Note: Chapter 1 is pretty long of about 60 pages so this is divided into 10 making 1 chapter is 6 pages long.

Nothing is more cruel than making the world full of false hopes.

Perhaps, just in case, such a mind instantly lifts a person to the top of the sky and sinks him deep into the ground.

I think love is the most damaging thing among the heart diseases.

If I were to pick one out of them, it would be one-sided love.

“Oops, oops, oops…!”

“Princess… Please don’t cry… What?”

She pulls the pillow while she’s tearing it out, buries her face, and cries. She is Estella de Rieff Messian. The king’s only child and the only princess in the Messianic kingdom.

The princess, who had no choice but to be immature because of the king’s deep affection and the love of the people, had everything she wanted, and the world had her head big.

But… Why is she crying so sad when she has everything?

There was a good reason for Estella to make such a scene. This is because her passionate crush for five years ended today. Her crush was going to get married.

At 13 years old, Izak Mondis, the successor of Mondis Duchary, whom she met for the first time at the academy banquet. He has a beautiful appearance, tall height, broad shoulders to hug, and a husky voice. Izak was everyone’s ideal type.

On the first day when she saw him, Estella told the maids that she felt something really fateful.

“The moment I saw Izak, a bolt of lightning came down in the clear sky and passed through the top of my head.”

“Hey, princess. You’re too much.”

“Oh, I’m telling you! I’m telling you!”

Estella’s heart beat hard when her eyes met with Izak. She couldn’t do anything and she felt like her heart was going to come out. It was like hearing a bell from somewhere.

She was out of her mind for a while because she felt something had gone through her spine.

From that day on, at the age of 13, Estella had a passionate crush on Izak. Estella’s heart was sincere to dismiss it as a child’s puppy love. She couldn’t help it because her heart beat for him heavily.

She always attends every banquet he says he is going to, takes courses she was not interested with in order to see him at the academy, writes letters, etc. She did everything she could at a shy young age. When she talked to Izak, her face turned red as if it would explode.

The princess always imagined her future with him. Having kids with him, being a happy couple! And… a Romantic marriage!

A year after she began her unrequited love, Estella visited King Benjamin and said it was not just a New Year’s greeting but a marriage permission.

“Father! I want to marry the heir of that man.”

His beloved daughter says this anxiously, would he not listen to her? With such a feeling, Estella clung to her father.

“I’m totally in love. Can you grant it?”

“…Estella, do you mean Izak?”

“Of course! Who else is there?”

King Benjamin grumbled and swept his beard away. He continued, muttering, “This child is like her mother.”

“My dear Estella. I’m sorry, but I can’t do that.”

“Why? What? Why?”

of the Duke of Bertrand.”

*Kwang! Kwang!*

Estella turned her head and looked at the window, startled by the thunder. The weather was still sunny and sunny. Only then did she realize that the thunder was heard only by herself. Is this the shock of a broken heart?

At the age of 15, Estella lies down with the news that her crush is her cousin’s fiance.

When her only daughter was sick, King Benjamin called all kinds of doctors to see and treat her, but the answer seemed to be one thing. It was a mental illness. Of all the many diseases, it’s just a lovesickness. Estella became sick like a dying flower because of love.

Estella was his only child, so she was very precious to King Benjamin. The only child between his beloved queen. Estella, who resembles the deceased queen,was the king’s greatest weakness.

In the end, the king summoned the Duke of Bertrand.

“Grand Prince Bertrand, see you, Your Highness.”

“Ha ha, Bertrand. How have you been? Make yourself at home.”

“I’m just thankful that you’re here after a long time. But what brings me….”

“Oh, that’s it. As you know, our Estella is sick right now.”

“Yes, I heard from you. The princess has a mysterious disease, so should I look for a foreign drug?”

The king shook his hand, saying, “You don’t have to do that.” In fact, Estella’s treatment of the disease was very simple, he was just embarrassed to say it.

“I’d like to ask you a shameful favor.”

“What is it?”

“Actually, Estella… She loves this guy so much. But when she found out that he was engaged, she became lovesick.”

“Oh, my…”

“I won’t say anything shameless about engagement. But can you postpone the wedding even for a few years? In the meantime, I’ll introduce you to another man to my Estella.”

“Oh, don’t worry, brother. Originally, both weddings were supposed to be held after the coming-of-age ceremony. I’m more worried about her being sick than that.”

“Thanks.”

The king asked with a sorry face. The Grand Duke of Bertrand readily accepted that he would do so, saying, “Don’t be sorry at all.”

Estella, who was stuck in my room and used to live in my bed as usual. The king, who visited her, spoke in a friendly voice.

“Hey, it’s Estella. I have good news.”

“What is it…”

“Izak’s wedding has been postponed.”

“…Really? Why?”

Estella’s eyes, which had been struggling like a sick chicken, sparkled. The king continued by adding a little more lies.

“Well, maybe discord is the reason.”

“Well, maybe your relationship will stop at engagement?”

“I suppose so.”

“Wow!”

At the age of 15, Estella had that hope. He was sorry that it’s a vain hope, but not knowing it, she returned to her usual Estella after that day.

And when she turned 16, Izak went to war. Estella doesn’t know how anxious she was at that time. Estella prays to all kinds of gods every night while shaking the essence. Her fiancee, Lily Bertrand, enjoys a leisurely shopping spree.

When Estella was 18 years old, Estella shed tears of relief as Izak returned from winning the battlefield as the successor of Mondis Duchary. At the banquet, she gave congratulations on his return to life, and Izak gave Estella a friendly smile, saying thank you.

In fact, Lily, her fiancee, smiled and drank with other young people, and Izak looked at Lily for a moment and continued to talk to Estella again.

Perhaps the rumors of discord were true. Estella’s hope for the man who did not get married even after the coming-of-age ceremony burned like fire.

“I had so much hope, but he ended up marrying Lily! Weren’t you in a bad relationship?! I can’t even speak properly…!”

But Izak, to his heart’s content, proposed to Lily Bertrand the year he returned from the war. Lily Bertrand naturally accepted the proposal, and now tomorrow is their wedding.

And in the end, tomorrow came.

The place where the wedding ceremony was held was a huge castle of Mondis Duchary.

Two happy-looking people hold hands and recite the couple’s vows. Izak kissed Lily on the forehead with a friendly face. Estella looked blankly at the scene. She thought she would shed tears and make all kinds of indecent acts when she went to the wedding hall, but she felt unexpectedly calm.

Did she cry too much and got dehydrated? Estella felt her stomach getting worse and worse.

‘Ugh… I feel like throwing up. Is it because it’s an empty stomach??’

As the nausea came up, Estella slipped down from her seat and left the ceremony. Estella, who was hovering around the mansion until the ceremony was over, moved to a huge pond next to the castle.

Estella spent time still picking up pebbles and throwing them into the lake. Seeing that the band’s performance has begun, the ceremony seemed to have come to an ending. Estella woke up after practicing smiling and sending congratulatory messages.

Estella, turn back the clock!

Someone called her name. Estella, surprised, looked around, but there were no people. Then, bubbles of air came up from the pond.

“What is it?”

After doing it again, she heard someone splashing about whether they were inside. The curious Estella leaned unknowingly near the pond. She saw something in the water. At first glance, she thought of a human spirit.

“Oh, oh, oh!”

At the same time, she lost her center of gravity and stumbled and fell inside.

Splash!

Estella didn’t know how to swim. She never learned how to swim in the first place. Why did the guard leave the guard post at a time she was drowning? Stop floundering and save people! She screamed, but it was clear that her cries are probably obscured by the band’s music.

“Oh, I can’t believe I died at the wedding of my crush. What do you mean…’

Do you mean dog death? Estella sank further and further under such cold water.

“Gasp!”

Estella opened her eyes and breathed in. She can now breathe well after her nose was being blocked.

As soon as she opened her eyes, she thought, “Am I alive?” As I jumped out of her seat, she heard the nanny’s voice.

“Oh, my princess!”

“Nanny?”

The nanny wasn’t with me at the wedding. Did she bring her back to the palace? Who took herself out of the pond? Estella looked at the nanny with a puzzled look. The nanny held Estella’s hand and burst into tears.

“Oh, my God, how surprised this nanny was! Oh, my God! How dare you jump into the pond!”

“What? I didn’t mean to kill myself…Um? Nanny, look at me for a second.”

Estella held onto the face of the nanny, who was wiping away tears. Something feels strange.

“Why, why?”

“Why are you so old?”

I think you’ve aged at least 10 years. The wrinkles are deeper, and the voice is more like a grandmother.

The nanny flared at Estella’s words.

“What? You’re such a rotten apple!”

Even so, does it mean that her nanny grows old in just a few days? Estella looked surprised to see the nanny whose black hair began to gray. Just out of curiosity, Estella looked around.

Looking closely, this was not her room. It was not a colorful wallpaper or a canopy with lace strings, but a really monotonous room with minimal furniture left made up of dull red bean porridge colored monochrome wallpaper.

“Where am I? Was there a room like this in the palace?”

“What? What are you talking about? We’re here.”

As soon as the nanny was about to talk, the door opened wide and I heard footsteps.

There were two small heads peeking over the mattress. Estella narrowed her eyes to see what that was.

The two little children wriggled up on the bed and rushed into her arms.

“BUMP!”

The two little chilfren who ran to her cried and said.

“Mom!”

“Mom?”

Estella repeated the little ones’ words, doubting her ears.

These little children, mumbling with their tongues and small lips, rubbed her face while being within Estella’s arms.

“Mom! You’re not going to do it anymore, are you?”

“Hey, what are they talking about? Who’s the mom?”

Estella was frightened by the young people who just climbed up to her.

‘No, why were they calling me mom? I don’t remember giving birth.

I’m sure they’re from the Countess of Dorne, who is known for being rude and playful! How dare you not even recognize the princess.

I quickly took off the children and checked their faces.’

“…aren’t you countess Dorne’s kids? Who are you really guys?”

“Mom?”

They aren’t the kids I know of.

Whose children are so pretty, cute, and handsome?

Estella, who was struggling, didn’t realize that she had gained weight. She quickly regained her senses and pretended to be strict with the children.

“I’m not your mother. What do you mean? A princess who’s not married has no manners! Go to your mom.”

“Woong…”?”

Now, the children, who seemed to be about four or five years old, were surprised by Estella’s loud voice and rolled their big eyes, and soon began to pout their lips and cry.

“Princess, what’s wrong with you? What?”

The nanny next to her says, “When are you going to sit on the sidelines and why are you doing this now?”

Estella once again looked down at the children crawling into the product out of injustice. By the way, it looks familiar. He looks strangely like himself, and strangely….

I think I’ve seen this face somewhere..’

When I thought about it,

I heard a flying voice somewhere.

“You don’t want to see my son anymore? Ruth, Lucy. Come here to Daddy.”

The protagonist of the sarcastic voice looked at Estella with a sharp look as much as her voice. When he opened his arms and asked his father to come, the children escaped Estella’s arms and hugged him. Estella looked at him with a blank face.

“What’s wrong, mom? It’s as if I saw someone I couldn’t see.”

The man who said he was the father of the children and now tells himself he’s his wife,

“…Izak?”

It was the Izak Mon DS, whom Estella had a passionate crush on, and yet married Lily Bertrand.

Estella quickly rolled her head to understand the current situation.

The old nanny, the place I’ve never seen before, the two little boys who call me Mamang, the father, my child, his wife, and Izak who say things that I don’t know. What is this situation?

“Why are you here, no, where the hell are we?.”

Looking at Estella, who was confused, I frowned whether Izak was strange. His eyes look like she’s crazy, what’s wrong with her? It was that kind of look.

“Where are we?! Why, why are you calling me a wife, no. What about Lily?”