My name is April Kate, just 5 years old. I live in an orphanage named Sun. My face is white and pale, blue eyes in the right eye and the left eye is green. This abnormality may be because my late mother also has eyes that are similar to me. With a thin and small body, I was like a dead walking human.

Here, we learn to be self-reliant by looking for money through recyclable items as early as three years old. If we fail to look for goods for sale, we will not be given any food. Those who are older than me will be beaten or forced into the warden room, I do not know what they are doing inside,i just heard them cried for help. How do I want to help them? My body is very weak and small.

I have 10 foster sisters and 5 foster brothers and 6 foster children. Our 22 siblings were guarded by two women warden named maylene and mother teresa and a man as a warden named Papa Mark.

In fact, our numbers were more than ever before but Papa stated that every time a 10-year-old daughter would be chosen to heaven. At first I did not understand, in the long run I understood Papa's point.

Papa Mark will buy a good meal for a sister to choose while we only eat a little white rice with the vegetables we collect along the way. After that, Papa will take her sister to the cellar. Nobody ever saw them all after entering the room.

Anyone who is naughty or failed will be down together to help Papa.I heard that it was very scary.

One day, me and my other brother failed to reach the target. The mother of maylene and Mother Teresa took me with 3 sisters and 5 brothers to the cellar. We were told to witness the ceremony to Heaven.

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Mother Teresa: "Your sister who is going to heaven tonight is Abby. You will see how your sister going to heaven."

I see Abby's older sister smiling happily and her body that was thinner like me before, now looks like a Giant character in Doraemon cartoon story.

Happy birthday songs reverberated throughout the cellar.

"Happy birthday, happy birthday ...."

* pakk * sound of baseball stick on the head. Papa hit her several times until Abby did not move anymore. Her eyes was staring at me before she stop breathing. That sight of her was very pitiful but so beautiful.

Me and the others were shocked and unable to sound and get stuck there.

Maylene's mother: 'Well, it's really appealing.' The mother said as she headed toward Abby's older sister while drinking Abby's blood.

At that time I realized that Heaven was very cruel and full of red. There is no heaven for children wasted like us. Wrong, unwanted children.

Papa and mother had the body of Abby's sister with a vengeance like a tiger.

 I have to be strong for myself and have had to learnt how to survive. Now I'm 5 years old, just 5 years to go. I do not want to be the food source for the warden.

When finished, they put half-eaten sister into the meat grinder machine. Clearly, I saw meat sources so far cooked for warden. Yeah, they make it like crushed meat and make it into a box.

A few days later, I started my life as usual. I was admitted to kindergarten and strangely I could recognize the letters without having to be taught anyone.

After that, I spent a lot of time in school.

Since my degree of intelligence exceeded my childhood, I was placed in a better place of primary school. At that place, i got know a lot people that help me a lot.

My life was spent in the school science lab. Teachers of science and mathematics always praise me that I'm too young for all of them yet so mature. For me, being a 5-year-old girl is a mature age in an orphanage. I really dont have time to waste.

Every night, I'm haunted with the incident and every time someone reaches the age of 10? I was also taken to help cleanse the stiff body of my sister.

Sometimes I thought, why did he leave my mother when she was pregnant with me and my sister? I want to know my biological father and want to get his affection.

But, am I worth it?

Through the file given to me two years ago, there was a picture of my mother and father. My  mother died a long time ago after she gave birth to me to this world. Now the man I'm looking at is like the father who left long ago as I stared at him with a long and meticulous look.

I said: "What is this big and magnificent house? Is this my father's; who left my mother and me? “Why did he leave us? "I said slowly.

Then i heard a voice that was so loud but so attractive that it attract my attention.

My heart beating fast, the more I step forward , the stronger the heartbeat.

Damien: 'Hey? What are you doing there , hurry up "

I saw his face in awe, his face is the same as in the video of my late mother given to me. Father looks very tall and handsome with his dark brown hair and blue-eyes. I also have had dark brown hair just like him.

Damien: "Hey, little zombie? You go grab food there." Damien said, pointing his index finger toward the food place.

I ran in a cheerful way to the place of the food and for the first time in my life, I ate a roasted meat because usually only the warden could eat meat, chicken, or fish.

I ate it while looking at my real father who is entertaining a boy wearing a blue shirt. While eating, I walk over to them and suddenly that boy screamed "Daddy, please! That dirty zombie wants to mess up with Brad!"

Damien: "Hey! Little zombie,you stop there! You're not worthy to be here, you are ugly, dirtier than everyone else. You're not worthy of life, my dog ​​is cleaner and much more useful than you are!"

I stepped back a few steps, I saw everyone laughing at me including my adopted sibling from the orphanage. I ate my food quickly and smiled at them, for sure now I realized that even though im ugly but I also wanted to love and being loved.

But, why am I was born if only for torture?