Love is really peaceful when it doesn't want to own you.

No tears for you anymore.

No sleepless night, also I don't cry for you everytime not same as before.

'Cause did my love for you vanish like the dust ?

No. I love you, I still do.

I simply admire your existence.

Not the same as previous, I don't talk too much about you with my friends.

But whenever my friends ask me, 'Don't you find new lover?'

Or whenever looking at the raindrops through the window in the raining days,

Or whenever I see the fallen leaves from the trees,

Or whenever I'm listening to the songs which describe my true feelings,

I really miss you so much.

And my friend says,

'I know you love him

But it's over mate.

It doesn't matter, put the phone away.

It's never easy to walk away

Let him go.

It'll be okay.

It's gonna hurt for a bit of time

So bottoms up, lets forget tonight

You'll find another and you'll be just fine

Let him go... It'll be okay.

(It'll be alright by Dean Lewis, Jada Facer)

For me, there is no one except you.

It is not exaggerated that I can't love other guys but you.

When I realize that i can't even try to love others, my mind accepts that it is

enough to let me love you even though you don't know it.

You are always in my heart and no one can replace you.

I can't be together with you.

Furthermore, I don't want to force you to stay with me because of the fact that I love you very much.

I have no chance to meet you again,

And also I don't hope this next time.

It doesn't matter you think that my love was fake.

No matter how you think that I don't love you anymore.

I know that I can't tell you anymore that I love you.

It's true that I never regret meeting you, loving you.

For me, it is the great blessing in disguise.

No matter we had so many problems in past, No matter I was sad,

I'm really fortunate because I love you so deeply, even though you don't love me anymore.

May you be happy.

Even though the girl holding your arms won't be me.

May you always smile.

Although the girl beside you in the future won't be me.

Be your entire life filled with luck, smiles and happiness.

I still love you, Yang.

Flashback

Aurora's POV

When I was young, I was a cheerful child. My childhood was perfect. I was loved by my beautiful mother and my handsome gentleman father. With a lovingly aunt, grandparents and good neighbours beside me. People around me said that my smile was the brightest and i always smiled.

When I was six, my mother gave birth to a cute baby brother, Jonh, another sweetheart of my family. But baby brother had a hard fight to live as soon as he entered to this world. No wonder that both of my parents loved him so much. I also loved my brother but sometimes I started jealous to baby brother because parents always cared about him.

But when I was eight years old, my beautiful world had been collapsed. Because of the car accident, I lost my two beloved people, my grandparents. The thought of not seeing my grandparents again was the worst feeling. I was crying so hard at their funeral, so as mom and dad, too. Since that day I was afraid of losing my precious people in my life.

After a few months, dad was promoted his position in his company. And mom was busy with little brother. I sometimes felt alone, and I missed the days when I were with grandparents. I wished I could turn back that time.

I never forgot the day, for the first time, i got the bad side from my parents. On my 10 th birthday, as a birthday girl, i was really happy and i received so many gifts. My mom and dad were talking with guests. I was searching for my four years old brother to eat icecream with him. Beside my house, there were a small manmade waterfall, beautiful fishes in the stream and a small wooden bridge.

I found Jonh holding a ballon, and watching the fishes on the bridge. He also wanted to play with balloon. He threw the balloon at me, i threw back, we were playing, we were happy. But the happy moment was turned upside down while i threw ballon to him, he tried to catch it, but he couldn't and fell from the bridge. His head was hit by the big box near him. I was scared when i saw the bleeding from his head. My little brother was crying because of the pain. I was running towords him, hugging him and also crying.

Then mom and dad ran towords us because of our loud cries. They brought Jonh to the nearest hospital hurrily. The doctor carefully closed the cut, luckily, Jonh was okay. But I was not okay because it was my reasponsibility to the whole accident. Even though parents loved me, they loved brother more. Being very stricted parents, they won't skip this matter easily. I knew that they would gave me the hard punishment.

On My birthday....

That was how my beautiful childhood ended....

When my brother fell alseep at his room, both of my parents asked me what happened. I explained truly without a lie. But i received a series of questions like why I let him play on the bridge, or etc. I was sad because they thought I was lying.

Mom and dad might think I did something to little brother no matter how much I cried saying that it was an accident. I was scared. I received beating from parents, they never beat me until this time. What I sad most was that they thought I was lying. From that day, I realized that I needed to stay better in order to get the parents' good side again.

At the same month, my exam marks were getting lower than previous months. Again, I was scolded by mom because of lower marks. I swear that I would try harder to get the top position at school.

Time was passed, little brother became spoiled, stubborn and playful child. He always wanted to fight or argue with me. I started calling him his name, Jonh, instead of calling nickname little brother. I admitted that Jonh was a smart child. He could answer the questions quickly from his class. I loved Jonh but I still felt that he was one barrier between me and parents.

The better I tried for lessons, the more I felt isolated to the family. Dad was working almost all the times, mom was with Jonh. I spent most of my time studying and improving myself. Class teachers impressed my scores, telling how clever I was. No matter how i tried hard, the reactions from parents were " That's good." and "Keep trying on". Because they had focused to Jonh more and they cared him more.

When my parents asked me how I was. I replied that, " I'm fine, mom and dad". When they asked me, " How's school? " I answered,

" I'm well-studied at school." They said, " Good girl." Me and my parents had some talks everyday when we were having breakfast and dinner. I smiled myself, thinking that my parents care me. It was just they loved Jonh more than me. When parents talked to me kindly and lovingly, I felt happy. But when they scolded me, well most time was related to Jonh, I cried silently in my room. I hated when parents compared me with others in my abilities.

Jonh had asthma that was why we were not allowed to keep pet in the house. I was sure I was not alone if I had a pet. I wanted to keep a puppy or a kitty but I couldn't.

At school, I was cold attitude. Sometimes, fake smiles, sometimes forced laughing. I knew that most friends in class were just envy to me. I didn't have intention to close with friends. When they asked to explain lessons, I explained. After saying "Thanks you" and welcome", I just stayed alone again. When they talked to me, I simply replied. When they smiled to me, they could see my smile to them. However, I didn't know the meaning of Life. I felt that my life was in the schedule of the same routine.