We all have desire for something, and I believe love is the most suitable word for 'something'. Love, a medicine to cure your wounds but at the same time the poison to kill you. And for me, it is considered as poison. It is a wild animal that can never be tamed, if asked to me 'money or love'. (smile) my answer would be the money, because love had made me come at my limits, to kill myself and also the lost the power to love someone again, maybe I couldn't use it as a medicine, maybe I was born with the curse of having this life. I want to die, (sobs) I surrender myself to this war of love, I am no longer the person who I knew, I knew at the very most time that my life is not even compared to the life of an ant, I have lost the power to smile.If only he would have never appeared in my ordinary life, if only I never met him, If only I never knew him, if only... we stayed friends forever, if only I kept my heart all to myself, if only... The if's would never stopped because I can never change the past but I can change the future. "Let's do it shall we?" I smiled and took the knife and sliced my wrist so deeply that it was confirmed I will die until someone saves me and....nobody will ever come to save me because I have none. The last thing I saw was my bleeding wrist and as I closed my eyes and saw my whole life in a flash back and I could feel that my tears were rolling down my face. I smiled and said my last words "if only I could never live again". "oh dear God bless this child" I could hear someone's voice and as it continued it assured me "bless the child with the broken heart, is that what you want me to say? " (to be continue)

hi dear readers, don't worry it is not related with the 1st chapter, I just hope that you remember that I wrote the story in my own point of view. And please don't think that love will be the same to you because love is never the same for us, is it?. I even heard from my friend that this novel might end up not predictable and emotional so kind reminder 'you read this novel at your own risk'and if the novel stops at middle, it might be because of my lost of interest just like my previous novel ( two fell for one). And yes, if you don't want to read this content its okay because i understand and please support me, its okay even by reading and subcribing and i am once again thankfull if you are reading this novel and this content because actually this content is written because of the '500 words minimum😅.

I thought I was dead but when I opened my eyes, it was blurry but I could hear the beeping sound of the machine and then I saw a blood bag attached to my wrist and then my eyes were fully opened "hospital??" "or what heavens" it was a voice of a man when I looked at my right side and saw a man peeling apples. "are you going to ask me how did you ended up here? " I shook my head and replied obediently "of course no, but what do you want me to do? " the man putted the peeled apple aside and said while taking out something but I could see the smirk on his face. "indeed you are worth to save" I was confused and stared at the man when he replied by controlling his laugh "you are looking like a kitten , stop it. Don't you know, 'curiosity killed the cat'" I smiled and said "but the curiosity maybe worth it and..." I continued with a spoiled brat voice "I am kitten right" the man couldn't control his laugh anymore and said "I have a gift for you" I would say he was not scary but the intention behind the laugh was and after the word 'gift', I was sure. He took out a recorder and started it "woman's voice: do you still love her?

Man's voice: no baby, how can I, she was just a toy.

Woman's voice: yeah but let's leave it after all she has left is her broken soul and she is not worth our time.

Man's voice: let's do something shall we?

Woman's voice: you are so naughty.

(sound of someone getting banged on the table)

Woman's voice: ahh"

The man stopped the recording and looked at me. I don't know how was I looking but it felt like my broken heart was smashed to the floor and has nothing to get repaired. It felt like my soul has abandoned my body and has nothing left, 'I was just a toy' the torture, the pain, the love, the man who never allowed to let me do anything, captured and tortured me in that dark abyss but I... still loved him. How could he just say I am a 'toy' when I was the one who struggled till the last, the man in front of me looked sad and said "you were a toy because you were poor and innocent, you abandoned everything just for him but in last you are just his 'toy'" I raged with anger when I heard the last word. The man brushed through my hair and said "your anger is not in vain but you can benefit from it" I looked at him to continue his sentence "how about revenge?" I smirked and said "didn't you said I am innocent and poor?" he looked down and stood up "wrong, I told 'you were' not 'you are'" I was raging with anger and I wanted to revenge it "what do you plan?" the man went near the window and told me "you died yesterday and from now you are 'Roseline Monique', you will be trained for various things and the main will be 'fighting with different combats' and 'business studies'. Later when you will be well trained, you will join the mafia gang depended on your status in the mafia I will decide whether you can inheritate my company or not" at that moment it popped in my mind that Monique was one of the 5 global leading company. "What will it benefit you? " I said while having a smirk on my face, the man have a look on his face as if he predicted that I would ask him. "I don't have any successor and I am going to die after 3 or 4 years" I was in shock and quite surprised as he sat down and handed over the peeled apple, I was going to eat it when I made sure to ask first "why me? " he smiled and started while looking down "you have nothing to fear for, nothing to care for, you don't even fear death and the one who doesn't can live freely and with the knowledge of yours you are already suitable." I was satisfied with the answer because it was the truth but I wanted to know about him so I asked him straight "(smile) I am Adonis Monique suffering from tuberculosis from last 6 years. I don't want to have any blood related successor." I nodded and asked "and I am? " he stood up and said "you are reborn as Roseline Monique , your nickname can be chosen by yourself as you had the same name" I nodded and told him "Lina for family and Rose for friends" he smiled and patted, the pat was warm and comfortable. And as he left I whispered "I, Roseline Monique shall bring hell to my enemies. As I have craved from the hell to have my REVENGE, I am REBORN"

(After 2 years) the tapping of my heels filled the waiting room and as I sat down the secretary asked me to enter the hall room, I could read as it was written on her face that "tch, just another woman coming to seduce boss" I smirked and stood up and started to follow her as she leaded the way to the hall room and when I reached Adonis walked towards me and as he was going to hug me, I stretched my hands forward for a handshake and that was when it shocked everybody as any girl who stepped near him couldn't wait to seduce him but I am his heir how could I and even if it was the last option I wouldn't because I considered him as my friend and would like to keep it like it. Adonis shook my hand and said "Secretary Annie , please go and prepare for the shareholders meetings" I smiled and standed till everyone got out and then was when Adonis asked me for a seat and as he and I sat he said while resting his back on the sofa and putted one leg on another in a gentleman way "welcome, how is the process?" I smirked as I lifted my one leg and rested it on the other leg and said while resting my chin on my face "don't you know already?" Adonis smiled and said "you knew didn't you?" I answered his question without hesitation "you told me before that you would keep an eye on me" he smiled and I could tell that smile was genuine "you have finally changed, you no longer have sympathy, you are not caring, considerate but not gentle, professional yet sly, strong and intelligent, strong physically and mentally" I took my chin up and folded my arms as he stood up and continued "you look changed but it's good that the hatred is still there, you are wearing heels to cover your height even though you have normal height, people might think that the heels are your weakness but if you remove the heel you will find sharp knife in one and in other there is a dagger which comes out only if the slide switch is up" I was surprised and took my legs back to the first position and stood up and came near him and he continued "you are wearing a professional dress, a light blue shirt which has bullet proof vest specially designed and A cut skirt which I flexible so even if you want to kick someone you can do it flexibly and you are red lipstick which makes you look sexy yet professional and you're are wearing foxtret watch to show everyone that you are not the someone they can mess with, yet..." I thought that it was going to be a complain but "yet you are beautiful and have soft skin which makes you a real woman" he controlled his laugh but I couldn't and said "But you have not changed a bit, and what with the shareholders meeting?" he looked at me and patted my head and he was saying "I am going to announce you as my heir and I want you you to tell them your identity in mafia as they belong from the underworld and don't worry they won't spread this and I am... " I was waiting for him to continue his sentence when secretary Annie came and said from outside "Boss, the shareholders are waiting" he went to the door and said as he stretched his hand "are you ready? " I smirked and took his hand and replied "I was born ready". I entered the meeting room where I could recognize everyone, I could feel their surprise and shockness and as Adonis said while we were sitting "she is Roseline Monique, my heir and successor of Monique" and that was everyone came up with sea of question and Adonis looking at me and left everything at my hand. "Misters, may I know why I am capable of being the successor and heir of Monique?" when I questioned this there was Mr. Ginger Ale asking "because we don't know you? " I stood up and replied while smirking " I am Roseline Monique, and I am Roseline the boss of White Tiger gang" they all were mouth shutted like someone just slapped them on their mouth when Mr. Gilbert Gooper asked "how can we believe that you are the boss of White Tigers? " and them everyone supported him and I sat down and crossed my legs and says while giving an evil "how dare a bunch of rabbits ask me?? Don't You Dare To Exceed Your Limits" and that is when everyone stood up and bowed towards me while saying "please forgive us white tigress, we don't dare to question the tigress" I looked at Adonis as he asked "how many vote for her to become the heir and successor of Monique?" and there was no person who didn't took their hands and it was quite fun seeing them trembling of fear when Adonis signed me that he had to tell me something so I said after sighing "alright I forgive you but Don't ever try to exceed your limits" the sentence sounded quite enough to warn them. I walked out when Adonis led me to his room and said " Lina, I... " I knew that it was something sad so I said "late is better than never" he smiled and said "I am going to die within 2 months and so, I will announce you as my heir after 1 month" I felt heartbroken but not allowed to show it so it got graved inside a very deep part of my heart and left that place saying "goodbye then". As I went outside the place, my men opened the door of the car and Charlie said "Boss, the meeting is set as you said, shall I?" "no Charlie, don't you know don't keep your guests waiting" he smiled and nodded and started to start his work, Charlie was one of my loyal men and also in his own will became my assistant. He only mentioned me as boss in the public, but the thing that was important now was the 'MEETING'.