Tick tock tick tock..............

" I never knew I would end up like this. if I just worked hard back then without wasting time on playing around. I was never serious about my life. And even if I worked hard for something I couldn't achieve it. maybe I was not lucky enough or I didn't work hard enough. Because of my stupidity and laziness I couldn't do anything. I was just a little good at drawing that's why I've chosen art as my major in college. I didn't know it would be this hard. why did I wasted my time?? I wish I could go back in time.... if I went back I would have worked hard, wouldn't waste any times.... I wish this was not reality...I wish this was a dream.....I wish I could go back in 2016.. I promise I would work hard..."

Ai Rin was writing her diary with teary eyes... She never thought life would give her this gift even though she is from a wealthy family.

Life taught her a lesson for abandoning it.

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hospital

VIP room

"Ai Rin, you have woken up.... My dear....We were so worried.."

A patient wearing oxygen mask was laying down on the bed...

"mom....."

doctor came running after getting notified.

"Mrs. Len... Ai Rin is fully fine. But she needs to take rest properly. she should not take any pressure. she has been in coma for a whole year, so she needs times to get her old self back, moreover she is a PTSD patient so I think you should take care of her personally..."

"Ai Rin, you will get well soon and can go to school again. don't worry my daughter!!"

she caresses Ai Rin's forehead....

"Why am I here? I did have an accident but that was not serious. I went home after a few days...wait....is this a dream??( she pinched her cheek.......ouch) but I graduated from school and went to college....last night I was writing in my diary....I remember it vividly..... what's happening??? ( she was sitting on the bed, after watching her mother approaching her she asked her)mom.... what happened to me? why am I here? what year is it now? isn't it 2021?? " she asked furiously.

"what??? are you okay? Have you lost your memory after the accident?? "

"no,mom... tell me the year.."

"it's 2016.."

"what!!! "

in her mind....

"what's happening? Am I really in 2016? Did I really come back in time??"

"dear, I have to go for a meeting...take care...."

"hmmm"

"my parents never care for me. My mother is the director of one of the top companies where my father is the president. that company was inherited from my grandpa.... I don't know if there was a day my mother took care of me. Even if I got high fever no one takes care of me...I won't blame mother for that. she was having a hard time ever since she came into her in law's. even if I was admitted in hospital for anything she rarely visited me.. this is how my life is....got parents who doesn't even care even if I die.... only care about study at what I'm not even good enough. I grew up in loneliness. I did have some friends but they didn't care about me but my money. I deleted all of their number. if I really came back in time, if it's really 2016, I've decided I won't let people intimate me, I won't let them taking control over me, I won't waste my time doing nothing. I won't let that idiot ruining my life. I'll do whatever I need to do to escape from this."

after a few days......

Ai Rin was discharged from the hospital and was taken to her parent's house. She started looking around the house...

"as far I remember, I wasn't living in this house in my dream or should I say it was really? it felt too real to call a dream......... Thanks to the accident I got to see my parent's house again. I should not call it an accident, basically I tried to kill myself. why did I do that??

I am a PTSD patient... post traumatic stress disorder... you can ask, you're an only child from a wealthy family, what stress do you have?

My father....I hope no one ever gets a father like him. He hates me. He hates me more than anything in the whole world. He is an abusive person. As in those memories I have, If I ever talked to him I don't remember. from my childhood I've seen him beating mother over nothing. He's....how should I describe it... he's more evil than a devil....he always gets angry no matter what you say to him... he even beat me many times. that day, he beat me with a hockey stick just because I couldn't get a good result...

my mother was not even in the house. she started working in the office when I started primary school... I was alone from then...I asked them, when I entered high school, why did they give me birth if they don't care about me?? my father even replied that it was a mistake..."

"Ms. Ai Rin come and have dinner..."

"she's the person who took care of me from the beginning... she's a nice person who loves her child more than everything.......... coming aunt."

Ai Rin was in her room thinking about that dream while laying down on her bed.

"I was in coma for almost 12 months. I have dreamt till the third year of college. when did I move out from here? I was so good at playing video games. I'm in middle school right now. I have to start everything I wanted to do. I'll apply for art classes tomorrow. I need to learn English also...I need to go to academy for those...I need to choose a good academy for those...I better sleep well tonight....... you can do it Ai Rin..."

..................

Ai Rin was on the rooftop. she was injured... she was crying sitting alone hiding in a closet. she saw her mother getting beaten up by her father....

she woke up, she was sweating...it was a nightmare......her illness wasn't cured...

"I wonder why mother never left him...she was beaten many times but she never tried to divorce him...I don't know why........"

5 am already......

I should wake up early and do some exercises to keep my mind healthy...."

breakfast time.......

Her parents were having breakfast....she was late because she slept till 8...

"why are you coming here now?? Did you forget timetable as you came back from coma??"

He was about to yell at her but her mother interrupted by saying that she was given sleeping pill maybe that's why she slept more...

Her father didn't even let her touch her breakfast. He gave her punishment. He told her to stand by the wall for 2 hours....

Ai Rin always felt terrible whenever she came in front of her father....she stood there, didn't even dare to say anything....after his father went to office that care taker aunt cooked her rice which she had been cooking for her secretly... because eating rice was forbidden in that house.

"thank you aunt...."

she took breakfast nervously....

she tried not to think about that...

after breakfast she did some research about academies. then she applied for them....she decided to go to school from the next day...even though she's not good at study she still should try it...

.....................

"Those who don't have any talent should try everything, until they find one they're good at. I did like drawing back then. when I was staying alone in that house I used to draw which helped me clearing my mind. but later, It didn't help. then I found out about video games and started playing games. it was my best friend which helped me escaping the reality. whenever I used to play game, I escaped from the reality......... why does these feels so real? why does that dream feels so real? I can even remember every feelings.( she put her hand on the left side of her chest) those abuses, those feelings I had for that person.......I don't believe it was a dream.... it wasn't dream...it was real....let me guess something....."

she looked at the date....

"Risen will debut after 2 months with a mini album "comfort". if I'm right then it wasn't a dream...but I have to wait for 2 months for that..... before that I need to talk my mother about moving out."

Ai Rin went outside the house...she felt the warmth of the sun which fall on her face. it was winter. she met her mother at her lunchtime.....

she told her mother she wanted to move out. her mother refused her. She remembered her mother was saying exactly those same lines she used in her dream.Ai Rin moved out from the house without telling her that time.....she did the same this time also...

she rented an apartment far from her house so that her parents never went to see her. but sadly she didn't find that house where she lived in that dream. she went to that place but it was under construction that time. maybe because she moved out when she was in highschool in that dream, that apartment was available there or maybe because it wasn't real....

her mother got furious when she found out Ai Rin moved out.. but Ai Rin didn't received her call... ignored her.

" no one will ever know that I tried to commit suicide a year ago...my mother should have cared me once. she was like that..never cared for me. she always yelled at me.......................

I should try to live my life from now on..."

she brought everything important with her. she even tried to play video games to check if she really played it before..... but the thing was that, it was her first match, she won so easily...the game club where she was playing everyone praised her. She didn't looked like she was new..

she couldn't believe anything....if that dream war real or this life was real? she was confused..

Her day started to go smoothly, different from that dream... she woke up early then went outside for jogging, came back home then cook breakfast. she knew how to cook because of that dream where she lived alone, she practiced cooking various dishes to try to change her mood.

Then went to school.....this time she knew that everyone cared for her for her money...she tried to kept distance from them....after school she went to academies...her classmates found her different from the past... they had been gossiping behind her back that, that accident changed her fully....she used to hangout with those stupid girls but later she didn't even talk with them or anyone else.

2 months passed...............

"A new boy group"Risen " has debuted under MQ entertainment with their first mini album"Comfort". which has already broken a record for being the first group already placed in Billboard with their debut album........."

"I was right.......this is exactly what I saw in my dream...that means, it wasn't dream I have come from the future."

she was surprisingly happy...

meanwhile, her mother blocked her credit card because of her stubbornness of not moving back so she started some part time jobs.

later she was admitted into the same high school where she was in her dream.. her mother gave her two choices, either go to the school she wanted and live separately or move in their house and go to art school...

she wanted to go to art school so much. She wanted to learn more about art. She decided to moved back in her parent's house with a burden heart. So her mother let her go to the art school.

2018..............

"I met him in that school where my mother wants to send me. The one who played with my heart. He was a play boy but I was so foolish that I believed him and fall in love with him. This time I won't see his face...this is for good...if I ever see him I'll punch him on his face..................

I'm going to my new school...I can't believe I'm a highschool girl now....did I do right thing by choosing this school??? I'm nervous also afraid...what if I face those same situation I've faced in that dream.. I'm not a strong hearted person... I'm weak..."

Unity Art High school

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"I don't know anyone here....new faces ..new

environment....I hope I could change my life this time? I hope I can become better this year....."

she entered through the entrance.....

her classroom......

"everyone welcome..... I'm your homeroom teacher Dong Jin. you guys are in your new journey..so work hard to achieve your goals.....why is that desk empty??? where's the student???"

someone opened the door of the classroom and entered.....

"sorry I'm late..."

"it's okay.... be quicker from tomorrow.."

"what!!!!!!!!!(Ai Rin was so surprised to see him) why is he here??? he shouldn't be here, should he? wait, did I make a mistake??? (she took out her diary where she wrote her dream and checked) no, he was in the same high school with me ...that school was different...why is he here ???....it changed...."

"what is your name, student? "

"my name is Lin Yi Ran."

"you're handsome boy......go take your seat "

his seat was beside Ai Rin...he looked at her and slightly smiled....

"he's kinda looking like an innocent boy. he sure does have a cute face. (she was observing him secretly) "

later she found out that, he was the one who won the national art competition last year... but she was not feeling well cause she lost, she didn't notice the name properly only heard something like Mr. Lin.....

someone approached her during lunchtime.....

"hey....(after looking at her name tag) Ai Rin....in which school you were in before???"

"SQ school"

"that school...my cousin went to that school.. he's a senior......by the way.... I'm Xiao ji Yang..(she was smiling brightly)

Ai Rin also smiled at her .....

"nice to meet you"

"you do not have to be formal... we're all classmates.....by the way.... won't you go for lunch???"

"huh....? yes...."

"then let's go together.."

Ji Yang hold her arm friendly and started talking....

"that time I didn't have any friends... should I make friends or no?? I'm trying hard to change myself... I'm I'll but I'm still trying...my doctor told me to try something new everyday, try to trust someone but I don't trust anyone. everything happens because of me. that's why I try not to interact with others."

"what are you thinking?"

"nothing"

"you know that guy Lin Yi Ran. he placed first in the national competition. I have seen his art... he's genius." (she speaks while eating)

Ai Rin looked at him...

"you know him??"

"no, I've just seen him in an exhibition.."

Ai Rin started to feel ease with Ji Yang before she realized it......

"First year has finished gradually......

I've been with Ji Yang since the first day of school. I don't know if I should call her friend or not.. I don't even know what does friend mean ... when we went to the school trip, it felt different. I've never felt that before... she was like a sun ray in cold winter... My father yelled at me and threw his pen on me because I study in an art school. I got cut on my right cheek. I couldn't go to school the next day. So, she came to check on me in my house... I was hiding from everyone inside my room.... from reality... I knew this would happen... I feel terrified......"

"It's not like I wanted to read her diary. but I thought there would be something interesting. so I happened to see it. I guess being wealthy isn't everything.. Even an average people like me who has supportive parents and a happy family. That time I went to her house, that aunt who always takes care of her thanked me for being Ai Rin's friend.. She asked me to take a good care of her... That time I didn't know why she said that until I saw her diary a few months ago.................

till now I wanted to study art because I didn't have any dream. I'm just good at it that's why. but I think I should change my mind now.. I want to help her... I want her to feel the love and care she never had before....as a friend it's my only dream from now on........................."