You should've known from the moment your lover's cold hands slipped from yours that it was a sign of them not wanting your skin having contact with their own and yet you took it as something so trivial. Them having a bad days as if life took a toll on them but it didn't. You should've never been so blind. Perhaps it was your stupid in-denial heart that tells you to ignore, to turn a blind eye even though your mind tells you otherwise. Should've confronted your other half that time and yet being so ignorant you didn't.
The next sign was your five-hour calls or even more turned into two-missed calls as if they were really ignoring you. Were you oblivious? Yes, that's what your foolish heart wants to believe and that your mind is already dragging your stubborn self to wake up and get a grip of yourself because the things that was happening won't help you not at least when you try to do something about it. But what should you do? Should you confront your lover regarding those times they were ignoring you? Treating you like a ghost as if you were nowhere to be seen.
Confronting someone you love takes a lot of courage especially when the issue is about them, your significant other and not yourself because it implies that something must've changed.
Courage?
Why would you need courage?
Isn't it because you were afraid of the answer?
The answer in which they had fallen out of love with you. The truth that suggests for they have nothing left to give you. The reality which shows the sparks and the butterflies inside him, for you had long died down.
You wanted to cover your eyes, your ears, everything and save your heart from the torment.
Torment? Aren't you torturing yourself more? Clinging into someone who does not value you for the moment. You are a person of your own and you need to give importance to your entirety. They might've given you the world or the universe beforehand but open your eyes and mind, don't you see that they are the ones whom crumbling every bits of it too?
They are destroying you. Wrecking you with every huge arguments that lasts for days that were once fixed in just hours or even in a single day. The cold nights in your shared bed, no one to hug you in those winter or rainy nights, having to seek warmth on your own instead. The lack of time spending with each other. Them wanting to spend their time with anyone but you.
Weeping and sobbing is all you do, it's the only thing you know, it's all you can do. Bloodshot and swollen eyes, tear-stained face, and runny nose; that's how you look, you feel dead, you look like someone has died but in reality it was your heart that died.
Stand up and face the truth. It's time to let someone loose. Your melancholic days should be over once you open the door and let them go away.
Difficult. It's hard at first, you'll suffer from the start then as years gone pass by your lungs will be fill with air again, your heart beats naturally again and your mind will be steer clear of the darkness and worries about their void feelings.
So you got the courage to confront them and just as you predicted they have fallen out of love with you. Tears endlessy falling down your cheeks, painful words leaving from those lips you once kissed and a subtle smile on your lips.
You show a small smile not because you try to sympathize yourself but because you know you are one step away from removing the pain inside your sweet being. They open the door and stepped outside and never did they look back.
Crumbling. You thought your world was shattering but it was far from the truth since the separation of you and your former lover is just an eye opening moment for you to know that someone you deserve will come for you as if they were destined to love you until you both ran out of breaths.
You see, the art of letting go is that you'll be able to search for yourself that was long gone from being the one they want and to be free from the dusk that had you engulfed during those agonizing times. To find someone who will cherish you and love you like it's a part of their breathing as if it's what they were made for. They are made to love you just as you are made to love them.
The art of letting go is a step to not get hooked up from someone who isn't for you. When you get stuck around with someone whom does not give a heart beat for you, it is you who is going to suffer and you'll go living your dreadful days with a heavy heart.
Of course you'd reminisce the moments at the first time you open your eyes without them by your side. Struggling and crying of having no one to love you but there's someone out there to love you you just have to reach out.
Wondering what should you do without them is a good start. There might be some things you are dying to do that you weren't able to do when they were still by your side.
Wondering about what are they doing is normal. They might regret it or not at first. They might considered to comeback to your arms but don't accept them with an open arms. You've already given them too many chances and those times was when you are waiting for them to act like they were before the fall.
And when you turn your back at them just like how they did you'll get hurt at first but time will heal you. You might not end up with each other but that's because you both deserve someone better, the one that fate has given to you or waiting for the both of you.
Days passed by, years passed by and you're already breathing a fresh air again for a fresh new start. Don't jump into new relationships for the mean time, do what exactly you want, something you were craving to do because it will heal you and you will find yourself one day eventually. You'll find the right person to love you incidentally.
And again the art of letting go is the process to open your eyes from your cruel relationship that had died down and let you see the wonders of a new life and new beginning ahead of you. You just gotta let go. Let go of those who hurts you and delivers you grief and agony causing you to writhe in pain with no one to help. Overthinking about what's going to happen in your life without them will only cause to shatter your heart even more.
But let me tell you something,
Just because someone gave you the world and someone gave you the universe doesn't mean you'll be with them until then end of time. Because it's not the world or the universe you need perhaps It's the endless love they'll provide for you in your time of need.
And if things get too much or if someone causes you too much sorrow just let them go because once you did you'll see the light that will shed in front of you. That will lead you to freedom and a life without intense pain and cruelty. Giving you a life where you are who you want to be and be with someone you'll ever need; That's the art of letting go.
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