Who said LOVE is just a simple thing?

No,it’s hell NOT. But as long as i remember, it’s such a sweet thing that causes everyone to taste it more and more as they get addicted.

IT was just until I’m 15 years old I’ve been into some stupid guy, hey don’t call him stupid, he’s not a stupid boy. Maybe he changed into stupid just because of my existence in his life.

I clearly remembered that, he first, started to bully me, wanted himself to watch me look upset and even made joke of himself fooling around me. How childish is it just to make me sad,he became even more sad?

As the days passed on, i didn’t remember exactly when and how did i ever fall for him,a stupid boy ?

Only then did i started to recall every single bad thing that he had done to me only to find out how utmost did he help me, like when I’m on my dark side and the very edges of the mountain, he just appeared as bright as sun, as strong and hard as diamond that had shown me it’s reflections,made me see through dark obstacles including the fine way to solve.

Though I’ve played some tricks with him, and irritated him to the core, knowing he’s impatient but still enjoying the time spent with him, is like a dream that i don’t want to wake up from it.

He cared me like a mother who cares and worries about his own child seeing his bad condition. After a long time ago,he made me enjoy the feeling care by my mother though she’s not with me right now.

I felt like how so soothing is this feeling of having someone care for you.

Not to mention about the day when even my friends had no time to do with me, he is the only one who appeared out of nowhere, just like some drops of water gave life to a thirsty person.

Maybe,it’s yes that I’m thirsty, thirsty of someone to care,thirsty of love that endures some pain exists very deep in the heart.

As i got to know him better, everyday it felt like I’m starting to learn something new from him. He’s just like every man who’s so obsessed and passionate about his love but still refuses to admit it as if he was about to die of embarrassment. What’s there to feel embarrassed for?

But somehow, when i finally managed to come up with a solution, it looks like everything had already made clear and now, it’s not that easy to handle .

No matter what happens, i won’t loose to it. I’m not ready to lose someone about whom I always dreamed about, whom I’ve longed and urged to be with earlier.

Just wait for me, I will surely come to you and make you mine this time. Rest assured, I’m not that kind of girl who will think love is a boon and not being with someone we loved is a fate and just accept the fact and all bullshit!

-Rossy-

At the age of 5,

I still remember the day when my mom passed away, i can only hear a few words spoken by my mum,”good-bye darling”, as she said that i burst into tears.

As I said,”mom, don’t go,i…I hick I’ll…..” I extended my hands out to try to catch hers and rolled over, and with a sound of ‘thud’ I fell on the ground only to know that it was just a dream I’ve been dreaming over years.

In less than a second, there is a sound ‘ring ring ring ring ring ‘,with a full of irritation, I turned out to take a look only to realize it’s my third alarm.

I usually keep three alarms, first one at 6 o’clock and second one is at 6.30 and the third one at 7 o’clock.

It’s because I knew about me very much. And also I don’t believe I can wake up with my first alarm.

Oh gosh, it’s already 7. How come I’m totally unaware of it?As soon as I just realized there’s a test,I immediately rushed over to bathroom to do my brush and I took a glance at the mirror.

Unconsciously, my hands were extended and slightly touched the reflection of my face in the mirror.

Short and silky hair, thin lips full of redness overloaded, attractive eyes that anyone can get attracted just giving a glimpse at it, long eye-lashes, fair skin.

I felt,”how cute and sweet looking I am, it’s a pity I couldn’t watch my face for even five times a day” and went to take a shower.

As I finished taking my shower, just wearing a towel as I came out, my phone started ringing. As I searched for it over and over and after a long time it stopped ringing did I got to know that yesterday, I’ve thrown it somewhere. As I walked into the hall, on the couch I’ve found the phone lying with a low charge more than enough to call someone.

As I opened it only to see “brother " yeah and I looked at the time, “oops, it’s 8.15, yeah at this, who in the world would call me except him?”

And I called him back only to hear, “had your shower?” As his voice sounded mostly like a villain in most of the movies.

“Yes,just now” I replied. Feeling how the hell did he got to know that I’m showered as if he was watching me through camera. And looked around to find if there’s any kind of camera fixed here, i sighed lightly as there’s nothing like that.

“Nothing, i just thought you would be showering at this hour and don’t be silly.” His voice revealed some sort of smile as if he knew what am i thinking right now and he must felt that I’m really childish.

“It’s not that, tell me what’s the matter?” I directly went to the point that slightly revealing if i don’t want to have conversation with him.

“yeah, i don’t think you have much time,right. I called you to remember that there is an exam today.” His voice became serious.

I know what is he trying to say, though he’s very serious this time. It’s not like he is serious every time.

“Yes,I remember " as I said that, and i couldn’t speak more than that.

“Good”

“I will call you later,I’m hanging up now” i replied so cool and confidently.

As I no longer really don’t want to talk to him right now.

I hung up the phone.

I went to change my dress.

I opened the wardrobe to search school clothes. After a long time, i have finally found the new set of uniform.

And I changed so fast and before changing, i took a glance at the mirror revealing my body structure. I suddenly realized that ‘it’ grew little big and it’s hard to cover up with the clothes.

I took a piece of cloth to roll around my chest little tight, so troublesome. It looks better now.

And I again rushed over to the hall to change my hairstyle feminine to masculine. Yes, not feminine one.

After i finished putting some makeup on to look exactly like a masculine.

Later….

in the mirror- as I looked myself into the mirror, i realized how different did I look now. I’m so proud of myself to look like this, of course I’m great at dealing such things, as i felt very proud.

This is how exactly did i suppose to look in front of others, a male look. And now on wards, i had to act like I’m a boy.

No less than a minute, i got another call

As I looked down only to see it’s Rachel that is calling, as I answered it,

-“hey rosy, you’re coming, right?”

Her voice told me she is nervous about me.

As I told “yes, I am going to crack the exam " I said with full of confidence making her to believe in me.

She sighed-“alright, come fast”

-“okay” I hung up.

Looking deeply into the mirror, yes this is my fake look I used since I was 3 years old. Welcome to my new look, you’re going to watch a show from now.

-Rossy/John-

I’m the only one living in the house, I locked everything perfectly. And then went to take my bicycle, yeah it is also the one which most of the boys used in these days.

I rode so fast as the other boys would do so in front of girls to make a show off.

A girl watched me since I’m at the corner, maybe she liked my style or my beauty, she was so impressed. Only looking at me.

I know it was obviously because of my handsome face did she smiled at me so eagerly, so I wanted to give myself a try, as I increased the speed, with more speed I turned to her side and stopped the cycle suddenly make a skid in front of her.

There were a lot of girls with her, I don’t her name but I still want her attention now just to lit up energy.

Her friends suddenly risen their eyebrows and shocked as if it was the first time for them to see a boy as handsome as me.

Blocking her not to go front with the bicycle, I can clearly see them looking at me so happily and almost they were flattered.

As I asked with a cool and style tone, “how was it?” It sounded so pleasant that someone who don’t want to answer at all could even bother themselves so much to answer.

They were in astonishment, and said, “you were so cool, John”

“Yes,you’re awesome "

“Oh my gosh”

“Can’t believe, john”

All the girls over there started to react to what they were witnessed a moment ago, as I expected, they were all acted beyond their limits. Though I didn’t do anything great, they were just attracted to my looks.

Hearing such encouraging words, I smiled so cheerfully, and said “this is just a trial, I can do more” with full of confidence overloaded. I don’t know whether I can do or not, just then did I suddenly realized how did they know me?

“You are always like this”

“as handsome and lovely”

“How handsome "

They started complimenting me?

at first, i wanted to flatter them but now in the contrary of my expectations, they started praising me?

By judging their expressions , I now got to know why boys are always so eager to flirt with them. It really felt great to be praised by them. How pleasing!

As I wanted to say something and move forward, I was dragged back by someone.

Argh, it is really so fierce.

All the girls were once again astonished to see I was dragged by someone.

They revealed an angry expression.

As I turned to see who was it, someone with a pretty face but frowned owed eyebrows and the angry expression on her face was revealed.

“Hey, who the hell are you?”

“Yes, who do you think you are?”

The girls started to protect me and support me as they went against her.

As i witnessed such kind of scene, i felt satisfied but unfortunately, her angry expression made it disappear.

I replied,” oh, it’s my friend, Rachel.

Sorry to cause you trouble, i will meet you again…. " she once again dragged me back not even letting to finish my sentence.

“Hey, what’s wrong with you? Watch your behavior, I’m not a girl anymore “, as I said with some displeasure caused by seeing the other girls faces revealing sadness that the great time was ruined.

The girls felt bad as they wanted to talk with me for some more time and i bet they would definitely curse Rachel to death.

Rachel once again frowned her eyebrows and said,”come fast, it’s getting late to the exam and you need to revise the other lessons you left yesterday causing lame reasons to escape from me, childish!”

That’s exactly the reason why I’m so exhausted yesterday and slept late which is why now am i late too.

If only did i thought you could have still remember it and ask me right now, i wouldn’t even bother to come.

“Sorry” as I said without feeling any kind of guilty because everyone in the whole class knew that i don’t like to study at all.

But now i had no word except to say sorry than being so self-righteous.

She made me sit in the table in the classroom and began to explain all the formulae and all kinds of possible questions that she predicted to be shown in exam.

Though she was exhausted, still she could explain each and everything to me in a detailed manner so that i can understand it. How concerned is she about me.

When exactly are you going to letting me go? After 30 minutes? After 1 hour?

It’s so boring.

She looked at me with extreme disappointment maybe she knew what was i thinking, so she finally said,”read these all the formulae and you can go now” finally she let me go after learning formulae.

Later, Nick entered the classroom and people looked at him very anxiously. Basically, every time we have an exam, he used to be so afraid,now unfortunately he is not.

He then, straightly came to me and said,”hey john, it’s so great to see you study. Don’t you think it’s too weird to study this much?. Come let’s go for a cup of coffee!”

As I am about to get up, i was pushed down by Rachel. She interrupted us and said sharply,”Do you think i allowed you to go by your will without memorizing all these formulae?”

“Oh,not again. Come on Rachel. It’s just for a coffee " Nick said.

Without even single hesitation, " oh dude, let me tell you, Olivia is not in the canteen like regularly. She’s not even been yet, better stop bothering him” said coldly and frankly pointing to me.

Of course Rachel wouldn’t let me go while I’m still studying .

She didn’t let me go nor didn’t she go to anywhere. Actually, Rachel was not at all used to be like this.

I knew why the hell was she behaving like this.

Later, she went to her class as she was my senior and helps me at exams.

After some minutes, teacher Clara entered the classroom with a dead silence looking into my eyes deeply.

Entering into the class,she no longer gave us time to revise and directly conducted exam.

No less than in a minute, Olivia, Zoe and jack entered the classroom.

Teacher Clara said, “As you all know,this exam is conducted strictly, a person must score more than 50, at least 30 marks out of 100.

If not,you should call your parents within 3 days.

Judging everyone’s scores and mindset, this question paper is not very tough but not too easy,write carefully ”.

Receiving exam paper, with a very few glances, i could say i only get 20 marks which means i should be ready calling parents .

I attempted with confidence as many of them were already explained by Rachel.

As like that, i became busy writing exam. As time passed, exam was finally over. Until now, I was afraid of writing exam but henceforth i should be afraid of the results.

What a pain!