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Few things before we began this journey ...every thing used in this book is fiction name places incident used in this book is all authors imagination ...any thing resemble to any person while living or dead is coincidence  mean while name's of BTS member is used this should be not mean to be their actual personal  personality presentation

All rights are reserved .no part of this book should be reproduced through any mean of entertainment . without my permission

In summary I don't allow anyone to translate my work neither  palgiarism is allow

I don't own any pictures used in this book credit gone to right full owner

Last but not least this is fan fiction not a life story of your and my don't take it personally I am here to share my thoughts with you guys and entertain you

English is not my first language

At last I am slow at response but I am responsive please make your self free to response

And at last

Love your self ❤️

...don't realize how much I love her until she was standing there ...

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Present pov

All I could feel on my tender , fragile skin was freezing cold air, the sound of silence around me was chilling and frighting in every possible way.

Holding the paper tightly. I was staring blankly towards the building.The building that is used to my safe point my heaven my everything but now that place is just a misery from which I want to run . By gathering my all courage. I start picking my steps towards building. Entering the elevator pressing the 5 button and making myself secure at the corner . The tears that are ready to fall by just imagining from where things got wrong before they fall I wiped them harshly .

Telling my self that this is all what I deserve by stabbing all my love ones back loving someone who doesn't deserve my love,care ,my soul my body who even doesn't deserve my love  . I'm the cause for all what happened. How  can I deceive misery .

Hearing the beep sound indicating I have just reached 5 floor making my self presentable ,wiping my eyes last time taking deep breath ; I just put my self out of the elevator.But the memory that I shared with the man who is supposed to be  all mine are. who is my obsession what one is now  suffocating me . Suffocating me to my  dead .

Taking my frail body out of the elevator. I have just taken few steps . My breath starting to become heavy . As I lost my balance and fell on my knees  putting my both hands on the floor . Rising one hand to clutch my left side of shirt and started to pat my heart little bit hardly due to lack to oxygen flow in my body . Every moment is to much for me .

I started to suffer from lost of breath the memory's ,the love I share with the one who is responsible for all this is starting to hunt me after staying helpless on the floor about 5 mints.

Holding back the tears that wet the eyes as they are not willing to let me settle . Gathering all my hates love, revenge, emotions and telling my self I will get my revenge what they have done to me and my love's one .......I will just kill them by my bare hands . After spruce my self and wiping the tears off I clutching the paper in my hand and start moving toward my destination.

A/n

Story line of the pessimistic is same as my other pessimistic book but this book contain bl , MP, b×b touch so I change some character in this book accordingly to need as no one is reading other book so I am sure no one will no the difference between these two books .

Thanks for your reading this book❤️

...I will just pretend to hug you until you get here with me with all you love again 😔...

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Staring at the door for a while I pick hand up to knock after three gentle knock. I waited   for some seconds for  someone to open but no one came.

Again rising hand to knock but before I could do some one open it .When the door opened the man who I was hating with my all will is standing infront of me with redness evident in his doe eyes messy hair bangs covering those doe eyes but still redness are visible ,red nose , parted lips taking breaths with open mouths as having difficulty to breathe from nose after excess cry .

Our eyes met for a little while but instance he moved a side giving me some space to be in the apartment . without any hesitation I started my step towards the TV louche . Taking each step with heavy heart and eyeing surrounding . the views make my heart ach . Shoe rack was a mess . Taking few steps I reached to TV louche . The apartment is small but cozy with small TV louche , small open kitchen where hardly more than two persons can stand comfortably, right side to the kitchen are two beds room with attached washrooms most attractive part of apartment is window that is the main source of positive energy which we thought .

Eyeing TV louche where dust is evident that no one have ever touched them as they where used to be touched by the owner .Pizza boxes vines bottles are all over the place , even nears the window sides all you can see are vines bottles and not doubt whole apartment is in aroma of Alcohol .

kitchen sink is Full of dirty dishes as they are not washed about long time. Hearing the name that he used to call when we are deadly in love make me want to cry and hug him tightly I turned towards him . He called again but this time with little bit shivering and tears are already on his cheeks.. approaching toward me " Tae"but stopped in his track when I show him palm to stop .

Reaching toward sofa and pick up some used up clothes and towel and put them aside to sit . The guy just stand beside the sofa nothing exchange between us ... feeling suffocated I show him the paper I was holding .

The man just stared blankly  between the boy then again on paper.

After while with shivering voice "awww no no no baby no "

Taking deep breath

"How !!can you do this ........(silence) that was ours Baby . He have done nothing wrong you can't do this" the guy exclaimed as he hold one hand of the boy he loved dearly "Tae baby just tell me you have not done anything to our child hmm tell me please, love.........(silence) you can't do this". The boy was already in to much pain he lost someone whom he was dream for to long .

The Boy  just nod his head in agreeing that he have done the abortion without any regret.

The guy rise his voice by crashing the all the vine bottles and boxes from the table "That was ours you can't Abort like that "(with loud sobbing cry ) he just lost every word . Pain , heart broken, betray was evident In his voice

Making herself at his knees infront of the boy holding his hand in her hand and feeling the warmth of his  hand which he was craving for too long . without the warmth of his lover he is nothing just cold blooded body .

" Just tell me the truth that you have  done anything like that; you know how much I love you I promise you no matter how much we suffer but we will never be apart we.......".

But before he can complete his word the boy just removed his hands from his hold spoke , "Jeon jungkook we are done from here onwards we owe nothing from each other you are free to live your life as I am now ".

Maintaining his cold emotional less face he said and pick her self up and move toward the door he can hear the guy pleading voices , his sorry but it's too late to be sorry now .

Holding the door knob he turn towards the jeon last time and inquired " have you ever love me!! .How can I trust you now give me a favour leave me alone" Saying that he  opened the door and moved out before he can say any thing and closing the door behind . he moved toward the exist as fast he can ......it's late but not too late. I can make my mistake ,to heal me now .