It all started from the first moments when I appeared in this sinful life.I'm an old man with heavy years who has taken refuge ,and before you start listening to history yourself, I want you to know that the end is not one from the best , just like the beginning of the beginning.Now I will go back to the past, and the story will be with the eyes and memories of that time. It was an ordinary day, like any other, I was not a rich man, nor a poor man, I had no enemies, I knew when and how to talk, when to stop , so until then I didn't know how I got it and what I have sinned against what was to appear in my way.We go on the morning of the day when everything has changed.I was with my head in the clouds, although it was morning, I drank a little "Ha" a bit more than usual. I heard a soft voice from the kitchen."Get up , don't forget you're taking children today "it was my wife ,I don't know how I deserved it and why she is with such a fool like me .I told her that I get down in a few moments and I turned my back ,What can I say a good sleep require more time.And so I started to forget about this world ,when 2 mice started jumping on me and said, "Dad, Dad, we're late." I forgot what it was like to be a father a long time ago, but the fact that I was once, it doesn't resent me .I looked up and it was my little girls, Meli and Bia, I hugged them tight as if the body knew it was going to be the last time .I got up quickly and went to wash myself, I looked in the mirror ,I still remember how dark and straight my hair looked,and chestnut brown eyes ,and brown skin, from years of work .I got dressed in what my dear wife, Patricia, had prepared for me ,I don't know if I would have been able to find the clothes around the house without her .I loved her madly.I went downstairs, on the old, creaking stairs ,I still remember and I saw her, the love of my life, I took her in my arms and started kissing her .Suddenly tears began to fall, if I knew it would be the last time ,was I still going to stop hugging her? She liked sweets, so the mornings didn't go without muffins or strawberry shortcakes.It was wonderful, even though I told her I didn't love them ,she knew I was saying this just so the girls wouldn't eat them, but take them from me. "Ha-ha" how cunning I was ,however, I was left with nothing .The girls were going to have a concert at school today, and I promised to come "How without this" .It was to be the show "Hansel and Gretel", I still don't know what roles they played.If I had been there then would anything have changed? I took them to school with my red car, it was my treasure, I called it "Huang", it was my mother's name, I don't know her ,she died when I was born ,yet I know she loved me.I kissed them on the forehead and I got in the car, work was already starting and like all the time I was late .I was a big name detective in Washington, though I was to be recognized later, but now I was one of the simplest. On the way I ran out of gas and stopped at the nearest gas station .In front of me appeared a young man who was looking at me for a while I thought it was nice but also weird, but I didn't pay attention 'and in a few moments I was ready to go .I went into the office where my colleague Bill was waiting for me ,I didn't love him, but life was about tying us together anyway. We were working on a robbery case, it was the thousandth, honestly we were already starting to get tired of them .I was a little annoyed and unconscious, I went to my boss, William, and I put the cases on the table and in a thick voice, I addressed "How many years have I been working here? How many years have I been carrying this on my back and all I see are cases of robbery, didn't I do the right thing, you think I'm an incompetent who for 15 years doesn't know how to do anything except small cases'"To understand then I was 43 years old." I was quite competent and I knew my job, but in front of others I was a mouse who did not know where to go and how to find the way. William got up and angrily slammed a book over my head, I didn't know why he didn't like me, but I found out after a while .He told me he didn't need such an incompetent like me and with his hands he pulled my hair up to the door saying "Get out of my sight" and took my badge .I know it sounds weird why I didn't hit him back,but with the current agreements, you can go to jail for nothing .I took my things and left, I was not sad because of the work, but I was ashamed to appear in front of my wife. I wanted to rest a bit and calm down and I wonder now "Why my feet took me to the bar ?"I had a few beers but it wasn't long before I couldn't move .Then I remember well how I found my feet in the water, and next to me an old person ,who said his problems ,at first I thought he was a psychopath ,but then I realized that he was just someone going through years of pain .I don't remember the conversation very well, but he said something about his son who lost him many years ago and that until now his heart can't rest. It was obvious that he was a man of great power only by his clothing.He looked at me and said "Nice sign", then disappeared, and I came out of the cold water, I could no longer feel my feet. I didn't know what he meant by the sign, but it didn't matter, "Can something like that matter to a battered man?" I wasn't like that, I was a calm man, but that day I think I was tired of life. I looked at the time, it was 10 o'clock at night .I was thinking then how I betrayed my little girls, how they expected me to come to the show, how other parents applauded their children, and I wasn't there for them .I didn't know where the car was, but what did it matter, as if I still had my slippers on .I started running, my body was moving from side to side, but I wanted to apologize to the girls, to tell them how much I love them and that it will not happen again. I didn't know how the family would react when they will see me,"Goofy," I said to me,but I didn't even have to see their reactions when I entered the house .The door was open, it seemed strange to me, the kitchen light was on, and there was a bowl on the stove, where something was boiling. No one was home, even though it was past 12. I was sitting on the chair and the water started to boil even harder, I got up and stopped the fire .I removed the lid and a strong smell of meat entered my nostrils .I took the spoon to look at what was in it, and suddenly I drop the bowl on the floor. I thought it seemed to me , but no, I started to walk away away from the bowl and with tears I said "No, no, it can't be real, what's this, just not this" I couldn't stop my tears, I couldn't control my body .It was Patricia's head, it wasn't her anymore, it was mutilated.I couldn't believe it .I got up quickly to look for the girls. "Maybe they're alive, maybe I can save them," I said. I went into the bathroom, and suddenly my nose started bleeding. I will never forget that moment, what their innocent bodies were like in the bathroom. As the blood was on the wall and on the floor, and the legs were cut and put in the toilet. I could no longer recognize the girls, their face was cut off, they had no skin on their face, only their skeleton and muscles, their fingers were missing. I was holding my hand to mouth to stop the pain and I was on my knees on the floor, i was in pain, which I had never felt, and the fact that I would not be able to turn them back, made me feel empty. They were only 9 years old, even the devil wouldn't do that .Their faces were not ,nor the fingers ,nor Patricia's body ,I couldn't find them, as if they had disappeared from the face of the planet. "Where are they, why are they missing,what is this? " , I started going crazy of pain .I sat down, I didn't have the strength anymore, I wanted to take my life with them, but it wasn't the way I wanted it to be. Now I understand that I would not even be able to take it. There was a noise coming down from the kitchen, I knew I had stopped everything, So what was that ?Missing, her head was gone "Someone came in, took her, where her head disappeared" I was saying, and why so much noise .I got angry and slammed into the meat grinder. I didn't understand why it was on and with the meat passing through it.I couldn't understand until I saw the eye in the meat grinder.It was her head, it was stewed .Who could have done such a thing, why such a death, with what she deserved that.I couldn't say goodbye to her, to say how much I love the girls. I was lost, I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to die, not so simple, "Who was to find out the truth and take revenge on my little girls ?"Suddenly I heard someone open the door, but at that moment I was fainting, unconscious, on the floor. If I was to come on time, only if I was to be with them. Why today? Why? If I hadn't drunk, they would have been with me. I had so much resentment and so much pain, I didn't understand who I was upset with and what I did wrong, but I knew how long I will live, this day and sin will always be with me.