It's exhausting to pretend to be happy.

Especially if you don't feel anything but anger for the people around you.

Someday I will get revenge too. I'm going to show them how strong I am, I'm not as weak as they thought.

They will regret that they underestimated me.

"YOU'RE USELESS! YOU'RE A SHAME! STUPID!"

I stopped my tears from leaking. I don't want to cry in front of him. Like i was so hurt by the words he dropped. But I'm not going to let my self be affected.

"Forgive me, father. I will not repeat the mistake I made, I promise"

He slapped me. He gave me Spain without 's' by the slap he gave me and the strength, I couldn't handle it. My head turned to another direction because of the slap.

Father, why do you do this to me? Why do you hurt me over and over again?

"You left my room before I kill you, I don't care if you are my son, I don't have a stupid and useless son"

I bowed my head in honor of the king. I am the son of the king but unlike other princes I don't have a place in his heart.

When I came out of my father's room, My older brother greeted me.

"Just ignore father. Later, come with me. We'll go to the city"

Kiev is my older brother. Of all of them he was the only one who treated me like what older brother should.

"I'm leaving, my brother. I'll finish our father's orders"

He patted my arm softly. He also messed my hair. Not only that, but he smiled at me, a real and genuine smile.

"Be careful, okay? Always remember that I'm always here for you."

I left the palace with the sadness that I feel. Everything I do is wrong in my fathers eyes.

I don't think I had done anything right for him. I wish I hadn't been born one of the princes. I wish I was a normal citizen of Cedes.

Maybe if I was born to be a normal citizen of Cedes I might have lived a good and happy-go-lucky life.

If the other world is true, can I please live there? This time as a normal person. With a simple life.

"Stop right there"

I stopped walking because of the restraint of a very familiar voice. Looking up, I was a little nervous.

"B… Brother"

When he came closer to me, he suddenly punched me. My lip edge cracked I also had blood on it.

"Why? Why did you punch me? What did I do wrong?"

My brother, Kiel, the second prince of Cedes just shrugged his shoulder then left.

Damn it. He's crazy. How I became part of this family? This is b*l*sh*t. ZZZ

Can someone save me from this crazy and chaotic place? I badly want to leave this place. This place brings nothing but heartache and pain is the ***.

His fathers command was to end the entire Smith clan.

There was no question that he had just obeyed his father's commandment.

He watched outside the smith mansion. Waiting for the right opportunity, To enter the mansion and finish the whole lineage.

His body was stiffened as he felt a presence behind him. He felt the man's breath around his neck.

He was rest resty. He was nervous. In all his life he has never felt this before.

"You were sent by the king to finish the Smiths, didn't you?"

He didn't know why he felt something different when he heard the voice of the person behind him.

He felt like he knew him. He didn't know. He was confused. His heart and his mind were in contention.

"Why do you feel afraid? Don't be afraid of me. I'm not going to kill you, not at the moment."

The person behind him laughed. Even its laughter brings a strange feeling to him.

He was shocked when he grabbed him at the waist and forcefully lifted his head to go face to face with the man.

His eyes widened as he realized who was in front of him. He felt like he couldn't breathe properly.

"Are you surprised to see me here?"

He couldn't answer. He felt like he was going to run out of air in his body. How did this man get to the Smith area? What connection he has with the Smiths?

"Release me!"

My command that he ignored. He had no right to disobey my command. I'm the fourth prince of Cedes, and that gives me all the right to order him around. His just a mere citizen of my fathers nation.

"If you think I'm going to release you, that's where you make a mistake. I can't release you, it's too risky for you"

What does he mean?

"What do you mean? I can handle my self jerk. I'm not a damsel in distress."

His lip edge rose. He messed my hair which made me annoyed. Why do they tend to mess my hair? Didn't they know I worked so hard to fix it?

"Stop messing my hair and let go of me, thats an order. Follow me or I'll tell the King that you stopped me from doing his order to finish the entire Smiths clan"

"I don't care if you ever tell the king. The important thing is that I can save you."

Save me from what? What the hell is he talking about. I don't get him. Who would dare to hurt me? Even though I am just an illegitimate child of the King no one, clearly no one would dare to hurt me. I'm still a prince after all, and a contender to the throne.

"It's just a trap. When you go in there I'm one hundred percent sure you're dead. Let me help you on your mission"

I look at him badly. How dare him say those words to me. Is he indirectly saying that I'm weak and I need his help just to finish this simple mission?

"I don't need your help. I can finish this mission right now even without your help, jerk"

I was about to jump over the wall to get inside the Smith mansion when he pulled the hem of my black t-shirt.

"What!? Can you please get out of my way? I need to finish this mission. My father will kill me if I cant finish the entire clan of the Smiths until morning."

"You didn't change at all, Khalil. Still hard headed as fvck."

I was surprised when he suddenly pulled me over and gave me a kiss without my permission. I tried to push him but he put more emphasis on me.

When the lips of the two of us parted I slapped him hard. How dare he kissed me.

" You're a fool. What's your right to kiss me!?"

I was very angry. I'm a man, why did he kiss me!? Don't tell me he sees me like a woman just like how other sees me.

"I have a right Khalil. Remember me. You think too much to forget the handsome and most powerfull mage here in Cedes."

Tsk . But it's true. He's really handsome. What am I talking about? Did I just agree to what he said about his self? Annoying.

" I'm leaving. Never go to that mansion. Don't worry I'll take care of them. Tomorrow they are all out of your way."

I don't know what's going on. My head nodded willingly to what he said. He smiled before disappearing like a bubble.

I was confused with him. This is the fourth time I've seen him and we've come together in the same place.

That shameless man. He should make sure he's going to keep his word. Because if he wouldn't I will find him by myself and I will kill him slowly, so he'll feel the Spain without 'S'.

Khalil awoke due to the knock on the door of his room. Even he didn't want to stand in his bed the knock still makes him arise. Looks like the person behind those knocks are mad for knocking repeatedly yet his not moving his *** to open the door.

After he open the door the face of his nanny since he was young as he couldn't even remember welcomed him.

"What do you need, Nanny Mimi? Don't you know that it's still early in the morning?"

His babysitter ignored his complaints. His babysitter which name is Mimi entered his room.

"What do you need!?"

His voice was a little raised that his nanny didn't like the most. He got a bit of annoyed because she woke him up too early. He's still sleepy, but his nanny doesn't care at all.

"Dress up and watch your language. Your father wants to talk to you."

What I've done wrong and he wants to talk to me again? He wouldn't have asked for my presence if I hadn't done anything wrong.

I changed my clothes and let my nanny do the rest. When I get inside the kings room I didn't know if I would greet him or not. After all he doesn't want to hear my voice.

"Come unto me"

As he commanded I came closer to him. I was surprised when he suddenly gave me a hug. He also messed my hair.

I don't know if I'm going to be upset because he messed my hair or be happy because he gave me a hug for the very first time.

I chose to be quiet and enjoy the moment my own father hugged me. It all seemed like a dream.

I used to just dream of hugging him. Now, he's the one who embrace me first. But what is the reason for the sudden hug? Is he pretending like a good father again? I hope not, because I'm tired of getting a high hope that he finally accepts me but suddenly he will laugh at me because I fall into his lies.

"Great son. You've finally made me proud"

Make him proud? What did I do? I don't even know what he's talking about.

"What do you mean by that, father?"

He put his arm around me and brought me near his throne. His throne that I'm eager to get.

"Don't pretend as if you don't know what I'm talking about. Isn't you whom I ordered to kill the clan of Smiths,and I'm so proud of you my son. You successfully did it. Because of that this day until tomorrow you're free to do whatever you wanted to do."

I was surprised by what he said. I'd like to say I didn't. I'm not the one who beat the Smith clan but there's a part of me that doesn't want to say the truth . I love how my father treated me too nice that I think its surreal.

" Thank you father. I'm leaving. I want to tour the city of Cedes."

This was my chance to tour the Cedes that I couldn't do before because my father didn't want to let me wander around.

Now that he has given me permission himself, it's my opportunity. My father gave me only two days. I need to hurry so I can find the person I'm looking for right away.

I was about to go into my room to get the items I would need on my journey when a hand stopped me. When I looked I was relieved because it was just my brother, Kiev.

"Can you accompany me, Lil?"

I scratched my eyebrow because of what he said. It's annoying. I would have walked e. I don't want to ignore my brother. He's so kind to me, I don't want to reject his simple demands in favor if I know I can give it.

"Okay, brother. Please wait for me I'll just dress up for a moment"

He nodded. After I got dressed I found my brother in the palace garden. The wide-legged with different types of colorful flowers.

"Are the flowers nice isn't it?"

Sometimes I feel like my big brother is crazy. He's different sometimes specially when he speaks to me.

"You're right. The garden was wonderful. The caretaker of this garden shoukd have around of applause because of the great outcomes."

"Thank you for the compliment, Lil."

I surprisingly looked at my brother. He is the one who take care of this garden? Wow, just wow. How did he do all of this. Amazing. I cant even utter a word to describe how amazing he is.

"How did you do this? It's a beautiful garden. How did you mamage to keep the beauty of this garden."

He laughed softly then put his arm around me.

"May be because my first love, love loves flower. So much that she would die just to see alot of wonderful and colorful flowers."

Who could have been the lucky girl my brother loved. She was lucky because my brother was so kind and caring.

"Who's the lucky girl, kuya?"

He just looked at me and messed my hair. Why do they always messed my hair? Whats with them and their crazy hubby. Tsk.

"She's dead but our son is still alive. She was killed by a monster who until now live a glamorous life. I so wanted to kill him for taking my beloveds life but I cant. I just cant."

I feel my brother's sadness. I don't know why but I'm hurting for him. Whoever killed my brothers beloved,I hope he die and root in hell.

" Why can't you kill him? Is he that strong that even you, the strongest knight in our Kingdom can't go against him."

"I'm not scared of him, Lil."

What does he mean? If he's not scared then why didn't fight that monster?

"I'm not afraid of him. I was afraid he would know that I had a child. Because I knew he was going to kill it. I'm not going to let that happen, Lil. I can't bear to lose my son."

Son, so it's a boy.

"Who is your son, brother. Can I meet him? Do I know him?"

"Silly, you can't meet him for now, Lil. Its too dangerous to reveal his identity. I'm fine by just being by his side, always, even though he doesn't know my whole existence as his own father."

It's a sad story for my brother. You see his own son didn't know him. I feel bad for my brother. I hugged him. He hugged me back.

" Its fine, brother. I'm always here for you. Always remember, just like you, I'm just one call away. "

He just laught at what I said. I'm happy that I make him laugh he looks so sad earlier.

"Do you know that my son and you are at the same age?"

I was surprised. Is it really? His brother got someone pregnant in an early age.

"Come on. We're wasting alot of time here, we might get at night on the road. We're still a long way off."

"Where are we going, brother?"

"We are going to Lucifers mansion. I wnat to formally introduce you to my best friend who happens to be your playmate when you where young."

My eyes literally grew. I didn't know that my brother has a friend and that was Lucifer. Its unbelievable . My older brother is an angel while he's a demon inside a handsome body.

Why was Lucifer always involved in the things that happening in my life? Was it all a coincidence? Or he is doing it intentionally? I don't know. I just hate the fact of being near him. My heart keeps beeting so fast and loud. I just can't stand by his presence. I just can't...