Everything I Wish You Never Know
Sunset
Eucia
Anyway, disclaimer !!
1. The character visualization is not my art, all of them are sourced from Pinterest, and belongs to their own respectful artist (some are AI but yeah).
2. The following story depicts trauma and sensitive topics such as All kinds of abuse, Non-Con, Degrading, Mind Breaking, use of inappropriate words or phrases. I strongly advise for people under the age of 18: DO NOT read this shit.
3. The Idea, Plot, Storyline, and Characters belonged and originated from me. Do not copy my work pls I literally do this as a hobby (bahan gabutan)
Eucia
Further notice will be warned on the upcoming chapters. Again this is just some messed up story in my head after watching a couple drug dealing movie haha. Anyway, Enjoy (you have been warned!)
Back then, everything used to be alright.
Younger Liam
Hop on! I have something to show you.
Younger Liam
You'll love it.
But back then, i had you.
Younger Ilya
What is this..
Younger Liam
I know you're going to say "Oh great. All that miles just to get here?"
Younger Liam
I know it's far from school, but hey!
Younger Liam
I tell you something. When the clock strikes at 6, You'll see what i mean.
Younger Liam
Good guess, pretty boy.
Younger Liam
Come, sit here with me.
And i have always hated sunset.
Morning, day, and night.
Everything will always stay the same no matter how much i suffered.
As long as you're here, i can bare with everything.
Younger Liam
It's starting.
Younger Liam
I know you don't like sunsets.
Younger Liam
I don't think you like anything in particular.
Younger Liam
So tell me. What do you like?
Younger Ilya
...I don't know.
Younger Liam
In the same scenario, if someone asks me about what i like, i would never hesitate to tell them.
Younger Liam
I wouldn't even stutter.
Younger Ilya
What do you like, Liam?
Younger Liam
*Looks straight to Ilya*
Younger Liam
Can't you tell?
But maybe i was blind. Perhaps, too careless.
I held your hands, took your words seriously.
The sun sets, and so is my heart.
Younger Liam
We're not a child anymore.
Younger Liam
We have a lot of things to do, responsibilities to mind.
Younger Liam
Then we will be busy, with life and work i mean.
Younger Liam
And times like these will be the times i'd look back to everytime.
Younger Liam
*Tightens his grip on Ilya's hands*
Younger Ilya
*glances towards liam*
Younger Liam
I want everything to stay like this.
Younger Ilya
That's silly.
Younger Liam
But i have you.
Younger Liam
If that's not the silliest thing ever, then staying like this forever wouldn't sound as bad.
Younger Ilya
Why would you think so?
Younger Liam
Sometimes i feel like i don't deserve you.
Younger Liam
You're so pretty, even more when you smile, or when you're mad.
Younger Liam
And smart too, like really smart it gets me annoyed at times.
Younger Liam
*Leaned his head on Ilya's shoulders*
Younger Liam
And you're so cute, when you're focusing on something.
Younger Liam
It's like you're on your own world.
Younger Liam
Oh yeah. You're so kind too.
Younger Liam
Like do you remember that time someone tried to harass Natya back in the hallway?
Younger Liam
You kicked him really good in the nuts.
Younger Ilya
Oh please, forget that one.
Younger Liam
Natya was laughing.
Younger Liam
And i were stunned because i didn't expect that, coming from you.
Younger Liam
Malice doesn't suit you.
Younger Liam
But i guess it does now..
Younger Ilya
Anything else?
Younger Liam
I made a list of every single "Why i wish to stay young with Ilya forever" but it's too cheesy to even mention.
Younger Ilya
Is me being an omega a part of it?
Younger Liam
I didn't even consider that as one.
Younger Liam
Even if the situation's reversed and you're the alpha, i don't think anything will change.
Younger Liam
Maybe, a little.
Younger Liam
...Actually, i don't know.
Younger Liam
It doesn't even cross my mind, at all.
Younger Ilya
Understandable, coming from you.
Younger Liam
Hey now, don't diss me.
Looking at myself from your perspective.
Perhaps i was too young when despair held me on my neck.
So i believed you and lied to myself.
That i wasn't dirty, that i was naive and innocent. Just like what you think i am.
And i get too scared to say that i love you, knowing it's not actually me that you think of.
Younger Liam
If anything, i maybe the luckiest person to ever live.
Younger Liam
I don't even know how you've came to like me.
Younger Liam
I have everything when i have you.
Younger Liam
Aww, Ilya's not liking the romantic cheesy lines?
Younger Ilya
It's embarassing.
Younger Liam
I'll say it over and over again.
Younger Liam
I love you, Ilya.
Younger Liam
Like, so much
Younger Liam
Like the whole universe kind of much
Younger Liam
Even if you won't say it back.
Younger Liam
I'll keep telling you how much i want to be someone you could come back to.
Younger Liam
I want to be the first person you call if anything ever happened.
Younger Liam
I want to be yours, even if you never asked me to.
There's just so much that i want to tell you.
But my mouth went silent.
Every word i wanted to say, started to feel strange. What was i supposed to say? Everything.
But what is 'Everything'?
Younger Liam
I love you, Ilya. And i'll never get tired of saying it.
Younger Ilya
Then say it again.
Younger Ilya
One more time.
Younger Liam
I love you, Ilya.
Younger Liam
I love you, okay?
Right. That's everything that mattered.
I love you. Isn't it so hard to say?
Just like you who wouldn't get tired of saying it, i would never get tired of hearing it from you.
I love you, Liam. And one day, i hope that im able to say it back.
As the sun sets, i have your head leaned on my shoulder. Your hands locked in grip, and your eyes glancing over mine.
I understood, Liam. I understood why you've always wanted to stay young forever.
Younger Liam
The sunset is beautiful, isn't it?
Younger Ilya
No, not really. Not now, ever.
Younger Liam
I know. I don't think so either. Everything pales in comparison to you.
Younger Ilya
I like the sunrise better.
Younger Liam
It's the same with me. Though, i like you better than anything.
Younger Liam
So stay, will you?
Younger Liam
Don't go, don't leave.
Younger Liam
We'll watch the sunset over and over again, until you get tired of it.
Younger Liam
You'll always have me.
When i realised, you've became the biggest part of my heart.
Nothing could ever hurt me more than losing you.
So i left, and i left my everything behind.
- Character Introduction -
Younger Liam
William Kievel
A late bloomer Alpha.
16 (Current Age)
He looks dead serious most of the time but is actually a die hard fan of dad jokes and cheesy pick-up lines.
Younger Ilya
Illyich Kavya (Ilya)
An early bloomer Omega.
16 (Current Age)
Looks uninterested and is actually uninterested. The only thing he likes is Liam, Natya, And chemistry.
Younger Natya
Yves Lithyanova Natya
An early bloomer Alpha
16 (Current Age)
Used to have a younger sister, so she treats everyone as her younger sibling. Is a great mother figure and caretaker.
Sunrise (18+)
Eucia
This chapter contains mentions of Illegal Activities and Abuse. Please be wise about it @@.
A sound of knocking came from the door to a one-bedroom apartment.
Ilya's not in any state of expecting a guest to come over, not that any of his guest pays attention to courtesy.
Defiying his will, he went up and responded to the sound by unlocking the door.
Francis
Oh, it was such a hassle to get a grip of you.
Francis
Where have you been?
Francis
That's what you told me yesterday, and the day before that too.
Francis
Maybe you should start by telling me exactly why you've been ignoring my calls?
Ilya
Yeah. That too. Maybe you can start by not giving anyone the key duplicate to my house?
Ilya
Your friends have been coming over at night, and leave first thing in the morning.
Francis
Ethel, you mean. Did he bring anyone else?
Francis
We'll talk inside.
Francis and Ilya went inside.
They sat on the sofa, across from each other.
Francis
...About your keys, let's change it.
Francis
You and i'll be the only ones who have it. No other is going to come over without any permission.
Ilya
Yeah. I wonder. Why now of all times?
Ilya
It didn't cross your mind?
Francis
Oh im sorry. It's my fault for letting someone i know have the keys to an apartment where a call-boy is living?
Francis
You're an omega. And he's not the type to fall for someone like you. How about a guessing game?
Francis
I'll start first. Were you seducing him?
Ilya
Tell me why you're here.
Francis
Don't set it across, Ilya.
Francis
Come sit beside me.
Ilya was unwilling, but he did exactly what Francis told him to.
Francis
*Put his hands on Ilya's thighs*
Francis
Really? Why? Are you disappointed that it's not ethel who came looking for you?
Francis
Disappointed that it was me?
Francis
*His hands went up from Ilya's thigh to his hips*
Francis
No, you were inviting me. An oversized t-shirt with no pants? You're dying for someone to touch your thighs, don't you?
Francis
Im doing you the favor.
Francis
Won't? What won't you do?
Francis
Yeah. Let him inside your house? Or inside you?
Francis
How about the other?
Francis
You know. Start by saying "I won't seduce anyone else."
Ilya
Else? Are we in a relationship or something, Francis?
Ilya
Yeah. Yeah we are. A producer and a distributor. That's what we are.
France slipped his fingers inside of Ilya.
Francis
How long did you sleep again? It's all wet.
Francis
Not until you tell me what i wanted to hear.
Ilya held his hands and closed his thighs to stop Francis from moving further.
Ilya
Im sorry. I won't do that either. Anymore.
Ilya
You'll never hear anything like that from me. Ever.
Francis glanced towards Ilya who's trying to resist his touch. His eyes watery, and cheeks flushed red to the nape.
He looks so pretty when he's not all cocky.
Francis
Keep clenching. It's cute.
Ilya
What else do you want? Get your hands off!
Francis
That's right. My name.
Francis pulled his fingers out.
Ilya was breathing heavily, biting his lips and covered his thighs with his oversized t-shirt in embarassment.
Francis
Remember who saved you.
Francis
Don't act out, and wag your tails only to me when i asked you to.
Francis patted Ilya's head and kissed him on the nape. He looked at Ilya's in the eyes. Smiling while waiting for the other to give him the response.
Francis leaned by the sofa.
Francis
I want you to cook another batch.
Francis
Am i not clear enough?
Ilya
Where did those 18 pounds go?
Francis
They're high in demand.
Francis
Yes. You're a really good cook, dear.
Francis
Weren't you expecting this?
Francis
Methamphetamine, 99,17% purity.
Francis
Even the expert would be amazed when they knew that a college drop-out could make such pure, crystals.
Francis
Im talking about you, chemist. Even if you haven't finished your degree, you showed us what you're capable of.
Ilya
That, dose. It kills people!
Ilya
Don't tell me you sold them, just as it is?
Ilya stood up and walked away towards his bedroom. But just before then, Francis held his hands.
Francis
Tell me the problem.
Ilya
That, that would make me the killer.
Francis
You're way too smart to act cute and naive like this.
Ilya
Do you take me as a joke?
Francis
So what? They knew the risk, and they still paid. Full cash, just to get high in the clouds and die.
Francis
You're shifting the blame too much.
Francis
It doesn't trace back to you, Ilya.
Francis puts his hands on Ilya's shoulder, trying to calm him down.
Francis
Besides, you're already too far drowned to get back on the surface.
Francis tighten his grip on Ilya's shoulder, just enough to make him flinch.
Ilya tried to get Francis hands off his shoulder, but Francis didn't budge.
Francis
Im sorry, i wasn't thinking straight.
Ilya looked up to him in fear and disbelief. In which, wasn't his favorite kind of gaze.
Francis
... Im taking you outside, Ilya. We'll get our minds out for a little.
Francis
Dress up. I'll be waiting outside.
Francis left and closed the door.
A couple minutes later, Ilya was ready, and they drove out of the apartment parking lot and left without any idea of where to go.
Francis
There's this café, that has just opened up. Do you know?
Ilya
Have you ever seen me going out?
Ilya
Who locked me in that one bedroom apartment with guys coming in and out without notice?
Francis
Pardon. That's really silly of me.
Francis
You don't like the apartment? Just say so and i'll move you somewhere else.
Times went by, and they've arrived at the café that Francis mentioned.
Francis
Yes. Beautiful, isn't it?
Francis
You want to order something?
Ilya
I should be the one asking.
Ilya
I will order. You're not keeping me here, Won't you?
Francis
Alright. You can get me anything, and buy anything you'd like.
Francis
Go ahead. Open the car storage and pick your card.
Once Ilya opened the car storage, multiple black cards were stacked. Ilya glanced back towards Francis just to see him grin.
Francis
*Laughs*
Want me to pamper you, Pretty boy?
Ilya
No, at least not with dirt money.
Hence saying such, Ilya took a random card and went out.
Eucia
Hi. May i take your order?
Ilya
Yes, uh.. A vanilla latte please. And um..
Ilya
Like something really bitter. Do you have any?
Eucia
Weird request.. But we do ^^.
Eucia
So, a regular Vanilla Latte and a regular French Roast. Is that it?
Eucia
Coming right up, sir.
Ilya sat down on a long sofa, right infront of a window leading to the streets. He was waiting for the order to finally arrive.
On the car, Francis was keeping an eye on him. And Ilya knew.
Eucia
Here is your coffee, sir. Please enjoy !!
Eucia
Oops, my bad. Please, right here.
Eucia
The total will be $26.
Ilya paid his coffee and signed.
Eucia
Thank you, come again!
Ilya
'What, Is she on drugs?'
When he was seeking the way out, He realized that the café is quite crowded. Everyone was waiting in line, Blocking the doorway. Suddenly, someone bumped into him.
Liam
It's quite crowded in here.
Ilya
'You've got to be kidding me..?'
Ilya
Sorry, I'll be going.
Eucia
I swear im not on drugs while making this.
- Character Introductions -
Liam
William Kievel
Age 23 (Currently)
An Alpha.
Just the same usual Liam. Maybe a little older, wiser and mature.
Francis
Francis (Alias, real name currently unknown)
Age 27
An Alpha.
He's serious about work. Is a gentleman when the situation is demanding.
Ilya
Illyich Kavya (Ilya)
Age 23 (Currently)
A Dominant Omega.
The same usual Ilya. A little older but no wiser. College drop-out but he knew far more than what he learned.
Leaving
For me, everything went by like a blink of an eye.
The scent of summer, or your hands in mine. Wondering if i could ever, spend the rest of my time with you.
I told you everything. Even the smallest, most insignificant talks.
I tried to let you know how much you mean for me.
Everything i did that summer, Ilya. I did it all for you.
I wished that you would do the same for me too.
Younger Liam
Ilya, at least.. Tell me why.
I found you in everything.
And as cruel as it sounds, i wished that you would find me in everything too.
Ilya, i can't ever bring myself to hate you. No matter how cruel, no matter how bad you treated me.
Younger Liam
I don't know when i'll get to see you again.
Younger Liam
Im sorry if i did anything that leads up to this. Im sorry if i hurt you. Im sorry about everything.
Younger Liam
Please say it back.
Younger Liam
Just this once. At least let me know how you felt all this time. At least let me know that i wasn't the only one hoping for us.
Younger Ilya
You'll find someone better.
Younger Liam
Not that, Ilya.
I wasn't hurt about what you said.
I take it all up and leave it to die in my heart.
But what hurts me most is myself.
Ilya, you were everything to me. But it seems like that wasn't the case for you.
I hated myself for not being able to lend you a helping hand.
I hated myself for how it ended.
Younger Liam
If you ever changed your mind..
Younger Liam
Im always at the field. At the other side of the school. The same place where we use to watch sunset together.
Younger Liam
You'll always find me.
Younger Liam
You'll always have someone to return to.
Younger Ilya
Don't, Liam. Don't wait for me.
Younger Ilya
Don't feel the same way like you do.
Ilya. Your eyes are so beautiful. You'd always look at me in the eyes when you're sincere about something.
So why were you looking at the other way?
Younger Liam
As long as you'd like.
Younger Liam
As long as you need.
Younger Liam
It's not up to you.
When you feel like it, Ilya.
You can always knock on my door. I'll be waiting, anytime.
Because you owe me something.
The truth that you weren't able to say before.
I want to hear it. Straight from you, eye to eye with my hands holding yours.
And after that, I'll leave. Because that's all i needed to hear.
Younger Ilya
What if it's not me who came back?
Younger Ilya
What if i changed, Liam?
Younger Ilya
What if im not someone you're waiting for?
Younger Liam
Then come back.
Younger Liam
Even if you changed your name, or changed your mind.
Younger Liam
I'll always know you.
Until you decided to knock on my door, I'll be waiting. Even if it took forever, Ilya.
You'll always have a place to come back to.
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