unknown, the most familiar word to me or HIM!

who is he? my lover? friend? guardian!

all i know that he is HE.  A person who wants me to be happy and his life partner. But, am i eligible for him. I am just a, a blind girl. WHO DONT EVEN KNOW WHO SHE IS , OR HOW SHE looks like.

I am completely unknown to myself , but he knows me, he knows me...

my name is MIA , a girl who born and raised in a middle class family, i dont even know my FATHER or, or... MOTHER all i know is that my mother passed away while i was only 3 years old. and the things i hate the most most is my step mom. i also have a sister

ummm, step sister

but she always helps me whether i am going outside or doing anything. I dont have a good childhood , cause i am not able to go school because i am deaf. but i tried to learn on my own in which my sis and HE HELPED ME!

HE! yeah he , a cute boy with a sweet mature type voice and his name is

KELVIN.

"mia come here have your breakfast!" oh my father calls i have to go.

i just put my audio diary in my desk looking for my stick, I am not able to go downstairs without it.

but i still remember the soft hands who always helped me going outside or climbing stairs blah blah etc.

"HA HA HAA" i always laugh at my conditions because this is what i can , i can only talk or laugh

wish you were here kelvin saying " mia, watch your steps there are stairs let me HOLD YOUR HAND and take you downstairs"

when i think about kelvin all i can do is to THINK about, how he looks, his height, his body - HEY MIA STOP his body what are you thinking about you just know his voice and hands nothing else you FOOL!

yeah i am fool , i always try myself to convince that HE WILL COME ONE DAY , and at that day i will be able to see him through my eyes , i will hold his hand tightly and walk , chat and play with him , oh come on i am 19 years old still thinking about playing some games with him

but the only thing i want is HIM.

"mia, come fast are you busy doing something?

do you need help?" father asked

" umm no dad i was just comming downstairs , no problem at all. i will be there in five minutes"

"I AM WAITING" replied dad

i walked downstairs and reach out for my chair . ate my breakfast and thought "i should ask him now!"

"dad i was just curious about if you allows me to go ga, garden today? please!" my heart was beating too fast like a horse, pressing my finger in a little stressfull condition."will he allow me to go?" was the only question i have in my heart and roaming all around my head!.

"okay" replied dad in a joyfull and enjoyfull way.

is , is it a dream ? i asked my step sister lilly who is sitting beside me to pinch in my hand.

"oouch" i screamed , but yeah its not a dream

i am free to go garden today, FINALLY!

"but lily should go with you" said dad in a silent deep voice. but i dont have any issue with lily so i just said OKAY quickly and get back to my bedroom to get ready for visiting park!

AS my dad said that i can go to park. it was the perfect and best moment of my life

i forget that i am blind just want to visit NATURE, or maybe i can find him.

yeah it is a difficult task. and, The fact is that it became more difficult as i am a BLIND GIRL.

I ran into my room which is on the 1st floor but yeah, i am blind and also i am lost in my thoughts

thats why my leg slipped and i was about to fall but my sister caught me.

"HEY , mia watch your steps. you were about to fall'

umm sorry i,i was just... without finishing my sentence i just walked into my room yeah I feel embarrassed,

my heart was stuck for that moment when i slipped, my leg feels like there is something wrong with the stairs like

OIL OR BUTTER !

but yeah i am BLIND how am i supposed to look or understand it, i

i can only feel that.

wish you were here **kelvin! **saying the same thing like lily.

**grabbing my waist **by your soft skinny hands. taking me to my room\, helping me to change my cloths. as *i am thinking this things my body becomes HOT ! i starts blusshing *. while thinking this suddenly i feel something near me\, it feels like a human. i lift my hands towards that thing.

***IT WAS A MAN!  ***

**my heart starts racing as soon as i touched his body\, he isnt wearing any shirt or T-SHIRT **

**i can fell his body\, so soft but muscular also. **

***HE IS TALLER THAN ME*\, I CAN FEEL HIS HOT AIR FROM MOUTH COMMING ON MY FACE**

HE Pushed ME ON BED , IT WAS LIKE A DREAM SO I PINCHED MY HAND!

"oouch" i screamed\, no its **not a dream its all true **

there is a man in my room! " HELP HELP, mom dad , lily someone come PLEASE!" i said in a stressful loud way.

HE CAME UPON ME, grabbed both of my hands took his head too much closer to me and

his hot deep breath, i can feel it clearly . his body is hot and now

I AM ALSO LOOSING MY CONTROL !

" YOU ARE NOT GOING TO GET RID OF ME, MIA! " he said in a sweet but bossy sound, like an ORDER

which i have to follow!.

but wait how did he know my name

what the hell is going on, is this the last day of my life. will he kill me. or rape !

no i dont wanna die or, or raped!

**i shouted "**who, who are you and w  what the hell are you doing here "

he kissed me too hard and bite my lips, my lips are all captured by his mouth.

he is kissing me slowly-slowly

THEN HIS LIPS STARTED COMMING DOWN , near my neck

NO NO, GOD SAVE ME - i was thinking this in my mind this is all over my mind!

he kisses my neck one time then, leaved me and now he is not upon me.

 "maybe i am scaring you, babe "  a sound of wearing t shirt or something came !

swoosh.

' you are mine \,**nobody can save you from me\, my baby! i am in a hurry right now " **from his voice

he feels too bossy and selfish.

" we will meet soon , and you will be mine sooner or later " the voice starts fading. it looks like he is about to go

OH NO MY MOM,DAD AND LILY !

i shouted "wait where is my family ! "

he laughed in an evil way and said " fikar not babe, they will be right back" and the voice gone

i feel a little relax then. BUT...

wait that , that voice it feels familiar

who is this man?is he kelvin !

phew! the thunder is gone

what a bastard man he was. that man just kissed my LIPS!

I am thinking only about that man that WHO IS HE? i got up from my bed and only from the feel i can tell

that my bed is all messy. RIGHT? yeah it is

I stand up, grabbed my stick and head towards my bathroom.

as I walked in my lips can still feel the sensation of that person kissing me. ( AAHHH! )

that bite he took on my lips is just, just like a vampire trying to suck all my blood!

I opened my wardrobe, undressed myself cause i am going to bath.

IT FEELS LIKE I AM NOT PURE NOW!

but no, i am its not my fault what that brat did to me.

I am a pure girl from my body,soul and heart.

next time, when he will come near me i am going to punch HARD on this face.

but he is tall in height (felt shy)

i am done bathing, dressed up myself and SUDDENLY THE DOORBELL RINGS!

no noo, it cant be him what the hell is he going to do now. OH GOD!

I came downstairs still in the fear of that man.

"who's on the door?" i asked in a fearful voice just wishing that the person there should not be him!

"hey my baby, its me your dad" i recognized my dads voice, opened the door and got relaxed.

"dad, where have you been just now even not only you but, where is lily, and mom?"

a deep silence rapidly spread all over the hallway, the silence is too much that i can even hear my hear beat.

tha-boom, tha-boom, tha-boom my hear was racing again.

"umm, it looks like my baby is angry on us, right?" diverting the subject.

ITS BETTER NOT TO TELL THEM THAT WHAT HAPPENED!

"uuh, you should inform me before you go. i was alone in home seeking for you but i didnt find even one of you"

"okay now forgive us please my little angel."

okay i answerd but still have the question that where are they gone just some moment ago, uuh let me leave this topic.

'lily come lets go park!"

*THE PARK*

this , this smell its so nice the fragrance of nature!

the sound of the fountain, the beautiful sound of birds pleased with simplicity, the kids sound playing games in park.

i took of my sandel and stepped on grass.

oh god , how relaxing. the grass is soft, spongy and too relaxing.

my heart broke down in tears, eyes starts filling with the water.

why am I not able to see such a beautiful nature, bird, kids and everything. why did you took the glory of my eyes god? what's my fault?

"mia , just wait here i am going to get two chocolate flavor ice cream for us"

i said - YEAH . giving a forceful smile. my heart is in pain but still I have to put a smile on my face

doesn't matters if it is real or fake!

I sat on the ground crying.

"here take your ice-cream."

yeah thanks lily. i wiped up my tears and begin eating the ice-cream

SUDDENLY I REALIZED - WAIT THATS NOT THE VOICE OF LILY ITS, ITS FAMILIAR

ITS HIM

OH GOD!

why him again? GOD SAVE ME!