It was December 2018, I was pretty busy with my life, living in the city running errands and coping with my exams..

And having a normal long distance relationship with Valte, so I planned on going back to my hometown which is located in Northeast India, Manipur. while my boyfriend was still in Kolkata. we plan on our first meeting.

After the exam's done, I booked my ticket and went home.. It was customary for us folk to reunite with our family during the winter break and spend Christmas and New year.

I used to post some contradictory stories and political issues which prevails in our society and it somehow got forwarded in several WhatsApp groups and all..

I received a text messages from unknown person, that he appreciates my post and that he want to meet me and had a talk with me over a cup of coffee.

I replied instantly, judging from his text, I sense that he was well educated and I could discuss my upcoming dissertation with him.

I told my boyfriend that I was going to meet an acquaintance from our hometown and had a talk with him about my upcoming research. He didn't argue or say much so I think he approve me...

After the church programme of 22/12/18, we planned to meet with the unknown person, it was night and he picked us up, He was slightly tall, and stout with a deep eyes and in his late 30s. At first I don't know it was him, cause I don't expect he had a car, and so I was looking for a man with a bike or the likes.

I'm tagging my best friend Kate. And we go to a nearby local restaurant, placed our order.

And introduce with the formalities and all..

He told me he was from the Hangzo clan and I told him I was from Hauzel clan. And I address him so.

I had with me 'The crusade of Europe' a gift from my boyfriend. We discussed about the book for awhile about king James and Constantinople.

Kate got a call from her dad and she left us leaving both of us.

So we talk and talk, about our local politics and feminism.

The conversation was really deep and we're lost on our talk. I can see that he was really amazed to see a girl my age who have interest to such a bold subject.

And I'm amazed with his life experience and knowledge. Soon it was 10:30 pm and my mom called me several times.

I excuse myself to go home, as it was late for young girls to hang out, late at night.. He insisted on dropping me. He did, and when we reached my house, my parents and siblings were having a conversation by the fireplace and we join them.

We had a warm night and so on, he left late in the night. It was an amazing night with him.

We text on the phone regularly after our meetings..

One time I accidentally send him the wrong message about hentai and manga.

So I told him about my obsession with hentai and manga, I know I was ashamed of it, but I can't help it. But still, I tried to keep our conversation academic and professional as much as possible.

He laugh at me, like I was a little pervert. And that's when I named him Senpai, and he didn't show any dislike. We used to mock and roast each other most of the time. And send photos. I send him some of my poems and it was Christmas Eve.. He tagged me on a post with a content of one of my poems with the title 'poems for you' that dense hag entitled himself with one of my poems without any further questions. He give it to himself. I should be mad at him, but actually I smiled.

That night my boyfriend came over, (it was the second time we saw each other) to my house, and Senpai text me with one of my picture. He saw it, and was so mad at me, as he was looking into my phone. He stowed away without saying anything. I know he's angry and was being protective of me. But I didn't say a word, nor explain the situation because I know I can't convince him or talk him out of it as he saw it with his own eyes. (The pic was me holding two passion fruits)

So I planned on spending more time with my boyfriend, and less on other people. we had a date more often, and hang out like any other normal couple would do. There's an emergency at his company and had piles of works to do, so he flew back to his place..

Everything was normal and Senpai asked for a date, and I told him that I wasn't up for it, or a date related, he insisted that it was a discussion and hang out for a while, I can't argue so I go out with him with my sister. we had some pizza and coffee and that was it..

He asked for a 3rd date again later that month, and I turned him down. But yea I enjoy taking to him so we texted on the phone most of the time.. As I have a boyfriend I need to distance myself from him, cause my boyfriend hate him.

We had a Christmas and New year celebration with my family and friends. It was so great and with a blink of an eye, it was time for me to go back to the capital and buried with my studies again..

It was January 19, I flew to Kolkata to spent sometime with my boyfriend, and he pick me up at the airport, we had some good time enjoying the city and foods. And the next day I reached Delhi my destination.

And once again I was busy with my college life.

Ever since Valte knew I was keeping in touch with my Senpai our relationship wasn't like it used to be, for the record it was only 3 months now.

Other than that he used to hate and despise my mentor too, and I took it as a normal jealousy.

We had a reunion with my childhood guy friend William, and that day I kept my phone on silent as I want to spent time with William and catch up on each other lives. I looked at my phone and there was 12 missed calls from Valte, and I rang him up as soon as he pick up the phone he barged and shout at me, I have no freaking idea what make him furious but I think that it was about me, as he felt that I was keeping a distance with him.

I tried to clam him down and make a sense out of it, and I tried to be a better person.

But he let me choose "me or your friends" at that point I was so mad, I was so mad, mad because he let me choose between my friends and him which is completely offensive. In the end I told him I choose my friend over him, and I make myself clear that this is the end for us, and I'm doing a favour for him by waking out of his life.

I was so sad and depressed that I can't make him happy and that he can't trust me. He let his insecurities ruined our relationship.

I drank so much that night I wake up with a headache and a heavy hungover.

He didn't text me or call me the other day, and I was sulking away for trying to connect and blame it on myself, I don't know what and when did I go wrong or what have I done to make him shout at me. On the other hand I think it was my bad luck with guys.

Whatever the reason and cause might be, I must get on with my life. And I have my careers on point and future plans stressed me out.

The expectations from my family was enough to put me insane for the rest of life if anything goes wrong.

Because I had to looked after my family in the foreseeable future, and took responsibility for it incase my mom passed away. My alcoholic dad wasn't reliable and my elder brother was in the same situation as me, doing odd jobs and helping out my family's expense. While my younger sister was still too young to work.

I was caught up in that situation. And that was my deepest fear of all. My family was all that's left of me and all that I had.

On the other side, we're really lucky to have a house on our own, we don't need to pay for the rent and all, but we can't still afford our daily basic needs sometimes. I guess whether we're poor or rich we had our own problems and life will still find a way to kick us in the *** no matter what..