Hi , I'm Mikz and I'm 22 years old. It's my story.

My hate story.....

1 January, 2018....

good morning.....ahhh it's new year. Let's start the new year with new toothbrash. Now I have to eat. why do people have to eat, I don't like to eat it's boring 😒

- it's only boring for you... mikz. now stop talking and finish your food.

- yes Mom.

- mom why don't dad care for us..is it true that he don't like me because I'm daughter and he wanted a son.

- who told you this..

- I hear it from step mother..she was telling others about it.

- I told you you don't have to go to your father house , why don't you listen to me?

- I miss my brother mom, he is my step brother but I love him. He is just a kid.

- do whatever you want.

- it's already 9.am.

mom I'm going to work.

I work in a cafe. as a part timer. I want help Mom. she work hard for running our family.

mom and me. we are only family for each other.

- oh hello, mikz how you doing?

- good. how about you Narin?

yeah good. why you are always rude with me mikz?

bcz I don't like you. you know that.

yeah whatever , bye.

bye.

Narin was my classmate in high school. she don't like me either. because her crush used to like me and always make trouble for me.

forget it. we are no longer friends or classmates....

I have to go meet my friend after work.

my online Friend like sister from another mother my cutipie..Zia..

it's 7.pm.

hello , Zia , my work is done. let's meet at the park.

- hey mikz.. my girlfriend. I'm gonna kill you. why didn't you call me? for the whole 1 day you didn't call me

ohh my wify Zia, I was busy.

ok I forgive you. let's eat ice cream...

Zia it's winter

I Know, eating ice cream in winter is the best thing.

ok let's go...

mikz I wanna say something to you ..

yes Zia say.

I meet Kris yesterday. he was asking about you. Narin also was with him. are they dating? do you Know anything?

Zia just stop thinking about him. he dumped you..

let's go back. it's already 9.pm.

mom waiting for me. bye Zia. I'll call tomorrow.

bye mikz.

mom I'm home. mom where are you? mom...

oh my little daughter I was in next door. new family came in next door. I went to meet theme.

let's have dinner.

mom do you miss dad?

no. not anymore. stop talking just go to sleep..

every night I think about it why it's like this. why we don't have a happy family. mom dad divorce when I was in class 4. why they didn't love each other.

why dad doesn't care about me. why he don't care I die or live.

why he hate me...

Hateeeee ......meeee....

another long day. I have to call zia.

hey Zia... good morning

hey good morning mikz. I'm still sleeping. why did you call.

wake-up already. it's 7.am. did you forget we have to go shopping.

oh yeah I forget. we are going in concert today.

let's meet at the shopping mall

mom doesn't let me go anywhere. especially late at night. she is protective about me.

I never had boyfriend. become mom doesn't like it. I beg her so much to let me go to the concert. because of Zia she agreed to let me go..

8:30.am.

by the way what we are going to buy? I'm so happy finally we are going to the concert. I will finally see my idol group black panther.

I'm also too much happy Zia.

after the concert we go back home. I didn't know that night I will meet him. the curse of my life...

people call it love but for me it was curse..

I bumped into him suddenly.

oh I'm so sorry miss..did you get hurt. i apologize because of it.

it's ok. bye

by the way my name is August. and what's your name little lady.

I'm mikz.

nice to meet you, miss mikz. actually i'm new in this area. can I ask you a help.

yeah, sure.

i forget the way of my building. can you help me. the building number is *****.

oh it's my building also. you can come with me.

I'm so relieved now finally found my building.

Wich floor do you live ?

5th floor. and you?

me too. so your family came and live in next door.

not my family it's only me. they came to help me to settle in the apartment.

we reach at the home. have good night. Mr. August.

you too miss mikz..

after dinner I was in my room. I don't know why I think about him.

he is handsome, tall it could be 6'2 .

arghhh why I'm thinking about him.

next morning , mom I'm going to work.

i was working at Cafe.

ohh hi, miss mikz. I didn't Know you work here.

Mr. August how do you will know you said you are new in this area.

sorry my mistake.

what you want to order?

plz give me black coffe. how much?

no need. you are new here it's my treat.

really. thanks a lot miss mikz.

you can call me mikz. I'm younger than you.

and you live next door. no need to show formalities.

the you can call me August . I will not mind if you call me by my name.

see you later mikz and you are looking cute.

did he was flirting with me? ufff what am I thinking.

hey Zia when did you came?

when you was talking that handsome guy. you was too amazed by him . you don't even notice me.

i wasn't amazed by him. stop talking rubbish Zia.

why you are blushing then. love at first sight?

just tell me mikz. I'm your best friend.

ohh Zia stop. I made new cookies.

really....!

Zia love to eat. she forgets everything if you give her food.

it's already 9.pm. we had so many customer today. mom gonna scold me.

mom I'm home.

why you are late today.?

we had so many customer.

ok. don't do it again.

do your dinner fast.

after dinner I go to near the window. someone is standing near window of the next apartment. is it him?

hi mikz. it's your room?

yeah.

wow it's my room. you didn't sleep?

no. you also don't sleep.

yeah I'm a night owl. I have lots of work to do at night.

what work do you do?

I'm a freelancer. and also do a part time job in a internet cafe at the day time.

it's almost late at night. I have go to work tomorrow.

are you permanent employee at the cafe?

no part timer but sometimes when we have lots of customer I have to stay more time.

ok then good night.

yeah , good night.

next day 6. pm.

hey mikz...

oh hi August.

do you had lots of customer today at cafe?

no, I go for an interview.

how was it?

it was good. I hope I will get the job.

good luck, mikz.

thanks.

let's go home together.

yeah, sure.

mom what are you doing. mom are you tansed about something?

what happen mom?

nothing just thinking about the debt.

how we will repay it.

don't worry mom soon I will find another job.

I feel ashamed, for me you couldn't continue your study. now your working hard.

mom don't talk like that it's my responsibility to take care of you. everything will be okay Mom.

it's 11.pm

but I can't sleep.

seeing mom like that hurt me so much.

I go near to the window. today he is not here.

did he fall asleep. but he say he have lots of work at night. is he doing his work.

suddenly August appears near the window.

hey mikz. what are you doing. did you miss me?

what he is saying...

sorry mikz I was just joking. don't mind me.

it's ok.

can't sleep?mikz.

no

do you read books?

not really.

I have lots of book. you can borrow them.

would you like to have one? right now.

right now?

open the door.

ok.

take that book . it's love story. you will love it.

thanks August.

didn't you no need show formalities. then why are you thanking me.

I have to go now. good night August.

have a good dream. Mikz.

I read the book. does love really exist?

don't know, because I never fall in love.

next day...

today we don't have that much customer.

I should call zia.

hey Zia. where are you.

hey mikz. sorry I didn't tell my grandmother is sick so I came to see her.

is she okay?

yeah she is okay now.. I'll call you later.

ok bye take care Zia...

Zia really care about her grandmother.

I also used to care and love my grandmother.

but she is no longer alive.

I miss her....

now it's time to go home.

mom is not home. I should call her.

mom where are you?

mikz I came to see my brother.

you can wait next door. I allready told them.

ok mom

August house, why my heart start beating so fast.

the door is open. is someone home?

hey mikz.

oh .. hi August.

where is you mom?

mom gose to near by shoop to buy some stuff.

so we are alone at home. thinking inside head.

when will aunty come?

she will come Soon.

did you read the book.

yeah it was good.

mikz , can I ask something?

of course.

do you have boyfriend?

(why is he asking me this)...ahh No, I don't have boyfriend.

he suddenly brust into lugh...

you really don't have boyfriend? stop lying.

why I will lie to you.

then I have chance to be your boyfriend..

after hearing that i feels a mini heart attack.............

when he say that. why feels like that. my heart start betting fast. I feel nervous.

mikz i'm saying truth. i'm saying what I feel. I like you mikz. I fell for you that night when I see you for the first time. my feelings for you are sincere. you can give me your answer. take your time.

after hearing him my head gone blanked.

August I think I should go now. my mom will arrive soon.

bye....

I will wait for your answer mikz.

it's midnight. but I can't sleep. what answer I should give him. do I like him? do I have feelings for him? I don't know. but whenever I see him I feel something in my heart.

7 days later.......

it's been a week. I didn't see him. my heart aching. I miss him.

I can't think anything I have to go to the cafe.

and I came back home from work.

I wanna see him Soo badly. is he working?

suddenly he appears near window.

hey little lady. long time no see.

yeah it's been a week.

will you give me your answer.? you Know waitting is the hardest thing in the world.

I Know. but do you Know if that waitting is beautiful then it's love....and I will give your answer. my answer is yes.

I'll be your girlfriend.

mikz you don't know how happy I am.

will meet me at your cafe tomorrow. I'll go to your cafe after work.

ok August. I'll wait for you. good night August.

have a good dream.

good night my little lady..

hearing what he say make me blush. it's feeling amazing. now I have boyfriend. I never thought about it. it's feeling good.

next day we meet at my cafe. he came to pick me up. he was looking awfully handsome.

we go to the restaurant . had dinner. that night was so special. we came home together. and we talk through the window.

my mom doesn't know about it. I'm afraid if Mom found out she will be angry. I can't let found out about it. at least until mom doesn't repay the debt.

that is how we were dating. talking all night. coming back home together.

after 3 month of dating something happen.

my mom go to her friends house.

and go to August's apartment to see him

he was looking pale. I was worried. is he ok.

I call him and he suddenly start smiling. he came closer to me. he was drunk. I can smell that. he was smelling to bad.

he hold me tightly. August let me go you are too much drunk. he refused to let me go. he grabbed my hand and took me to his bedroom. he throw me in the bed. he strip my clothes. and tie my hands. I can't scape from him. I was scared. I beg him but he didn't stopped. that time I feels like he is not human but a beast. he raped me.........

after 2 hours he untie my hand and let me go.

I can't walk. it's hurting. somehow I managed to came to my apartment. I took a shower. I wanted to die that time. I will never see his face again.

what I'll do now.... I don't know....

it's been 3 days I didn't go to work. I don't wanna go outside. for the 3 day I didn't talk to him. he tried to talk to me. but I didn't allow.