On the night I went to save the Wen's, he is the only person who can stop me. I know I have this feeling that is different from how I feel about others, but will he reciprocate these feelings? He called out to me, "Wei Ying" I stopped my horse, and turned around to face him, it was raining heavily that night, Wen Qing, Wen Ning, Uncle Fourth, Grandma Wen, Wen Yuan and together with others have gone, I stay behind to talk out with him... Probably for the last time.

I spoke up, "Lan Zhan, why are you here?"

His grip on his umbrella tightened, it didn't escape my eyes, "Wei Ying, come back. okay?"

Amidst the rain the tears that escaped my eyes couldn't be noticed by him, "Lan Zhan, I know you care about me." I tried hard to say it properly, "But it might not be the care I want. I know you are the Hangguang-Jun everyone looked up to and sees you as their role model, but I? I don't deserve to stay by your side as Wei Wuxian and Yilling Laozu whose hand are bloody by killing innocents. I may be from Yunmeng, but disowning me would be as easy as stomping an ant." I halted and continued, "I know, I don't deserve you, so please let me go." I broke down crying. He may have noticed it completely by now.

I heard his voice calling out my name, "Wei Ying..."

I took a deep breath I gave him a smile as I had also expected to be rejected completely by him. After all who'd dare side with the madman Yilling Laozu, the public enemy, even little children knows that he is a bad guy and has to be punished... I told him,"Hangguang-Jun, If I am doomed to death one day, I wish to die by your sword. That'll make my pathetic life worth it"

Tears uncontrollably fell and wetted my cheeks more that it already was, I turned my horse and went to Burial Mounds to catch up with the others.

Lan Zhan was looking at the way Wei Ying went to, he saw him getting smaller, getting far and far. His heart aches, I didn't have the strength to keep the umbrella up. It slowly slips away from my hands as I got soaked in the rain together with my tears.

~Burial Mounds~

The four main and greatest sects, Lan Sect of Gusu, Nie Sect of Qinghe, Jin of Lanling and Jiang of Yunmeng.

A bloody battle was started, Lan Zhan was present in the name of assisting his own brother. Everyone that died, Wei Wuxian has successfully turned them to fierce corpses. Lan Zhan fought his way to get to his Wei Ying. "Wei Ying, Stop!"

I heard it, but as soon as I stopped for a moment, I suffered great casualties, almost a hundred of my fierce corpses vanished in thin air, just because of one person. I once again played my chenqing, and this time the tune was more deadly than the last.

I heard someone shout, "Yilling Laozu, hand over your Yin Hufu!"

I laughed sarcastically at his words, "Are you really executing justice by killing me or you just want my Yin Hufu?"

Jin Guangshan the leader of Lanling Sect spoke up, "Wei Wuxian that evil tool kf yours has killed tons of our disciples, it's only right that you hand it over. It even brought death to your own Senior Sister, now even your Junior Brother is fighting to kill you" He was trying to infuriate me, but the next second Nie Mingjue's voice rang on the battlefield.

"What's with the chitchat?! You think these corpses aren't good enough for you to get tired? Stop wasting strength and fight!" Everyone fought against my thousands of corpses.

Without saying a word I took out my Yin Hufu, I broke it into pieces and left them on the battlefield. Now everyone is fighting to get it, causing disciples to turn against each other and kill their own kind, "You say I'm evil! But open your eyes and take a look at your disciples killing each other for a useless scrap of metal" I laugh at them as I flew to the cliff.

I looked at the battlefield, I saw corpses, blood, these things were what I hated the most. I looked at my hands as tears drops on them l

one by one.

I closed my eyes losing control of my own body, I feel like falling to the cliff, 'This should be my end' that was what I thought.

But the next moment, I felt warmth in my own hands, I also smell a familiar smell. I look up to see that forehead ribbon I wanted to touch the most. I smiled at him, it wasn't forced nor fake. But it is the only smile I could give him

"Lan Zhan, let me go. You needn't do this, doing this would only hurt me more, besides haven't you rejected me already? Let me go"

His hand was bleeding but he didn't let go of the wrist he was holding.

I heard him get angry, "I never said anything. It's your own imagination, now stop the nonsense and get back up here!"

Jiang Cheng came and swung his sword, it wounded my wrist but more importantly it hit the rock. The weight of 3 people weren't enough to bear it.

I forcefully let go of Lan Zhan's hand, I can't believe that I died by my own sword and my own cultivation... I gave Lan Zhan a bright but sad smile and fell on the cliff.

The next day news spread everywhere as fast as light, Wei Wuxian Yilling Laozu has passed away being killed by Jiang Wanyin with his own sword. Right now cultivators had a party for days and nights celebrating their victory.

Wangji wasn't in the mood for anything, these days he locks himself in his own room and stare at his hands that held his. He regrets not holding onto him tightly...

I went out to breath in fresh air, I was in the woods in Phoenix Mountain when I saw a tree, that was where I kissed him... I touch my own lips feeling those rosy ones in them.

I felt someone tap my back I looked back, It was brother.

"Wipe away your tears first" My brother said.

I faced him and said, "Brother, did you know? The other day when he went to save the Wen's. He told me his real feelings. But I didn't tell him my feelings either. I can only... I could only watch him smile sadly in front of me as he fell off the cliff." Unable to hold it back, tears fell as my brother hugs me.

I looked up at my brother, "Brother, I'm the reason he died right?"

Zewu-Jun had seen Wangji cry before, that was when their mother died, he sighed, 'Love is too strong to fade between this two souls' He though as he told Wangji, "Don't blame yourself, it's not your fault. I'm sure he won't blame you too.

{Edited version of the real story. I've already got permission from Miss Crimsons. I'll update if I could.

I was supposed to go to Ghost Realm since I am dead, but here I am wandering in the world of mortals that hated me, wherever I go, I heard them cursing my name. I planned to look for him, but I'd rather not. Burning my soul as fuel so I can stay here longer, I don't know how long I could withstand.

'It has been a week already since I died, I wonder if anyone's mourning for me.' That was exactly what I thought bur I gently heard my name, someone was calling out to me.

i followed the voice and it led me to Gusu. Yet I was focused on following it not minding anything. In there I saw Lan Zhan in actual mourning clothes, in the table were things I loved, the bunnies I gave him was there too, my headband, emperor's smile, painting. Unexpectedly Wei Ying heard Lan Zhan's thoughts as well.

In his hands was a painting of us. He was like cursing me but with sad emotion, "Dumb fool Wei Ying. I miss you, but where are you? I regret it. I regret not telling you, I regret letting go of your hands, I regret not being able to save you. I hate myself. It's all because of me"

He was crying that Wei Ying would be unable to recognize him by his face.

He looked around and didn't expect Lan Zhan to keep the things he though were thrown away. He sees him insuxh a manner and had the urge to huf him, but he forgets that he is a ghost, not a human being.

He wants to cry but no tears, he wants to touch him and hug him, but he can't. He can only suffer with him.

"Lan Zhan oh Lan Zhan, why!? You're hurting me like this. S-Sorry... I can't come back anymore. There's no road back to you. It's probably the end of us."

The moon was bright but for two certain people, it was dim, stars were shining but their world was dark, although one wearing white, everything around him was lifeless and colourless. From the moment he let go of Wei Ying's hand, he also died deep inside...

"Sorry... I'm sorry that I only realized these when I've already lost you. I'm sorry"

I smile at Lan Zhan who said those words while looking at the same painting. For him, those were precious memories that we spent together, but the current me of that time was knly playing around... "Lan Zhan, my Lan Zhan. Thank you for letting me know that you feel the same as me. But I guess we're not meant to be. At least not in this lifetime..."

Wei Ying enters Lan Zhan's dream using his soul power, his dark cultivation helped him this time.

~Inside the DREAM~

Lan Zhan opens his eyes and sees someone familiar, his hair flying along with the wind, his eyes staring at me softly, he caressed my face, "My dear Lan Zhan. Thanks for loving me, Don't blame yourself over my death, because this ghost never blamed you."

Lan Zhan reaches out his hands to Wei Ying's cheeks while Wei Ying enjoys the warmth. "Is it really you? This time... Please come back" Tears fell as both hearts beats and they enjoyed each others warmth.

Hughing each other feeling their heart beat fast as it could. "Wo ai ni"

After saying that Wei Ying disappeared to nothingness. Lan Zhan collapsed on the floor, his tears falls on the ground. In his sleep real tears he also shed.

I woke up reaching mid-air for him. I felt my wet cheeks. I placed everything related to him in a secret compartment right beneath my bed.

I tooka bath and cleaned after myself and went out without letting anyone know, Wei Wuxian followed him around like an obedient slave.

Lan Zhan was heading towards Burial Mounds, Wei Ying immediately understood why. As expected, he came back to Gusu with nothing.

His Uncle asks him where he was... He was showing repect as the Grandmaster of Gusu, not the Uncle he knew. "Burial Mounds" I walk away and heard him spout nonsense.

"No one has ever survived the Burial Mounds, it has been a week not even a single bone could be found, let alone a corpse!"

I was angry, really agotated, without facing him I yell at him,"Grandmaster! Shenme hei, shenme bai? Shenme dui, shenme bu dui? Is everything you've seen the whole truth?!"

"You.. you..." He spit out blood agitated, I heard him order me to meet him at the Wall of Rules. I went to my own room missing Wei Ying.

At the same time Wei Ying was feeling uncomfortable, Lan Zhan didn't break any rules except drinking liquor accidentally in the past. But now he goes against his uncle for me. Wei Ying was of course happy but he's afraid that his sould wouldn't hang in there longer.

"I'm afraid of leaving you..."

The next day as Lan Zhan arrived at the wall the back of his knee was hit, he was forced to kneel.

"Do you know how you are wrong?" Asked his Grandmaster.

He coldly ignores him which agitated him more, but the next moment Lan Zhan spoke up, "Then could I ask Grandmaster if he knows his mistake?"

He was hit by discipline whips. Wei Ying tried to shield him but he couldn't. He can only suffer in pain mentally without tears or pain physically.

Soon Zewu-Jun arrives as he helped Lan Zhan up and blames his Uncle. He took him to his own room dressing his wounds. Wei Ying was worried but seeing Zewu-Jun he was relieved.

Soon a black amoke enveloped Wei Ying, he understood, it was time to go... "Goodbye, Lan Zhan My Soulmate"

He xompletely disappears as Zewu-Jun notices the change. He calmed down seeing that there was nothing. Right now he's only focused on healing Lan Zhan's wounds.

{I edited quite a lot, next chapter may be soon or maybe on June. See you all next time.}

After that dark smoke enveloped me, I was in a place with no exits. All around it's black, no matter how far I walk, how hard I try everything is merely useless.

I don't know how much time has passed, I nether felt hungry nor feel tired. I feel hopeless, Lan Zhan was still injured and hurt. I am really worried about him. I lie on the floor that doesn't seem to be there, I want to cry badly but I couldn't.

Soon I saw a light, without much thought I touched that light as it covered my whole body. The next moment I knew, a person whose clothes are bloody and dirty came over to me, "Mo Xuan Yu" He called out to me.

I answered him, "I'm not Mo Xuan Yu, Who are you? Who is Mo Xuan Yu?"

He said that, "I am Mo Xuan Yu and now you are Mo Xuan Yu. Kill those people for me. Let them suffer! Yilling Laozu! I summon your soul for revenge!"

I came back to my senses after receiving a kick, 'Whose the bastard that dares to kick me?!' That's what I thought I saw that it's a young man. But I'm more than happy that I can see humans now, I'm back in the world of mortals.

"You dirty piece of scrap, who do you think you are!? Dare you tell me on my mom! You're just a servant's son. Stop daydreaming about being the Young Lord!"

I heard him, but neither did I mind.After they smashed everything and took some papers that I don't know what's inside, they left and locked the door.

I sat in lotus position to meditate, but my stomach grumbles the next moment. With my cultivation a door wouldn't be a problem.

After I went out I freshened up myself and came across the servant A'Tong. He was one of those that smashed my things.

A'Tong, "Why did you get out? Young Lord Mo will beat you again if he'll see you" He was eating peanuts. He continued talking while eating, "Eh, what happened to you in Jin Clan? What did that step-brother Jin Guangyao did to you?"

"I came from Jin Clan?" I asked him he nodded and continued blabbering on how I came home as a silly person. He even said that I'm more crazy right now than years ago.

I asked him, "Eh, do you know Hangguang-Jun?"

"Of course! Lan Wangji known as Hangguang-Jun has went on countless night hunts for the past 20 years after Yilling Laozu's death."

"Ah!? It's been 20 years!?"

"Mn, but that Hangguang-Jun isn't married at all,I guess like his brother and the Grandmaster, stay single til old."

"Then did he have any proposals? Or arranged marriages?"

"There is... I don't even know what he's thinking not marrying the princess and be the next King"

"What!? He even denied the princess?!"

"Right. Oh there was another, his uncle seemed to have arranged a marriage for him. But I don't know what happened that girl backed out, the grandmaster was so angry that spat out blood. But of course these are just the town's talk. Who knows where the truth is"

"I must say he's amazing hahahah"

"Not just amazing, he's perfect, if not for the cold face, of he was sweeter... Then maybe he could also have a sweet girl by his side"

"That's enough chit chat." I snapped my hands as I took the peanut in his hands. I went away and roamed around. Until I saw familiar clothes, it looks exactly the same mourning clothes I saw before.

"Lan Zhan" I unconsciously murmured as tears falls on my cheeks. The next moment I hid myself under the mask that I picked up back from the room. Lan Cultivators of the Younger Generation. I was grateful that it wasn't my Lan Zhan or I'll be discovered easily. But is he still my Lan Zhan?

I made mess at the hall and embarrassed Mo Family, after that I walked back to my room. I walked towards the West Court and saw them using a familiar flag. I picked up one.

"Put that down!"

Everyone's attention was diverted to me, "No! I want it. What's so great anyway? The one who made this died decades ago!"

A man smiled at me and said, "Mo gongzi, this flag is needed for our formation. It's dangerous here so please go back to your own room and don't go out till midnight."

"Hmmm, are you Zewu-Jun's disciple? So just like him!" I laughed but others didn't reply. Soon I spoke again, "You can't be Hangguang-Jun's disciple right? That ice block..."

"Hangguang-Jun raised me up, so naturally he's also my master. Mo gongzi, how did you know Hangguang-Jun?"

"Old times, it was so long ago. He should have forgotten by now."

"But Hangguang-Jun has a very good memory" Said another.

"I agree" another comments

"You better start now, it's getting dark. I'll go now."

I gave them back the flag and picked up a leaf. I went back to my own room and played a tune that I remember.

After I fell asleep I found that someone forcefully broke down my door. They dragged me to the main hall as I saw a fierce corpse.

~No need to emphasize if you've seen The Untamed Drama~