Me? I'm a normal person who loves to follow and support my idol.

I have a 9-6 job but at the same time I'm also the top fan on his super topic.

Watching him through the screen is enough to keep me sane and help me in overcoming my trauma.

But now, he is right in front of me, pestering me everyday? How am I supposed to survive ah! SEND AN AMBULANCE, THIS MAN IS MAKING ME HARD TO BREATHE!

“Cold.. It's too cold”, Lu Xinyi gripped the bedsheets and buried herself beneath it. She knew it was a nightmare but it felt too real that she felt a lingering fear. “No.. No.. I don’t want to..”, she mumbled.

“You definitely do want to..”, she doesn’t even remember how that voice sounded anymore but the illusion made her tremble with fear.

“NO”, she shouted as she woke up from sleep. She immediately turned on the lights.

She took a deep breath and tried to calm herself down as a couple of tears trickled down her face. “It's fine, It's fine. I’m fine.. I’ve already moved on..”, she mumbled to herself as she looked at the time on her phone. It was 3 am in the morning. She plugged in her headphones and visited her most visited super topic in weibo. She was already a top fan on that topic. It was the super topic of her favourite male idol Yu Shiqi.

After a while of browsing through the posts, she felt her eyes tearing up at her idol’s gentleness, humility, hard work and professionalism. She found herself smiling at the phone, completely forgetting the nightmare. She turned off the lights and plugged the earphones out and let the video play on speakers.

She started to slowly drift into sleep. She had a plane to catch for work tomorrow morning. She couldn’t afford to miss the flight.

As she slowly fell asleep, her idol’s voice still echoed in her ears and she finally had a dreamless, peaceful sleep.

Next Morning

The alarm rang at 5:30 a.m and she immediately woke up. She looked at her phone and her battery was hanging onto its last breath. She facepalmed. It was nice listening to her idol before going to sleep, but she has to travel today! And her battery is already dying.

She immediately plugged in her charger and ran to the bathroom to wash up. She was never one to care about her looks. Anyway she had no plans on marriage for the rest of her life, if she ever married that would be to satisfy her mom’s wish. But you can’t rule out the possibility that she loved someone before, she had her fair experience in first love, but that is a story for another time.

She took a bath and pulled her hair into a loose bun. She wore a brown professional suit and toasted a couple of breads for her before sitting on the dining table to have her breakfast.

She looked at the time and it was just 6 am. Her flight was at 9 am so she still had some time. She opened her laptop to check if she had any mail. Just as she expected, she had a couple of mails enquiring about her schedule for the next couple of days on the business trip.

She is 25 this year and is already a leading Product Manager in her company. She had three people reporting to her and 4 products that she was maintaining. Simply put, she was a big shot in her company.

Once she replied to all the formal emails, she switched her tab and entered her weibo account. This was another routine for her. She chose a gif of her idol pouting, “cute”, she smiled to herself and made a post,

fish in land : My fellow fishes, good morning~ This fish has to travel for the next couple of days, so keep me updated if there’s any new news about our idol. [attached gif]

Lu Xinyi’s weibo account name is fish in land and their fandom name is fishes. As she was a top fan, she had a lot of followers. The reason why she had so many followers was not because she does amazing fanarts or edits or updates. Her account was quite common but she was an avid fan who would never forget to make her presence known everyday and she has defended her idol through thick and thin for 7 years now.

In the world where everyone’s preferences kept changing, she was one of those rare fans who you can always count on to support and cheer on her idol. And she was mysterious too. She never revealed her real name or whereabouts to anyone.

In a matter of time, her post received a lot of comments.

Did my idol post today? : jiejie don’t worry, we will keep you updated.

Just a happy fish : jiejie, safe travels. We will keep Yu Shiqi safe for the next couple of days.

- she laughed out at the comment and immediately replied

fish in land : No need, I’ll keep him in my pocket.

The banter lasted for a while before she noticed the time. It was 6:30 a.m. She had to set off now or she would be late. She called for a taxi and left for the airport after checking her luggage.

She reached the airport by 8 am. It wasn’t an international trip, she was travelling from Beijing to Shanghai on a business trip. When she dragged her suitcase to the check in, there was a huge crowd before her, she couldn’t even see what was before her.

“Excuse me?”, she called out, trying to make her way in, but the crowd wasn’t moving at all. She could even hear the security trying to persuade the crowd to leave.

“Which big idol..”, she mumbled to herself, frustrated. At that time, a voice she could never be more familiar with sounded, “Everyone, please don’t disturb other passengers. I’m very thankful for your support, but can you all make way now”

Suddenly her luggage slipped her hand and fell to the ground, the loud noise made everyone turn to look at her. In the middle of the crowd, was a man who was approximately 1.87m tall, he was wearing a mask, hat and sunglasses which hid most of his prominent features. But beneath it was a face she could not be more familiar with. His peach blossom eyes, the slightly upturned curves of his lips, his pointed nose. She has admired him for 7 long years!! He was wearing a loose shirt and track pants, his entire being giving off a sense of comfort and anyone could say he was very approachable.

She stood there dumbfounded. He walked towards her, her heartbeat kept racing until he was straight in front of her. It was as if the entire world stopped for her. “I’m Sorry”, he apologised, he clearly thought one of her fans would’ve bumped into her, that was why he was apologising.

Her brain still couldn’t process the fact that she saw him so close upfront and the next moment he was already talking to her, making her go even more breathless. Abandoning all these thoughts, her mind worked as a fan right then, “This man is so good ahh!! He was apologising on behalf of his fans ahhhhhh!!!!! How can a person as gentle as him exist!!! I’m simply too lucky to be his fan!!”, her entire mind was a mess.

He waved his hand, “Miss? You okay?”

“Don’t talk ah Don’t talk.!! You are making me go crazy with your voice ahhh!! Why does it sound even better than on shows??”, she screamed in her heart, “No No, talk more, I want to hear more!!”, her own heart countered the argument.

And on the surface, she was standing like a motionless puppet. The moment he took one more step closer to her, she immediately came to earth, and her first thought was, “It was great that she was wearing sunglasses, mask and hat as well or else her appearance would’ve made her want to disappear right then.

The moment she came back to Earth, she immediately grabbed her luggage and dashed out of the crowd. After running out she remembered that it was too impolite and ran back and stood before Yu Shiqi again, her voice trembling, she managed to say, “Thank you”, she bowed down and ran away again.

Yu Shiqi himself was a little dumbfounded by the turn of events and looked down to see the phone lying beneath his feet. He immediately recovered his senses and picked up the phone and called out to the disappearing figure in front of him, “Miss, your phone?”

Lu Xinyi came to a halt and looked back to see her idol waving her phone. She really wanted to bury herself right then and never appear again. How can she act so stupid in front of him?

She immediately ran back and he held the phone out. And accidentally, she pressed the fingerprint sensor and her phone immediately lit up.

Yu Shiqi looked at it casually only to find that it was his picture from the recent photoshoot!! Doesn’t that mean, this strangely behaving person is actually.. his fan? Before he could ask anything, she slipped away again.

He stood there for a couple of seconds before he broke into laughter. Then he looked at the fans around him and said gently, “Don’t post about anything what happened today on any social media platform, Thank you”

He walked towards his manager, “Brother Li, Don’t let what happened today even go out in form of reuters”

“Okay”, his manager Li Ran acknowledged.

As Yu Shiqi walked towards the airport, he only got more amused and interested in that little fan of his. He never encountered someone like that before and he already hoped that he could meet her again.

She tried to keep her calm the whole time as she successfully boarded the plane. The ticket was booked by the company and it was a first class AC ticket, after taking her seat comfortably, she immediately took out her phone.

She was so nervous that her hands were shaking. She removed the sunglasses, mask and hat to relax herself.

"I REALLY MET MY IDOL TODAY!", she screamed in her heart, "I was acting so stupid", she mumbled, "But how can he be so gentle ahhh!!! he's going to kill me this way", she shook her head and smiled at herself.

"No No this won't do. I should post it on the super topic right now to get this out of my chest", she mumbled and connected to the airlines wifi and opened weibo immediately.

Right at that moment, the familiar voice sounded again, "It really is fate huh"

She mechanically lifted her head and saw Yu Shiqi smiling at her. When she looked at his curved peach blossom eyes, she could feel her heartbeat reach an all time high. HE'S SIMPLY SO HANDSOME IN REALITY AH!

Suddenly she realized, Oh shoot! I'm not wearing the mask!!! She slept really late yesterday and already had dark circles and she wasn't any ethereal beauty to begin with. And thus, she immediately covered her face with her hand, "Uh..", she pretended she didn't hear a thing.

Yu Shiqi was even more amused by her behaviour. "I sit on the other side, you carry on"

He said calmly and sat on the other side of the aisle. If she turned her head to the left, she could immediately see him, this was her long time idol ah!! and she was so close to him now!! but her pathetic looks and absurd weirdo behavior totally made it impossible for her to even have a normal conversation with him when he has already tried to start a conversation with her several times today.

Yu Shiqi on the other hand didn't even think twice before turning to look at this strangely behaving fan of his. He quietly asked his assistant, "Xiao Ling, am I too scary?", he asked in a low voice.

Xiao Ling has been Yu Shiqi's assistant throughout his career and she has never seen such a strangely behaving "fan" before either, she was truly at a loss, "Yu ge, you are the most gentle person ever, I can't believe she is too scared to even look at you ah"

His manager, Li Ran immediately chipped in, "What do you guys understand huh? I think she is truly a crazy fan of yours. I think she really went insane after meeting you in real life?"

Yu Shiqi was shocked, "Isn't it a bad thing? Is there any possibility to fix it?"

"You can't be serious!", Li Ran laughed, "She looks like a woman who does a proper 9-6 job and to board this first class AC flight, she might be rich too. I think she is just too shocked from meeting you in reality that she couldn't collect herself and before that too much embarrassing things happened that it made it awkward for her to talk to you again"

"As expected as Li ge, he understands all sorts of fan behaviours", Xiao Ling expressed her utmost admiration.

But, Yu Shiqi didn't say anything as he only kept staring at her with an amused smile.

Without any idea of what was going on around her, Lu Xinyi made the wisest decision. She opened weibo and entered the super topic but before she typed away everything that was bugging her heart, she immediately stopped, It would be too embarrassing for the top fan fish in land to have faced such a situation! It would totally destroy her dignified image! No, she can't do this! She convinced herself and immediately created a second account fish out of water. Heaven knows where she could think of such usernames.

And in a matter of time, Yu Shiqi's super topic blew up because of a new fan.

fish out of water : How is his voice so heavenly in real life ahhh!!!

fish out of water : IT'S SO MUCH BETTER THAN HEARING IT THROUGH THE PHONE, OKAY?

fish out of water : He's so gentle and caring and observant.

fish out of water : Why does he care so much ahhhhhh

fish out of water : Nevermind , I'm just dying

While his super topic was in shambles, Yu Shiqi continued to look at this little fan typing away furiously. Sometimes she was smiling like a fool, sometimes sighing, sometimes frustrated, pursing her lips, frowning, her expression changing every single second.

"Say, Xiao Ling, if you are in her position right then, what would you do?", Yu Shiqi asked curiously.

"What position?", Xiao Ling asked, confused.

"You met your idol, he talked with you but you reacted the way she did, then what would you do?", he asked silently.

"Any normal fan would either choose to tell this to their close friend or.. they would post in Weibo of course..", Xiao Ling replied, contemplating.

Yu Shiqi smirked and took out his phone.

"Woah, Yu Shiqi, don't tell me you're going to look into your supertopic", Li Ran exclaimed.

"Wow Yu ge, do you remember what you told me a couple of days back?", Xiao Ling adjusted her voice, "Whether they are praising me or slandering me, I will never look into my own super topic, an actor should never let his fan's opinions influence him"

Li Ran immediately laughed, "Right Right, Yu Shiqi are you really going back on your own words."

"It's different", He spat out only two words before switching to his side account and searching up his supertopic.

"How is it different. Woah, don't tell me Yu ge, are you interested in your little fan?", Xiao Ling brimmed with curiosity. After all, in her 10 years of working with Yu Shiqi, he has never taken a second look at any person. Whenever he acts in a drama or movie, he always treats his colleagues with nothing but respect and never goes beyond being friends.

Now, a common looking fan has finally spiked his interest, how can Xiao Ling simply watch it?

Unlike other male idols and their managers, Li Ran on the other hand was even more excited, "Are we finally getting a sister-in-law?? Can I finally stop worrying about you and start worrying about my own life??"

Yu Shiqi looked at them both in disbelief, "Say, aren't you both a little too much? Keep your voice down, I don't want her to have any thoughts"

Yu Shiqi finally found the recently trending posts on his supertopic made by the person sitting just to the other side of the aisle.

fish out of water : He's going to kill me this way.

Yu Shiqi was confused beyond words, "How am I killing you? You aren't even taking a second look at me"