MATHEW'S POV:

It has been 3 years since Jin passed away, ever since that incident happened.. I... I didn't want to love. want Jin to be my first and last.

FLASHBACK:

"Potato... It was you all along..." Jin said with the voice he had left... It was quiet. As he told me that potato thing. Only one thing came out of my mind. It was that Hyung, the Hyung that has been with me when I was still a kid. A hyung who protected me and took care of me.

As I remembered all of it. I snapped out of reality. I cried knowing that Jin is gone, I cried as loud as I can, saying not to leave me.. It hurts.

I really wanted to call an ambulance that time, but a whole gang came and chased me. Even if I wanted to carry Jin and run away, I know what he will say "Run away you bastard. Leave me alone in here" It was Jin after all.

I ran away fast as I could. Until I found the basement I've been doing my sculpting.

I got inside, I saw a lot of sketches I had drawn... All of it.. Was Jin.. I cried and cried. "Jin!!! come back!!... please don't leave me... I.. want you here... beside me... so... co-comeback...." I begged and I begged. But I know nothing will happen even if i cried and beg.

I took my sketchbook. I tried imagining Jin with his laughing face. I sketched him, my tears would not even stop falling..

It was hard. It is hard to have someone you liked getting killed in front of you.

I couldn't sleep for nights, All I've been wanting is to see him. I want to touch him, take a look at him, just a gaze, just a hug. But it can't be possible.

I tried moving on, but it only brings me pain.

I came to school, "Hey Matthew! what happened to you? you look terrible! did you even get some rest?" says the sunbae I had. I only nodded, I can't even speak.

A lot of days has passed, myself really got terrible. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't even talk to someone properly. It feels like the old me is back.

I can't study properly, maybe because i can't get him out of my head. I needed to move on...

After that day, I tried searching on how to move on, on someone.

Day by day I started moving on.

The first day I tried reading some books.

The second, I kept on sketching.

The third day, I sculpted.

I tried some different kind of methods. I thought would work.

Slowly the time passes I moved on little by little.

All of it became useful, I moved.

THE PRESENT:

Here I am now. I graduated. All I needed is to find a job to keep living, and persue my dreams.

To be Continued...

MATTHEW'S POV:

After I've graduated I decided to go work for an art company.

It was a huge company.

"Good morning Mr. Raynor, may you please introduce yourself?"

As I introduced myself, I didn't even felt any nervousness.

As I finished my introduction. All of the interviewers were clapping. I was shocked but I felt happiness and joy.

After a week I started working at this company.

I started my very first project. The theme was, about a man who died right infront of someone special to him. As I got that project I suddenly remembered Jin. I made a inspiration through him. After I finished my project, all of my co-workers and even the director of my department clapped.

Day by day at this company my performance was precisely excellent. I don't know why but this company, this company is similar to what art gallery I wanted. It is as if it was destined.

It's been a month after I got in here. There is this co-worker of mine, she really is clingy. I felt uncomfortable.

"Matthew~ let us have our lunch, it's our break time. Let us go out hm?" I just nodded. But I took some of my hyung on work and decided to eat with them. I saw thosd angry gazes at her eyes. It is as if she wanted us to be alone. But I don't want to love anyone. I just don't since... I... want "him" to be my first and last.

After 3 months I really thought she gave up but...

"hello? good morning sir!! is this Matthew Raynor?"

I nodded.

"this is are somd delivery from Ms. Rachel Frost" the delivery man said.

I was surprised by those gifts. There are chocolates, it wasn't even my favorite flavor. There were clothes but doesn't suit my type. There's..- There's just a lot!!

"Ms. Frost sure is rich but she does not know what I even wanted or liked." I sighed.

At work she'd bother me, she'd by me coffee. I don't even like what coffee she would give me. I'll just receive it then I'll give it to someone who likes it.

That day I worked over time. I felt someone staring at me.. I've got some goosebumps.

"you've found my company..." says the unknown person

As I heard that voice... "this voice... it's unexpectedly familiar..."

I turned around but I didn't saw him anywhere..

I felt something really familiar on how he talks. But i just couldn't remember it. I've got too many things on my head right now maybe that is why I could not even remember who it was.

I turned off the lights of our department and headed to the parking lot to get my car.

I am starving so I wanted to go on a restaurant to have some dinner.

As I walked on my favorite resto, I saw my co-workers drinking. Maybe because it was Friday night.

They saw me and invited me to have some drinks. I couldn't resist so, I decided to drink with them. I'm a little tipsy. A co-worker asked me if I have ever loved or liked someone.

I spoke. And said "Yes I loved someone, I know they loved me back too. But I couldn't see him for now"

I didn't knew I passed out.

As I woke up. I saw myself on a hotel room. Seeing Ms. Rachel on the side watching me from a far... She got closer and closer... and..

To be Continued...

MATTHEW'S POV:

As Rachel got closer and closer. She whispered... "I've liked you Matthew... For a very long time now..."

told myself "A very long time? We barely even know each other. It's just been months?."

I rejected her saying "I had already told you. I have someone that I liked already and they liked me too.."

"It's fine! Just tell her am your friend..." She said while shouting "Who is she?! I can't even see who you liked! What does she looked like!!!"

Shouting like a child. You'll never pass what type do I like.

I got my bag. was already leaving but she hugged me behind my back. suddenly pushed her saying "It is uncomfortable Ms. Frost. You and are just a colleagues. If that is all the, I shall say good bye." I opened the door and got out. I knew she was overflowing with tears. But I just don't like her.

At the office... I've got this thing on my mind ever since I started working at this company... Well it's rather strange I don't even know what does the name of the company means... It was "MCW"... Neither the staffs or my coworkers knew the meaning of the company's name.

Come to think of it, I never knew who owns this company.. or neither I knew who the CEO J they are talking about is.. They've said the CEO is a really scary man. Just a glance of him makes them think they made a mistake.. If the time comes that the CEO wanted to see me. What should I do??..

I was working late again... I saw the man the other time too.. But he never spoke. It was really dark so I cannot even see his face. Besides the face, he does have a nice body. Does he work out??

It already is the time. I need to go home.

I was walking in a dark road.. I thought someone really is behind me and following me. I'm walking since I wanted to eat something before going home. As I was walking I felt a reall dark aura. But the dark aura I'm sensing is rather familiar.

I reached the convenience store... But when I looked back... No one was there. Am I imagining things?

I bought some noodles, rice cake and some soda and I ate...

After eating I decided to go home.

But then Someone tapped my shoulder... I fell asleep.. I think.. they've put something in it.. It's making me dizzy...

I woke up in a dark place... I am bindfolded and even tied up.

I heard someone having a conversation...

"You really wanted to show your face again boss?." A man said

Maybe that's his assistant?

I never heard the voice of the man he was talking to... I felt a really familiar scent coming near me...

As that scent is coming near me... My tears... It was flowing like crazy... I don't even know why... Is there something going on?...

"Relax Matthew. There is no need to be afraid."

To be Continued...