"Hey"

"how are you feeling now? Hum? Do you think you wanna wake up now?"

Hoseok tries yet again on one more day. After crying every single night for last god knows how many days... Months whatever.

He tries holding the hand of one dongsaeng he realized a little too late that he loves the most in his now helpless life.

Yes the love of his life is lying on the bed... In a Hospital bed in a stupid comma since last two years.

The most painful two years of his life.

"Taehyung-ie.... Don't you think you're being a tiny bit... Just, just a tiny bit cruel to Hyung? Humm? Hyung knows that he deserved a punishment but this... This silent treatment has been going on for so long that I think you might--

That you might not wanna come back to me anymore."

If someone would tell this to the Hoseok from three years ago that he'd be begging someone and crying for someone and longing for someone's touch this bad that it'd made him feel empty inside, that someone being none other than.

Taehyung.

He'd have laughed right in front of their faces.

"Do you not wanna come back to Hyung? Does the peace there.... Wherever you are is too good? Do you perhaps like it there too much?"

Hoseok cursed himself.

He came here to give a smile and the positive radiation that Taehyung once told him he has. Not this weeping.

But no one would blame him right? Every single time no matter what he'd smile to his dongsaeng one time wouldn't hurt right?

"Hey... You know Army... they miss you so much. Without you I don't think anything is ever gonna be same. Seven is our lucky number for a reason. Everyone miss you so much, Jungkook don't even talk anymore, all I see him do is work out and then passed out on Jimin's lap."

"And Jimin he blames himself you know him right? You know what he told me the other night? He said that you don't want him as his soulmate anymore can you believe that? Pretty stupid right? I thought he could bring you back but he's already knocked off."

"Yoongi doesn't come out of his studio now he is awful without you, you were the only one who had the power to fight with him and even if he doesn't say it. I know he misses that the most."

"Namjoon and Seokjin-hyung they both are so stressed- everything... everyone is falling apart and I don't know how to fix it I can't keep anything in line not without you. Not when the line is not complete."

When he felt tear drops on his hand that was holding Taehyung's limp hand he realized that he was crying.

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"Geez... You know everybody used to tell me that I talk a lot and.. most of it is rubbish but I never gave them any mind but now that I literally am the only one to talk I realize just how much I actually unnecessarily talk. But... You said that you loved hearing me talk about my passion."

He stops, placing a kiss on the hand that he held.

"I'm sorry it's not passion but I still hope that it didn't change that, that we're still there.... There in Love with each other." He pressed his lips forcefully into a smile

"I miss you."

He took a deep breath whipping his tears and held the hand tighter.

"Do you remember from two years ago when you asked me that what would I like to have a gift on my birthday that year? I never gave you the answer right? "

The volume of his voice was getting lower and lower until only whispers came out.

It's his birthday again after a few days.

"My birthday is coming again it's after a few days ahead."

Hoseok internally broke once again to see no reaction not even a single one, but he doesn't voice it out.

"Do you maybe want to give me a gift?"

Heart limply beating in his chest he said.

"I just want you that's it, I'll understand if you don't want to see me again or if you'll hate.... Anything I'll understand but please all I want is for you to wake up and smile again."

"And if you don't want to see me when you wake up just give me a sign and I'll leave.. I swear I'll leave and you wouldn't have to face me ever again. "

"Give me a signal please, I can't do this anymore i- c-can't."

At first Hoseok came to visit everyday but as time passed the more he looked at Taehyung it started to hurt more and more and slowly he wasn't the same person anymore, everyone saw the change in his once bright eyes but no one mentioned it since the reason was too hurtful to bring up and talk about.

He visited less, at the start after one day then two then he'd visit once in a week and today he was here after total sixteen days more than two weeks.

Of course he counts every single day.

"If you don't give me the gift Tae. I- "

Hoseok looks down on his lap going over his decision one more time.

Taking a deep breath.

"I won't come here anymore- more like I won't be able to_ I know that Everyone would hit me, smack me in the face for making such a stupid decision but I can't do this anymore I know I should be patient and wait and give you time and not ask you to push yourself for me."

He intertwined his fingers with Taehyung's.

"I'll come here on my birthday.. yeah? Think about it for me? You once loved me Taehyung-ah you can't possibly hate me that much right?" He says his hand trembling now insecure about one thing that convinced him on such a decision.

"Taehyung-ah I- I'm very convinced that I'm better off... I , if everyone can do fine without you I'm sure they'll be fine without me too right? I think I lost the battle with my ownself."

"Last night I imagined how would it feel to just give up and be free from this- everything. Taehyung-ah I am not even worth it anymore." He cries without a shoulder to lean on.

"Just one last time on my birthday would you wake up and tell me that I'm wrong? Convince me other way around because I can't tell this to anyone else but you, can't trust anyone else but you, so please just wake up and tell me that I'm wrong, that I'm still yours."

He sat there for a long while still thinking of all of the possibilities. He never voiced out his insecurities to anyone. He was strong enough to pull himself together no matter what but last two years have him crumbled down on his knees.

Past the midnight he realized that he has to wake up in the morning their schedule still waiting ahead there waiting for them.

They've been receiving so many different kind of reactions some saying that they're not BTS without a member, some hating them for leaving Taehyung behind, some totally hating the company for making them work after what happened or what they are going through.

But no one knows what happened in the past. So no one can understand actually from what only Hoseok is going through.

"I'll be going Humm? Rest well and... Think about it please."

And what he always hesitated to say he said it today for one time because being the last time of saying it scares him.. so he does.

"Jagiya."

"Rest well." Hoseok smiled and left the room.

The guards outside bowed and so did he while he hide his tears just like every time.

Hoseok woke up from his not so comfortable sleep when his alarm turns off.

He took a deep breath and stood up going to look at himself in the mirror .....staring.

Sighed then tried to smile wandering just how much it looks real. Surprised himself that it still looks pretty real. And so deciding to take a bath he dragged his feet slowly taking his time with every single thing he did. Fingers traced everything they touched, eyes looking at every thing longingly. He remade his bed and smiled when his room was all good. He left and didn't give a second thought about breakfast. Skipping breakfast and meals was totally normal for him by now.

Going straight to his schedule for the day he made a mental note to manage time and do a Vlive since it's been long and he wouldn't want to just leave without a good birthday live now that's the least he could give as a heads up.

He merged into the day as if nothing was wrong, as if he wasn't broken inside as if he didn't made a deal with the man of his life, as if he wasn't afraid for today being the last time to receive wishes. He pretended and smiled and encouraged anyone whom would need the said encouragement.

But he would pull away from every hug very soon not trusting himself that if the hug lasted too long he'll start to cry no matter whom the shoulder belonged to.

Easy right? no one will know, nothing will go wrong.

Spends time with band mates spends time with friends talking just softly enough to make it look okay because talking with that brightness that once he used to have might be too difficult from him now. You'll be asking too much from him.

He was sitting on his desk deep in thoughts when someone comes in disturbing him.

"Hob-ah"

Hoseok was a little surprised to see Yoongi there in his studio when the man hardly changes his way always going straight to his own studio.

"O did you wanted something? You could have just-"

Hoseok stops in the middle of his sentence

"Stop it hob-ah, we both know what you are going through and it hurts more to see you always trying to hide and deny it in front of us." Yoongi said taking a seat on the couch.

"I- what? Yoongi hyung, you know I don't usually hide things." He played dumb but Yoongi wasn't of course buying it.

"Unless you do when it's about you." Yoongi states.

"I know it might seem like it and it's not like I might be the only effected by what's going on but I assure you that I have faith in him."

"I always do."

He thought.

Silence fell upon them and Yoongi stared at him making him squirm in his chair.

"You trust him I know but I also know what kind of thoughts you have for yourself. I've known you for too long hob-ah, and I'm here because I know whatever you have on your mind it's all bullshit and trust me you won't regret waiting a little-"

"Don't tell me that you think I've given up on him." Hoseok snaps voice low protected by barrier lacking any kind of warmth.

"I wasn't saying that- " Yoongi tried to continue.

"We both know what you think and let me tell you one thing Hyung you're not right, not this time, not like always." Hoseok interrupts

"I'm not saying that I'm right or wrong that's not the point here. What I'm saying is that you don't have to pretend- "

"I'm not pretending anything i don't have anything to pretend for okay? Now if This is the only thing you're here to talk about then I think you should leave." Hoseok stood up hastily collecting his own stuff showing as if he was busy.

"Fine...... By the way Happy birthday." Yoongi said leaving not looking back at Hoseok.

Hoseok sighed and plopped down on his chair again.

Birthday.

He started the Vlive and as always it went with same questions, answers and assuring.

And the day went by faster then he'd expect it to be so. And soon he was standing outside the same blue-white door.