The pain seems to go away as my body is sinking deeper into the sea. I don’t know if someone will save me as nobody loves me, including my own family. Feeling my body sinking into the dark abyss, I finally realized that

this pathetic life of mine seems to be ending. Dark Memories of my life which I want to erase came flooding into my mind.

“Why are you even born, only if I have killed you when you’re born, our life would have been so much peaceful…….”

“You have to go abroad as it is the only way to save our company reputation and I won’t take the answer as no, got it….”

“Why you hate me so much meimei, I always think of you as my sweet sister, never hurt you, so why….”

“If I ever see you or even your shadow near ningning, I swear to god, I will kill you and feed you to dogs understand, you know what you are a monster, monster in the skin of human….”

“Father send this disgusting b***h to abroad\, I don’t want our ningning to be sad and hurt by her ....”

“Meimei take care of yourself. Wait for me there, I will definitely come there to accompany you. I know it's painful but try to forget everything. It will only bring bad memories..... ”

"Why everyone hates me so much, what have I done. Can't they just love me like song ning...."

Hai….

I was never loved by my family, always hatred. If I have a next life, I will never love someone again. Will always remember the pain of loving someone. Goodbye everyone one last time, I hope you all be happy and live peaceful without me……

As sinking deeper and deeper, I hoped that in my next life I won't love anyone so that I won’t get hurt…. Before I finally lost my Consciousness.

In the beautiful yet elegant room, a horrible looking girl was sleeping, yet her facial expression are distorted, she is having a very tormenting dream right now….

Miss, Its Mary please wake up, are you having a very bad dream miss, please wake up miss, miss…………

She woke up, and a sudden realization hit her.

Why, why I am still alive, I remember for sure that I was in car and then due to accident the car got out of the bridge and last thing I remember, I was sinking into the deep sea, so why I am still alive.

“Miss what happened, are you alright. Did you have a bad dream, miss, you can tell me.”

“Mary…..”

“Yes, miss I am here, what happened”

“Mary, tell me today’s date. Hurry”!

“Miss, today’s 25th August.”

“Tell me the year”

"What happened to you miss. Do you still felling pain somewhere in your body"

I am not in the mood to hear Mary nonsense right now, I want to just confirm if what I am thinking right now is correct or not.

“Year, Mary” I said, stressing on the word year.

“Miss, it’s 20XX year”

What….., so I returned to 10 years back in time, at first I was shocked but next become excited. It’s so awesome now that I can change the most important phases of my life, now I can complete the regrets I didn’t get to live up.

“Mary, from today on you don’t need to serve me, I am a big girl now”

“Why, miss, I love to serve you. Why are you doing this, what happened to you, you were normal yesterday, did the nightmare got you scared, tell me miss”.

“You are frustrating me, Mary. Tell the butler on your way that don't assign me any maid. I am moving out of this house.”

"What!! What are you talking about, miss. Moving out, what !!. no, no we have to tell master about this"

"Didn't you hear me get out, you don't need to come up here again."

**Mary seems to be shocked by the words of song mei. But she can’t do anything\, she thought if that’s what song mei wants she can give it to her.**

“Miss, if that’s what you want then I will obey you, take care of yourself miss"

"You too. Have a good life ahead”

By saying this, Mary moved out of song mei room.

It’s finally peaceful, it’s my wish to not love anyone in my next life and I think that God gave me this opportunity to correct all my mistakes and this is my first step to my new life.

**As song mei returned to 10 years back in time\, there are several things that she needs to remember. The important events that ruined her life.**

I need to remember every detail of my past life that led to my doom slowly.

Song mei and song ning are the only daughter of Mr. song and mrs. Song. They were the only daughter that were born in the song family after 100 years of family history, even the elders are waiting for their cute granddaughter. And then their cute little granddaughter song ning came to the world.

Aside from song ning mr and mrs song already has 3 sons. Mr's song also has a younger brother who has 2 sons. When song ning borned in the family, everyone was very happy and that day is considered as a festival in the song family. When song ning turned 14 years old, everyone came to know that song ning is not the only daughter mr and mrs song had. There is a twin sister of song ning who was also born on the same day as song ning, but it is only known to the doctor and a nurse, and they made a deal with a village couple to send them a child, so they can adopt her.

When the couple received a girl, they were very furious because they want a son, but the doctor threatened them to take them to the police if they returned the child as now this case involved child kidnapping.

The couple got scared and accepted the child.

But five years later, the same nurse came to know that she is diagnosed by cancer, well she was quite superstitious so then a priest told her to make mend to all her mistakes she committed and if she corrects them, she will be free from this disease.

Then the nurse thought that she must tell the song family about their daughter, who knows if they would also give her some cash as a reward.

When the song couple came to know that there’s another daughter of their outside, they discussed it with the family. Grandpa song came to the conclusion that the blood of song family must not wander outside. So, the couple visited their another daughter to take her back from that couple.

But when they themselves seen song mei they were surprised then embarrassed that how can they introduce such a daughter to the world. She has crude habits and also doesn’t know anything, nothing like song ning, she also looked so different from them, so they also took her to hospital for paternity test, but the result was that song mei was truly their daughter.

At first, song mei adopted parents made a fuss but when they thought how they have wasted money to adopt song mei they raged about the matter and told the song couple everything and also demanded compensation for raising song mei.

Song couple decided to pay them for raising song mei and the condition was that they must never contact song mei in future. Song mei was confused about the whole situation, but later became happy to know that song couple are her real parents. She has seen them dressed up and thought that they must be rich, so now she won’t need to work in the fields any more, and they can also provide her delicious food. Overall, she was happy and expected a new phase of her life.

When song ning came to know that she has another sister. She was happy at first but then became afraid that due to her other sister life experiences everyone will take care of song mei more, and then they will forget about her. She was ashamed of such thoughts, but how can a child hide her feeling from her family, so she told everything to her family and also cried that they must not forget her.

Song ning is the apple pie of song family. So everyone decided to take extra care of song ning. And in the main house, everyone was instructed to give special attention to song ning.

When song ning heard her family thought she was happy and also thought that she must have to take care of her sister but due to song ning this fiasco song mei life turned hell.

When everyone met song mei some were surprised, song ning was happy, but the song couple were embarrassed.

When everyone met song mei there was awkward silence as it was hard for everyone to accept a new member in their family, song mei also noticed it, but she was also embarrassed in this situation and when she saw song ning, song mei felt inferiority complex for the first time. At that time it was the duty of song family to take care of song mei but due to their awkward relationship they chatted very less and hired a maid to take care of song mei.

Song mei always wanted that everyone treat her just like song ning, later on she became jealous of song ning and hated her so much, if only she did not exist she would be the apple pie of song family. Due to jealousy towards song ning, song mei personality became twisted, and her parents started to avoid her. Her own brothers threatened her to not harm song ning if not then they will abandon her.

She was afraid and nervous that what will she do if they really left her, so she secretly made plans to make song

ning suffer. The most recent case would be when she pushed song ning from stairs, but all the incident was captured by the hidden camera and everyone in the song family came to know about how vicious is song mei, song couple and her brother confronted her about the matter, but she thought that they were here to abandon her for song ning.

She told them all her thoughts and complained to them that they only love her daughter song ning and not her if only she could kill song ning how much happy life will she be leading. Her words raged Mrs. song, and then she slapped song mei right there.

Song mei was shocked and sad, her jealousy for song ning turned into hatred, and then she caught a fruit knife in the table.

“You want me to compensate song ning, OK then here it is”

Song mei in anger slitted her wrist

“Now did I compensate her enough, or you need more blood to make up to her”

Mrs song got stunned by seeing song mei behaviour and Mr song was disappointed in her.

“You disgust me, song mei” her first brother song shaoting said.

“From where did you bring this disgusting *****, dad” her third brother song feng said to mr. song.

And that how song mei became the villainess of everyone’s life.

After that song mei doesn’t remember much because of excessive blood loss, she became unconscious and only woke up today.

“Uh h so today’s the day I will confront song ning and will be ordered by elder song to apologize to song ning but due to my stubborn behaviour I refused and has to serve in the ancestral hall for 3 days.”

I don’t want to go through the same situation, so I just have to apologize to song ning right. What was I even thinking in my past life. Just for that trash affection and love I let them trampled on my pride every time but not any more.

Song mei came to song family when she was 14 years old and since then it’s been 2 years in the song family and from then on she had accumulated enough hatred of that trash family.

And if we talk about the situation at school I did not even hide my complicated personality and hatred towards song ning, so everyone is now against me at school also, and they try their best to protect their beautiful angel song ning.

Well, they can protect her all they want, I don’t even want to listen to their disgusting dreams.

Well, time is up, I just have to get ready to show up and end the drama right there, right now.

Song mei got ready with a simple yet elegant dress, in these two years she was mentally forced to become an elegant lady from an elegant family from a countryside bumpkin.

Yet she is satisfied from herself.

“Hmm nice choice song mei you are ready to go”

Knock.....

“You may come in”

“Miss mei, elder mr song and mrs song is calling you

into the main house” the butler said

“I am coming butler, now you can go out”

“OK” the butler was somewhat surprised by watching

song mei calm personality.

“So, song mei it's time to change your awful destiny”

At the main song family mansion

“Grandpa, I don’t want meimei to apologize to me, she will feel embarrassed by this situation can’t you just forgive her”

“Oh god, why god is so unfair, ningning you are so kind to your evil sister, but she still needs to apologize to you so that she would never commit such heinous act again” song ning second cousin song lei said to song ning.

“Yes ningning she needs to apologize you would not believe if you have seen her behaving that day, she didn’t even feel guilty for trying to kill someone, and you are even her own sister ,how can be she so evil” song feng said.

As everyone was sitting in the same room, they can hear the thoughts of younger generation.

“Sister you seriously need to teach song ning she is already causing so much havoc even if she still only 16 years old. What will she even do in the future, I am already so worried.”

Song lei mother or song ning aunt leng xiaoxiao said

“I am equally worried as you are xiaoxiao, but you tell me what should I do my one child is so sweet and so bright, but the second child have such dark thought that she wants to harm her own family what can I do, now I am even afraid to go near her what if she hurt me as well” mrs song said.

“Enough with the chit-chat, what if any outsider hears you, only rumours will spread” elder mr song said.

At that moment the butler came to the room

“sir, miss song mei is waiting outside”

“bring her in”

“OK sir”

“miss song mei you can go inside now”

“OK”

I entered the room and can already feel different types of gazes on me. Stare all you want now I don’t even care about you. You all are just trash to me.

“So song mei you are here, I heard you told your maid Mary that you don’t want her to serve her anymore. Did she make any mistake”.

“No, that girl didn’t do any mistake it’s just that seeing the same face for two years makes me bored, so I just told her not to appear in front me”

“impudent, song mei stop being a brat why can’t you just learn from your sister ningning” elder mr. song said

“haiz just forget it apologize to ningning, kneel in front of her and apologize for your mistake if you did not do it you will be locked in the ancestral hall for 3 days without food or water”

haa. it's just apologizing. I can do it, and then I will execute my plan to my brand-new life.

Well alright they want me to kneel I will just kneel, I just now don’t want to remain here any more.

So song mei just like that kneeled in front of song ning in front of everyone and then

In the surprised gazes of everyone, she did something unexpected

“I apologize to song ning for pushing her down the stairs. i will not do it again. Please forgive me everyone ”

“Are you satisfied with my apology, elder mr.song. I have put every effort I want to this apology. Please accept it”.

Under everyone surprised gazes, song mei politely apologized.

"Good… it's good that you understood what you have done wrong. You have listened quite well to us today as you didn't make any trouble. you can ask for anything today."

 "I want something from you elder mr.song"

"ask for it. And what is elder mr. song, you used to call me grandfather. What happened."

"No, I am in no position to call you grandfather. I am too tired now, sir. The thing I wanted to ask is to move out from this mansion. I can't live here any more."

"What are you talking about. Moving out. What the hell is going on. Why do you want to move out."

"Everyone hates me here, and I hate song ning to core. I don't have any control when this feeling of hatred overpowers me.  She and I can't live under the same roof. If forced, I can't guarantee what can happen to song ning. If something happens to her, I am to blame for it."

Elder mr song was shocked by song mei words and song ning here was trying to calm down him.

“Grandpa calm down please, calm down “.

“Are you trying to blackmail us by saying that you can kill her. How did you develop your personality this way."

"That' why i am saying i am going to move out from this house. i don't want to live here any more. i have wasted my love on this family for 2 years, but i can't do the same. Please let me move out"

Mr.song listened to all this nonsense from outside the room..

Such words coming out of song mei mouth shocked most of the family

“Dad I think she’s possessed by a ghost, is she going to harm ningning” song feng said hurriedly.

“meimei why are you talking to your own family like this, we are a family. you can't move out so suddenly big brother will also get angry if he heard you talking like this” song ning said sadly.

Song ning I have a huge hatred for you in my previous life, but now I don’t want to spend any extra energy on you…

“song ning i hate you to core can't you understand this. Because of this hatred, i pushed you down the stairs with the intention of harming you. You have to understand we can't live under the same space” song mei said.

"you want to move out." mr song suddenly interrupted.

"yes,sir "

"ok, butler will arrange everything for you.if you ever want to come back you can" mr song said

"that won't happen, i will not come back"

"are you finally going crazy and dad what are you doing. how can you agree to song mei request" song feng angrilly said.

"let her be, if she will be alone then only she can understand the value of family" mr song said.

"Thank-you for allowing me. Then i will take my leave"

Then, song mei decided to go to her room to pack her luggage, leaving everyone present in the room shocked….

“Let’s see what are the things I can pack away, first my school uniform, then some simple casual clothes, some shoes, and flats, and we are done here. Now let’s move to my personal things, there was a diary in which she has drawn some dress designs.

In her last life she never left the house before moving abroad, she has drawn her designs in this diary, after moving abroad she realized that she had forgotten her diary in this house. When she was living in abroad, her design was published in the name of song ning. When she confronted this family about it, they just told her that song ning is also her twin sister, so what is the matter if it’s her or song ning that published the designs. At that time she cannot receive her rights, but now she won’t make the same mistake. She will show this family that she can do way much better without this family support…”