Lee Ha Eun

Hello, my name is Lee Ha Eun, and I'm 17/18(Korean age) years old. I can sing, rap, dance and play a wide range of instruments. Also, people would say that I'm pretty and perfect, but I'd like to think of myself as a normal girl.

But mostly, something is missing in my life. Parents who are busy with their jobs, an older brother who is also working and we don't hang out that much because of my school too.

And also someone important to me left... I miss him

Anyway, today is Friday, and unfortunately, I have to go to school. I don't like going because my peers obsess over, calling me an angel.

I reached the school gates, and there was a lot of students. I paused, but they'd already seen me. 'Oh no,' I get bombarded by my fellow peers.

"Look, it's Ha Eun."

"Good morning!"

"sister, you look stunning today!"

I'm the student president; I also perform in the festival here and if we have a campaign. I also join sports, and I teach people how to use the instrument.

I remain surrounded by a nearby teacher comes to my aid and tells them to go to class. With a tired sigh, I make my way to my next lesson.

-Time Skip-

The school day has ended, and I'm currently on my way home. I put on my headphones and sing along to the song that was playing, which was: 'EXO- Baby Don't Cry.'

As the song comes to an end, I hear clapping behind me. It snapped me out of my trance, and I turned around, coming face to face with a man.

"Wow, you're good at singing. I was wondering if you'd like to audition for BigHit Entertainment."

I thought about it for a moment. I wasn't that interested at first, but then I remembered a promise I made to someone.

"I'm not sure... I'll think about it, and if I want to apply, I will turn up at auditions."

"That's fine. The auditions are at BigHit, noon. I must leave now. I bid you farewell."

That was weird. I pondered over my decision as I continued walking home.

I opened my apartment door, and toss my bag to the couch and turned the TV so I can watch. I checked my phone to see my schedule.

"Today is Friday... so I guess I'll show up to the audition. Also, I heard that they only have an audition for girls once a year because many girls mostly fans of BTS wants to audition and see them."

I put my alarm clock to 12:30 pm, and mark the day as 'The audition.'

There are also reasons why I don't desire to be an idol.

1. I had a relationship which is an idol now...

2. Brother is... someone who is admired by many people.

3. Also if I got a relationship, they would make a fuss about it.

And there is also why I want to be an idol, and it is because I made a promise to someone when I was a child. Well, we were a kid at that time both of us.

But my problem is, I don't remember his face anymore. I lost my connection with him when I went to America.

I also met my ex when we were kids, extreme right.

"Ugh, what should I eat for dinner," I stood from my seat and went to the kitchen and cooked myself Bibimbap.

'Bibimbap is a Korean rice dish, and the term "bi bim" means mixing various ingredients, while the "bap" noun refers to rice. Bibimbap is served as a bowl of warm white rice topped with namul or Gimchi and gochujang, soy sauce, or doenjang.'

NEXT MORNING

I have an audition! I clamber out of bed and rush to get changed. After spending a while attempting to tame my morning hair, I throw on a white t-shirt and jeans, grab my phone and make my way to the company building.

I arrive at the building, and wow, it's enormous. There are many people here already; I see ladies from lots of various backgrounds and of all different shapes and sizes.

Some girls wear lots of makeup and some who wear little, and it is refreshing to see them all come together. I'm interrupted by the same man from before;

"Hello, I'm glad to see you've decided to come and audition!" I bow in response, and he returns a smile.

I felt a lot of people staring at me now, and some of them began to whisper such as "I bet she got recommended to join," "Also she looks like someone, but I just can't see on her face," "Her body is nice, and she seems pretty. But I'm attractive than her,"

I follow him until we arrive at a desk. I am handed a form by a kind looking lady. I thank her and start to fill in the form; I finish quickly and give it back to her with a smile.

"Miss Lee Ha Eun?" she asks me.

"yes," I reply,

"please make your way to the audition room down the hallway to your left," she says motioning towards the room. I thank her and make my way to the office, worried.

Auditioning room

"Hello," I say as confident as I can as I meet the judges.

"Hello, you must be Lee Ha Eun," judge 1 asks me.

I reply politely with a short nod "yes, that's me,"

"Your application says you can sing, dance and even rap, that's quite impressive," Judge 2 says

"That is a correct miss because of my family especially my mother wants me to learn those. But rapping was just a hobby of mine because I mostly write my songs" I reply, gaining some confidence.

"So we will test your dancing skills now, and we are expecting of you bring a song for dancing, and we would like you to dance to it," the third judges tell me.

The music starts to play, and I begin to dance, letting the energy and movement flow through my body. I was immersed in dancing when I hear someone telling someone to stop the music. The second judge turns to me asking if I could sing, I nod, feeling as confident as ever.

The first song that came to my mind was 'My Love by LEE HI.' I try to put as much emotion into my singing, making it as soulful as possible. I finish, out of breath and breathing slowly and turn around feeling proud when I see some of the judges look impressed.

The judges turn around to confer with each other leaving me nervous but giddy, a few minutes later they told me that I have to wait for a few days.

TIME SKIP

I finally got in and became a trainee for months now, but I've been a trainee only for two months, and I'm having fun. I experience being a trainee.

But then the man who talked to me before gave me the news.

"we've decided to form a new girl group, and PDnim would love if you became the seventh and final member?" a manager told me.

"sure, I'd love to work in a group because I don't want to be alone... that's why hahaha." I reply happily.

"you'd be the maknae if you're fine with it," he responds, and I nodded, and he leads me to a room with several girls doing rehearsing different things.

"ladies, this is your final member," the room went silent, everyone's eyes trained on me.

The quiet and dense atmosphere made me scared a bit. Also, the girls seem cool. The girls are pretty and their body, well I did saw them dance before when we all practice.

"A final member?"

"Oh yeah, I remember PDnim gave the other trainees especially the girls if they have potential becoming the last member for our group."

"I remember now, Hi, the name is Sung Rae Yoo, and they are Han Soo Rin, Kang Jae Yoo, Choi Sang Hwa, Kim Ji Woo, Seo Yong Soo. And I'm the eldest, nice to meet you." She introduces herself and the others.

"Ah yes, nice to meet you all." I smiled at them, and I scanned them all.

"What's your name? Also, may I ask your age?"

"Uhh, hello. My name is Lee Ha Eun, and I am 17/18(Korean age)," I bowed at them and grip on my shirt.

The room went silent again, but then I saw Ji Woo' unnie' smirk.

'Unnie is a term to older sister in Korean, but unnie is used for girls only. For example, a girl calling a girl unnie is the right way if the girl she calling is older than her.'

"I'm not the youngest anymore!" She jumped from joy.

So I was right; she is an unnie.

"I'm 20 years old, Soo Rin unnie is 21, Jae unnie is 23, Sang Hwa unnie is 24, Rae unnie is 25 and Yong Soo is 23." Woah they all are older than me.

"Wow, you all don't look old at all." they all look at each other and laughed.

"Well, thank you for your compliment," Jae unnie chuckled and ruffled my hair.

"Anyway, you look like someone..." Yang Soo unnie remark.

Oh no here we go again.

"Huh? I look like s...someone? W...Who?" I swallowed from worried. I don't know what will I say to them.

"I know the face, but I don't remember the name." Oh, thank goodness,

"Girls, PDnim wants to talk to you." We all nodded and went to PDnim office.

'Nim (님) is also a title of respect. Nim (님) is usually attached to professions. The difference between nim (님) and shi (씨) is that shi (씨) is used after actual names, while nim (님) is used after an occupation. The word for a teacher (선생님) is a word that often has the nim (님) attached.'

We all sat down on the couch and chairs, and I feel very nervous.

"As you can see... we will make you girls debut in a month, but we also want to talk about your group name and mostly your positions in the group,"

"We have some ideas for the names since the staffs, and I talked about it." He continued.

Then a man came inside, and Pdnim introduced him to us and said that he would be our manager.

"The group name should be MXS; it means Moon x Sun. Well, this group idea is supposed to be a guy group name but since the company will be debuting a girl group so why not uses it instead," he smiled at us.

But then our manager Hyuk spoke "It will be hard, you girls will be going on a hard journey. We will be training hard until you reach your limit, going on a diet and changing your meals too."

This is going to be hard; I can sense it.

"We will get through it, as long our dream to become an idol will come true and succeed." I beamed at them; they all looked at me. The girls look like going to cry.

"What?" I asked confused. Did I say something wrong?

"Hmm, seems like you're confident." PDnim chuckled, I looked at him doubtful "Not sir, I'm. But since I know, the others want to debut since that's their dream." I remark.

"I see I see, anyhow. We calculated all the practice and from the audition before. We will be giving you a position, and you have to work hard on it."

"Oh," That was all we said.

"We will talk about this tomorrow instead. Also, it's getting late." PDnim said, and we all stood up and bowed to him before we bid goodbye to him and our manager.

As we were walking to the hallway, Soo Rin spoke "So, Ha Eun. Since we got your extra bed to our dorm. When are you going to move in?"

"Uh, I don't know. My family doesn't know that I'm a trainee and all they know that I'm living by myself." I nervously laugh and scratch my head.

They stopped walking, and I looked at them, "What? Did I said something wrong?" I asked.

"Aren't you only 17/18(Korean age) yet you don't live with your family? Also, don't you go to school? Senior high school?" Sang Hwa said.

"Well yeah, I am a senior high school student, and I don't live with my family. Because mostly the house is too far from the schools I go so yeah since I was 15 I already live by myself, I don't see any wrong with it." I smiled; all they did was stare at me; they didn't even move an inch.

"So... you've been lonely? Don't you even feel sad about?" Yong Soo took a step towards me and hugged me.

"No? Well, I do go to my parent's house on Friday and then go back to my apartment on Sunday." I patted her back.

"Anyway, we gotta go now. We have to practice tomorrow, maknae, I hope you get home safe." Rae Kyo patted my head and smiled,

'Maknae means the youngest of the group or family.'

"Alright, you all too." I bowed at them as they walk off, I went back to the dance studio, but someone was already there.

His back looks familiar... the guy finally turned around and couldn't believe who was there.

"J... Jimin sunbae-nim, 안녕하세요 (Annyeong Haseyo)" I bowed for respect.

'It means "senior" (선배). Korean society is hierarchical. , and "님" (nim) is a suffix added to almost any name or title as an expression of respect. In some sense, you can equate it to "Sir" or "Mr."/" Mrs." etc.'

'안녕하세요 (Annyeong Haseyo) means hello in Korean, but it may also use as goodbye in Korean too.'

"Hello, are you a new trainee?" He asked as I nodded, I took my bag.

"Oh you're the owner of the bag, sorry I went through your bag and saw some manga and read it for a bit. I'm sorry about it." he apologizes.

"It's a..alright, as long you won't do it again," I said and about to say goodbye to him.

"Um, are you one of the girls will be debuting at the end of the month?" He asked,

"Yes, I'm the last and final member." I nodded, and he beamed at me,

"Good luck with your debut. I hope your dream of becoming an idol will be successful."

"Thank you so much." I bowed and said goodbye to him and went home.

I should have said becoming an idol wasn't my choice for real.

I miss my friends in America, and I wonder what they're doing right now. I bet they're having fun.

Should I call them? Ugh but I don't want to bother them anyway.

But then my phone started ringing,

"Hello?"

"Hey, I'm outside. Mom and dad are waiting for you." My brother said,

"Okay, I'm going done now."

I stood up and put my shoes again along with my coat.

I saw his car, the window slides down, and he waved at me. "I thought you're going home by yourself but since it's late mom and dad was worried, so I went here instead," he said as I sat down on the seat.

"Oh, I was busy that's why. I almost forgot that it's Friday." I checked my phone, and it was Friday after all.

"I'm not surprised; you're a senior on your high school now. So you have to work harder to get in a better college." he starts driving again,

"Yeah I know, I know. But how was your work?"

"It was fine, got more lines to memorize." he chuckled.

"I see... brother... what if I become a trainee to become an idol?"

"It will be fine, but I thought you don't like the idea of being an idol?"

"That will always be same,"

"Also I don't want you to become an idol because I want you to have a normal life and more privacy."

"I know I know,"

"But if you change your mind about it, I won't stop you from it." I saw him smile as he was focusing on the streets.

"Hmm.." I stared at the window, and after 40 minutes of driving, we finally made it.

"Oh my baby girl, I miss you so much! You haven't visited us for two weeks already." my mother grabbed my cheeks and kissed it, my father did the same.

"I was busy, and I didn't have time to visit that's why." I sighed, "But you better don't skip your meals, Lee Ha Eun." I tensely laugh and scratch my nape, but she glared at me.

"So you've been skipping your meals?! So that's why you look skinny!" Eh? I only skip my daily snack, and I lost weight because of training and school,

"I'm not-"

"I'll feed you so much until your tummy blows up today!" she grabbed my arm and dragged me to the dining room and made me sit down.

"I'll eat. I'll eat; don't worry." I laughed.

"Well you better, I cook those foods by myself today!" My mother pout.

"Eomma, please don't do that. You're already old." she hit my arm and my dad also brother started laughing.

'Eomma means mother/Mom in Korean'

~~~~~

"Brother,"

"Yeah?"

"Can you drive me to Mcdonalds tomorrow morning?"

"Tomorrow morning? Why? You don't have practice in your music nor sports on Saturdays and the morning? Are you hiding something?"

"What? No! Well, I'm just going to meet up with a friend that's all."

"Is it a girl or a boy?"

"It's a girl don't worry," I sigh. My brother doesn't want me to meet up guys he's a bit overprotective towards me.

"Alright then, what time?"

"At nine thirty" I gave him a thumbs up, and he nodded.

"By the way, I saw something on your pocket awhile ago," I looked at him with a confused face.

"Huh? What do you mean?" he paused the game and looked at me.

"It was a phone number." eh? what is he talking about?

He took something out of his pocket, and it was a paper. It says.

'Call me~ xxxx xxxx xxxx

I'm the guy you met a while ago, and I put my number in your coat.'

Jimin sunbaenim?!

Lee Ha Eun

"Who's phone number is that? And who the heck did you met a while ago," my brother snatched the paper from my hand and read on it after he read it all he glared at me.

"Dude, mind your business." I took the paper, and I can't believe Jimin sunbaenim gave me his phone number. But why though, isn't weird to put a damn phone number on someone coat? You won't be sure if the person who owns the jacket is a girl or a boy.

I wonder why he gave me his phone number? I text his phone number.

'Hello? Jimin sunbaenim? This is the trainee that you met a while ago.'

'Ah, hi! I'll give you my kakao instead,'

'Alright,'

After that, he gave me his kakao account, and we talk there. I ignored my brother.

I checked the time, and it was noon already, and I have to wake up early tomorrow.

"Brother, can you drive me around 9 to McDonald's." I stared at him and gave him the puppy eyes.

"Alright alright, also go to sleep now," he chuckled and ruffled my hair, he stood up from the floor also he turns off the light in my room and goes out from my place.

I jumped to my bed and stared at my phone, "I can't believe it, Park Jimin from BTS wants to be friends with me," I can't help but smile.

But then I saw my notification from my social media, from Baekhyun. In Instagram, he posts another picture of him, and Chanyeol posted too.

I like both of them, and I can't choose between them, Baekhyun is good at singing, Channie is excellent in rapping.

I saw the time, "Shoot; I need to sleep now." I turned my phone off and went to sleep.

\~\~\~\~\~

I woke up from my alarm clock, and it's seven thirty am, I stood up and took a shower. I put some cream on my face since my cheeks are quite dry.

I chose some black jeans and a white t-shirt and wore my shoes. I took some spare outfits for later.

My mother opened the door and smiled at me "Breakfast is ready baby," I nodded at her "alright, just give me a sec, mom."

She gave me a thumb up and left, "Now... where the heck is my charger; it was here a while ago." my charger is missing, ugh.

"Found it," I finally spotted my charger, it was under my bed. I placed my charger at my bag.

I stared at the mirror, "Ha Eun, you got this. You'll make it!" I winked at myself and grabbed my bag then went downstairs to the kitchen.

"Morning," I greeted my family, dad kissed my forehead, and my brother pinches my cheek, mom laughed and told me to sit down.

"Your dad and I will be visiting your grandparents later after breakfast, want to join us Ha Eun?" Dad spoke as he opened his new paper.

"Ah, no thank you, dad, also appreciate you for inviting but yeah. Sorry, I can't join." I said as mom serve us food.

"Oh, and why is that?" Dad stared at me,

Oh no... what should I SAY!!!! COME ON!

"She can't join dad; she has a date with her friends." My brother said as he chews his food.

"Alright then, but join us next time. Okay?" Dad ruffled my hair, and I smiled at him.

After breakfast, mom volunteered herself if she can fix my hair, and I said yes.

"Anyway, where are you going?" My mom spoke as she brushes my hair gently.

"oh... my friends are inviting me if I can hang out with them, that's why I can't join you and dad." I heard her chuckled.

"I see, well, have fun and be safe. Okay?" I slowly nodded, after a minute, my brother and I went to the McDonalds.

"I'll buy some coffee, what do you want?" my brother ordered his coffee while wearing a mask, and asked me if I want something.

"Ah, I want-" but then I remember, I have to go on a diet...

"Nothing, I'm already full." I smiled at him, but he keeps staring at me,

"Are you sure?" he asked on more time, I gave him a thumbs up.

"Okay then," he sighs.

I check my clock, I only have 20 minutes, and I have to go.

"Dude, I have to go now. I have trai- I have to meet my friends now, bye," I hug him and wave at him.

I got escape fast from the fast food building and run to the company.

YOUR BROTHER

"Here is your order sir, thank you for coming." the cashier smile and I bowed at her.

I went back to my car and followed my little sister; I've been wondering why is she so busy these days.

I saw her went into a building, which I don't know. I took a picture of the building and asked my manager if he knows the name of it.

me: *has sent a picture*

me: hey manager-nim, do you know which building is this?

Manager-nim: Ah yes, that's Big Hit entertainment. BTS and Homme, why do you ask?

Me: Oh, nothing. I was just wondering because there's were teens going inside. Thank you by the way.

I turned my phone off and started to the building.

"So, she's already a trainee.. huh," I hope she is careful on what she does now.

Lee Ha Eun

I went inside the building, but I bump into someone "Watch where you going." he glared at me.

"I'm sorry, Jungkook-sunbaenim." I bowed at him and apologized. He stared at me for a minute, and I stared back because I'm confused.

"Umm, do you need anything sunbae?" I asked him, and he came back to reality. "Yes, I need your name also, who you are? Are you a sasaeng fan?!" he stared at me angerly.

"What are you talking about sunbae? I did call you sunbae because I'm a trainee here, I bumped on you by accident because I'm in a hurry, but that doesn't mean I'm a sasaeng fan just because I got inside." I snapped and looked at him, pissed off.

"Now excuse me, I'm in a hurry." I bowed at him and left him there dumbfound.

As I walked far away from him, and he's out of sight, I stopped walking.

"Oh, my gosh... I can't believe I said those words to him." I gripped on my shirt.

But why I feel so sad about it? Is it because he's my sunbae and I don't want to fight with him?

\~\~\~\~\~\~

after the meeting, I went to the restroom for a minute.

After that, I quickly went to the dance studio, and I already saw the girls looking very sad. I went to them and sat along on the floor.

"Hey.. what happened?" I got worried and stared at them and pat their backs.

"Ha Eun-ah..."

"Yeah?"

"WE'RE SO HAPPY!!!! OH MY GOSH!!!" They all jumped on me and hug me; all of them are on top of me.

"Get off me please, I can't breath well!" But then the door opened.

And it was BTS SUNBAENIM!!!???!!?!

The girls stopped and looked on the door, they all stared at each other, and they finally stood up and lifted me too.

"Annyeonghaseyo!" We all bowed to them.

Jimin smiled at me and waved. But in the corner of my eyes, someone is glaring at me, and it's Jeon Jungkook.

"Annyeonghaseyo! We are here to congratulate you girls, and we hope you all do your best! Hwaiting!" Namjoon said, and the boys applaud.

"Thank you so much! We will do our best!" Rae unnie bowed and thanked the boys.

"Is it alright if we know your name?" Jin smiled; my heart is beating fast.

"Ah, yes, of course! My name is "Sung Rae Yoo."

"Han Soo Rin"

"Kang Jae Yoo"

"Choi Sang Hwa"

"Kim Ji Woo"

"Seo Yong Soo."

"And my name is Lee Ha Eun," I beamed at them and bowed, the boys stared at me, Jimin's smile got even more significant.

"You look someone also you both have that beauty mark near to the eyes, but it's in the other eye though," Jhope explained something that caught me off guard.

"H-huh?" They can't know that I'm his sister; I don't want people to treat me right just because I'm his sibling.

My brother knows about it too, before the people who bully me found out that he was my brother and everyone treated me, even more, better, but I know those are just some act.

"Well I do have a sibling, but he's in France right now!" I faked smiled at them, then nodded.

It seems like I fooled them, gosh I almost got in trouble.

Manager-nim and PD-nim went inside of the dance studio, and he smiled at us "oh you're all here, so girls you have to work harder, okay? We all have lots of things to do for your debut."

"Ne! PDnim!"

'Ne/Ye means yes in Korean'

\~\~\~\~

PARK JIMIN

Been months, the girls have been practicing hard. PD-nim even almost canceled the debut because of the budget.

But they surprisingly doing their best to debut, I'm very impressed for their hard work.

It was heartbreaking seeing them cry before since PD-nim almost canceled their dream debut, but it's still heartwarming how they are working hard to archive their dream to become an idol.

"YA! LEE HA EUN!"

"NE!?!"

"YOU DID IT WRONG!"

"NO, I DIDN'T! I THINK I DID IT PERFECTLY FINE. THANK YOU"

And yup seems like Jungkook and Ha Eun got along well, but they sometimes fight a lot.

"Stop fighting! She did fine; there was no mistake." Jhope hyung tried to calm down the two maknaes.

'Hyung means older brother or a friend is who older than you, but hyung is only used for boys calling an older guy hyung.'

'maknae means the youngest in Korean.'

"Ha Eun-ah," She and Jhope hyung had eye contact and it been thirty seconds.

"Ne... sunbaenim..."

Jhope hyung stood up and walked towards her, and he raised his hands made me panicked a bit because I thought he would slap her.

But... his action surprised me, he stroke her head and smile.

"You did a great job," he smiled at her, long paused entered the studio.

Ha Eun's face became red, and she looks so flustered. "I-I'LL DO MY BEST!"

Jhope hyung chuckled and patted her head, "I know that, so good luck next week, since you and your unnies will be debuting."

But the next thing she did was a smile, which made my heart flutter. I had no regret putting my phone number on her jacket at that time.

~Flashback~

"Wait, Jimin hyung I think I forgot something." Taehyung grabbed my hand, making me stop walking.

"Huh? What is it?" I turn around and put my hands on my pocket, "I don't know where my phone is." he looked at me with a scared face.

"Go check in the van; I'm going inside now. I need to talk to Namjoon hyung." I patted his shoulder and went inside of the building.

"Umm, do you need anything sunbae?" I heard a girl's voice; I hid and saw Jungkook with a girl.

"Yes, I need your name also, who you are? Are you a sasaeng fan?!" he stared at her angerly, but he looks more embarrassed than angry actually.

"What are you talking about sunbae? I did call you sunbae because I'm a trainee here, I bumped on you by accident because I'm in a hurry, but that doesn't mean I'm a sasaeng fan just because I got inside." She snapped and looked at him, really pissed off.

She looks cute while getting angry.

After that she left, I walked towards to Jungkook as nothing happened.

"Hey, who was that?" I asked, he stared and me and shook his head.

"She said she's a new trainee, and I think she's the staffs been talking about. The new girl who got passed on the audition," he said as he watched her walking away.

"Oh yeah, PDnim stared accepting girls, but it only opens once a year or after two years, right?" I said as he nodded.

"Wow..."

_

I walked inside of the dance studio and found a jacket, black jacket.

The jacket looks familiar; the bag is even here. I looked around first and decided to open the bag.

Huh?

LEE HA EUN?

I look more on her stuff in her bag, and I saw a picture of her since her student ID is there.

She's the I saw with Jungkook, the girl who snaps while talking to him. Jungkook messed up.

I stood up and went to the drawer and grabbed a paper and a pencil and wrote my phone number.

I placed the paper in her pocket.

"Damn, this girl is interesting..." I smirked.

~End of Flashback~

"Hey, Ha Eun, we need to go." her unnies came back, and about to go to their dorm.

It has been weeks since they've been living together, also since they need to practice together.

It brings back before in debut.

"Bye-bye." Ha Eun waved us goodbye as she goes to her members.

"She looks like a little kid."

"She is a kid," I laughed.

LEE HA EUN

"Hmm... yeah I know, but mom you don't need to come to my apartment." I kicked the stone as I speak to my mom on the phone.

Damn it, and it's cold out here.

"But all the landlord said was you're fine, that does not convince me." I can see my mom rolling her eyes on me.

"But mom, I'm serious. I'll visit next week, I swear."

"Okay fine, But why did I saw a picture of you on the internet saying you're going to be debuting with other six girls."

Damn it...  Is it already out?

"M-maybe that's just someone who looks like me, hahaha."

"Lee Ha Eun, you know that I'm fine of you becoming an idol or anything. Just tell me."

"As I said, that's not me, and you know I don't want to be connected on TV or anything right."

"Whatever you say, but if it is you. I'm fine with it, but I don't know about your father, he might get angry."

"Yeah, I know that I have to go now. Bye, mom, I love you."

"Alright, I love you too."

I added the call.

"Who's that?" I turned around and saw a familiar face,

Kim Taehyung? What is he doing here?

"Ah! Sunbae! What are you doing here?" I placed my phone in my pocket while still staring at him.

"Our dorm is just a few blocks away from here, also don't try to change the topic." he laughed at me.

"T-that was my mom... she was just worried about me since I haven't been visiting the house." I looked down to the ground.

"Does your family even know that you're going to be an idol?" he stopped laughing and looked through my soul.

"Don't tell me your family doesn't even know that you're a trainee?"

"P-please... don't tell PDnim nor the girls... I-I don't have the intention to become an idol, and I h-hate idols.." my breathing is becoming slow.

I forgot to take some pills!

"Also they don't know since I don't live with them, I live in an apartment because my schools are always far away from my actual house, and I don't want to bother my parents about it." I breathe in and breathe out carefully.

"So please, I hope you understand me." bowing at him 90 degrees.

KIM TAEHYUNG

She bowed at me 90 degrees; some people are looking at us, giving us weird looks.

"H-hey, stop that. Alright, I won't tell them." after that, she looked at me while smiling.

"REALLY?! FOR REAL?! THANK YOU SO MUCH!" she went up to me and hugged me.

My eyes widen by her sudden reaction and her hug, and I didn't expect it at all.

"Y-ya, let go," I whispered I could feel my face hot.

"Ah... yes I'm sorry, sunbae." she finally let go and not showing her face to me.

"Oi, why are you hiding your face." I took her hands off from her face; her face is just like when Jhope hyung stroke her head.

"Hmm..." she looks away, I didn't notice my action, but my hand was already on her cheek.

"S-sunbae... what are you doing." she pushed my hand aside from her,

"Ah, mianhae." I step backward away from her a bit.

LEE HA EUN

"OI, what's going on here." Taehyung and I turn to the person's voice,

oh gosh, we might fight again.

"It's not your business Jungkook; she was here first. I just got back from the convenience store." Taehyung showed the bag he was carrying.

"Hmm, sure. The hyungs are looking for you."

"Alright, bye Ha Eun."

"Bye." both of us waved goodbyes.

Now Jungkook and I are alone; this is making me nervous so much.

"Ha Eun," he glared at me,

"I don't know what you did to me, but I want you to stay away from me and the others because I don't want them to feel this feeling also." he stepped towards me until our face are an only few inches away.

"Wanna know why I want you to stay away from me and the others?" he whispered.

"W-why..."

"I don't want to fall even more. Also, I don't want the hyungs to fall in love because I don't want our friendship to be broken just because of a girl., you get it?" he grabbed my chin.

"Ye-yes sunbae... but-"

"Shut up already." he rolled his eyes; after that, I felt his lips on my lips.

Jungkook, Jeon Jungkook, the youngest of the BTS, was kissing me and confessed to me...

LEE HA EUN

"Hey, Ha Eun wake up," someone tweaked my cheeks, I glimpsed up, and it was Jungkook along with Taehyung they were gazing at me.

"Huh? What happened?" I peered around I was still standing in the same spot as a while ago, and Taehyung was there too also his bag.

"You've been spacing out for almost 5 minutes, what's wrong?" Taehyung gently grabbed my arm and checked if I'm alright.

"Ah yes I'm feeling fine sunbae, something just came to my thought that's all. Thank you for worrying about me." I bowed again to him, and he chuckled.

"Of course I should get worried you are my hoobae after all," he ruffled my hair, and we received a cough from Jungkook judging us.

'Hoobae (후배) refers to people with less experience.'

"Ah yes... of course," yeah he's worried because I'm his junior...

"I need to go now, goodbye and goodnight;" I bent at both of them and ran inside the dorm,

"So girls, we only are going to practice and prepare for your debut, so there's no time to chit chat with your friends here in the company, no talking with the upperclassmen too. Got it?!" our new instructor is so strict.

"Yes, ma'am!" we all answered. I feel like in a military.

PDnim decided to make a show for us to show the people our talents. Surprisingly we got the trainers from the show called Produce 101.

The vocal trainers will be Lee Seok Hoon, and Shin You Mi, the rap trainer Cheetah and dance trainers Bae Yoon Jeong, Choi Young Joon, and Kwon Jae Seung said that someone talked to them and trained us.

Kwon Jae Seung is also the choreographer of Twice, Red Velvet, Seventeen and also EXO!

I'm so nervous, well the seven of us are worried. We watched the show, and the trainers were strict.

We got sad news again, that means it's called still.

Due to the money, concept, clothes and some other things too, also the trainers so we perform a while ago, and they said we are not ready yet.

"Should we start now? Introduce yourself and tell us your position." Bae Yoon Jeong\-ssi smiled at us.

"But have you all already got your positions already?" they asked, the girls and I looked at each other.

"Well, it's still not official yet since we need more training," I spoke as I grip on my shorts.

"I see, but I hope you all will be happy and do your best in your position you will be getting. Now should we get started?"

"Why don't we start to the oldest to youngest? What do you think?"

"Yeah, that will be fine."

"Sure,"

The others introduce themselves and show their talent too, we all clapped, and it's finally my turn.

"Hello, my name is Lee Ha Eun. I am 17/18 years old, and I would like to gain the position of" I gather up my nerve, "Main vocalist." 

I bit my lip when they ordered me to sing, so I assemble up all my thoughts and choose to sing 'Heaven' by Ailee, my favorite solo vocalist.

After I sang, the trainers stare at me and to each other and started to murmur.

"I think you'll get that position, just believe in yourself." Shin You Mi\-ssi smiled at me; I burst into tears.

"You made her cry!" "I never intended to make her cry!" "Ha Eun\-ah please don't cry." "Are you okay, Ha Eun?" 

"Yes, sir, I'm alright." I wiped my tears away and beamed at them after some few hours of showing them our talent.

They will be talking to the staffs and the producers of Big Hit. 

**KWON JAE SEUNG**

"You were correct; your sister is good," I spoke as the others nodded. 

"Thank you for agreeing about it." we heard him laughs, Ha Eun is lucky to have an amazing older brother like him.

"But she did cry though, she's good at everything, and she's charming."

"She has a birthmark same as yours, but your mole is in the right, and hers is on the left, she also kinda resemble like you." 

"Yeah she does look at me, I put her in a struggle situation before when some people discovered that she's my sister but we never really answer on those rumors, but I'm sure it's noticeable." we heard him sigh.

"I hope they can debut fast, also why are you helping her in secretly?" I asked.

"Well, she doesn't know that I already discovered that she's a  trainee. She didn't tell us, but I did tell our parents about it, and they are fine with her becoming an idol, but they are worried because before she hates idols and actors since something happened before, also she won't have more privacy by herself, and she might overwork herself up." I can sense that he's anxious about her,

"After all, she's my only sister." 

LEE HA EUN

"What are you listening to?" Taehyung took the other earbuds and put it in his ear.

"Isn't this the new produce x 101 song?" he asked as he stared at me, I nodded in excitement.

"Yup! Also, my friend joined on that show! His name is Kim Yohan. I used to be with him on Taekwondo!" I stood up in joy.

"Oh? Really?" He asked,

"Yes! He is my best buddy, I supported him with all my might when he was on that show! I love him so much" I grinned.

KIM TAEHYUNG

"Yes! He is my best buddy, I supported him with all my might when he was on that show!" She grinned.

She looks so happy discussing him... why does my heart ache a lot, I don't understand.

"Oh by the way sunbae, where is Jimin sunbae?" 

"Here I am." 

She turns around and runs to him, when she talks to him she smiles a lot.

"This girl... is driving me insane," I mumbled and realized what I said which made me laugh.

I know she's younger than me, but I see her as a woman, after being close to her and seeing her a lot here makes me feel something else towards her.

"Well, I need to go now, sunbae! Thank you for everything!" she bowed at Jimin. I stared at him while he smiles brightly at her.

"No problem and do your best on your debut next week, work harder so you chase your dream but don't work way too much." he patted her head which made her face burn.

"BWAHAHA! YOU SEE THAT! SHE LOOKS LIKE A TOMATO!" Jungkook laughed hard as he points at her.

"SHUT UP!" She glared at him while puffing her cheeks.

"Why are you so mean to her," I softly hit Jungkook's back head as he turns his head to me.

"That's a secret," he crossed his arms as he smirks at her.

"Whatever, I'm going now, I don't want to start bickering with Jungkook sunbae. I have more practice." she bowed at us and left.

"What's wrong with you Jungkook," Jin hyung discipline him, while he just sighed.

"I don't know; I guess it's my self\-esteem or something." 

JEON JUNGKOOK\ 

When I met that kid and that time when we stared at each other's eyes.

I heard a bell ring and saw the red string, and my heart was beating so fast. She reminds me of Hannie, but it's been a long time since I have seen her.

After she left to go to America, I never heard anything from her anymore.

"You should apologize to her, you are being really mean to her, " Namjoon hyung crossed his arms.

"Hmm… maybe I should next time i guess?" My heart beats fast but my pride keeps coming because she's better than me.

"What do you mean " maybe?" And "next time"?! Jeon Jungkook, go apologise to her after her practice. You got that?" Jin hyung glared at me, I feel defeated. 

All I did was nod my head, and looked down to the floor.

"Taehyung and Jimin are already close to her." Hoseok hyung bit his lip from frustrated.

Why does he look jealous about it?

Namjoon hyung called her to come to our dance studio, she looked so confused.

"Jungkook, do it now." Namjoon hyung pushed me towards her.

She gazed at me with a smile, "Lee Ha Eun… I'm sorry.." I gulped and looked down. 

"Sorry? For what?" She chuckled, which made me look at her.

"For being mean" 

"Oh, hahaha it's fine but i guess I forgive you?" 

"Why do you sound unsure about it?!" I pinch her cheeks.

"Sunbae! Stop it!" She grasped on my hands and she got that teary eyes.

"S\-sorry…" I stroke her cheeks carefully, as I look at her eyes.

But we heard coughing noise, which made me pull away.

"Anyway, we kinda need to go to Yoongi studio, bye Ha Eun." Jin hyung said as he smiled at her.

"Can i stay here?" I raised my hand. 

"I guess? Let's go but you should come after okay?" Hoseok hyung gave him a suspicious look. 

After that, they left us together… which I'm happy about it.

"Hey you, " I called her, she gazes at me.

"Yeah? What?" She asked.

"Did you used to live in Busan?" 

"Yeah, i did why?" 

"Did… did you perhaps had a friend who was older than you… and you two met because your parents are friends with him?" I asked one more, hoping she says yes.

"... How… how did you know about that?!" She stepped backward.

"Huh? Nothing, " I looked away and grabbed my wallet.

"I'm going, "I was to leave but i heard her spoke.

"Where are you going?"

"Going to Yoongi hyung studio, bye."

I left her there, lost from what just happened.

**LEE HA EUN**

HOW HOW DID HE KNOW ABOUT THAT?!

"Ha Eun! What are you doing there?!" Our manager pinched my cheeks, 

What's with everyone pinching my cheeks?!

"Well, the boys called me that's all. I was about to go back, I swear!" I pouted.

"Alright alright, let's go" I followed him behind and close the door.

"Manager Hyuk, " I spoke

"Yeah?" He didn't turn around we just kept walking.

"When… when do you think the girls and I debut? I just want their dream to come true, and you know my story about it." I sigh.

"Yes, I know that, even PDnim." He turns around and patted my back, and we went inside the dance studio.

"Ha Eun\-ah" PDnim called my name.

"Yes, sir?"

"We actually have a project for you, so you can maybe promote MxS." He handed me some papers.

"Huh? Only me?" I asked and point to myself.

"Yes only you, don't worry. The others are okay with it." He smiled at me.

But… I don't want to work by myself, I don't want to be lonely again…

"Oh, what is it?" I started looking at the papers.

No… no way… 

"A drama?! I'm the main character?!" I don't know how to react anymore.

I haven't… I haven't even got my first kiss yet… even though I had a boyfriend, no we didn't…

"Yes, seems like you will have seven guys who will be your first kiss." 

"The title says it all maknae." The girls grinned.

"SEVEN FIRST KISSES" they wiggle their eyebrows.

I'm only 18?!

"The boys who will be your first kiss on that drama are Lee Minho, Park HaeJin, Lee JoonGi, Ji Chang Wook, Ok Taecyeon from 2PM, EXO Kai and Lee Jong Suk." Manager Hyuk said as he looked at the copy.

"Gosh… EXO Kai?! Really?!" 

"Why? Are you a fan?"

"Yes of course! I'm a fan of them all! Ji Chang Wook too! But…" 

"But what?" PDnim asked as the others looked at me.

"Lee Jong Suk…?" 

"Yeah what about him?"

"Nothing, nothing. Will I able to meet them?" I asked.

"Yes, tomorrow. You know how to act right?" Jae asked, 

"I kinda I guess?" 

"Alright then, be ready. I'll take you from your dorm, " manager hyuk patted my head.

"Okay, everyone dismissed," PDnim said as we all bowed at him and left the meeting office.

"I can't wait for your drama! Do your best to promote us!" Solo Rin clapped excitedly, 

"But… it will be more fun if you guys are there too…" their reaction softens when I said that.

"Don't worry, we will visit. Okay? Also, get me an autograph of Lee Minho, " Sang Hwa winked, 

"Oh my gosh, I'll try my best to ask him for that." I laughed at her silliness.

I walked inside along with manager Hyuk and manager Chul, manager Chul is my own manager. We girls also have our own manager.

"Hello, " I bowed to them, they all stood up and bowed as well.

We both had eye contact, I can't believe this. He glared at me...

"You must be Lee Ha Eun, right? It's nice meeting you." Kai shaped my hand, I can feel him glaring…

"Y-yeah, it's nice meeting you too, also everyone." I smiled.

"This must be your first time acting, right?" Ji Jang Wook asked while smiling sweetly to me, "Y-yes sir, " I said.

"She actually a trainee to be an idol, not an actress, but I guess this is a great opportunity to maybe promote her group when the drama ended and they debut." Manager Hyuk spoke, keep a smile on his face along with manager Chul.

"I see…" Lee Jong Suk tapped his pen to the table while staring at me. 

"I hope you enjoy the drama, Ha Eun-ah, " Lee Minho smiled.

"Also, may I ask how old you are?" Ok Taecyeon asked curiously.

"I'm actually, 18 years old sir." I bit my bottom lip, there aren't a lot of females at the room. It's mostly the main characters along with their managers…

"18?! Wow, you're so young." Park HaeJin looked at me surprised.

They are all older than me.

"I guess, I'm your oppa then." Kai looked happy, 

Oh my gosh, I can't. I don't think I can handle myself.

"Ha Eun is actually a fan of you all, " Manager Chul smirked at me.

No, manager Chul why did you tell them. I can feel my cheeks heating up.

"Especially Kai. She's an EXO fan, " Manager Hyuk joined.

I glared at them and puff my cheeks out.

"Not fair… you're already exposing me." I pout and poke my cheek with my tongue.

"Sorry, kiddo." Manager Chul ruffled my hair, 

"Gosh, not the hair" I fixed my hair back.

They all laughed at me.

"So there will be eight episodes and Ha Eun. You have to kiss them." The producer said as he gazed at me.

"Excuse me but… it will be embarrassing… I uh, I haven't even got my f\-first kiss yet…" I gulped, 

I heard him snorted, trying not to laugh so hard. I glared at him and he stopped and sat properly. 

"Oh, I see… then we will just talk about it tomorrow, but now we need to practice the lines. Okay?" The PD gave me a thumbs up, I nodded and beamed at him.

"Alright then, so…" 

Then we all talked about on the scene and the lines we will be saying.

YOUR BROTHER

I could not help but laugh at what she said, she glared at me.

I told the producer and PD not to tell her that we will not really kiss, 

I can't even kiss my own sister, no way. Well, I used to kiss her when she was a baby and a kid.

She's so cute and innocent back at that time. Well, I do still kiss her but only on cheeks and forehead.

After some talking the producer and the PD left us all so we can maybe chat more a bit.

I looked at her, she looked so confused, tired, stressed and doesn't know what to do.

"I don't think I can do this…" she hid her face with her arms as she rested her in the table.

"Don't worry Ha Eun, you'll be fine." Kai stroke her back.

"Thank you sunbae." She smiled at him, like how she would smile at me after I gave her a piggyback before when she was five years old.

"Stop smiling like that…" I mumbled, she looked at me and raised her eyebrows.

"You said something sunbae?" 

"No, I didn't." I smiled.

Kim JONG IN

I can sense something happening with that hyung and Ha Eun.

Also, they look alike. They both have similarity, are they… perhaps siblings?!

"Ha Eun, here. Drink this" Taecyeon hyung gave her a juice.

"Thank you sunbae." She bowed.

"I also heard you grew up in America." Taecyeon hyung opened his drink.

"Yeah, I actually did." She said.

"Really? So that means you're fluent in English?" I asked.

"\*Well, of course, I am. I studied hard for my education and for my family so I can make them proud*\." She said in English.

"\*Wow, that's great. If you want we can maybe talk in English too*.\\" Taecyeon gave her a thumbs up.

All of us were just watching them both talking in English.

"Anyway Ha Eun, after the drama ended and you debut along with your members, I'll support you" I stroke her hair.

"Thank you sunbaenim!" 

Ha Eun and I exchange numbers, and I calmed her down because she was panicking when she noticed how she got all the attention of the hyungs.

"Who are you texting?" Baekhyun hyung asked as he sat next to me, "oh, it's the main female actress on the upcoming drama." 

"Oh really? How was she? Is she pretty? Cute? Or, " Chen hyung said, "sexy~" Sehun joined him.

"Oh gosh, why are you guys like? She's pretty cute and also she's only 18. Calm down." I glared at them and sighed.

"Wait really? Do you have a picture of her?" Xiumin hyung asked as the others joined in wait for me to show them her picture.

"Here." I showed them a picture of Ha Eun and I together with a while ago at the meeting.

"Oh wow, what a cutie." Chanyeol hyung chuckled, and he keeps staring at her.

"Oi, back off guys, also I heard that she hasn't got her first kiss yet!" 

"Oh damn really? Hmm… give me her number and I'll ask her if she wants me to be her first kiss." Baekhyun hyung wiggled his eyebrows.