At school...

I'm a weakling.

I'm a nobody.

I'm the coward.

I'm always bullied.

I wear fake retainer.

I wear fake and thick eye glasses.

I am the School's Nerd.

In reality...

Talk back and you're dead.

Try me, and you'll regret it.

Skilled fighter as I am.

I'm hot. No joke.

Charming, but DANGEROUS

Don't ever mess with me, because you're as good as dead, buddy.

AND I NEVER GIVE SECOND CHANCES.

Ha! Wondering who am I?

Well, to make it short,

Beware of the...

Gangster Disguised as a Nerd.

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What if you live your life like Hanna Miller? Nerd at school, and a gang leader in the real world? What if you're always bullied and treated like a nobody? Can you, a gang leader, with pride and all, last the whole year, without losing temper? Can you stand being the weakling?

.

.

.

I doubt that.

Hanna Miller, a nerd who's always bullied, always underestimated and very weak... only at school,

is a gang leader and shows no mercy. She decided to disguise herself as a nerd, so that she can go to school normally, and that no one would stay away from her because of cowardice. But because of the natural thing, the students still stayed away from her, because of her weak aura. If not stayed away from her, bullied her, and took adavantage of her because of the aura she possesed, the 'without having the capacity to fight'. Or simply, the 'nerd and weak aura'.

Kyzamesight, the name of their gang, has four leaders. Kylie, the gang's fourth leader, which is Hanna's screen name whenever she's in the gangster world, is one of them. Dwight, the gentleman, yet the guy who's the most fearsome of them all, holds the highest rank.

James, the guy who seems a bit stupid in Hanna's eyes, holds the third title of being a leader. And Chaz, the second leader, who's the most mysterious of them all.

Everything's set, however, Kyzamesight forbids anyone going to school. When they knew that there's a possibility that Hanna is doing the forbidden, they made an action.

They searched for Hanna.

Will she still be able to last the year. Hmmm... Let's see.

--Chapter 1--

"Yeah? Well that's your fault!" I shouted at a bully.

I'm outside the school premises this time. Peter, the guy I'm with at this moment, bullied me 3 hours ago, and I'm not gonna let him out of the trouble he made.

"Hmmm... What was that again!?" I yelled slightly stepping on Peter's stomach while holding his left arm, totally locked. A few twists then he will no longer have his "athlete built" arm.

He grins, making me a bit irritated.

"Haha... Shut up nerd! Are you doing this because I embarrassed you in front of everyone? Haha... But, you really are a big embarrassment in the first place, so that wasn't my fault." He snickers, which actually made me realize that I'm still wearing my black wig, retainer, and my fake eye glasses.

I took my wig, retainer and glasses off using my free hand. When he saw my face, I sensed fear. His left arm's shaking, and his eyes are wide. This is the terrified look of Peter's disgusting, freaky face. The look nauseates me, yet gives me a bit of unexplainable pleasure.

"Awwe. The big bully looks like a scaredy-cat. How adorable." I said, having the expression of seeing a cute, scared cat.

"Y-you're The 'Kylie'?"

I nodded sadistically. I swear I saw him gulped twice. Haha! That's what you get for pestering me.

My name's Hanna Miller. Weird, I know. The gangster me is infamous and is feared by thousands, while the nerd me is stuck with books and a bloody coward. Why? It's obvious. But don't you dare mess with me because, I'm the gangster, and I can kill you, cold blood.

They say, 'Beware of Kylie, she's a murderer' and so on. That's why I disguised myself as a nerd.

Kylie is my screen name. I use it whenever I'm in Kyzamesight, the name of our gang. It's pronounced as /kī zāms sīt / with only 3 syllables. It has four leaders. Well, I'm one of them, and I'm the fourth. The lowest in rank among the leaders, and the only female leader.

"Ugh... I-I'm s-sorry." He cried. Yeah, with tears. Now he looks like an idiot instead of cute cat.

I twisted his left arm then stepped on his right hand.

"Ahhhh!!!" He shouted like a pig being slaughtered.

"P-please, *sob* can you give me a s-second chance?"

My blood rose near its maximum. I know that anger is filling my eyes. Second Chance? The heck! Those two words are like curses to my ears.

I deepened my step on his right hand making him cry louder. And making me grin widely and wildly.

I heard footsteps. In my training, my senses were improved. That's why I can hear even the slightest movement from a large distance.

I looked at the direction where the sounds came from.

Someone's coming, and he's wearing the same uniform as I am.

I quickly returned my attention to this stupid guy Peter.

"I'll grant you that seco--- I mean, first chance to escape, in two conditions. First is, you'll be transferring to another school. Second, you have to keep that ugly mouth of yours shut, and keep my disguise as a secret. If you don't, I'll let my gang kill your whole family. Understood?" He nods and I let go of his arm, but I think he's too weak to get up so he kept on laying down.

I wear my disguise things, such as the wig, retainer and glasses. Hmmm. Let's just wait what'll happen next.

"Nerd! Who did this to him?" The guy named Jes asked.

I just shrugged. He threw me a suspiscious look.

"Did you do it?" He asked me, suspiscion obvious.

"Hey! You think I can do that cruel thing?" I asked and he just said no. Of course! Who would suspect a weak nerd like me?

I just turned my back, when Jes asked him.

"Who did this to you?"

dug...dug...dug...dug (heartbeat)

Hey! Even though I'm a vicious type of person, I still feel nervous. Duh.

"I-It was Kylie." He stuttered.

"That cruel gangster!"

Cruel, huh? He doesn't even know what type of person I am.

I just continued walking 'till I reached my home. I don't wanna go to our compound today. I'm just tired.

***

"Hey! Watch it, nerd!" Says one of the school's TOP as she kicks my books that fell because of her. Great. Note the sarcasm.

And I'm actually in the hallway, which makes it more embarrasssing.

"TOP" is a group of students who are the smartest, most good-looking and the wealthiest. Now, there are just 6 of them. 3 girls, and 3 boys.

As I pick my books up...

*step* *step*

I told you I have sharp senses that I can hear footsteps from a long distance.

I glanced at where the sound is coming from. He kept on walking. He's walking towards my direction.

"Jeez, what a weakling." He said coldy.

A new student. Who could that guy be?

I slid some of my books inside my locker, and left 2 books in my hands.

"Nice teeth you have there!" I heard someone yelled, followed by weird snorts and laugh.

I just ignored them. Of course I have nice teeth! Duh!

*checks watch* 3 minutes before time! Oh my gosh! If only I could jump towards the third floor, I'll do it.

As I run...

*grasp*

I turned to the person who's hardly gripping my arm.

"Hey!" I shouted as I successfully grabbed my arm back, glaring at him.

He seemed surprised. Yeah, well, it's like the 'weak nerd' escaped a very hard grip.

"Sorry, but I have classes." I apologized, NOT SINCERELY.

He grabbed my other arm then pushed me 'till my back touches the wall, his arms locking mine.

*goose bumps*

"Looks like the WEAK nerd escaped my deadly grip." He said with eyes full of suspicion.

What's with this guy? He seemed so... different.

"O-oh, i-it was just, adrenaline rush, yeah, adrenaline rush."

I said while pretending that I'm scared.

"Yeah, you're probably right. Looks like you really are a weakling."

He said, then smirked, still leaning against, locking my arms. I can free my arm, if only I'm not in disguise.

Jeez. If I'm outside this school, I probably have knocked him out.

"L-let m-me go." I fake stuttered.

He just stared at me, specifically, my dark blue eyes. I never got this close to a guy before, except the times when I gave them uppercuts or strikes below the belt while hiding my attaking knee. I'm not short. My height's 6 feet flat. Not short for a girl.

He just stared at my dark blue eyes, while I can't make any eye contact. Finally, he loosens then let me go.

"Can you take me to class 4A? I'm new here." He asked. Well, that's easy. I'm basically from class 4A.

I just made him follow me. I glanced at my watch. 1 minute left!

As we reached the room, it's already filled with students, chattering. Nothing's new.

*bell rings*

I collapsed on my chair, relieved that I made it on time. I mean, exactly on time.

"Attention everyone." Says Ms. Pier.

Then, the class goes silent.

"We have a new student." She faces the guy I met from before and said, "Go introduce yourself, dear."

All girls, except me, go shrieking. Their eyes are literally forming hearts. So disgusting!

"Hi, my name's Joshua. Joshua Zach Davids. You can call me either Joshua or Josh, but never Zach." He says, having the purpose to sit on a vacant chair, when some random girl yelled.

"Hey Josh! Tell us something about yourself."

Zach---I mean Josh grins.

"I'm a male. I'm studying here. My age is probably just like yours. I'm living under a roof. Single. And probably not interested to be talking anymore."

I grinned upon hearing what he said.

What a savage...

Interesting.

The girls frown at his words, but still literally drooling. Disgusting!

***

I just received a text from my gangmate. It says...

[From: Jessa

The news spread to the other leaders. They already know that you're studying, which is against the rules. I'm sure they already made an action, but we lack knowledge of it.]

I was shocked. The other leaders...

They can kill me if I let my guard down! What am I supposed to do now?

I stared blankly at my phone for like 15 minutes? But I still can't answer this problem. What am I gonna do!

I can't stop studying. I mean, this is the only right thing I'm able to do. This is the only thing that can at least conceal my darkness.

Why can't I get out of the gang? Well, I'll tell you about that, next time.

"What's that?" - a classmate.

"What the f*ck!" I yelled, panicking, immediately hiding my phone.

WTF

WTF

WTF

AM I EXPOSED?

I looked at the guy, who seemed to be pale and shocked.

Am I really exposed?

"Never thought a nerd could actually yell that loud. Not to mention, curse."

Oh... So that's what the fuss is all about.

"I'm a human too." I said, shrugging. Well, that's the best excuse that I could have at the moment.

I decided to go outside the classroom. The school's really big. There are four buidings for high school and college. The lot is like a subdivision. Just as I'm almost near the library, I saw the "TOP". I mentioned them before. They're labeled as the most influential people here in school because of the traits they have.

Actually, I'm smarter than them, because I ranked highest in the annual exam. But I'm pretty sure they won't let me join "TOP" because according to them, I'm not pretty, and I don't want to join anyways.

But, I am pretty! Without my disguise, of course.

"Looks like the nerd's going to the library. Hmm. Let's make this a bit interesting." Says Hector, one of them, as he grabs my collar, making me look down. I have to look down, because if I don't, they might notice how craving I am to torture them to death.

He continued grabbing my collar while walking. I'm literally being dragged like a piece of sack. The others just snickered and chattered.

He continued dragging me, followed by the other members of TOP, and I forced a fake tear from my eyes. Glad I took drama club last year.

"Awwe, looks like the nerd is a scaredy-cat too. So disgusting." I mentally rolled my eyes because of that.

They dragged me like I'm a prisoner who murdered a hundred people. Well, I had. I mean, I'm in a gang so that's like a natural thing.

"Ouch!" I shouted when someone stood on my foot. Now I seriously regret that I did.

"Ohhh... I didn't know you have such firm voice. I thought you have the kind of voice that's as soft as wind. Well, voice doesn't matter here, weakling. What matters here is beauty, wealth, and knowledge."

Blah...blah...blah

If only I can cover my ears without them noticing, I already did.

"Hey! Look at that nerd. She messed with the TOP. What an idiot."

"Yeah. And she's so weak too. Well, no one can fight TOP in the first place."

So many chatters, but nobody offered to help me. How disappointing.

*grasp* A hand grabbed my wrist making me look at him.

Zach---I mean Josh, the new classmate.

"Who are you?" Asks Hector. The 5 other members are just staring at them.

"My name's Josh." He said, coldy. Really cold, matching with his freezing eyes.

"Like I care." Says Hector.

Seriously, is it necessary to have a conversation while hardly gripping my wrists side by side? This is awful!

"I just answered your question, stupid." Says Zach---I mean Josh. Why the hell am I calling him Zach? Geez.

Oh my gosh! They can just talk without me in between, right?

I looked at Zach---err---Josh, but I was terrified. He doesn't look angry at all, having all of his face muscles relaxed. I'm scared, and it's weird. Only the other leaders are able to scare me. My eyes drifted to his. They're deep blue, and if you look closely, there's a peck of light brown in them. Hot, yet cold. Wait. It doesn't makes sense. What I mean is, he has cold eyes, and his overall looks can be described as hot. Yeah, that's it.

Wait. What did I just say!? Did I just compliment him?

"C'mon, Han."

He grabs my wrist, glaring at Hector.

"H-hey! Where are you taking me?"

"Shut up!" He yelled.

What's with this guy! He's annoying, and scary. Together with his cold eyes and cold voice, you may even think that he's an Ice disguised as a Student.

He continued grabbing me while running. Of course I can keep up! But it's a little weird to see a frail girl running fast.

"Hey, take it slow!" I yelled back.

"Oh, sorry, I forgot you're a weakling." He then snickers. What a pain Zac---Josh is.

Umh... Wait... I'm supposed to ask him a question, but I totally forgot about it.

"You wanna ask where I'm taking you? Well, I don't know too. I just saw you being bullied, so I helped you. I just did that because you helped me before, right? You assisted me towards class 4A. We're even now."

I just nodded, then pulled my wrist back. I looked at his expression, and he looked surprised, but back to being cold-faced again.

***

"Yes! You got it right!" I shouted.

He looked terrified and near to crying. I inched my gun closer to his forehead, and he cried, indeed.

"Hector, Hector. Hmmm..." I said sadistically while walking slowly, encircling him, with an action of thinking.

"P-please f-forgive me." He says.

Wondering what's happening? Well, let's have a...

Flashback.

I was buying something when I saw him under the tree, making-out with a girl. I took my disguise tools off and put them inside my bag.

Let the games begin!

I walked towards his direction with my angry expression. Ha! Let's see what'll happen next.

I forced a tear from my eyes then run towards them.

*slap*

"How could you!"

I said. He looked at me, with raised eyebrows.

I clenched both of my fists and swatted his shoulders thrice while crying.

"How could you! How could you! How could you! You fooled me again! You told me I'm the only one."

The girl looked confused saying, "Umh... excuse me miss, but I think you're mistaken. This guy is Hector, and he's my boyfriend for three years."

Three years!? Oh, this must be painful for them. But three years or three days, I don't care! I'm gonna destroy him.

"Look miss, Hector is my boyfriend for five years. So it seems that he never loved you. Now, if you don't mind, I want a sincere talk with my Boyfriend." The girl just looked down then cried, and started running. I never pitied them. They're just people who are so desperate when it comes to love. Nonsense!

"Who are you?" Asks Hector. I can't deny that he has good looks, and that's one of the reasons he's one of the TOP. Well, TOP means, Ten Outstanding Personalities.

"Oh don't be silly Hector. My pictures are posted all over the school's walls." I grinned.

"K-Kylie?"

End of Flashback

"Forgive you? Oh don't be silly. You bullied me a thousand times, and you'll just say, 'Please forgive me.' Oh come on Hector. Let's stop this rubbish." I said looking very sadistic.

"Bullied you? I n-never even met you before."

"Really? But you bullied me a thousand times. Oh, wait. Let me show you something." I said as I wear my disguises.

"I AM HANNA!!! You get that!?"

He was frightened.

I hold his collar and raised him a little.

"How does it feel huh? Being grabbed by the collar? Hard to breathe?"

I laughed. It's not fake. I'm enjoying it and I love what I'm doing.

I put him down, still holding his collar, then run. I run and he's not running. Which means, I'm dragging him. I stopped then looked at him.

Hahaha! This is enjoyable! But I can't do this for so long.

I stopped. He is full of cuts now.

"S-sorry. P-please give me a second chance."

Without thinking, I slapped him. I never ever wanna hear those curses again. Second Chance? Two words that came from pure evil.

I slapped him many times. I can't count, probably because I zoned out a little. But as soon as I have my good state of mind back, I stopped.

"Go! Never ever see me again. Never cross paths with me, or else... I don't know what'll happen."

***

The day after that, he's gone. He quit TOP and went somewhere else.

I then received a message.

[From: Jessa

Kyzamesight's three other leaders would like to meet you this 6:30pm at the main compound. Don't be late. You know what'll happen if you are. By the way, take care, best friend.]

The three other leaders...

They're my worst nightmares.

I'm sitting on my proper seat inside our classroom. I'm the first one in here. Nerds come first. Unfortunately, I'm the only nerd in our year. Wait, can you still consider a person who took down thousands of people, a nerd? I grinned at that thought.

I leaned on my chair and decided to take a nap. When I woke up, the room's already filled with darn noisy students. Ms. Pier's on her seat, reading magazines.

I checked the time. 7:30am. Great. What a responsible teacher we have here. Please mark my sarcasm.

She stood up then walk... towards me!? Why me!? Have I done sonething wrong? Does she know about my secret? Is she gonna reveal it to everyone? Or is she gonna expel me? Darn these thoughts.

Calm down Hanna. Everything's fine. I whispered under my breath.

"Ms. Miller, it's now your turn to clean the library."

Phew. She doesn't know.

Cleaning the library is done aphabetically. And it's my turn to clean the "fiction" portion of the library. Unfortunately, I don't know how I can manage my time. I have an appointment with the other leaders, and I can't be late, no matter what. They can be as scary as hell.

"Umh... Ms. Pier, I-I have a problem. I think I can't do that this afternoon, y-you know, I have an important appointment. May be tomorrow?." I asked her politely.

She crossed her arms over her chest and shook her head sharply.

"I'm sorry Ms. Miller, but I think it woudn't be fair for the other students. That's my final word. Rules are rules."

I sighed in defeat. I must choose. School or My Gang.

"Ouch!" I whispered to myself as the birth mark on my lower back ached.

I have a rose-like birth mark on my back. It's height's half an inch. I don't know anything special about it. It's just that, all of the members of Meagan family have it. Meagan is my former surname, it's my real surname. But before my parents died, they told me and my older brother to change our surname to Miller. I don't know the reason why.

The birth mark aches when there's an enemy nearby, or if something bad is about to happen.

And this time, I think it's because of me, getting late in the appointment. Or worse, getting myself into trouble. Geez.

I hope it's just that, because if not, I'm afraid to think of something else.

*** Lunch

I'm sitting by myself eating a whole pizza. Oh yes! I have a big appetite, and I can't even figure out why I am still a size two.

"Hey, ugh, can I eat with you?" A normal girl student asked. I said normal, because she's neither a nerd nor one of the populars.

"Yeah, sure." I replied coldly.

She wears a black shirt and a jeans. She's not skinny, but not fat either, and I guess she's entirely normal.

"My name's Kairi, Kairi Morgan. And you are?"

"Ky---I mean, Hanna Miller."

I replied. How can I be too zoned out that I almost mentioned my screen name!? Oh my gosh! This isn't good.

"Nice to meet you." She said and shrugged. She ate her... ugh... salad. How can someone survive the whole day with just a plain, vegetable salad?

Anyways, is it wrong if I'll have a friend? A trusted friend, but still, I cannot tell her my secret.

Yeah, that's trust for me. *snickers*

"Pleasure. So, Kairi, do you mind me calling you Kai?"

Her eyes widened. Did I say something wrong? Oh come on guys, tell me. It's my first time talking to a student normally, so is she offended or what?

My goodness.

"Oh my gosh! You're so gonna be my friend! That's actually my nickname. Ugh... anyways... can we be friends?"

I nodded nonchalantly, making her squeal. So it's official, I now have a school friend. Well, I don't know.

Wait, do I sound stupid? Hey! Remind me! It's not that I know what I'm doing.  Going back, I ate the whole pizza, fries, donut, chicken, and a-bowl-of-I-dunno-which-looks-like-jelly. I don't exactly know how all of those food fit inside my stomach.

I looked at Kai, who now stares at me blankly.

"What?" I asked, wiping my mouth with a tissue.

"That's why you're so fat."

Fat? Oh I forgot to tell you. I wear five clothes. They're part of the disguise, duh!

"Hey pig!"

Someone from the center of the canteen shouted, which got all of the attention. And he's looking at me! Why me again!?

He stood up then walked toward our direction. Wait... what's happening? Please.