it all started that day when we met on that bench, I never imagined my life would take such a intense turn. Dunno why but there was something special in this girl i wouldnt express my feelings or tell her how i feel but somehow her laugh her conversation her sharartein it made me feel so distracted by her, it made me feel so relaxed and loved which i never felt from someone else, that idiot doesn't know i dont get mad on ppl who i dont care ab she never realized why things related to her bothered me i would get mad at her srsly she is such an idiot ,she loved me for 6 months and kept waiting without giving up to earn my love which she did im not sure how she had so much confident to go on for like 6 months , But eventually we got together started our Life journey, it was like a lil smoll world we had where me and her would watch stuff, play games, Jokes, Chill, the most beautifull thing was the way she cared about not upseting me even if she had to sacrifice her happiness she would do it but wouldnt dissapoint me, when she would go for months , allah knows how i have dealth with that situation i felt a big part of me missing going in her conversation reading them with tears in my eyes my heart would ache from missing her so much , just to hear her just to find out she is okay she is alright i would die for that moment , Her coming back after months used to be the biggest gift i have ever got in my life , for some reason i hated to be born and live in this cruel world where people are so self concious they see nothing but themself, but that little person made me feel like i got an exceptional person who truely cares ab having me , i'm pretty bad at expressing my feelings i dont rly talk ab how i feel how much i love her and stuff . she didnt knew it for long and always thought this guy can breakup and leave anytime , what makes you think that i dont even want to imagine my day where i wont have you where i wake up and i wont see your texts ,

where i wake up and think that we are no more ,

we have a very beautifull relation its almost like a dream we two love each other so badly that if we met we wont believe it , this is just not possible how can we get heaven in dunya?

she is so valuable to me that i have made this mindset i wanna protect her, hide her from bad eyes , hide her from other guys ,her respect is everything to me the most valuable thing i wud say ,

years passed by we had tons of fight which in a long distance love was an obvious thing, i loved it too its one of our memory a cute one haha ,

everything was so perfect we loved each other to the fullest , we were scared we didnt tell our families untill we r both standing on our feets , we were scared to lose each other we were still young , nobody believes us we are being treated like kids , if thats so pls look inside us we have been killed from inside we are nothing but a dead soul left lost in darkness , we are getting tortured , we are dying everday with pain and worries thinking about each other, these people want to seperate us they wont understand us they wont feel us , we are nothing but toys , everyday we wakeup and sleep with fear inside our heart caring and thinking about each other , yet we both dont give up not because we are stubborn its because we are majboor we are hopeless we cant live without each other ,

this girl braught me to tahajjud , never in my life have i done that i randomly place prayer mat and start praying and ask for her , thats because when i totally got hopeless when i found out no one can help us but allah we both started asking begging for each other in prayers , i heard if you ask for your love in tahajjud you will get it no matter what Cuz Allah likes how you ask him for someone and beg him and cry to him for the person , we are being hated for no reason they want to seperate us , they want to cut part of our souls they dont know by seperating us they will ruin us we will be destroyed we will be dead inside , i used to have so much ego so much self esteem but her love braught me to this situation that i can kick those off just to have her i can grab their feets and beg for her because if i dont have her my ego my self esteem they all mean nothing , i won't lose nothing by doing that but i will gain my life if i could get her by doing that ,

its Painfull its very hard its mentally torture yet i didnt give up and had strong hopes but she stood strong aswell but she was broke too she was dead inside too we are being tortured being played by our elders , we are in depression because of them , all this made her tired and she wanted to get free from all this ,

that day was like a doomsday for me, i was watching my world being thorn apart infront of my eyes , it was so painfull so painfull that i was walking around in the hall with a weird bechaini , and my heart being shreaded inside it felt like im bleeding inside im done im gone im lost im defeated i have lost everything , when everyone was against us , her being with me was the biggest hope for me i dont know why me being with her wasnt a hope for her ,

i understand she was tired she wanted peace and it could come true but for that i would have to sacrifice my life live in pain far away from her, im sorry but im too selfish i cant take that reality i cant accept it, i cant sacrifice you for your peace ,

pls walk with me dont lose hope keep holding my hand , dont leave my side that night when you gave up , i found my self in a darkness left alone you were my biggest hope you gave me all the power you are everything i had , my unconditional love is what led me to this place ,

No one loves being tested with the person they love and die for , Allah is testing us its not going to be easy no one said it will be , if we get beaten our zakhm will be healed and we will be fine again , if we are being mentally tortured our company with each other could heal us and stand on our feets again ,

but if we giveup and kill our self from inside our heart will never heal , the one who wanted to seperate us they will be partying enjoying that they have succeeded , but i wish they could understand it costed them nothing but ruined two lifes ,

im pretty sure by now no one cares if we seperate because they arent the one who will feel pain in their heart why would they care ,

but they can never be succeeded if the two who loves each other never givesup,

I have seen ppl fighting for their love for years eventually their Parents agree at the end .

Im amazed i forget the praying words literally while im praying because im thinking ab her even while praying i know i wont get gunnah for that , allah gave m this heart and he also gave me this imtihan,

and the most weirdest thing is when i think ab her i randomly smile and laugh but right after a few seconds of laughing my eyes are full of tears and it all changes into crying,

i have became so weak for her that being a man i cant controll my tears anymore i used to be a rock never cried to the worst pain Both physical and emotional , but in her case i had breakdowns i cried with all my heart out , people lie that when you cry you feel good and light this is all a lie its not true , when its about the girl you love there is nothing that can heal your pain but the girl herself ,

why am i begging for her every day i have became helpless i feel like i cant do anything yet there is one the creator that still gives me the reason to breath i could be helpless even from my parents but not Allah he has the power to change our elders heart he has the power to put rehm in their heart he has the power to make them accept us , and that is the reason i started praying tahajjud and beg with all my might cry in his presence , spill tears on the prayer Mat somehow i have this hope inside me that he will Bring us together , because he has the power to do so ,

our hope isnt our elders but each other we should never look out for a hope from them instead we should look at each other and ask each other hey we arent giving up right ? we will accept all the pain right? keep holding each other hands never let it go ,

We two are the only hope we need in our life , giving up on each other is like losing all hopes , destryoing our dreams and life with our own hands just because somebody wanted to seperate us somebody wanted to fullfill their stubborness and when they seperate us they will feel like oh lol i won the fight we seperated them now we will marry those slaves to whoever we want to taky hamare Inner self ko tandak phnchy ,

they are munafiq that they dont even think we are going to be the one who will live with that person not them ,

even allah gave us the right to marry whoever we want to to ye munafiq kon hote hai ham pr khudayi krne waly,

they arent even scared if they break two hearts they will be able to live happily , makafat amal is something that will be coming toward them either in akhrat or in this same dunya yet they arent scared ,

unfortunately we were born in muslim families where our parents are ghairati about islam but when it comes to marrying the person you love they will even Step on Allah words and go completely blind , they be like no you arent marrying this person and thats it ,

the question is. is it even worth sacrificing and giving up on the person you loved for your parents who will celebrate for seperating both of us and destroying our dreams ,

i would rather wish to have no parents if i have parents like that

i accept all pain they give us , i will accept all the torture , i will accept any kind of beating everykind of zulm just to have you , i woud never giveup , because i know whats worst than those beating and torture and mental pain are the pain i will get from seperation ,

just imagine spending months without the person you love so much waiting for them everyday to come,

no one said its going to be easy a piece of cake or less painfull , its obv that it will be hard but it all comes down to us if we want a happy life if we want each other then we will have to go through all the pain all the beatings everything as long as Allah wants us to and then one day we will be laughing hugging each other thinking ab phewww how we passed all those and how glad we will be ,

mimiiii its not worth sacrificing ourself for anyone ♥️ because if they cared for us they would have gave us the happiness of our life by letting us have each other,

we dont realise what we actually have we arent gratefull and that thing is "us" each other , as long as we two dont giveup koi hamara kuch ni bigar sakta , we will have a tough time but we will get together for sure , they can force us while we r still young but not in upcoming years,

we dont hate them, but they hate us i dont know why they hate us im not sure , why they want to seperate us idk if they feel like in a battle with us , we dont wanna fight we know they are strong and they can hurt us we are just two helpless souls being played in their hands 24/7 in a fear ,

yet the most beautifull feeling after all the tiredness is when we both finally get bibi times , everything gets better we get boost for the next day and thats how we live , we have lived this tough time for the past couple months right , and we are still together after all the tough times , Giving up will hurt us both no onr will get peace only the ppl who wanted to seperate us will get peace , you will get rid of their beating but you will never get rid of your heart pain, you will remember me in every single thing that reminds me of you , the moment you do the pain you will have will be more torturing than the pain you have now ,

physical pain is the smallest qurbani we can give. yes its not easy specialy for a weak mimii i know its painfull i wish i could take all the pain instead , and keep you on my side because my relief would be you , Physical zakhm heals but not the heart pain 💔💔 .

the love world is too different than what they show in movies and in qoutes and shairy trust me they are all liars , its worst than what we think there is no way you can live without someone you truely loved 💔

and specially for me i have crossed all the limits of loving her .

and im so proud because she deserves it all she is the one i should give all this love

someday we are hopeless some day we are so energetic and so happy that we will be together no matter what the cycle goes on. the thing that matters is not giving up ,

one day we might feel giving up the other day we will wake up with so much strenght that we will Regret evn thinking ab giving up. we came this far by paying for a very tough time. it will be a shame for us to give up

im pretty sure this wasnt the first time nor it will be the last for our parents to bring cheap tricks to make us give up on each other it will be both emotional blackmailing and cheap blackmailing

they are so desperate to seperate us we wont let that happen we cant allow anyone to ruin us .

in their time , they loved they had each other they married they lived the best life . but they think we dont deserve the same we should listen to them unko sukoon de kr in exchange for sacrificing our love for them . allah will ask them for sure they can get away with this in this world not in the akhrat i swear to allah if it comes to my case with them in judgement day they wont see jannat from me i would never forgive them for ruining and seperating us indeed we will have a court on that day aswell,

they can get away with it all they want in this dunya , but some ppl forget that one day they will die too their money cant save them or get away with any crimes and zulm they have commited on us.

you know people work so hard to go to heaven but getting your love is not less than a heaven experience too thats why we should stick with each other no matter what . just like we cant give up on our akhrat the exact same way we shouldnt give up on each other , cuz i feel like having you is like a heaven for me not sure ab u but ok.

mimiii what is the worst thing we have done to our elders? only hiding from them right. cuz we were young, we were dependent, we were scared to tell them so early before standing on our feets ,

may be we did this mistake by not telling them thats the only thing we hurt them for but... why do they want to take revenge from their own childrens and seperate them . cant they give up on their ego and let us have our love? or their ego is more valuable to them then their Kids love they die for .

they want to seperate us but have no idea what stains it might leave on our heart,

now a days i dont wish nothing but mercy in their heart so they can understand us and stop playing with our heart, they are over 50s we are still 20s thats no match its unfair they have power , we dont have any power we only have each other , we never fought them we only fought for our love life yet they think we see them as our enemies and they keep on hurting us ,

they dont know one thing for sure we take all the pain they give us but we still accept it cuz of each other ♥️♥️♥️omg just thinking ab her gives me happiness and make me blush just what is she lil bibi shit ugh "slaps" .

i was the kind of guy who wouldn't give shit ab anyone. what i didnt knew that i was like that only cuz i didnt have a person in my life that i valued truely. when i got one i realized day by day that i do give a shit oh yes i do ,

yk the most beautifull thing in our relation is we Pray nafals for each other we beg for each other in prayers, this makes me so happy that i have no words to express it ,

i don't want my story to be just be a story i want it to become reality ,

we two are the one that can make it possible others are already working on seperating us 💔 , we gotta stand strong beside each other take all the torture and beating and still be standing so strong ,

there is no torture that can make me give up on you , even tho if my legs are thorn apart i would still not think that oh she deserves a healthy human nope nevrr im not that good lol , i would never let anyone have you other than me even tho if im the most useless man on the earth , that sames goes for you , If your legs were thorn apart, if your face was burnt , if you were in comma for decades , i swear to allah i would live just with the fact of feeling your existence in my life , bibii how can we leave each other in our worst time , 💔💔if i was supposed to go blind would you ditch me leave me? would your love go away for me? no never .

we are weak , we are powerless our parents are showing their power on us 💔 they want to show us how powerfull they are 💔 indeed they are so powerfull toward the two helpless humans who got nothing but each other ,

mimii the only one who will have peace and happiness if we giveup are the elders. we will enter in the next stage . the stage of mental torture and injured hearts 💔 while other will celebrate our defeat ,

lets become each other hope and power, lets become each other medicine , let us heal each other , if you are with me i can fight anyone there is no exceptional whom i cant fight as long as i know whos standing next to me whos carrying my back ,

the same way i got your back i will be your power your hope your meds ,

dont leave your bibi alone in this exam pls you are my biggest and only hope that i have,

we wont hurt our elders, we wont fight them , we will melt their heart lets just work on melting their heart for us and we will nevrr give up on that even if there is 0.1% chances we still wont give up and keep trying ,

they need to realise we arent their enemies we are just fighting for our love we cant live without each other , we are going through it we know how it feels everyday, we are scared to be destroyed we will beg them not to destroy it and we wont feel any shame , because our life depends on it,

mimmmi we got this ♥️😍 u wan bibi and bibi wans lesgo lub no matter what never give up never nevr never aaaaaa okay sorry got a lil jazbati xd

the waiting part is the shitiest but meh once we talk we get that kind of feeling when we are fasting and its finally time to grup grup the juice and the cold juice touches all parts going through your throat omfg,

mimiii we might be powerless infront of our elders but they dont know we got the biggest power the biggest hope which is ourself we got each other the ultimate power aaaaa.

mimmi vuvs yu no leb him nevr and mimi wud never lebs u so vuv em beck ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️😍😍😍😍💜💜💜💜💜♥️♥️♥️💝💝💗💖💝💝💖💞💓💗💗💕💕💌💌💌💌

i may have 10000 thoughts/doubts they arent shaks they are thoughts they arent shaks they are thoughts they all are thoughts thoughts thoughts and they all get cleared when i meet her , 😒😒 but now a days she has been showing me too much attitude when i ask for things 😒😒 these days im feeling a bit at ease cuz my trust is building up strongly i have sukoon and trust so its goin a bit easy .

well her giving up effected me alot , i still cant get out of that day its still haunting me

i have this fear now every day she comes i get scared , cuz there is no gurrantee these days that she might come any day and talk ab giving up ,

when she was giving up that day i saw in her emotions she had no fear of losing me ,the only thing she wanted to succeed in getting rid of me ,

When a person loses the fear of losing someone thats 💔 i cant explain it its hard to believe that they may just go anytime . they can giveup any time ,

i hate her for doing that i dont like her anymore nor is she my mimi anymore ,

i didn't loved like crazy just so you can giveup on me someday there is no exception even if you get beaten up harshly i still dont want u to giveup , just dont dont dont dont

even if you dont this will still haunt me 😖😖😖

so she got another device yet she never tries to approach me her backup data is too important to her than i am for some reasons this makes me feel so disgusted and all ,

she wants to be pure for me and i want her to keep doing that 😍 it makes me so happy ,

dw ab what cheap tricks other ppl do keep being pure for your bibi ,

i just want a day where we can talk alot , get rid of all the questions im carrying on my heart , and get answers to them , i wanna feel light i wanna feel happy, I wanna have alots of bibi time with her ,

we barely get to talk for even half hour max 2 hours , that feels like 2mins and half hour feels like half min ,

for some reasons im a bit sad she never shows me that how strongly she condemns the cheap tricks and how she felt it would make me happy if i saw her in sad and emotional state but she looked all fine even if she wasnt. she shud have been,

sometimes she talks to me and ignore my questions like i am no one , i hate it but i dont get angry i dont wanna upset her for that i sacrifice my anger just so she can go with a good mood phr doesnt matter if my own mood is fucked up ,

its been years , dozens of fight , dozens of arguements , all kinds of incidents i still love her to the fullest i couldnt find 0.000001% of hate toward her , its kinda crazy but idk lol

She might hate me for not letting her go to certain places , that she would never understand being a girl , she doesnt understand we are already having lots of problems not welcoming any new shit , dont wanna invite any other drama , lets just stay focused on the current one , you may have heard this in islam right this world is just an exam the actuall fun will be in heaven ,

the same thing is what i tell her before marriage this will be the exam i will give you all kinds of happiness go to weddings with you together , take you on trips lunch dinners anything you like , but pls just controll controll untill we get together , then we will do all the things we have been mourning for ,

don't forget to be honest with your bibi, always make me feel your honesty pls just do it once every 2 3 days it would mean the world to me , just come randonly and tell me how badly you are honest with me and how you would never lie to me or hide anything from me , it would make me comfortable and i wouldnt have to worry ab you instead of our problems.

sometimes i think ab why is she buildings this kinda attitude toward me these days , like i wait for her all day and she comes being disobedient and rebellious, i dont get it but may be know the right person to show it to 😒 ....

i want all love all obedience, when i ask for something i want straight answer i dont wanna hear change topic , dont do this i swear it makes me go mad .

btw she is not my mimi anymore cuz she didnt come to me today ,

only if she could feel how badly i wait for her to come then may be she would try extra hard to come ,

imagine having mobile with you and not contacting your bibi 💔💔

MmMMm ish gonna be Yummy one,

fast forwarding we became bibis again💕💕

so how to cook my bibi ,

well pretty easy i would use so many ways to cook her and eat her,

first one would be that kind of sweeet cream which you cant lick that easily its kinda slummy and takes time to lick , the reason i wanna use that cream is cuz of her cheeks i have been thinking alot about it lately how would her cheek look like if i lick/eat wink wink* it for like a hour cuz that cream takes time to wear off , not gonna stop licking untill she starts crying mMMm

2nd would be , Well pickles arent bad too but it might hurt her Juicy Yummy cheeks but welpp i wont be able to resist trying that aswell so i might just give it a try , personally i would call this one chattppathi bibi way , Fk ugh xdd. i love watching her eat when she takes those big big bites i wanna grab her face and Eat it so badly ,

well i know hundreds more ways to cook my mimi but im not gonna share the recipes 😒😒 kese ke baap ke nahi apne banayi hui recipes hai 😒😒 fy fy wtf am i saying nvm,

aaaaaaaa no one knows how Fkingg adorable she looks when she sleeps and shows me the cammmm nooooooooooooooooooo that lil she have no idea what it does to my heart xdd

the best thing ab her is she is tasty herself , but she is also the best chef and im dying to taste her foood so badly ,😭😭😭😭😭 im gonna try so much food that includes both The one we human eat and the other one Aen aen You Fuckers wouldnt get it its between me and my bibi Ksksks ,

Cant wait to seperate those chappy yums with my Yums 😖😖😖😖 it would be the best feeling ever. i will try not to bite but it would be hard to resist so i might end up making her cry 🤣 but if see any tear i would go soft 😋😋😋

MmMMm ish gonna be Yummy one,

fast forwarding we became bibis again💕💕

so how to cook my bibi ,

well pretty easy i would use so many ways to cook her and eat her,

first one would be that kind of sweeet cream which you cant lick that easily its kinda slummy and takes time to lick , the reason i wanna use that cream is cuz of her cheeks i have been thinking alot about it lately how would her cheek look like if i lick/eat wink wink* it for like a hour cuz that cream takes time to wear off , not gonna stop licking untill she starts crying mMMm

2nd would be , Well pickles arent bad too but it might hurt her Juicy Yummy cheeks but welpp i wont be able to resist trying that aswell so i might just give it a try , personally i would call this one chattppathi bibi way , Fk ugh xdd. i love watching her eat when she takes those big big bites i wanna grab her face and Eat it so badly ,

well i know hundreds more ways to cook my mimi but im not gonna share the recipes 😒😒 kese ke baap ke nahi apne banayi hui recipes hai 😒😒 fy fy wtf am i saying nvm,

aaaaaaaa no one knows how Fkingg adorable she looks when she sleeps and shows me the cammmm nooooooooooooooooooo that lil she have no idea what it does to my heart xdd

the best thing ab her is she is tasty herself , but she is also the best chef and im dying to taste her foood so badly ,😭😭😭😭😭 im gonna try so much food that includes both The one we human eat and the other one Aen aen You Fuckers wouldnt get it its between me and my bibi Ksksks ,

Cant wait to seperate those chappy yums with my Yums 😖😖😖😖 it would be the best feeling ever. i will try not to bite but it would be hard to resist so i might end up making her cry 🤣 but if see any tear i would go soft 😋😋😋

ops its 1:15 time to go read salah and ask for her 😋😋