They really hope not
Yoongi
I... I was going home from school, a little later than usual because my teacher recommended that I tutor some kids who were falling behind and by the time I was finished it was getting dark.
Yoongi
I didn't have any money to take buses, so I... I always walked home.
Yoongi
I was on my way, I hurried because I knew I was late, and I didn't want to get in trouble with mom but on... on my way, there was this guy.
Yoongi
He... seemed sketchy, but I paid him no mind. I was too naive to.
Hearing that, Hoseok feels his eyes water at that. He knew exactly where this story was going and Taehyung too, he remembers moments where he'd spoken to Yoongi and the older would say he experienced bad things in Daegu. He guesses this was one of those things.
Yoongi
He started following me and when I notice, he told me to follow him so I... *voice crack* I ran.
Yoongi
I ran as fast as I could but I wasn't fast enough...
Tears roll down Yoongi face and he doesn't bother to wipe them away, he just looks at his hands in laps for a few seconds before he breathes heavily and he continues.
Yoongi
He caught me and pinned me against the dirty ground and just like that he...he took my virginity...
Yoongi
I... I begged him to let me go but he... he was entitled to my body so I had no say in what he could and couldn't do.
Taehyung
Don't say it like that...
Taehyung's voice crack and it makes Yoongi looks up and it takes him off guard to see that both of them had been crying. It makes him cry more because he doesn't want them to cry like this because of him.
Yoongi
He did what he wanted with me and then he let me go and I went home. *gulps*
Hoseok
What did your mom do? Did she call the cops?
Yoongi
I... didn't tell her.
Yoongi doesn't look up, and maybe it was best that he didn't because Hoseok and Taehyung were practically breaking at the mention of these stories. What did they mean?
Yoongi
Calling the cops would be a waste of time.
Taehyung
How? They couldve found that guy and put him behind bars or something.
Yoongi chuckles a little at their ignorance.
Yoongi
It's not that simple...
Yoongi
There are no laws in Daegu that govern omegas. The laws are set up in a way that only benefits alphas. So he raped me, but the court system would see it as, he had sex with me. Consent doesn't matter.
Yoongi
In Daegu, I'm just a pretty sëx toy.
Hoseok shakes his head at that.
Taehyung
Don't say that, don't call yourself that, please.
Yoongi
My body has been used from 14 to 25...
Yoongi
that's more than 10 years and...
Yoongi
what other word can you use other than sëx toy.
Yoongi
I wasn't safe anywhere. I couldn't even go to school without being held down.
Yoongi
My teachers and even people who I thought were my friends. They just...wanted my body.
Yoongi
Even when I was pregnant they still...didn't care. They...used me like I was just an object and they...
Yoongi
they did it in my own house...in front...in front of my mom and...my br...brother and my sister and they...they had to watch me...be used...
At this point, Yoongi was hyperventilating. He had just been staring at nothing like he'd been seeing something no one else could.
Hoseok grabs the older pulling him into a hug and Yoongi lets himself be hugged in Hoseok's arms, and soon he feels Taehyung behind him, and he could tell he was sobbing. Really sobbing, like he'd heard of someone's death, and it made him feel awful. Maybe he should've kept this to himself.
Hoseok pulls away after Yoongi seemingly calmed down nd he seemed to still be crying which made Yoongi feel worse.
Hoseok
I... When we...had sex did... did you... was it like them?
Hoseok asks, and Yoongi hates the way the other seemed like he was hanging on by a thread and only one answer could save him.
Yoongi
I... don't remember everything but I... I remember that I kept begging you... even during my heats I've never begged anyone because I always still have some amount of independence in my thoughts. I didn't see you as a threat.
Yoongi
You're the only person who's ever had sex with me and not treat me like an object so...thank you.
Yoongi lets himself fall back into Hoseok chest, and he hears a sigh of relief and content leave Hoseok before Taehyung speaks, kissing the back of his neck.
Taehyung
Did your mom try to stop it?
Taehyung asks and Yoongi closes his eyes. He doesn't know how he's explain this without having his mom look like an åsshole
Yoongi
At first, I didn't tell her because I knew she was stressed with work and my siblings, so I kept it to myself, but then she found out, and she cried after, blaming herself, and she felt bad but then after that she just pretended as if nothing happened.
Yoongi
And when she saw it happen with her own eyes, she just started treating me differently, and I know I should hate her, but I think she sees herself in me.
Yoongi
She blames herself for what's happened me and instead of acknowledging that she failed, she just carried on as if it didn't happen and treating me the way she did was her way of dealing with the stress it caused her, so I never complained.
Taehyung sighs and Yoongi could tell he was angry, even more so than he usually was.
Yoongi
I was going to go back, but I didn't want to. It scared me to death, thinking I had to, so when...when you said you loved me I didn't need any other reason to stay, and I did.
Yoongi
And I know it's selfish of me because even though I send them money every month, they could be getting hurt by those awful alphas and I...
Yoongi
It scares me to go back and witness it all again. I didn't realize how unsafe I felt there until I came here.
He feels them hug him tighter as he cries, telling him it's okay.
Hoseok
Your family are fine Yoongi, we can go get them whenever you want. There are enough rooms here to hold them all, we can even go tomorrow if you want.
Yoongi questioned lowly, his voice a peep scared it was just some sick joke.
Hoseok
I would do anything for you, Yoongi.
Yoongi starts crying again in their arms. He's so overwhelmed by that statement. Anything? Would he really? He sighs burying his face in Hoseok's chest while Taehyung's hand caressed his stomach. He felt...like he'd be alright.
Pathetic
Taehyung
Are you sure you don't want anything to eat before you sleep?
Yoongi nods, barfing wasn't fun. It made him feel awful so yes, he is very sure that he doesn't want to.
He sits on the stool, eyes still a bit puffy from their little cry session back in the couch.
Yoongi
Hoseok, How are you feeling after yesterday?
Yoongi asks and Hoseok just continues playing with his fingers under the table. Clearly, completely zoned out.
Taehyung snaps his fingers before the other making him jump a little.
Taehyung
What are you thinking about so deeply?
Taehyung questions and Hoseok sighs shaking his head, but he huffs when he sees the look on Taehyung's face, telling him to talk.
Hoseok
I just... I'm still shaken by what you had to go through in Daegu.
Yoongi watches as tears pool in Hoseok's eyes again before he looks down. Yoongi slips off his stool, and he makes his way around to the other side of the island where Taehyung and Hoseok sat, and he hugs Hoseok, who turns to him, and he spreads his leg to let Yoongi rest between his legs.
Hoseok
I'm sorry you had to go through all of that alone...
Hoseok whispers in his ears, Taehyung sighs. He knew Hoseok hated seeing people he loved hurt so this was hard for him.
Yoongi
I'm fine. It's in the past...
Yoongi tries to reassure with a soft smile before he speaks again.
Yoongi
And besides, I have both you and Taehyung now so, I'll be fine. Don't you think?
Taehyung smiles brightly as he kept his eyes trained on the two men before him. Yoongi was right, he did have them, and he'd make sure nothing like that ever happened to Yoongi again.
Hoseok nods before he moves his head, so his forehead now rest on Yoongi's, their noses only inches away from brushing against each other.
Hoseok
I.... about uhm...yesterday.
Hoseok starts and Yoongi nods, urging him to continue as he steps back, and he makes his way back around the island once again, taking a seat on the stool he'd been seated at just minutes ago.
Both Taehyung and Yoongi gives him their undivided attention as he opened his mouth to speak.
Hoseok
I don't know...it was harder than I thought it'd be.
He lets out, eyes trained on his hands. Hoseok was one who didn't like to open up, especially not about his feelings so Yoongi knew this was pretty hard for him to talk about.
Hoseok
I wanted the funeral to come go as fast as possible because I thought... I thought I'd feel better. That I'd be able to move on with my life but I... still feel like I lost something.. I...
Hoseok
I just want to move on with my life.
Hoseok finishes and he keeps his gaze away from both Yoongi and Taehyung. He guesses he was a bit scared that they'd judge him for acting like such a child.
Yoongi
Hoseok, he was your dad. I don't think you'll ever be able to just... move on with life.
Yoongi tries and the amount of times Hoseok's heard that is quite funny. Why exactly couldn't he move on with his life?
Hoseok
He was... He was awful to me... Why shouldn't I move on with my life?
Hoseok
I shouldn't care that he's gone, I just... I want to... to do what I want to do for once and even with him gone I still can't.
Hoseok
Even with him dead, I'm still as pathetic as ever.
Taehyung
When are you going to stop calling yourself pathetic? How many times am I going to have to tell you that you're not? huh?
Taehyung
At this point, I'll start believing it.
Yoongi looks to Taehyung, mouthing to him saying "Don't be so harsh."
Taehyung sighs before he looks back to Hoseok, and he takes a gulp. Sure, maybe he was being a bit too harsh but he and Hoseok have been through this so many times.
Taehyung
Look, Hoseok, I know you feel conflicted and you hate that you're grieving and upset about your dad's passing but you've got to accept it before you can move on.
Taehyung
You loved your dad, even though he was awful to you. Even when he couldn't see the greatness in you, you loved him,, and you're not okay with the fact that he's gone.
Taehyung
No matter how much you try to pretend like you don't care, I know you do and I know you're hurting but you don't have to pretend Hoseok.
Taehyung
You don't have to bottle up your feelings because I'm right here and Yoongi's right here. We're both here for you, Hoseok.
Taehyung
So tell us how you really feel.
For a moment, Hoseok just looks at the white quartz countertop, seemingly not going to say anything, but after a while he finally speaks up.
He admits, eyes still trained on the countertop.
Hoseok
I hate that I do but I do and he... I was so horrible to him... I...
He lets out and Yoongi was just not going to have that.
Yoongi
No you weren't, Hoseok. You did nothing wrong.
Hoseok
But I did... I was... I told him that I... I told him off before he died and he... he probably died thinking I hate him.
Hoseok
I... I was so angry and I just said any and everything and it's been killing me.
Hoseok
He always had everything planned for me, and he always told me what to do, and now I'm on my own. I'm so scared to go back to the company because what if I can't do it without him? I...I'll just prove everyone right.
Hoseok
Then I'll let our family down and they'll think even worse of me than they already do.
He finishes in a panicked state, almost as if he was visualizing what he was saying.
Taehyung
You're gonna be fine, Hoseok.
Taehyung
I promise you, you'll be fine.
Yoongi
and like Tae said, you have us. Whatever you need, we're here.
Taehyung
It's nice hearing you say thank you instead of "I'm sorry"
Taehyung teases with a soft chuckle, and feels better when he sees that it made Hoseok smile a little.
Hoseok
Don't get used to it.
Yoongi
Trust me, we want to get used to it.
Hoseok
Whatever. Are you sure you don't want something to eat before bed? It's pretty late and-
Hoseok tries again, but Yoongi was adamant.
Yoongi
No, I just have no appetite and I'm so tired of barfing so I'll wait until tomorrow.
Taehyung
fine but you'll eat the moment you wake up.
Taehyung states sternly and Yoongi fights the urge to mick him.
Yoongi
Shall we go to bed now?
He questions, before he takes Hoseok's hand pulling him with him.
Taehyung
You're tired already?
Taehyung asks as if it was such a hard thing to believe.
Yoongi
Uhm...Yes, must I remind you I have a child growing in me.
Taehyung
Okay, I guess it won't kill me to sleep early tonight.
He puts out, clearly not very enthusiastic about his choice.
Hoseok
Well, so much for watching stupid romcoms tonight.
Hoseok adds too, as he continues to let Yoongi pull him away.
Yoongi
But, cuddling with me is way better than any romcom, don't you think?
Hoseok jokes, making Taehyung a little as he passes them and Yoongi immediately drops Hoseok's hand before he glares at him, clearly not a fan of his little joke.
Yoongi
Wow, Maybe I should just go home.
He retorts, turning away from Hoseok.
Hoseok
Come on, it was just a joke.
Hoseok defends as he follows behind the two.
Yoongi
Do you see me laughing?
Hoseok
No, but you just have no sense of humor.
Hoseok opens again, making Yoongi glare at him yet again and Taehyung laughs at Hoseok's horrible attempt at charming Yoongi.
Taehyung
You're digging your own grave right now, Seok.
Hoseok
I know but it's so fun to see him all riled up. It's cute.
Yoongi
You won't think so when I locked you out of your own room.
Yoongi threatens as he stares at the other who only smiles at him, not taking him seriously at all.
Hoseok
I've got the keys somewhere around here and you also happen to love cuddling up next to me so you won't really do that, will you?
Hoseok responds, a smug smile that Yoongi's grown to love playing on his lips, and before he can even think to respond Taehyung's loud voice comes from their room.
Taehyung
Guys, shut up and come on the bed, would you? Let's sleep.
Hoseok walks away and makes his way into the room, Yoongi trailing behind him.
Taehyung demands as Yoongi closes the door behind him.
Yoongi
why do I have to do it?
Taehyung
You're literally a feet away from the light switch.
Yoongi sighs, but he does turn off the lights anyway, and just as he does, the night lamp flips on and the room is illuminated. He walks his tiny self over the bed, crawling between the two.
Hoseok
Are you comfortable?
Hoseok asks as he pulls Yoongi, who instantly responds to the touch, closer.
Yoongi nods with a bright grin as he feels Taehyung inching closer to him then he snakes his arm around the older's waist, making him smile even more.
That was probably the first time he'd ever been asked that question and being honest, he was.
In the past month, he's been able to say he was okay. That he felt safe and like nothing could go wrong.
Sometimes, the thought that he ruined Hoseok And Taehyung's relationship lingers in the back of his mind, but then they hold him like this, and it's hard to believe.
He wants to be able to lay with them like this forever, and he knows things will change soon, He's about to become a parent, Hoseok's bound to return to work some time soon and Taehyung as well, but he's confident they'll still find a way to make all this work. At least, he hopes they can.
and they slowly drift off to sleep, tangled in each other's arms.
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