My anxiety is attacking me again. My heart beats rapidly, please not now. "Ok settle everybody" Ms. Clare stated into the class as every student of Class B is going back to their chairs after they had fun with their friends and tropapips. "Welcome to the school year 2017-2018!" She welcomed lightheartedly. "For this year, I'm your adviser Ms. Clare Dela Fuente, and your teacher in the subject of Creative writing and Philippine politics and government" she stated. As every word mumbled thru out of her lips, I kept picking my dead skin around my nails, until I got the attention of the new student standing beside me. "Uhm hey! I know you have anxiety, but try to calm down, everything will be alright, trust me" he said. I was too shocked to say a word because that's the first time that someone said that to me. Yes, I get everyone's attention when I'm having an anxiety attack, but all I hear from them was "you're acting up again" and you know what hurts the most, is that your parents act as they don't care about my mental health. I never wanted this kind of illness, I never did. I lost control of my mind and spaced out until Ms. Clare declared my name in a loud worried voice. "Ms. Gomez", "it's time for you to say hi to your classmates," she said and put on a smile."H-hi!" I stuttered, then this bully started laughing and said "our new classmate seems to have speech disorder!", "Hey! Yuno, that's not nice!" A girl sitting on the right side of the window said. I could not say anything but I just looked down and continued. "I am Louise Isabella Andrea Gomez, you can call me Lia for short, I'm from St. Paul College in Humss strand, thank you" I ended my introductory looking down. I sat in second to the last seat in the right corner. This "Yuno guy" is sitting right at my back! The next one who introduced was the caring guy earlier, he introduced..."Good morning, I'm Samuel Evans Ramos, I'm 17 years old from Cape Breton University in Sydney Canada, and I aim to take BS in psychology in the near future". Wow, I remembered when I was 5, there was this kid who also named Samuel Evans. He was so gusgusin that time, but I had a massive crush on him because he was so innocent and-"Ms. Clare, I feel like Lia fell for Samuel at first sight" he teased. "No, I don-" I stopped, I know. I know even if I try to explain I'll always be at fault. "Yuno, would you like to tell something about yourself?" Ms. Clare said with an evil smile. I hope he claims himself that he's a big bully. He cleared his throat and walk towards Samuel, and muttered "Get out""I am Yuno Liam Miller, 17 years of age, and uhm I'm the most pogi guy in here..." he stopped waiting for someone to laugh, I thought that it was funny that no one responded to that word context, so I accidentally giggled. He looked thru me, I feel like he's scanning me, it's like he's reading thru the deepest layer of my bones. "Ok, I aim to be a lawyer to stand up for the people who get framed for the things that they never did, and of course, as a lawyer, I would fight for my girl" he finished. To be honest, after what he said I feel like he's a nice guy after all, but the monster inside of him couldn't hide at all. 

*lunch*

"so hey!" Yuno waved and walked towards me, I didn't say anything cause he might bully me or say something not nice to me. I mean, I can't please all of the people that I meet or pass by but I just don't wanna hear ungrateful things from them. "Why's your skin kinda blue?" he asked, taking his seat in front of my bacon and cheese. "Are you possibly an alien?" he laughed, I took my cafeteria food and tried to leave. "Sit." he said, "what? are you gonna say mean things to me? I have congenital heart disease, that's why my skin is blue" I said, making things clear. Did I want my skin to be like this? For Pete's sake, I just wanted to feel normal, but these ungrateful brats keep being mean to me. What did I do to deserve this?..

"Just cure it, I guess," he said slowly, not probably thinking about his next move. This biatch is getting on my nerves... "How can you be a good lawyer if you can't discipline your frisky tongue?" I voiced so done with him, I don't want his company or anything with him. Just to think of it, you want to be a lawyer to let the people abide by the law that was stated in the republic, but you can't control your own inner monsters? What kind of lawyer would he possibly be! "Hey! It's just a joke, don't tell me you still act childish" he answered back, please Lord help me to not make patol of this jerk. "If I make a hole in your heart-" he interrupted and said while biting his lower lip, "make me". 

days had passed I made friends with almost everyone at school, including Yuno... But, I'm not sure if his mind is stable. you know, sometimes he acts like a gangster running around the campus, sometimes he's kind and cheerful, but there are a lot of times that he's more like of a beast Imma say. So Ms. Clare grouped us into 3, and we have to choose the speaker for the debate on the theme of the Revisal Penal Code-Anti rape Law of 1997. "Hey, there friends!" Yuno said waving his hands towards us, "muka mo friends" I mumbled, "ay pilosopo kang Lia ka" he talked back. "What now, magdadaldalan nalang ba kayo?" Samuel said, and opened the book on page 568, I just kept quiet because di ko pa rin gamay attitude ni Samuel, there's something off about him but I can't find any of it.  "Ayy right, I remembered nung first day, diba Yuno wants to be a lawyer, say nalang speaker" I suggested. "Ano ka masyadong lucky? Ikaw na" Yuno replied, and wtf?! Me... I stutter in front of crowds, I don't know too if when and where mag anxiety attack ako. Uhm Samuel... "Lia" Samuel said calmly in a sweet voice, "I know you're thinking of passing the responsibility to me... But, you stutter right? You have to practice your communication skills, fear does nothing but dig you deeper. And if ever you caught by anxiety attacks always remember that you have my back" he said... I was speechless again, how can he calm me in the middle of the responsibility... But it's true, fear does nothing, each of us needs to face our own fears, even everyone in this room is in fear of making a mistake. "You two are done? My eyes are so sick of seeing you two being so sweet to each other, Lia's sparkling eyes, Samuel's sweet and caring words of wisdom... YOU TWO GET THE WORK DONE!!!" he screamed on top of his lungs. What the hell is wrong with him? He was just reassuring me... Fine, I'll do it. I read "Section 1. Short Title. – This Act shall be known as "The Anti-Rape Law of 1997." Sec. 2. Rape as a Crime Against Persons. – The crime of rape shall hereafter be classified as a Crime Against Persons under Title Eight of Act No. 3815, as amended, otherwise known as the Revised Penal Code. Accordingly, there shall be incorporated into Title Eight of the same Code a new chapter to be known as Chapter Three on Rape", I sighed. Samuel placed his hands on my back encouraging me to go on and do not stop. Yuno got so mad and dropped the book in a loud bang. "Yuno! If you can't respect the contents of the book, at least respect the room that you're in!" Ms. Clare said, what is wrong with him???? Yea, whenever I'm with Samuel he gets so frustrated and always leaves. He had gone to the bathroom in a mad guy walk, I wanted to always follow him, but the thing is that Samuel always stops me from going to Yuno. Sometimes I feel like I'm being played by these two guys, and that made me more frustrated. Ammy, her childhood girl best friend always follows him to the bathroom. I wonder what bathroom they're going to, the restroom on the 2nd floor was separated into girls and boys... But the ground floor isn't. The bell rang as our debate didn't get to finish because of a lack of time. I hurried to the restroom as fast as I could. But, I remembered I can't run, so I'll just walk fast and find out what company he is hiding. As I reached the restroom on the ground floor, I saw the door closed, so I tried opening it. Luckily, I opened it without making a sound. When I entered the restroom, all I heard was a moan of a girl going, "ughhhhh~" feeling it inside of her bones, she even said "faster faster", then moaned again. What the fu*k is this place? Does the teacher know that this kababuyan existed in their school?! Omygod!!! Lord, please forgive them for doing this... Wait, did they use condoms- "ughhh f*ck Yuno go faster"...

Yuno?!!! w-h-a-t-t-h-e-f-v-c-k!!!! What the hell is happening to him!! Oh, Pete's sake!! As I can't believe what I'm hearing I stumbled upon cabinetry like a shelf, in just a blink the dipper fell into the ground, making them alarmed that I came in and heard their foolishness. I froze, didn't tried to make a move. Yuno saw me standing straight and shocked, realizing that I caught him fcking Ammy in 4k. He saw me as he zipped his pants, and gave me that worried look. While Ammy was just standing in the cubicle and popped her bubblegum. "You-you should zip your pen*s too" I mumbled and tried to get out as fast as I could. But, I bumped into Samuel's chest and he said, "that's why I'm stopping you to go", he covered me with the Adidas jacket that he owns, and get the shit out of me. We headed to the cafeteria, and he bought me a strawberry drink which is my fav. I still couldn't say anything from finding out that Ammy and Yuno are-

Samuel suddenly pat my head and said, "forget about what you saw and heard earlier". I just nodded. 

sun poured thru my window. Another day had dawned, bringing with it new hopes and aspirations. The light of dawn seeped into my room. I rubbed my bleary eyes and walked to the window. There was a pearly glow in the sky. The dawn of chorus of melodic birdsong drifted in. As I walked into the door of my room, I heard my phone rang which I forgot to take out in my bag. If you wonder, I don't usually use a phone inside my house, why? I have chronic heart disease, right? I don't want to develop any diseases any further. Venice's voice started out very faint but grew louder as she approached. "Hey!! You never told me that you fcked Yuno yesterday!", it's a beautiful morning then what kind of news is this?! "Uhm, what?!!" I said, "you and Yuno, did something yesterday right?" She asked. "Did what?" I questioned too, I scratched my head and gave my stepbrother a dazed look of bewilderment. "You had sex with him..." Venice answered. "WHAT?!!!" I yelled, leaving no silence behind. "THAT WAS AMMY, NOT ME! I'M A FVCKING ****** FOR CHRISSAKE!!!" I yelled again out of anger, again I gave my stepbrother a face contorted with rage. What the fvck! I never had sex with Yuno!! That was Ammy... Did someone just mistake me for being an fvck girl? I didn't even know the word "sex" up until I was 12, then this... Oh, God.

I walked thru the hallways of the school, self-conscious of my appearance as always. I'm thinking of the kids staring and laughing inside of themselves, as I faced shame in the pillars of the school. I feel the embarrassment, and humiliation,  they're staring at me with dishonor. What will they think about me now... It will affect my grades for sure...

The blood pounded in my ears. My heart thudded in my chest. My hands shook. My feet tingled. My vision was disfigured as if I were looking thru a  fish-eye lens. I have to get away. I can't stay in the hallways any longer. I couldn't look at it. All I can think of is that I have to get away. But my nerves calmed away, as I felt a human touch covering half of my body... I am enchanted to meet you, Samuel. I know it's you...

"It's gonna be alright" I was too stunned to speak, it's not Samuel... Why did he save me??? After all the mess he had caused?! But I don't have enough time to think about this. "Yuno" I mumbled... "Don't talk, for now, rest in my arms and I'll head you to the infirmary" he whispered satisfyingly in my ears. It tickles to my very bones and cells... My vision goes much more disfigured, but I can see the stance that Samuel holds...

I woke up to the pungent smell of nurse disinfecting, invading my nostrils.  I slowly opened my eyes, squinting in an attempt to sharpen the blurred images before me. How long have I been here? I shut my eyes, trying to remember what had exactly happened. Then it all hits me with a bang. The memory of it all starts to occupy my thoughts. Who brought me here? Out of impulse, my hand travels to my face, pressing the throbbing area on my right temple. I felt a scar and flinched at the pain. I tried to get up. Once I stepped on the cold, white tiles, I instantly fell back onto the bed. My body, engulfed in pain as if objecting to my decision to stand up. I lay there pathetically, waiting for the pain to wash away. Staring at the ceiling, illuminated with white fluorescent light. Perhaps waiting for some help from the hospital staff. I still didn't know how I got here, who took me here, how long I'd been here.

Oh, Yuno... I smiled, I'm proud of him, after I mistook of fxking up with him, he cared. After all, he cared. And that's what I care all about. I was starring into the sea of white when I heard a loud bang inside the infirmary. "WHAT DID YOU SAY ABOUT LIA?!" Yuno yelled, I was eavesdropping on their fight when I felt a little pang of guilt... They wouldn't be fighting if I didn't transfer here... "You don't care about her, do you?" Ammy asked, sounding all jealous. "ARE YOU FCKING DUMB?! YES, I CARE ABOUT HER EVER SINCE I SAW HER TREMBLING AS I DID 5 YRS AGO!!!" Yuno yelled in anger again, my eyes are all teary now... After all the bullying he did to me, he still cared- "but you love me more than her" Ammy rest reassured, "NO! I ONLY USE YOU! AND I APOLOGIZE! The only reason why I used you is that I-I'm jealous of Samuel!! In short, you're just my rebound!!" He frowned and hit Ammy straight in the face... I heard Ammy crying, "I am your childhood girl best friend! I stayed longer than she did!" She exclaimed. "I see nothing in you, you just want my parent's money, I'm sorry but I don't see fireflies in your smiles tho you're my gbf, it doesn't matter if you stayed longer or not. The main problem here is my feelings about her!! Now get out of my face, before I throw another punch in your face!!" He yelled. "Yu-uno likes me?" I whispered not knowing that Samuel was standing at my back. "I like you too" Samuel whispered...

What in the hell...