Note:

Hi guys.

I just wanted to say that this is my first novel. I hope you enjoy reading it. Sorry in advance for grammar issues (still learning). If you have any questions feel free to ask and I will be more than happy to answer them.

And that's it, let's get started.

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I woke up blinded by the rays of the sun that illuminated my room.

I tried to get up but felt more tired than ever. I knew I had to get up already.

Today, I am starting my third year of high school.

"Ughhh, I do not want to go to school! So depressing!"

I curled up with my blanket over and over and then looked out the window.

The weather was nice and the air passed over me. I could feel the summer coming to an end.

I started to get organized. I took a quick shower, got dressed and ate breakfast and without noticing ... it was already 8:00.

"Ah ... it's getting late ... I have to get going."

...

Going back to school brings back a lot of bad memories. Memories I want to forget.

Memories like love.

It's not easy to forget them. You're trying to act like nothing happened. As if that memory is just another fantasy of love. A fantasy that didn't go well.

"Noah! Hey Noah! What's up?" I heard a familiar voice behind me and immediately raised a small smile.

"Hi...Oliver..."

"You're alive!"

"What do you mean?"

"The whole vacation you didn't go out with friends, you didn't even send messages! I worried about you ..."

"I'm fine, sorry you had to worry. I didn't have time to send you text messages. I worked and had a lot  going on ... sorry. Anything new?"

"Dude, you missed so much! Where do I start ?!"

Oliver talked a lot. He told me all the rumors that are running right now between classmates and outside of it. As I expected from him, he knows everything.

"And I really thought he did it! But he said he did not so ..."

"And you really believe him?"

"I don't know..."

As we both laugh and walk around the school hallway, I come across some people I know. It was nice. For a moment there, I forgot about everything.

A lot of new people passed in front of me and for a second, I thought I saw someone. Someone familiar. Someone I hope to see. I turned quickly back. Looking around, trying my best. he is not here.

...

After a while, Oliver introduced me to some new students. Seeing him try to make everyone laugh, it was fun.

"Noah, this is Matthew. He's a new student and he will study with us in the same class."

Matthew? I turned to him quickly. It can't be.

Oliver stood next to this tall, handsome guy. Yes, this tall, handsome guy I remember. He hasn't changed at all. What is he doing here?

I could see him noticing me. Left without words. He, too, was surprised. Unexpected meeting, after two years, it was the first time I saw him since ...

"Noah...!"

My ears turned red as I heard his voice. What a nice voice. My whole body was shaking and feeling hot. My heart beat fast. It felt weird and different but familiar and good. Thoughts ran through my mind and the headaches were strong.

I missed you, Matthew.

... TO BE CONTINUED ...

What should I do? run? Talk to him?

I looked at Oliver, sending him a sign.It's time to go Oliver.

"What happened, Noah? You two know each other?"

Clearly he didn't understand.

"Yeah, we were both classmates in middle school." Matthew  quickly answered with a small smile on his face.

He didn't think twice and that made my heart ache.

"That's great! you two probably have a lot to talk about. Should i leave and let you two talk?"

"It isn't necessary Oliv-"

"That would be great, thanks."

I tried to reply quickly but Matthew interrupted.

Why? Why does he want to talk? It will just make me feel worse. Make me feel hope again.

I looked at Oliver's back as he kept moving away.

I ran my hand over my neck and then over my shoulder, feeling the sweat cling to me. My body was shaking. I missed him but I knew I wasn't emotionally ready to talk to him.

"Want to talk? I won't force you."

I was stressed and the heat outside did not make the situation any easier.

"Yeah, let's talk." I answered after a long silence.

Yes, let's talk. Going now will only be more embarrassing. We are classmates after all.

The bell rang suddenly so we both agreed to meet again at the break and talk.

The lesson went slowly. I could not even listen. My head was somewhere else. My leg did not rest, trembling and moving all the time.

I want to go home. I want to go home.

The break has finally arrived.

I wanted this day to be over. I want to go home and sleep. But of course, here I am, sitting in the grass, waiting for him.

"Hey, long time no see." Matthew has finally arrived.

"Right..."

"I never thought I would see you here."

"You're the one who's new here, what are you doing here? "

"Well, my mom wanted to go back to town, so we came back. We've been here for almost a year. I moved between the two high schools on vacation. The first one didn't suit me. But I didn't expect to see you here ha ha ha."

"Whatever" I told him quickly. Has he been back for almost a year? Is it really because of his mother? If that is the reason he should have stayed in New York. It could have been better for both of us.

"Still, I'm just your middle school friend?"

"What? Are you annoyed? What did you want me to say 'Hey, this is my ex!' ?"

"You did not even hesitate a bit..."

"Ok, sorry."

It's still awkward to talk to him. I have no idea what to say.

"Would it be weird if we continued to be friends? It would be awkward if not ..."

I was scared. We? Friends? But ...

Flashbacks went through my head. I saw both of us. Laughing, having fun, it was so nice in middle school.

"we can't." I said immediately. Looking back, it was fun. But we're just going back. Nothing will change.

"Why?" Matthew looked sad. it seems like we both are not over the break up.

I didn't mean to hurt him.

Matthew, i love you. I love you so much.

I knew you were suffering from it as well. We are both injured. We can't rely on each other. Not now.

That is why, we can't do this again.

" I'm sorry."

...TO BE CONTINUED...

( Hope you enjoyed :) Tell me what you think about this story. )

I first met Matthew in my first year of middle school.

We were classmates but at first we didn't talk much. Most of the time we met with other friends from school.

I sat at a table behind him and sometimes I would look at his back. He was taller than me, handsome, very popular even among girls and very sociable.

The complete opposite of me.

For the whole first year we didn't talk.

At the beginning of the second year Matthew, unexpectedly, came to me.

"Hey ... you're Noah, right?"

"Ah-" I was surprised. Is he talking to me? "Yes, that's my name ..."

"Nice, you sat behind me the first year right? I haven't had a chance to talk to you yet."

like I said. Very sociable.

....

After that day, Matthew came to me often.

After half a year we became very good friends.

I used to look at his back, now I'm used to looking at his face, too.

He had very beautiful gray eyes and his straight black hair flew beautifully in the cold wind of winter.

Not long after that, I realized I love him more than friends.

Like I already said, Matthew was very popular. I wasn't the only one with feelings for him.

A lot of girls tried to date him but Matthew got tired of it.

...

"Ahhhh! Oh really, they don't even mean it."

"How do you know? They can really be in love with you, you know."

After school I went to Matthew's house and somehow we got into this conversation.

Matthew stood wandering around the room, going crazy. I sat on the floor by his bed, watching TV and eating ice cream while listening to Matthew's madness.

"No no no. You don't understand. I think they are trying to harass me! I have become their game. Has going out with me become a trend?"

"Ha ha ha ..." I had a small smile on my face. He's really stupid. "I think they just really like you."

"no way."

He did not realize he was popular.

" What are you watching?"

Matthew finally calmed down and sat down next to me.

"A new movie. I've been waiting for it to come out for a long time." Our shoulders suddenly touched.

Ah ... he's close.

My heart was pounding fast, I thought it was going to come out of my chest. I lowered my head into the orchard and bit my lip. calm down. calm down.

Matthew gently put his hand on my forehead.

"Ah-!" I was surprised. What is he doing? Touching me ...

"Do you have a fever? You're a little hot ... "

"W-W-What are you doing?" My body was hot. My face flushed and my neck was sweating.

"You didn't listen to what I said and your face was red. I was just worried about you, don't be angry."

"Ahhh...!"

He moved his hand from my forehead and put it on my cheek. I was so surprised that I made a strange noise.

Matthew smiled a small, beautiful smile. Seeing him smile like that, I couldn't resist his hand. His thumb moves under my eye.

I can't stop hoping for something.

Matthew brought his face closer to mine.

Ahhh ... if it's a dream, please do not end. I hope I never wake up.

Our lips were so close I could feel his breathing. Why did he stop? Is he waiting for me?

I was stressed. What am I supposed to do? I put my hand on his shoulder, hugged his back. My leg was over his leg.

I looked at him, blushing.

"I want to kiss you, Matthew!"

Matthew brought his face close and then finally, we kissed. His lips were soft.

I can 't believe it.

It felt so unrealistic.

Matthew moved his face and smiled

"Noah, I love you"

Eh?

...TO BE CONTINUED...