Tired and lonely. What will a girl do if there's no one to trust?

Suicide right? No it's wrong!! A girl should follow her path even if it gives her pain because one day she'll be proud on her decision!! And your death is the bad decision of yours because you can't even complain or regret after your death. It's not only for females but also for males because anger and depression will only be able to ruin you or make you fall but love, friendliness, hardwork and passion can make you achieve your goals.

Everyone wants a rich and carefree life but since I was born I wanted a meaningful life. So to make my life memorable. I think death should be to make my death memorable I'm gonna do anything to achieve my goals and make my life meaningful because life has it's own meaning and we just need to find out it's true meaning!! We can't get only happiness in life. Likewise, we can't get only pain in life. Life is a balance of every emotions!!

Lil bit of pain

Lil bit of happiness

After mixing all together

It turns out to be a life

I'm 14 years old...A girl who wants happiness for everyone because I know how beautiful is it to be able to smile truly and wholeheartedly!! Capturing many words and feelings inside my heart. I'm here to change my faith.

It sounds little bit of weird or maybe crazy for somepeople but with the hard work dark faith can be change into brightness and sadness can be change into happiness. Many people thinks there's nothing left to do on their life and start cursing their faith and become sad but hold your pain under your heart and be passionate for your dream. Cursing your life won't change your life but your hard work does!! We all are born with some talents such as; dancing, singing, rapping, acting, designing, writing and so on. We should use those talents to be capable and we should improve those hidden talents of ours.

Holding many pains under my heart I'll make everyone happy with my own capabilities. I've promised to myself that oneday my mom will be proud of me. I also had my aim since I was 4years old!! My aim was to become an actress!! I was interested in acting and dancing more than other activities from the beginning!! I always tried hard to participate in my school's programs and any other programs!! Like me you'll also get many judgemental people on your path through your goals but if you listen to them you'll only regret at last and if you ignore them and work hard you'll definitely shine brightly. Also If you wait to judge anyone then you won't even know how far they have gone from you. It's your choice how you wanna look your life.

There's a long path for me to cover up...

It's all about meaningful life. Not everyone has same life. Somepeople are rich and some are poor. But your hardwork can change your whole life. Life is not a book, game, feeling it's neither of them because life has it's own meaning. We just need to know that and follow our path…

My first day at ** Boarding school was little bit awkward and also really memorable because at first day I got too many friends. At first my mom left me at the middle of the school playground and gone back to home. I was only 9 yrs old at that time. I was at middle of the ground standing alone. I was really confused and feeling awkward to ask anyone. Suddenly, one of my classmate hold my hand and take me to my class. I was really happy that I got a friend at the first day. They come to me and asked me to introduce myself. At that time there was also another student who got admission to that school in same class as mine.

After few minutes our English Teacher came to our class. She was really young. She asked everyone to introduce themselves. My heart was beating really faster and here comes my turn to introduce myself. "My name is ****** *****. I am 9 yrs old. I came here from * secondary School…" I introduce myself to my friends.

"Hey, Can I sit with you together?" one of my new female classmate requested me. "Okay!! You can sit!!"I replied to her. The one who's already sitting beside me "No!! I'm here with her!!" I was feeling little bit awkward and the one who was sitting beside me said to me that our fathers knew eachother long ago and our hometown is also same. She was very talkative girl so I talked with her whole day while in free time. She told me that she was going to be on grade 3 but she jumped class.

Next day when I went school again then I found out she was gone to wrong class actually and she went back to grade 3 and that day I also found out that her father was also one of the teacher!!

She cried while changing class and she was really too much attached with me only on first day. I felt little bit weird that what's there to cry while changing class but anyway it was her own choice!!

After she was gone, I felt really lonely because I hadn't made any friends and I asked for one friend to be my friend but she disagreed and told me that she already got her bestfriend and if she make me her friend, her friend will get upset!! I asked her bestfriend to be my friend but I heard same explanation like her.

I don't know why but I was stubborned kid since I was born and if I wanted anything or anyone I will get it no matter what. I started to thinking I will definitely make her my bestfriend. After a week there were 2 students who got admission on that school. One of them was hosteler but both of them were talkative. Everyone told me to stay away from that hosteler girl because she was a big lair but I thought it was her some complications that makes her lie and I didn't expect the fact that a human can be evil.