Blossom(Namkook)
Episode 1
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Hey my Lovelies
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Hello and welcome to another Namkook Story
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It's been a while since I wrote a chat story
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Anyway I am writing this story on request of Anakha....
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I am always open to requests so let me know if you want me to write about any specific character or tropes
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He's not used to the silence, and it feels strange, overwhelming. He stops himself from reaching for his phone to bother one of his hyungs. The vast open space of his apartment feels uncomfortable, it doesn't quite feel like what his ten year old self imagined things would be when he'd moved from Busan to Seoul. It's even more strange to have no schedules, no plans at all; no diets, no one telling him what to do or what to eat or even what to wear. He feels somewhat like he's been thrown into the deep end of a pool with no floaters on and he doesn't know how to swim. He should have gone home like Taehyung and Jimin did. The moment they had their last concert the two of them were running home.
Home. Busan hadn't been home for awhile, it always felt like a mix of new and old; he has plans to go back home for sure. Just not today. He knows if he goes home he'll be bombarded with questions of what's next and what his plans and goals are or even worse whether he plans to settle down. Unfortunately he can't pretend to not understand the language or look to one of his hyungs or directors or managers for answers.
He's alone now. Of course he could bother someone but Jungkook doesn't have the heart to, he doesn't remember the last time that any of them had a break. A real break. With no plans or deadlines weighing over their heads. He must not be selfish, he was when he was younger and much more naive but he's matured now or at least he hopes he has. He will suffer alone.
He has an urge to look at his phone but Bang PD had spoken so much about staying away from SNS that he feels guilty for even glancing at the Twitter app. The bright blue bird calls to him, but he ignores it. He stretches out on his couch, a huge expensive leather thing that looked better than it felt. He's never felt so lost, so confused about anything. But he knows he needs to rest. He needs to take a breath. Learn to look after himself a little.
He wonders what the others are doing; Hoseok hyung had jumped into work opting to stay in BigHit and work on choreography with TXT. It wasn't a full time thing but just something to keep him occupied. Yoongi hyung had plans to go into radio, hosting some popular show. He remembers how excited his little hyung was, waving his arms in the air and doing a silly little dance and showing off his gummy smile. When he heard the news, he'd taken Hyung out for a drink that turned into a several and Yoongi ended up paying for it, telling Jungkook that he loved him. It was all very sweet until the hangover the next day and Yoongi wasn't even slightly affected by it, affectionately patting his back and offering him coconut water.
Seokjin was taking time off to consider his options; he was offered to host a new comedy talk show on KBS world or to continue his plan on starting up a new restaurant with his brother. He was the only one out of the seven of them who was actually dating someone. Sooyun was lovely, one of Seokjin's batch mates from his university and possibly the only girl who had turned him down twice before finally agreeing to one date.
They seemed to have worked out if the pictures that spam their group chat prove correct. He remembers Namjoon joking when Seokjin had told them in desperation the love of his life had turned him down.
Kim Namjoon
"Hyung if you don't stand a chance how could we?"
He'd joked about how with his face, girls wouldn't like him, the typical self deprecating humour that Namjoon was known for. Hoseok had slapped his arm and told him about all the girls crying over Twitter about his looks but Jungkook could only register one thing. Namjoon was straight. Or at the very least he had plans of getting a girlfriend.
Jungkook knew he was gay fairly early on, he hadn't know precisely the word to describe it until he had joined BigHit. Now looking back it seems crystal clear to him. He was lucky, he didn't struggle with coming to terms with it or going through what many teenagers and young people in the LGBT community had to go through. He had sort of accepted it, after Namjoon and Yoongi had a lengthy discussion with the group about sexuality following that kiss for Rookie King where Taehyung and Hoseok had to reenact a scene from Frozen Flower.
He'd asked Namjoon about it, wide eyed and afraid, and Namjooon had guided him to more wholesome books that portrayed LGBT characters as less of a spectacle and more of normal human beings living their lives. He had cried watching Brokeback Mountain.
It wasn't that he hadn't experimented. He doesn't even remember how it started but Taehyung had suggested they "take their stress out" and one thing led to another. It was fun while it lasted, Taehyung was gentle and thoughtful, always making sure Jungkook was comfortable. Jimin had joined them later on and that's when Jungkook realized he was third-wheeling.
Of course neither of them ever made him feel that way, they were too caring and loving but one time Jungkook had asked if he could watch instead of participate. That was when he saw the difference. They didn't even seem to notice his presence in the room, so absorbed and one with each other. It was different to what he had with Taehyung or Jimin, or even with both of them together.
Jeon Jungkook
“This is what love looks like” ; he thought.
They were both a little sad when he wanted to stop, reassuring them again and again it wasn't because he felt used or uncomfortable. He just felt like he was intruding, they weren't in a relationship but Jungkook thinks they might be someday, when the world was more accepting. The hyungs knew about what they did, it was pretty hard to hide anything from them and definitely even harder to be quiet during sex. Taehyung was loud even with a gag on, and Jimin could barely keep still and there had been enough moments where someone had walked in on the two of them with horrified eyes.
There was that time that Hoseok had found a leash in their room and he kept asking who had a dog and Jimin giggled.
Park Jimin
"Hyung that's...that's not..." 😂
Taehyung had gone into a full blown laugh before Hoseok with widened eyes realised what it was and promptly dropped the leash running to clean his hands. Jimin and Taehyung had doubled over laughing. Of course they knew the rules: no marks, no kissing in public; everything was always in the isolation and comfort of their dorms or hotel rooms
It wasn't just them, sometimes the hyung's needed some time out and strange as it was, there were people who'd been vetted through the company signing endless NDAs just so they could do things normal guys their age would do. It's all a little strange, he doesn't know how to be normal. Whatever normal was for them.
He supposes Jimin wanted some sense of normal. They were all fairly flabbergasted when he announced he wanted to go back to school.
Kim Taehyung
"Believe me, I tried to talk him out, but that's what he wants so I'm going to support him."
Taehyung squeezes Jimin's shoulder and the man in question smiles back affectionately. Namjoon nods, he always understood and was quick to defend Jimin.
Kim Namjoon
"That's really great Jimin, it's not an easy decision to go back to school."
Kim Taehyung
"Ask him. Ask him what he's studying." teasingly
Jimin groans burying his face in his hands.
Jung Hoseok
What are you studying?" asks , stuffing another piece of meat wrapped in lettuce into his mouth.
Park Jimin
Chemistry." he answers, face still in his hands, his voice muffled but coherent enough.
Park Jimin
"Yeah... I've always wanted to... you know..."
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That's all for today
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I hope you guys enjoyed it... I know it isn't like other chat stories so I hope you'll don't get bored
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the first few chapters are gonna be an introduction in the story
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Episode 2
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Jungkook thinks about that a lot. What his hyungs gave up to become idols. For him, it was always a stage. He wasn't good in school like Jimin was or even Namjoon. He knew pretty early on what he wanted and he was good at it. He worked hard to be better than good. He remembers how much Jimin struggled with singing, how critical he was of himself; if his performance wasn't perfect, he considered it a failure. He remembers how Hoseok wanted to quit, how Jungkook couldn't bear the pain of his dear Hoseok hyung leaving and broke down in tears.
Namjoon. He inevitably comes back to thinking about him. He's got so many plans, so many options, he knows Namjoon had been offered to be a UN goodwill ambassador and was considering going to South Africa for a programme there. He had other plans; music wise, a Hollywood film director wanted him to work on some music for a new upcoming film. He knows how overwhelmed Namjoon was with all of this, how he spent late hours talking with Bang PD, he has been having more sessions with therapists too. He wishes he could help, take away all the stress he wears on his shoulders. But the only thing he could do was nothing.
He reaches his phone to order food. He's in the mood for some jjajangmyeon, and opens the food delivery app that's sadly one his most used apps. He calls his mother while he waits, he's been procrastinating on that. He hopes it's not too late but she picks up after about three to four rings.
Her voice is warm and hopeful, it puts a smile on his face.
Jungkook Mom
Is everything okay? Why aren't you sleeping?
Jungkook glances at the clock, it's barely quarter past eleven. On a usual day meetings would be just starting, perhaps a quick dinner after practice or maybe on a rest day Jungkook would be holed up in his room, the words Golden Closet flashing in the neon light sign he had bought.
Jeon Jungkook
I just wanted to call."
He can see his mother smile, can hear it in her small sigh.
Jungkook Mom
"When are you coming home? Mrs. Park said Jimin is visiting."
Of course. He should have known. His mother and Jimin's mother were close friends, all their parents were and even more strangely, Jin had all of their mother's numbers on speed dial. He figures Jimin's mother would have called in excitement. He feels a little bad for not visiting.
Jeon Jungkook
"I'll be home soon."
Jungkook Mom
Good. Have you eaten?"
Jeon Jungkook
"I'm waiting for my food."
Another classic mother topic: he always puts on more weight than he likes when he goes home. He can rarely say no to anything his mum makes and the thought he might not visit again in a while always made him stuff himself. But right now he doesn't have to think about that. At least not for a while. He knows he'll get back to singing, despite everything he knows solo career in music is his line. Sure he wants to make big budget films and get into film production. But music is his thing. Singing and dancing on a stage far outweighed any other dream he wanted to pursue.
They talk a bit more, he gets an update about his brother and his nephew who's just turned two. He remembers being on tour when the little guy was born and how he hated being away. But his brother had been understanding, sending picture after picture of baby Chunghee. He was fat cheeked with a beautiful smile and had sadly inherited Jungkook's big nose. His mother thought it was adorable. He hopes the baby will grow to love his big nose just like Jungkook did.
Annika
Jungkook-ssi, you have a delivery. May I bring it up?
Choi-ssi brings his food and smiles politely, while Jungkook thanks him profusely. For safety reasons, Jungkook gets all his food delivered to the front desk rather than his apartment door.
He opens the box breathing in the spicy aroma of black bean noodles quickly snapping a picture to send Taehyung. He breaks his chopsticks swiftly and begins to dig in. The food is warm and spicy, Jungkook can't help but take large bites of food. His phone pings with the sound of a notification. Taehyung has replied.
He balances his food on his lap, reaching to grab his phone
Kim Taehyung
TaeTae Hyung-
You really think I'm going to get jealous of you eating takeout jjajangmyeon when I have all the home cooked meals I could want?
There's a picture attached to it, a feast of food probably prepared by Taehyung's mother; Jungkook spots the special Daegu kimchi he loved when Taehyung had brought some over years ago. His mouth waters in jealousy. There's sticky rice cakes, rice, noodles and strips of beef that look absolutely delectable. Taehyung grins from the side of the table, his fingers forming the infamous v shape
Jungkook picks at his food, stuffing a mouth full when his phone rings. Taehyung. He puts the phone on speaker.
Kim Taehyung
"Are you eating?"
Kim Taehyung
😂😂
"I told you to come home with us."
Jeon Jungkook
I know. How are things at home?"
He hears the sounds of plates and the splash of water.
Kim Taehyung
Apparently being a Grammy award winning artist doesn't exclude you from doing chores. I'm washing dishes. Everyone is good. Eunjin has a boyfriend. Now I got to act like a big brother and do the talk. But he seems like a good guy."
Jungkook laughs, he can imagine Taehyung trying to be an intimidating older brother.
Kim Taehyung
Jimin's trying to convince me to go to school with him
Kim Taehyung
"Yeah. I put my foot down. I think he's just nervous.
Jeon Jungkook
Have you got an apartment yet?"
Kim Taehyung
😮💨"No. I wanted something close to the university but everything we've seen doesn't really fit us. Jimin doesn't want one near school but I don't want him spending hours commuting, you know
Jeon Jungkook
"Has he got his licence?"
Kim Taehyung
. "No I'll probably be chauffeuring him around. How are things on your end?"
Jeon Jungkook
"Lonely."
He's always been honest with Taehyung. Somehow the older guy makes him spill all his secrets.
Kim Taehyung
"Which is why..."
Jeon Jungkook
"I know I should have gone home... But I don't want to answer all their questions about girlfriends and all."
Kim Taehyung
We talked about telling our families
Jungkook's eyes widen in shock.
Kim Taehyung
"We've only talked about it. Nothing confirmed but we want to... I'm tired of hiding. We both are."
He knows how it is for the two of them. How tough it is being in a relationship and having to constantly hide it. But their fans could see it, at least some of them did. He remembers their first talk about fan fiction, something Jungkook was well acquainted with. How Taehyung had a good laugh over the fact the most popular ship was Yoongi and Jimin. Yoongi had been confused.
Kim Taehyung
"I guess because you both are short and cute!"
That comment earned him a whack from Yoongi.
Jeon Jungkook
"Do they ask about it?"
Kim Taehyung
"I think mum knows."
Kim Taehyung
"I talk about him all the time. The only person I talk about more than Jimin is Tannie."
Jeon Jungkook
Well I guess they won't ask about being married then."
Kim Taehyung
"Not like we haven't done that."
Jungkook's chopsticks fall to the ground in a clatter
Kim Taehyung
"We got married."
Jeon Jungkook
"WHAT? WHEN? HOW?"
Kim Taehyung
"Remember when we first won the Billboard Awards?"
Kim Taehyung
"Chim and I got fake IDs made and we got married in one of the chapels in Vegas."
Jeon Jungkook
"Oh my god."
Kim Taehyung
. "I have the marriage certificate in our dorm. It says a Christian Park married a Jack Kim."
Jeon Jungkook
You've got to be kidding me. How drunk were you?
Kim Taehyung
We were sober. It happened at 10 am."
Jungkook can imagine them sneaking out of their hotels giggling away as they would normally.
Jeon Jungkook
How the hell did no one know about this?"
Kim Taehyung
"We just wanted something that was ours, you know? I think that moment would rate as number one on my favourite moments in life... okay no... wait, maybe two ‘cause.... one would be when we first kissed or no no no... one would be when he got me a leash..."
Jeon Jungkook
"TAEHYUNG WAY TOO MUCH INFORMATION!"
Kim Taehyung
He laughs wildly without a care like he usually does.
"What about you?"
Jeon Jungkook
"What about me?"
Jungkook knows what he's going to ask about. Taehyung's been subtly talking about it. He hears him sigh.
Kim Taehyung
You know what I'm talking about.
Jeon Jungkook
"I have no idea, hyung."
If anything Jungkook was a master at deflecting.
Kim Taehyung
"How long has it been?
Jeon Jungkook
He doesn't want to say. But he does.
"Sixteen. Sixteen years.
Kim Taehyung
"I think you should talk to him."
Jeon Jungkook
And what hyung? What is he going to say to me? ‘Hey Jungkook, I love you like a brother, no homo.’ Or God, worse if he wants to pity date me because it would break his heart to upset me."
Jeon Jungkook
"I don't want that. I'm fine."
He waits for Taehyung to whine, to push him, to make any sort of frustrated gesture. Instead Taehyung laughs.
Kim Taehyung
"You're not fine. You and I both know that. If you want to talk, I'm always here for you. Whatever you decide. Good night Guk."
Jungkook whispers back a softer good night.
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That's all for today
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Episode 3
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He's not fine. He broke down about a week ago in his studio and Taehyung was there. He'd snuck in and held him while he cried. Bangtan had been his family for years and even though in his head, disbanding made complete sense, his heart ached and feared for the unknown future.
When he had cried his tears away, Taehyung had waited patiently.
Kim Taehyung
You wanna talk about it?
Jungkook wanted to shake his head and say no but his words broke another dam of tears. He said one word. Namjoon. It was enough. They never spoke about it again. Jungkook was good at hiding. He hid for sixteen years right? What is one more day? One more week? One more month?
Of course, a lot of his fans saw. They saw how he looked at him all starry eyed as if Namjoon had hung the moon in a midnight blue sky. And he did in a sense. Jungkook wouldn't be here today if he hadn't seen Namjoon when he went by the name Rap Monster. He remembers telling his family how he wanted to sign with a company no one knew about. His family wanted him to sign with YG or maybe audition for SM? But Jungkook wanted BigHit.
The Jeons were sceptical but seemed more reassured after speaking with Bang PD. He wonders if the fans knew about the stories he wrote he'd never use their real names of course. But it felt nice to imagine. He was a silly fifteen year old boy. Sometimes he feels like he's still stuck at fifteen, never quite growing up.
How could he possibly tell him? It would hurt if Namjoon hated him. But Jungkook knows better. Namjoon wouldn't hate him for being gay, he'd probably just feel awkward that Jungkook liked him. He didn't want to tell him. Sixteen years of holding a flame for your bandmate doesn't make rejection softer.
In the past, he could always say he was concerned about band dynamics but now he couldn't hide under that story. It's always a series of what ifs. What if Namjoon really likes him (best case scenario) or Namjoon rejects him but still maintains the same level of friendship (most likely scenario) or flat out cuts him out of his life (worst case scenario).
He cleans the plastic box of takeout, setting it aside to return it to the restaurant and saving the leftovers in a tupperware container to place in his empty refrigerator that only has cartons of banana milk. He needs to do grocery shopping. He ignores the still-unopened boxes of his stuff and strips into his boxers before jumping into bed. He groans forgetting to brush his teeth and slipping out of his bed covers. His phone sounds again and he glances to see Namjoon messaging on their KakaoTalk group chat.
It's Namjoon messaging to ask if anyone is free tomorrow morning for a walk. Jin replies almost instantly saying he won't be able to and Hoseok follows with something about work. The group chat gets activated instantly and Jungkook's phone vibrates annoyingly.
He gets a separate text from Taehyung.
Kim Taehyung
TALK TO HIM .
He sighs glancing at the mirror. Toothpaste slightly dripping from his lips. He looks good even though he's tired and emotional. He's worked hard at looking good. But Namjoon's not the kind of person who'd be bothered about looks. Sure looking good might catch his attention but keeping it? That was where Jungkook struggled. Namjoon was way out of his league. He spits out the remaining toothpaste and rinses his mouth hastily wiping his hands before typing out a response he might regret.
Jeon Jungkook
I'll go with you, hyung.
Namjoon sends a thanks with a Koya emoji blowing kisses
Taehyung sends a wink on their private chat.
He sighs when Namjoon asks them to meet up at his and Yoongi's shared apartment at 5am. He sets his alarm for 4:30 slowly climbing into bed and attempting to rest before their walk.
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That's all for today
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