(Character info)

• Rain Ferrow age 36 (age 10 years ago) 24, height 5,6

• Calix M, age 28 (10 years ago) 18, height 6,9

Rain's pov

10 years ago... "Rain!"... As I slowly look back i always see you, running towards me while opening your arms as you gave me a tight embrace, you used to be that small little kid i used to read stories long time ago, became my huge admirer... "Rain..." Calix said while looking down, "is there something wrong?" I asked, but suddenly he hug me and whisper to my ears "i...i like you"... He was blushing as mess as i look at him, i chuckle "its the 15th time you confess to me" i smiles looking at him... "And probably this will be the 15th time i rejected you" he sadly look down "i know... But im not giving up" calix said, i just smiled and grab his cheeks "are you about to cry again?" I chuckle.... "No..." He responds sniffling , i sighed looking at him "please dont waste your time chasing after me calix, im not the type of person someone falls in love with..." I said " I fell in love with you the moment i saw you, i dont know how, i dont know why... I just did" he said looking at me, " i love you rain" he lean closer to me closing the gap between us... And slowly touch my cheeks as he was about to place a kiss on me... But i avoid it... 'why did i?... All my life i just want to be loved... why am i scared?'...

' i act like i dont care. Like nothing can hurt me. I put up this big wall of toughness and pretend everything is fine. Like i dont need somebody's affection but in reality i think im just too scared. scared of not being good enough. Or of getting hurt. Scared of letting someone in. Maybe even afraid, afraid of the possibility of being loved by someone who will eventually let me down. Afraid that my heart will break into a million of pieces because i gave my all to someone who promised they wouldn't hurt me...'

"Im sorry Calix..." Tears flow down from my eyes, "im...im scared" he wipe my tears as i rest in his shoulder, " dont be scared... Im always here" calix said, "you don't understand... One day you'll get tired of me and leave me alone..." I cried "I wont... Rain you'll never be unloved by me..." He said... I hug him "i... I will try loving you" i whisper, "really?!" He shouted happily, i nodded as yes.. he hug me and place a gentle kiss on my forehead.

'Starting that day me and Calix were inseparable... He gave me a lot of attention, and love... But sometimes hes a bit possessive on me, like some wattpad stories... '

'All my life I've never thought that someone would love me for all of his life...'

'Two years passed..

Calix gave me the best years of my life, he was the perfect boyfriend i could ever ask for...'

I was reading a book '10 years that i loved you the most'... "Why do you keep Starring at me?"i said looking at Calix, he chuckled "Im just looking at my future husband " he said... "Stop joking around" i said sarcastically... I continue reading my book as he placed a small box beside me "whats that?" I ask him... "Open it" he said... "I told you stop spoiling me with gifts" i said, he just smiled at me... I have no choice but to open his gift...

In my surprised... It was a beautiful ring " will you marry me" calix said while kneeling, my heart began to burst as i hear those words

"My love will you spend the rest of your life with me" he smiled... I was speechless at that moment, that i couldn't find the right words to say to him, i just nodded as yes... I burst into tears as i hug him tightly" i...love you" i said he place the ring in my fingers and it was a perfect fit, he suddenly grab my cheeks and place a gentle kiss on my lips, "i love you rain, i always do".

'I was happy from the start... But then me and Calix began to distance ourselves...'

10 years later (present)

'There was a distance between us...

Every day i woke up without you by my side greeting me good morning... I understand that your busy on your job being a ceo but cant you atleast spare a time to be with me?' i sighed.. ' its been lonely since your not here' i pick my book and sat next to our cat named Leo... Many days passed Calix didn't come home, i remembered that today was our wedding anniversary... 'did he forgot?' i look down sadly as i wait for him to open our front door... I patiently wait... Until... Our door bell rang i hurriedly run towards our door hoping Calix is home... But sadly a delivery guy gave me a bouquet of flowers " good morning sir, Mr. M told me to deliver it to you since he's very busy "oh ok" i responded sadly "thank you".

I read the letter he sent me 'Happy Anniversary'... He didn't write anything else... I place the letter in the table... And ware my jacket and scarf, i left home and visit the cemetery... "Its been so long dad..." I place the flowers , i cried as i sat next to dad's grave "i miss you"...

Many days passes Calix finally come home...

He angrily walks in... I was confused so i planned to ask him " whats wrong?"...

"Like you care" he responds angrily... I stayed quiet nothing to respond to what he said... He finally talk to me "Rain..."

"Hmn?" I look at him... " Lets divorce"... My world shattered into pieces... I understand why he wanted to divorce me in the first place... Its just that he broke his promise, i stand strong holding my tears... "Im sorry rain" he said " i understand" i respond immediately... " Its just that you've change-" i cut his sentence "I didn't change at all Calix, its just that you never knew me well..."

I slowly look back not wanting to have an eye contact with him " i understand your decision...", 'I never thought you'd do this to me...you promise...' i kept my feelings in me, and walk away...

We didn't talk to much that day, and Calix also left for a business trip... I cried non stop

Hugging my pillow, 'i knew from the start that he will get tired of me...and leave me alone...' i kept crying I've never felt so heart broken before...

-to be continued-

CALIX POV

8 years ago

"Bro, cant you find someone else to date with , this rain boy is a bit wierd..." Zane said

"He's the prettiest someone I've ever met i cant replace him, besides were already married" i said showing my wedding ring

Zane was shock to hear the word married "WHAT! WHEN?!"... "not long ago" i respond

"Felix do you know about this?" Zane look at felix, "yes" he respond " why didn't you tell me!" Zane said " you didn't ask" felix replied, i chuckle looking at the two, "im happy for you bro" Zane pat my back i smiled,

'i cant believe your mine now rain'... Years passed our love for each other became wider and wider.

"Im home" i shouted while knocking the door, you run towards me greeting me with your lovely smile

"welcome back" you said

While embracing me, i immediately hug him back, "i missed you" i whisper..." Me too" when calix hear those words from his beloved he smiled as he passionately kiss Rain.

I've been busy lately... I realized i havent contact Rain since i left home for a business trip...' how is he?' i kept thinking about him

Nonstop... Days passes i finally got home. "Rain?" I knock in the door calling his name... But there's no response... I keep looking at him every corner of our house but there still no sign of rain... I sat in our couch frustrated ' where can he be?'

i left a huge sigh as i patiently wait for my beloved to come home...hours passed Rain still didn't come... I've been calling him a thousand times now... Later on someone knock the door, it was Rain... "Where have you been!?" I roared... "Its 3 in the morning, im so worried..." I hug him tightly... " Please let go off me im so tired..." He said looking down " are you ok?" I ask worriedly " im fine"... He replied ' i know your not ok... Is there something wrong?'...i hesitate to ask him but curiosity hit me..."you dont look fine..." I said " then don't look" he replied immediately walking away, i was so confused 'what did i do wrong?'...

Next morning we didn't talk to much... It a bit wierd ' why are you ignoring me?...' i tried to talk to you but you didn't show any response... "Im so sorry that i shouted at you" i said..." Its ok im just little tired last night "he replied...later on"Good morning..." I greet him he just nod and continue reading his book... I sometimes felt out of place.."ugh...im going to leave for a business tri-" he suddenly cut my sentence "as always..." He said, " are you angry?" I ask him... "No...not at all..." He said ' im used to his attitude but sometimes it goes over board'... 'are you the rain i used to know?'...

I left again for a business trip... Many days pass i haven't receive any phone calls nor messages from rain... 'whats happening?'... "I think of you constantly Rain"...

I went to my friends house to clear up my mind from paper works..."What?" Zane shouted... "He's ignoring me lately..." I said

"Maybe he's been busy lately that's why" felix said, i sighed "i hope so"... "Stop thinking about him just for once!" Zane said

"How can i?!" I replied, Zane sighed while looking at me " you see calix , sometimes you just need to stop thinking about rain and just have fun, talking about fun..." I look at him confusingly...

"What are we doing here?" I said in a angry tone "lets have some fun!" Zane shoted happily, i sighed "its been so long since i visited here" zane said dramatically... That day i was carried away with joy, drinking expensive liquor, surrounded by different women... i haven't been this happy since i married Rain... HAVEN'T I?...

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Present

"Lets divorce" that word came out of my mouth out of nowhere... I've been thinking about it lately but i didnt mean to admit to him sooner, i look at Rain to know his reply... "Im sorry-" i said "i understand" he replied i look at him shockingly 'he's ok with it?' i tried to cut the silence "its just that you've change-", "i didn't change at all Calix,its just that you never knew me well..." he said

' maybe his right...'"i understand your decision" he said before i could say a word he left...

We didn't talk to much since that day and

Later on i left without saying goodbye to him, he probably doesn't want to see me at all... I ask my lawyer to prepared our divorce papers... Once it is settled done i dont have any plans on delaying it. 'lets end this as soon as possible...'

-to be continued-

Rain pov

Days passes

gathered all my courage to face calix without showing a single tear... As i see him sitting waiting for me in our favorite couch... "Rain..." He call me coldly, i take a deep breath before i slowly walk closer to him. "You're already aware why i am here" he said while handing me a piece of paper, 'it was so sudden does he really wanted to end this?' i tried to refuse to take the paper but i dont have a choice... "We both agree to end this, i hope you'll have a much more better life without me" he said 'i hope so...' before i could sign the paper-...

Calix pov

You suddenly collapse infront of me "Rain!" I shouted "Rain wake up!" I carried you in my arm and run towards my car "rain please wake up...".

I panicked as i carried my wife in the hospital " doc! Please...please help my wife!" I shouted worriedly... I lay Rain in the hospital bed while several doctors approach to help my beloved... Minutes pass

"Doc is my wife ok?" I ask worriedly, "currently his state is fine ,he just needs some rest" he replied i sighed in relief "mr. Rain collapse due to stressed" the doctor stated. 'Its all my fault...'.

"What happen to rain!?" Isabella roared... Isabella was Rain's childhood friend, "he collapse due to stress" i said, "this is all your fault, hes been stress because of work and stress crying over you" Isabella said, i felt guilty and sad from what i heard... Its been a week, but rain still laying unconscious. I let my assistant take care of business for a while, so that i could watch over Rain. 'How come your so beautiful for a 36 years old man, you can easily find someone to replace me'... I lay my head in the bed looking at Rain, "im sorry Rain, but im also thankful for everything you've done for me for all the love and joy you shared ,i know that im being ungrateful and selfish lately i apologize for that... I really wanted to ask for your forgiveness, im sorry..." i said while snoozing out...

"Calix...calix wake up"... ' this familiar voice...', "Calix honey wake up"... You glance smiling at me "Rain?..." I ask for closure "yes its me" you replied, I didn't hesitate and immediately hug Rain "you're awake!" I shouted... "dummy... you're sweating so much... did you have a nightmare again?... Its ok im here, and i want to listen, whenever you're sad, i want to hear why. I want to know what you're feeling, all the time,so that i could share those feelings with you"... he said while embracing me, You started singing my favorite song, even tho your not good at singing...but still it was music to my ears ...( 🎶)... I look at you without breaking a smile 'To be with you... Is all i wanted... Rain' .

Rain's Pov

'Where am i' i look around observing every inch of the room, a young woman approach me happily "you're awake!"... 'what happen?' i cant seem to find my voice "thank God Rain your awake" the young woman suddenly hug me while trace of tears flow down from her beautiful blue eyes, "who are you?" I ask delightedly wanting to know who is this fine woman, but she look at me in horror 'what wrong?, did i do something wrong?'...

"Hello Rain how are you?" A doctor ask me

"Basically im fine" i respond. "do you know your full name?" He ask me... "Uhm... I assumed that my name is Rain since you all been saying it... But sadly i dont know my full name" i respond confusingly... "Mr Rain has a Dissociative amnesia" the doctor stated "what?!, whats Dissociative amnesia?" The young woman ask ...

"When you have dissociative amnesia, you have difficulty remembering important information about yourself, such as your name, personal history, or family and friends.

Dissociative amnesia may be caused by a traumatic or stressful event, It usually occurs suddenly and may last for minutes, hours, or days. In rare cases, it may last for months or years..." The doctor replied

"the last time i heard he was trauma was many years ago he already recover from that trauma..." The young woman said

"Unless..." She suddenly look at me, i was confused for a minute "that gooddam Cal-" she suddenly rage and went silent, i still look at her confused... She suddenly grab both of my shoulders and introduce her self

" Rain... Im Isabella Ray, you're best friend" she said ,i was happy knowing that she's my friend but it seems that she's not happy at all, on the look of her face she seems to be bothered...

For some reason it was boring laying in the bed the whole day and Isabella seems to be busy talking to the doctor, so i tried entertaining my self by reading a book... It was a one of a kind book that i couldn't get my eyes out of it... Later on a strange looking man suddenly entered the room he was catching his breath it seems that he was running on the way here, it was very odd the way he just stand and look at me... "Hello, can i help you?" I smiled looking at him , but he was stuck standing and didn't say a word, so i cut the silent and ask again "hello?, Is there something wrong?, And who are you?" The young man slowly approach me...

"You dont know me?" The young man ask,

I chuckled" i wouldn't have ask you if i know" i smile looking at him. "You might not know yet... I have a somewhat you called amnesia due to stress, so i cant remember some details about my life or the people i know... So can you tell me who you are "... I smiled.

-to be continued-

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i got bored for some reason so i wrote this sh!t today, sorry if its to short i cant think of any words to add... so 3 chapters should be enough for today... dont expect for the next update tomorrow or nxt week because im lazy ...😭 probably i will update next month or next, next month... i will accept corrections from the readers cause why not. bye bye ❣️

here are some more character info

• Zane Qin age 27 height 6,8

• Felix Gray age 27 height 6,9

• Isabella Ray age 35 years old (married and has two children)

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