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“Argh! Selena, I’m going to kill you!”

“……!”

I opened my eyes at the sound which was heard as if an enormous lion roared from afar.

‘What?’

I saw the ceiling for the first time, the wallpaper for the first time, and the furnishings for the first time.

‘It looks tacky……’

I was perplexed by the strange interior of the western vintage style at the time.

The door sprang open, and a westerner disguised as a maid dashed inside.

“My Lady! Hide away in the closet! Come on, let’s go!”

The maid dragged me out of bed without waiting for me to be shocked.

“Come on, let’s go! Come on, hide Lady Shannon is so furious that she has come here right now!”

Shannon?

‘I believe I’ve heard that name before.’

Where did I hear that?

“Commander Crawford hasn’t returned yet! Come on,my Lady……..!”

Commander Crawford? It was also a familiar name.

“Argh!”

The maid was thrown out.

Then, all of a sudden, a stunning blonde beauty appeared.

‘Wow, she’s pretty. She looks like a princess.’

While I was admiring her, she strode up and gazed down at me.

“You worthless scumbag, bitch!”

“……What?”

“You’re the reason I won’t be able to attend the banquet!”

The blonde beauty… no, the blonde thug yanked my hair.

“Who are you? What are you……? Argh!”

The blonde thug gripped my head and shook it like a tambourine.

‘What is this? Is this a dream?’

But my scalp hurt so badly for it to be a dream.

Dumbfounded, I came to my senses at the next line of the blonde thug’s rant.

“Why did a stutterer like you receive an invitation? What a jerk!”

Shannon.

Crawford.

And…

‘Stutterer.’

I recognized this as I glanced up blankly at the blonde thug’s *** face.

‘Oh, my God.’

No way! Don’t tell me!

I seem to be possessed by a 19-rate novel……….!

***

As a fresh graduate of the Department of Theater and Film, I bought a book on impulse ahead of the audition.

A highly sensual, romantic novel.

The Tragical Story and Obsessive Man.

All of the keywords appeal to me.

※This novel contains a bloody and coercive relationship※

I also ignored the warning…

Because I’m occasionally drawn to this kind of storyline!

Expectations were increased by a red tag of 19 with a black and reddish cover.

However.

“Did you stitch your lips together? Why aren’t you responding to my question? I inquired whether The Grand Duke had seen you!”

“M-m-me, I don’t know. The Grand Duke, w-w-who, I’m not really……”

“You’ve been wagging your tail in front of him and now you dare to lie, hah?”

“Aah!”

Selina clasped the beaten cheek and fell flat on the ground.

.

Wouldn’t that be evident that the poor title was a problem?

Even if the genre is R-rated, as if eating sweet potatoes, the plot in the novel was too frustrating and depressing.

The main character was Selina Crawford, the Count’s daughter.

Selina, who lived without saying anything, was forced to marry the Male Lead, as if she were being sold, and the two of them began their 19-rate marriage life.

In the end of the story, Selina opens her heart to the Male Lead, but the ending leaves me wondering whether she is sad or happy……

‘I couldn’t read it any longer because it was so frustrating!’

As if the author was just interested in tormenting the Female Lead, she only put in frustrating scenes.

‘How did I end up in this type of novel?’

I wasn’t even curious to read the next part!

Half of me cursed while reading it, while the other half flipped it over in irritation.

‘There is no way I……  Because I left a bad review?’

I couldn’t keep reading it because it was just too frustrating, so that was the way I gave my appreciation to the author.

I wondered whether I was the only one who was agitated, but the person’s comment below mine was much more furious.

I couldn’t tolerate the villain’s character and behavior, whether her name was Shannon or Canyon, and Male Lead is too laidback, while Female Lead is too stiff and irritating.

I bought it since it was a series, but I regret it completely.

Despite the fact that I purchased it thinking it would be such a waste, I felt so frustrated during the reading.

The stepmother, Camilla, and the stepsister, Shannon.

‘Because of that wicked mother and daughter.’

Because the two had been constantly mistreating and tormenting Selina.

And now I…… I became Selina?

“Lady Shannon is so mean. How did she get this fine hair so……”

I dashed to the front of the mirror, leaving the maid who had stroked my messy hair behind.

“Woah…”

‘So pretty!’

Shannon, the blonde thug, is also a beauty, but my appearance was at a level of tremendous beauty that would rule the country.

‘This insanely beautiful face.’

Green eyes that shine like a diamond in a beautiful almond shape!

The curling golden hair like angel wings, and the flawless skin was white and delicate.

My eyelashes were so long that when I blinked, they fluttered.

‘That’s why she’s the heroine.’

These fragile shoulders!

The slim waist!

This body looked like it would be quickly blown away by the wind.

I couldn’t take my gaze away from the mirror because of Selina’s stunning figures.

Oh, the main character is unique!

Because I was a newbie, I was constantly cast as an extra.

However, now, I live as the main character!

I can’t believe I’m the heroine!

The main character is a total douchebag who made me curse every night I read, but anyway…

“The main character is the greatest!”

I busted out laughing.

And from the mirror, I appeared extremely cute at that moment.

“I’m looking extremely beautiful today. Right?”

The maid inadvertently mumbled as she dropped her comb.

‘Oh, Shannon just yanked my hair out, didn’t she?’

I was concerned that she might find it weird, but the maid was taken aback for entirely other reasons.

“My lady…… My Lady didn’t stutter.”

The enchanted maid whispered something.

Selina did not stutter from the beginning.

Camilla humiliated Selina when her husband, Count Crawford, died, in order to strengthen her position.

Selina eventually began to stutter as a result of her anxiety of appearing in front of others.

She never stutters in the beginning.

That’s why the maid was taken aback.

“Please repeat it, My Lady. Please, just once more.”

The maid broke into tears.

‘She looked so thrilled.’

Selina, an aristocrat, was meant to be served by a maid, but she appeared to be one herself.

‘Why the heck am I dressed this way?’

I even almost cried when I saw myself in the mirror this way.

Who would believe such a lady is a noblewoman?

“Lady! You are The Count’s legitimate daughter! Why are you still suffering in this way?”

Selina was so irritated that she couldn’t speak out or assert her rights.

Not at all. Not even once.

I turned to the maid after looking at the clothing and being displeased with them.

“Penny?”

“Yes, yes!”

Penny is a commoner maid.

Penny was so kind as to be beaten to cover up for Selina when she was beaten. But Penny herself didn’t have much strength, because of her poor social position.

‘But she was the only one who didn’t get bought for a few bucks.’

All of the maids had worked together to assist the Countess in selling Selina to Male Lead, starting with dressed Selina, tying her up and loading her into the carriage, then sending her away as if shipping a package in a haste.

‘How dare they sell people out?’

Of course the worst was Camilla, the stepmother who arranged the forced marriage.

“Always be grateful since I raised you who I didn’t share a single drop of blood with and send you to a good marriage, Selina.”

“Oh, my God, my mother, m-m-me, uh, go get married, that thing.”

“Shh, do you know how much Grand Duke paid to take you? Go and entertain him. You have to pay for it.”

Though I was out of my mind in the sudden situation, I felt sick at the thought of Camilla. More than that, my entire body is aching, and my head, which had been pulled by Shannon, has been painful.

As my eyes sting, Penny flinched and retreated.

“My Lady……ar-are you okay?”

Looking back at the door, she seems to be thinking if she should call a doctor.

“I’m alright, though I have a headache .”

I stopped Penny and headed to bed calmly.

A tiny vial was seized in my fingers beneath the pillow just as I was going to lie down pretending to have a headache.

‘What is this?’

It was a brown reagent vial when I pulled it out. But it was empty without its contents.

The opening scene of \ flashed before my eyes like a video at the time.

‘Last night…Selina fell asleep after drinking this.’

A potion.

This was an expensive potion that Selina had spent all her money on.

‘She was going to drink this and die.’

(Original Translator's Note: 피폐물-tragical story is a genre of novel in which the protagonist goes crazy about the desperate circumstances around her. Due to wrong love, unreasonable family relationships, misunderstandings, etc., Female-Lead is constantly abused and suffering, and is driven into a mentally and physically hopeless situation.)

But she didn’t die.

In the original storyline, Selina regretted why she didn’t die and even avoided death.

Of course, I was aware of the cause.

“You changed the drug yesterday. Isn’t that right?”

“Gasp!”

Penny’s startled, her eyes wide open.

“I-I’m-I’m sorry, My Lady!”

Knowing my changed mood, Penny knelt down and bowed her head.

“But I couldn’t pretend not to know, at the thought of the late Countess, your dead mother.”

I gazed around the dingy bedroom, letting the tiny weeping Penny behind.

Mold, rat hole……

‘Whew.’

AD

The sobbing cries of Penny matched the gloomy atmosphere very well.

“I’m really sorry, My Lady…… but you can’t just leave in vain……”

“That drug you replaced gives me a headache and I just remember it, what drug was it?”

“What!? It couldn’t be…… it was simply a sleeping drug you used to take! I’m telling you the truth, My Lady!”

Penny gave me back the drug vial she had hidden.

This was the real potion. The eternal rest potion.

I looked with a suspicious gaze at the small vial..

“Didn’t you take money from my mother, and give me a hallucinogen that manipulates my memory?”

“My Lady!”

Penny shook her head almost screaming and insisted on her innocence.

“No! I really didn’t do that!

“But you did get paid, right?”

Penny looked as if she had wronged.

“Well, I did get paid but I gave it all to you……”

It was the truth. Penny did get paid and gave all that money to Selina. She didn’t even take a penny from that.

‘The lady who uses money from her maid. As expected, the story indeed is ridiculous.’

But Penny’s situation wasn’t good either. She has three sick brothers starving at her home.

I felt sorry for bothering Penny for a moment, so I decided to give her a reward.

“I will help you treat your brothers from now on.”

“What?”

“But you need to help me, too.”

“What do you want me to help you with? I’ll always……”

“First of all, how old am I now? I can’t remember well because of the drug you gave me.”

“That’s weird…… It was a real sleeping drug. Is it because the dose was too much?”

Penny scratched her head in confusion.

“Can you tell me how old I am?”

“You’re 18 years old, My Lady.”

Penny’s brow was slightly furrowed.

She seems concerned about my condition.

‘This is the start of the plot line.’

A moment in which Selina opens her eyes after attempting suicide but failing.

‘So the invitation Shanon going rampage about is……’

The Queen’s Birthday Banquet!

That’s where Selina’s first meeting with a fucking guy called the ‘Male Lead’ takes place.

‘Yes, Male Lead, get lost.’

I didn’t like the fact that he was the Male Lead.

If I had to explain why, one hand wouldn’t be enough.

The first reason was that he was older. He was six years older than Selina.

The second reason was his disturbed lower limbs, and he already had a lot of ladies. I suspected he had sexually transmitted diseases.

The third reason was that he believed himself as the greatest man in society, but he’s simply too bad for me.

The fourth reason was that he was overly kind to Camilla and Shannon (ㅗ).

(Note: ㅗ middle finger)

The sixth reason was because of how he treated Selina, with his bottom and tongue.

And the sixth, and most crucial, reason was that he was such a jerk.

The Male Lead, who spoke to Selina informally from the start, was a sucker who felt he had better taste than the rest.

In a nutshell, he’s a jerk who shouldn’t be in a relationship!

‘But I have to go to the banquet.’

Is the Empress’s birthday banquet the only way I can get a man?

‘In any case, I’m well-versed in this.’

All I have to do is stay away from him.

“Shannon mentioned an invitation from the Imperial Family, right?”

“What? Yes, indeed! It’s been six months since the Capital……”

Penny’s eyes were filled with curiosity at the moment.

“How did you find out?”

“I heard Shannon yelling.”

“Will you……be going?”

“Yeah.”

Penny was taken aback by my nonchalant reply.

“But I thought you hate to attend the banquet, My Lady.”

That’s because Camilla asked Selina to attend the banquet so she could be disgracing Selina in front of others.

Who wants to dress in disgracefully shoddy clothing and become a one-sided laughingstock while failing to get along with others?

Selina, on the other hand, originally timid and too self-conscious.

“I changed my mind. I’m thinking of going to enjoy the banquet now.”

“What? Oh, my God, someone who usually despises leaving the bedroom……”

“Pe-people look-looking at me, I-I hate it.”

“You’re beautiful. That’s why everyone is looking at you. They are talking to you because they want to be close to you.”

“Oh, my mother has said it all. I… I’m, speak, stutter at speaking.”

“My Lady, I think something’s changed.”

“Really?”

“Yes, you somehow really changed…..a lot……”

Of course, because I’m not Selina.

“I’m simply trying to enjoy my life to the fullest. In any case, you saved my life. Thank you very much.”

Penny stared at the empty vial, then back at me.

She appeared to believe I had changed my mind about suicide thoughts.

“So…… what are you planning to wear to the banquet, My Lady?”

“Do you believe there are things in my closet for me to wear to that banquet?”

Penny gently shook her head.

Selina, who was reluctant to go out, didn’t even have a banquet gown.

“Good. I’ll start by going to the boutique. Request the butler to prepare the family carriage.”

The imperial dinner was still a long way off, but I needed to prepare for it.

“But the butler accompanied the Countess to the hunting grounds.”

Righ. Camilla’s favorite hobby was hunting. She spent almost half a month in the hunting ground.

AD

“Then you have the option of bringing the servant or the horseman.”

Penny stopped as she exited my room, nodding doubtfully.

“Lady, you don’t stutter at all anymore……?”

She didn’t seem to be able to adjust because I had entirely changed.

“Do you want me to live a stuffy life like I used to, unable to look people in the eyes and unable to say anything?”

“Oh, no!”

“Then get me a carriage.”

“Yes!”

White dust erupted from the area where Penny rushed out, and old curtains flapped.

I realized that this world existed and was real.

One by one, that awful horror story about the Male Lead started to integrate to memory.

“It is your responsibility, Selina, to satisfy me. A woman who doesn’t know where she belongs isn’t entertaining.”

“You’ll have to look at it carefully.”

The Grand Duke held his wife’s head in one hand and forced her gaze to turn to the stadium.

“Because I’ll put the one you like among them as your escort.”

A Martial Arts Championship for Toonos.

A kind of sport in which aristocrats enjoyed as entertainment where the thousands of Toonos risked their lives until one winner came out, and participants clothed in old white Toono uniforms were either killed or injured.

A place where people were dragged out with bright red blood stains was seen.

“I-I couldn’t see anything, ugh.”

“Hasn’t it been long enough for you to get used to that?”

“Urgh.”

“You always vomit when you see this.”

When Selina couldn’t get her nausea under control, he clicked his tongue as if he wanted her to hear it.

“You’re not even pregnant yet. What’s wrong with you? Do you know that every time you do that, I get excited? You’re not pregnant yet, aren’t you?”

“Oh, no, ah……not yet…”

“I’m joking. Don’t tell me that you really think that I don’t know? You’re cute.”

He spun the glass of dark crimson wine around and around, letting go of her jaw, which he had grabbed with a thud.

“My wife is too soft-hearted.”

As he turned to face the stadium, a guy in a blue priest’s robe hurried forward to commence his prayers.

Then, as if by magic, that Toono player’s blood stopped flowing.

There were numerous cases in the story of \ where the Male Lead pushed Selina to like what she despised.

When I read it, I remember cursing him and screaming.

‘This son of a bitch.’

Selina’s miserable life played out in front of my eyes like a movie.

Abuse, exploitation, defamation, mistreatment, imprisonment, abduction, and torture……

‘That’s insane! there’s no way I could live like that!’

To live comfortably as the main character of this poor story, I need a clear strategy.

I picked up a letter that was rolling around on the table in search of an empty sheet of paper. After that, spread out the clean area of the back of the paper and ink the pen.

“The first thing I should do is……”

Not to be seen by the Male Lead.

Given what Selina had gone through as a result of her pregnancy with the Male Lead, the Male Lead was viewed as a villain.

‘I’ll be half successful if I could just avoid him.’

I haven’t met him yet, but…… My stepmother will do everything she can to sell me to the Grand Duke.

Or she’ll sell me to another man who will give her money.

So that brings the plan to number two.

Chasing out Camilla.

Camilla is a good example of a malicious stepmother.

Abuse, mistreatment, and finally sell her stepdaughter!

I’ll feel satisfied only when Camilla leaves this house.

But it will never be simple to dismiss a vicious boss who has money, personal connections, and even family ties.

Selina had no one on her side since she was so introverted and passive. Penny is her best case scenario.

To dismiss Camilla, I need a credible reason and witnesses on my side.

So here we are at number three.

Make my people

‘Ha, this is the most difficult one.’

It was a challenging task that required a high level of political expertise to develop a strong side for me while weakening Camilla’s reputation and strengthening my credibility.

Now since I don’t have any connections, it’s like a bare-handed header, but I had an excellent weapon. The face of the female lead!

‘The only thing I can trust is this face.’

My pen suddenly stopped moving as I was scribbling down the specifics of where and how to proceed.

‘A navy blue background with a white cross pattern.’

As I glanced over the paper I was writing on, I noticed some lovely handwriting.

“From the Light Monastery.”

This letter was originally written in the capital and circulates once a year to bring good fortune to the recipient……

In summary, it was claimed that volunteering at the monastery will bring them good fortune.

The noble women appeared to have received a formal letter.

‘Good, let’s start here!’

* * * * *

My appearance attracted everyone’s attention. The majority of them had never seen Selina’s face.

‘Since when has she been out?’

I felt like a zoo monkey every time the servants stared at me.

“This is Lord Spencer, Lady.”

I cast a peek to Penny’s side. A tall man was standing beside her.

“He is the youngest person to ever be promoted. According to the knights, he is a candidate for the next Commander. He looks to be well worth it, doesn’t he?”

I recognized him after hearing Penny’s explanation.

‘William Spencer.’

He serves as the Count’s knight.

The one from the family that has for centuries served as the commander of Count Crawford’s knights.

Within the Imperial family, there were five knight forces, including the Count’s knight force, known as the White Eagle Knights.

“This man couldn’t take his gaze away from my lady. Do you want me to bring you a hat, my lady? It troubles you, doesn’t it?”

“No, it’s okay.”

William didn’t take his gaze away from me, even though he knew he was being impolite to me, whom he was meeting for the first time.

His face was filled with a mix of curiosity and friendliness, as well as unusual thoughts.

‘He looks like a handsome husky.’

His solemn expression was that of a husky.

“All right, let’s go.”

I hopped into the carriage, smiling and laughing as I took my gaze away from him.

* * * * *

I picked a dark purple dress from the boutique.

“My lady doesn’t even require a fitting.”

The dress I took from the mannequin was a perfect fit for me.

It was a well-known setting for a romance story novel’s main character.

“Would you like to take it right away, my Lady?”

“I will do that.”

Nodding, the designer carefully wrapped the dress and loaded it onto the carriage.

“Come to the Countdom tomorrow morning to pick up the payment money.”

When she caught sight of the Count’s pattern on the carriage, she instantly nodded.

“Yes, yes. Alright.”

Normally, the aristocracy summons the designer to the estate and instructs him to take measurements, designs, and others, but……

‘I don’t have time.’

Even after I returned to the mansion, the servants’ eyes remained focused on my every movement.

Everyone seemed to be taken aback by the Count’s lady’s appearance.

I put on the dress and examined the accessories that were provided.

‘What will go with this dress?’

They were all petty, and there weren’t many options, so there wasn’t much to do.

I opened the curtains and glanced out the window after roughly selecting a necklace and stripping my dress.

‘It’s time for him to arrive.’

The servants, indeed, began to assemble outside.

“Lady, the Commander has returned!”

Penny hurried in and made her announcement.

I opened my eyes wide, as if I didn’t know what was going on.

“My uncle?”

“Yes!”

Cedric Crawford.

My uncle, the White Eagle Knights’ commander, who is still unmarried.

The servants formed a line to welcome his safe arrival.

“He’s later than he said he’d be, my Lady. I guess the bandits are still going rampage out there.”

“How much time has passed since then?”

“It’s been three months. The commander will be surprised to see my lady speak so fluently.”

Penny seems enthusiastic to show to him that I was no longer stuttering.

“Won’t you welcome the Commander, my Lady?”

The idea had crossed my head, but I was too tired to act on it.

“I will be there and greet him tomorrow.”

Selina was not even close to her uncle.

“But you haven’t seen him in a long time. How pleased would the Commander be if you went out and welcomed him?”

Penny would not have said it if Selina had been her normal self.

“Shannon will accompany him. I’m going to take a rest today.”

Penny sighed and looked out the window.

‘Shannon will be quiet for a while now that my uncle has arrived.’

However, he was a person who was going to leave again for a variety of reasons, such as inspection, territory management, training, and so on.

‘Camilla will be returning soon……’

I had had enough of this and that, so I went to bed early.