"Some people believe holding on to the storm and fighting it are signs of strength. But there are times when it takes much more strength to let go, then battle with it for the rest of your life to no end."

They say falling in love is the most wonderful thing in the world, but imagine falling in love with your best friend; it's the best feeling in the whole galaxy…

We had known each other for the longest time; all thanks to his mum who sold the house next door to theirs after my parents got married and moved to Seoul.

We naturally became best friends since we were neighbors, and we went to the same schools.

Both of us fell madly in love with each other when I turned 15. I still vividly remember the day he finally confessed about his feelings towards me.

It felt unreal, and I was scared out of my mind. I knew if I fucked up, I wouldn't just lose a boyfriend, I'd lose my best and first friend.

'You know if we go through with this, we either would get married or break up, right?', I asked him.

He took a long pause and moved closed to me, 'Then I'd just marry you after I land a job'

That was eleven years ago.

Little did we know, things changed so drastically after he got discovered by an agency.

He was supposed to take over his father's company, but his parents supported his dreams of becoming an idol and being the supportive girlfriend that I was (or always tried to be), I watched him becoming something I never thought he'd be.

He put all of his effort in it, and I was so happy when the group finally got the recognition that they deserved.

Right after they debuted, he kept his promise.

We decided to get married because we thought that'd be easier with all the traveling and long distance. At that point, it was the right thing to do.

Being a partner to an idol was nothing easy, especially when everything had to be done in absolute secret.

We hid our relationship and our wedding had to be done so discreetly to the point where there were not a lot of photos because the agency wanted to make sure the news did not leak to the public.

I was proud of him and as much as I was supportive of what he was doing, we always got into lots of fights, and it was mostly because I couldn't understand why do we have to keep everything so discreet.

Our dates were mostly spent at each other's houses and we were never once seen in public.

He got tired of us fighting and his agency finally gave the green light to announce our marriage and honestly, we were not surprised with the amount of backlash that we received because we saw the treatment Exo's Chen got after his news got out. So we were prepared.

Maybe he was prepared because I was sure as hell wasn't.

We tried to make it work, but I was getting tired of sasaengs and never having any privacy after the announcement.

So both of us took an easy way out... We got a divorce after 4 years of marriage.

Damn you, Kim Seok Jin.

You promised we'd either break up or get married; getting a divorce was never part of the deal.

"I am going to miss you, Min-Ji and Mi-Suk!", Mrs. Lee said while hugging Mi-Suk's tiny body, almost squeezing her.

As I held Min-Ji in my arms, she looked at me with her twinkling eyes, I gave her a weak smile before zipping up the the final luggage.

"Promise you'd come to Seoul and visit us?", I asked her.

"I promise. Min-Ji and Mi-Suk are like my own grandchildren, I wouldn't want to miss watching them grow up" Min-Ji and Mi-Suk are my three-year-old daughters.

I was planning to take some time off after the the divorce but few weeks after it was finalized, I found out that I was pregnant. It was selfish of me to take off and not telling Jin about it, but the divorce happened when it was at the peak of his career.

I did not want to give him another headache. So with my parents' blessing, I moved to Greenville, South Carolina when I was 3 months and a half pregnant.

Deciding to move back is not an easy decision, but my dad has not been doing well at his health and from what I heard, Jin's parents are rarely at their old home so the the probability of bumping into them, or even him is low.

Do I plan on telling him about the girls? I have no idea. Probably I will but not when he has so many things going on with his life.

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We arrived in Seoul and were greeted by my parents who hadn't seen me for the past 3 years and half.

They were with us during the girls first year, but then they moved back after I had managed to stabilize myself.

Since BTS was doing really well at that time, his face was everywhere. Posters, billboards, KR Pass! Anything, you name it!

'God, he's everywhere', I huffed.

Right after I stepped into the driveway, I saw his house. It looked almost exactly the the same as last time, but the house did look a bit abandoned since his parents only come back once in a while.

"I heard he bought them a house in Hannam Hill for them to be closer to him but if you ask me, I think he's just trying to avoid the inevitable", my dad chuckled.

"But you are still close with his father?", I asked.

He nodded, "We talk, but we avoid the subject altogether" After we unloaded the the luggage, I decided to take a rest while Min-Ji and Mi-Suk were napping.

I was watching TV when his commercial came up. "Do they ask about their father?", my mother suddenly asked from behind.

I gently comb through Mi-Suk's hair and gently kiss Min-Ji's forehead.

I shook my head, "They've stopped asking about him after a while"

"Are you ever going to talk to him about them, Min-Jeong?", she asked.

I knew this question was coming because when I was in Greenville, she never once asked about it. I knew once I came back, she was going to bombard me with all these questions.

"When the time is right, I will tell him", I assured her.

"It's been four years, Min-Jeong. Four years... Don't you think he deserves to know that he has two three-year-old daughters who've given up on asking about their father just because their mother is too selfish?!", my mother suddenly snapped.

Those words stung my heart, and of course I had every right to answer her back, but it was the truth.

I did not want the girls to face the disappointed that I had to face when I was married to their father. I did not want them to always wait for him and he would just be a no-show because he is always stuck with other important things.

Furthermore, I was trying to shield them from the hurt that I faced back then. Before I could answer anything, Mi-Suk woke up from her nap followed closely by Min-Ji.

"Mummy, can you please change to YouTube. We want to watch BTS" Yes, to make it worse. They listen to BTS.

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After 7 months of being away with our Love Yourself Tour, it is finally time for us to come home and this time around, since we really worked our *** off, the agency decided to grace us with 2 months break.

Usually during our breaks, all of us would go on our separate ways and do some travelling but since my brother, Seok Jung, is getting married in two weeks… I decided to spend my well-deserved break at home with my parents.

"All of us are taking the same flight to Seoul, except for Jimin?", Yoongi asked.

Jimin nodded, "I'm going to Paris for two weeks and probably fly back"

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When we arrived in Seoul, there were a lot of people waiting for us and since we will be on a long break, the agency requested for a short photo ops at the airport.

The session was going well before a sasaeng got to Taehyung and kissed his cheek.

'Min-Jeong would've hated this', I thought to myself.

"Are you okay, Taehyung?", Namjoon asked as soon as we got into our van. He nodded, looking pissed.

"These are the things that Yeri hates", Yoongi responded.

Yeri is Yoongi's long time girlfriend but because of what happened to me and Min-Jeong, they decided not to go public even though they have been together for 4 years.

"I don't blame her, tho... You know things can get a bit crazy", Hoseok chimed in while shifting his attention to me. Bastard.

"What are you looking at me for?", I asked him, annoyed.

He shook his head, "This reminds me of Min-Jeong. She must be glad to be out of this."

Glad? I honestly have no idea. Cause after the divorce was finalized, none of us bothered to keep in touch.

But I know that after what happened, she moved to somewhere for good and l to avoid bumping into her, I decided to move my parents closer to me since our parents were living next to each other at that day. But of course there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her.

When I got home, there were quite few family members that have arrived to help out for Seok Jung's wedding.