This world is a place which is not the same for everyone. So I have decided not to care much about those opinionative eyes around me. I am happy with the life I am living, with a wonderful man and sometimes stressful study life. I thought everything is going good and falling in the place it is supposed to fall..... until today! This is the day I finally realized that no matter how I plan to live my life, there's nothing I can do to stop the mess that is bound to happen.

Before we talk about my messy life, let me properly introduce myself. I am Annie and I am an accounting student. I don't like what I chose to study, it was purely chosen to my parents, and I am bound to accomplish the same. Furthermore, I am a freaking introvert and I hate that (I'll tell you guys later, why I hate being introverted). Also, I am like a magnet of bad luck, things never go the way I plan. On the top of all these, I am in LOVE!! Man!! This love is the worst thing that can ever happen in my life.

Now that I have given a tiny gist about myself, let us continue the crappy story of my life, shall we?

Today is just like any other day. I got up early in the morning, done with my chores and am eagerly waiting for my results that are supposed to be released. Just then I got a text from jade that they are announced. I am literally panicking and stored up some courage to check mine. I carefully filled all the details and pressed the proceed button. Just in 2 seconds, my results got displayed. And guess what happened......my jaw dropped!!

For the very first time in my life, I FAILED!! Lot of questions revolved around my mind, but the most common one is that, How am I going to face my parents? How can I explain myself? What are they going to say?

My overthinking brain estimated all the possible reactions that my parents might give, but their reaction came out of the box !! They said, IT IS OKAY!! THERE'S ALWAYS A NEXT TIME. DON'T STRESS YOURSELF OUT!

After the phone call with them and listening to their unpredicted reaction, I started feeling sad and guilty.

WHYYY??

**Why didn't they say anything? Why didn't they yell at me or curse at me ? Why didn't they say that they are disappointed in me ? **

I don't know whom I should share this with. All I know is that, I am not feeling my self. I need a place to rest my head, I need someone to tell me that it's okay. So without even thinking, I called pran. Pran is my boyfriend, and we have been dating for 2 years. I fell in love with him as he is a pure and innocent soul. Of course, he is handsome. He said he had a crush on me since middle school. Gradually our relationship developed from friends to best friends and then to lovers.

As I called him, he lifted my call, but I sensed something different. He is not normal. The way he said, “HELLO, ANNIE….WE SHOULD MEET!!” Is different. This is his side that I never saw.

All I could ever imagine why he sounded different is my results. I thought he was upset because I didn't perform well. Little did I know that he is going to reveal his true self in front of me today!!

As all I need now is a big hug and voice that tells me, Everything will be okay!! So I went to meet pran at the usual spot that we used to meet. He is sitting at the corner table at the café looking at his mobile. My face is bright just by looking at him. He is my sunshine at hard times. But something is definitely off.

"Hey baby, you are early!!" I said.

"Sit down, we have a lot to talk about", he said. (I knew it something is definitely off, I sensed it from the way he spoke on our phone call earlier)

"Before that, I have to tell you something.... My results are out and they aren't great. I failed for the first time. I had this sinking feeling in my heart. Furthermore, I need your help with this, can you help me to overcome this feeling."

"YOU DESERVED IT"

"WHAT? Baby, is that you! Or am I hearing things. I just heard something."

"Annie, you are not hearing things. Because it is me who said that. You deserved it. How can you not fail if you are two timing...three timing....or may be four timing when you have a boyfriend in the first place."

"Baby.... I don't understand, what do you mean by that?"

"Don't BABY ME, Annie! You are clearly cheating on me. I have evidence with me. You are such a bitch!!"

"Woah! Slow down, did you just call me with the B word!

And before anything, what the evidence that you have that proves that I am cheating on you"

"Look at these chats of yours with your so-called friends *** boyfriends. I clearly told you not to talk with any male friend other than me. Can't you even do that."

"I have clearly told you that, they are my friends and there aren't any inappropriate messages in the chat conversations with them. Foremost, How did you get these chats? Do you perhaps logged in to my account without even asking me? How did you know my credentials? You know there are personal spaces for everyone, right? You have clearly crossed your boundary over here!!"

"Why should I get permission? I f'cking own you. Didn't you feel happy the other day when I said you are mine? Why are you so angry now! There is no such thing as boundaries between us. Do you understand!"

I am not able to accept that these words are coming from my boyfriend whom I love so much, adore so much, care so much, respect so much. My brain flashed these memories of my friends telling me that my boyfriend is toxic. Back then, I have simply brushed those words away, telling  that a little jealousy is fine as I am blinded by love. Now he is talking as if he own me. Not even my parents treated me this way. Just a few hours ago, they said, There will always be a next time for anything. May be, I really don't know about the people whom I think I really know them.

"That's it Pran! I can't take more than this. I didn't prepare to face this. Not only that, but I am at my maximum. I can't be normal with you after all the things you have said. Let's live our own lives."

After listening to all these words, I am not able to think straight. All I can do is to end things with him and move on. But that doesn't go well!!

He said, He will not accept the break-up. He yelled at me, cursed me and humiliated in front of everyone in the café.

Without even thinking, tears started overflowing from my eyes. It is as if my mind went blank. Just when he raised his hand at me, someone dragged me out of there. All I remember is, Me sitting in the taxi and the words, "Don't ever let anyone take control of you.... It is your life". I did not even remember the person who dragged out of it and said those words, Because I am in that position where I cannot even differentiate day and night.

After that day, All I did for a week straight is to bury myself under the blanket in my room, with my mobile switched off, away from the world.