Regret is always coming at the most unfavorable time, isn't it?

If someone had known that the concept of regret at the beginning of their first breath, would life be much brighter and beautiful for the last moment- in the last time of your breath? Unfortunately, she doesn't know. That time, when the last breath of her life came... the vivid memories that she remembered was only the regrets and blood aroma.

It was so vividly strong aroma.

It was so vividly disturbing.

While in her last consciousness when people surrounded her to help her back to life. she was thinking while staring at nothing while asking into her heart.

'if I have a chance for asking God the second chance, will he give me?'

" Stay with me, ma'am! We are almost there!"

" Her pulse is slowing down!"

" Goddamn! There is an emergency patient inside! Listen to the sirene! This traffic-"

" Ma'am, hang in there!"

" Ma'a-"

.

It was a chaotic moment, they were all nervous. The lady that she did not know who was looking sincerely to her eyes, keep saying the same word. " Hang in there!" she was sincerely hoping for her to survive.

Then she smiled. A vain smile that she tried to put as to how she was happy with the sincerity that the woman gave to a mere stranger like her...

'I am sorry, but, if I do have a chance to ask God to give me a second chance to live... I will never ever try to ask in the first place.'

It will be terrifying.

The regrets were too much. She was not brave enough to even ask that.

 'I am sinful.'

So just then, while tears came to her face, touching the blood in her head... she was slowly closing her eyes.

In that chaotic situation, the sound of the machine that connected to her heart went to a straight line and created a beep loud sound.

Then the world turns silent and dark.

then she died.

***

The concept of living is something that she never ever understand in her whole life.

Why she has to live in the first place?

What things that she should do in this life?

What achievement that she should get?

As far as she knows, life was just an empty and soulless place while at the end on that was a painful regret and a vividly disturbing blood aroma. Yet, even after going through life and death... she still does not understand the point of life nor she understands why now she could see two suns rise splendidly in the beautiful sky above her.

'This sky is surely beautiful even how many times I look at it.'

Then a strong breeze wind blows up to her and her brunette curly hair and her pile's dry clothes that she is trying to pick. Her black eyes open up as soon as the wind goes gently, and she looks at her back to a small little kid that hugs her from her back. With a bright smile and the duplication of hers in the small version, with brunette curlier hair and black eyes. They are so similar even with the freckles on both of their faces. The difference was just, her bed face was so spot on with her cute curlier bed hair.

" Sister!" She said while doing a little hand signing. " Are you done with your job?"

And she smiles and nodded. While then giving her sign language as an answer.

[ Yes, are you hungry?]

" I am!"

[ Let's have some breakfast, shall we?]

" Yes!"

And she smiles brightly as she picks her up and goes into a humble house. It does not look that great, in fact, it is an old wooden house with a medieval-styled far in the humble village in the mountain. Surely far from the civilized city but she could ensure that it becomes much better than the first time she came.

Yes. the time when she suddenly came to an unknown world after she thought that she was dead. After suddenly the world became dark and silent, a clear and blindly light come and hurts her eyes as she then tries to wake up in the most violent way.

her body was hurt.

her head was spinning so hard.

'Am I still alive?'

and she thought that she survived the accident. A little bit of disappointment and somewhat tiredness sparked in her deep heart. Yet, she was too painful to even think as she then tried to sort herself together in that condition. Then she was shocked while knowing that she was in the wooden bed inside a torn old wood house.

her heart was thumping so hard.

where am I?

While she then tried to look around, only to know that she was in the middle of the forest. Only to be shocked to see two suns rises in the bluest sky. She did try to seek help, but her voice never came out, she could not even hear anything. It was a dreadful silence in a chaotic situation. While she was looking around in the place she did not know, with a body that hurt and felt too different she then found a beautiful river that shows her reflection.

She was a little girl with brunette hair and black eyes that looked shabby and dirty.

a total stranger. a child that she did not know.

'what?!'

but not long after that, a man ran toward her with a baby with his hand. Seemed trying to call her, but she could not hear anything but knowing his worried face.

He suddenly approached her. hugged her and sincerely cried for her. Even though she knew nothing about this man, she just knew that the man was someone this girl she possessed loved dearly.

'My father.'

She never knew the image of the real father was, so she could never understand. yet, the feeling that she was feeling towards that man was the warmth that tore her tears away. She cried aloud in his embrace. After that day, slowly but surely... Irisha's memory came to her. Explaining all the things that happened to her.

She came to the conclusion that, maybe on the day that she died in the accident, Irisha Spes, a ten years old girl that suffered a chronic disease also dead too. Then somehow, her soul ended up in her little body. Of course, it did not sound real. Even until now, she could not find the right answer and only her own conclusion. Yet, all of Irisha Spes memories were only of her lying down in her wooden bed all day long while looking at the windows with two suns rose splendidly. She was born deaf and muted, her health was so poor. There was nothing she could do nor her family could do as they were just a poor family but, it was vivid in her memories that her family never gave up on her and smiles tenderly.

when she thought that this situation could not worsen enough, the day she came to this body was the day her baby sister was born and was the day her mother died for childbirth. It was a devastating situation...it was a truly painful story. '

No... it was a truly painful tragedy... as she was Irisha herself, she felt the pain greatly.

and maybe, it was too much even for her father.

It was too much for him to lose the one that he loved.

in 14th days after the death of her mother,  her father died by dropping himself off a cliff.

It was tragic. It was devastating. For her, who just met a painful death to transmigrate and possessed a sickly and disabled child in an unknown world. To feel the painful loss of both of her parents that were tragically dead.

it was too much, was not it?

her own problem was painful enough for her to take, but then, she had to feel the pain of this child too?

'I don't even ask for another chance. is God joking with me?'

but surely, it was never another chance. It was just punishment. Yet, even she knew she is a sinful person. the hurt that she felt, the painful feeling that made her hard to even breathe was too much.  To even cry loudly in the middle of nothing inside a skinny and disabled child body who could not do anything... was god really joking around with her?

'It is better to die.'

 'Then all of the pain will go.'

In confusion, in the most devastating situation in her life. She walked into the dark and empty house to find a rotten knife. She was ready, surely she was. In the emptiness and the most world forest, she stood alone ready to stab her heart with her skinny and little hand.

but-

there was a movement.

she was seeing a movement in front of her.

 A little tiny hand that moving in the darkness. She suddenly realized her sister's existence and suddenly dropped her knife and ran toward her crying baby. She was crying hard or seemed hard as she could not hear anything. But, as soon as she touched her, the baby was looking at her and smiled. She held her tight with her tiny hands and comforted herself as she hugged her in her embrace.

 The warmth was real.

the warmth was so real.

As the night became darker, and the cold became colder. The warmth indeed was real.

***

Do you ever think or even realize? How many times in one day, you take a few times to take a look at the magnificent sky in the hectic world?

The beauty of the skies that splendidly there above you. With many different colors that look like it's telling a story. Sometimes it will be a clear blue sky without anything on it. Sometimes it will be a warm orange and purplish color, then other times, it will be the most reddish. Yet, in her hecticness in her previous life... how many times in a day, did she take her time to only look at the beauty of the sky? As she remembered, in a second after she woke up in her tired body, the thing that she will care about was her smartphone that told her anything she had to do or anything she needed to continue from yesterday. Every day was always a very busy day in her life. No time for breakfast nor a time for looking and appreciating at the sky for even a second.

I didn't think I have time. she thought.

but,

No.

It was more likely she choose not to have any time. She was so immersed in the tight schedule of hers and never had a chance to even realize any single beauty that the world was given to her. Her ambition, her pride was so damned high for her to give herself even a little bit of rest. Life used to be so miserable even only for a second for her...yet, she wonders...how could she survive in this world that she knew nothing about?

[ Eat well, okay?] and while sitting on the wooded simple dinner table with her sister sitting in front of her, she said in sign language.

" Okay!" and the lovely little sister, with her chubby reddish cheeks, enjoys her bread and onion soup that she made.

[ Do you want more?]

and she smiles, " Yes!" she said, without any sign language, but somehow Irisha just could understand. The enjoyment, that makes her also feel happier just by looking at her sister. Just by looking at her...  she feels everything is in the right place.

She knows nothing about this world. That was something and is something that she is still concerned about after she decided to live. She was only ten years old with her baby sister who had just been born. What do you expect for a child and a baby, to live alone in the forest like this? ....to make the condition even worst, she is deaf and muted.

Yet, even each day was a harsh and hard day, she did not understand why she still moving on. In this poor child's body, why she could still move and did housework just to make sure that their life was still going. She started by exploring her house that she was knew nothing about. Tended some garden that she never did, cooked some meals with ingredients she did not familiar with, or tried to understand something with just several poor books and Irisha's memories.  Every day was hard, especially when she had to take care of her baby sister while she herself, in such a condition. She had to make sure that she sees her baby sister so she could know something wrong by looking at her face. If she did something outside the house, she had to lie her baby sister down near her so that she could monitor her.

it was hard. It was really hard. every day she tried her best to find something to eat while holding her. she tried her best to make a fire so that they were not freezing to death. she was always fell asleep in a very worse condition and had to wake up for a little movement of the baby because she was concerned and anxious if something happened to her while she could not hear or say anything.

but, even though like that, she will end up waking up the next morning and doing the same thing. Then, every time she sees her baby sister laughing... her tiredness seemed to puff away like magic. The warmth feeling of her baby sister in her embrace, the tiny hands that hold her tight. The smile that looks at her sincerely. Just like magic... every hardship she had faced, felt nothing.

It is something that she never felt before. something that keeps her moving on. The simple thought yet feels so magical:

I will protect you and I will always be with you.

***

Her sister's name is Arisha Spes. She is now eight years old, so it means that she has lived for almost eight years in this world that still, she knew nothing about. Well, in her situation, as a deaf and muted person in the world that was not too friendly to a disabled person like her, it was a really hard life. People here do not seem familiar with how to treat people like her so she has to do everything two times harder than it should be.

" I already packed all the loaves of bread, sister," Arisha said with her hand do some sign language. Arisha is so good at it and it is really easy to have conversations with her now. In this world, or maybe to be more specific- in the place where she lives, people do not know sign language. In fact, sign language seems never to exist in the first place. But, as someone who is now a disabled person, she had to do something about it right? So that is why she modified sign language that she had known from her previous life and mix-matched it with the language here. It was hard, and at the start, she was only chosen words that are important for daily life. But somehow, she then just had a full conversation with full sign language. Just like now.

[ Good, shall we go then?] asked her. [ The weather is kinda hot, put your hat on.]

" Okay! I already have the note, where should we go first?"

[ hem, let's choose households who is definitely in their house.]

" Uncle Jacob and Aunt Marsha's household will be out in the morning. Let's go to the priest first."

and she smiles. [ It will do. Let's go.] she said and they then leave their humble house that now already had fences surrounded here. Some villagers did help them to build one. Yes, somehow, she who thought that people were terrifying ended up getting much help from them.

At first, she was still skeptical about humans in general. It could be because of her previous life's trauma, and it was hard for her to ask for help from the villagers. Especially, when she did end up going down to the village to sell and buy necessities, the stares of the villagers were so terrifying. Her situation that could not hear and speak makes their image in her imagination worsen. She thought that she is being taken advantage of by the person that buy her goods, she thought that they were mocking her. Every time their expressions changed, she thought they are mad at her. It was always a horrifying moment if she had to go to the village and every time someone did come to her house, she thought that they tried to do something bad to her and she then ran and locked herself inside.

but, there was a time that changed all of her perspectives of how she saw humans.

even though, she tried to take care of her baby sister in the correct and safest way- there was a time that the baby had an uncontrollable seizure. Her body heated up, and she turned real pale and blue. She tried everything she could do but the baby still did not show any good signs.

in that situation, she thought:

I need help. I need someone's help!

 Just like that,  she ran from her safe zone without even thinking twice. wrapped her baby sister with thick clothes, even though outside rain poured hard. It was also a bad pathway of the forest in the middle of that kind of weather but there was nothing she could think of other than seeking help.

She knocked on the door of the first house she could find in the middle of the dark night. With a wet body and while holding her baby sister, she looked at a woman that staring at her.

Please help me! please help my sister!

she said. She screamed so hard hoping that she understand her... but.... the only sound that came out was just nonsense. The woman looked at her in a strange way and talked to her but she could not understand. In the moment the expression of the woman changed, she believed that she will be kicked out and the woman surely did. the woman closed her door and left her outside.

While tears streamed down her face, in the middle of the rain, she thought:

I should find another house. Maybe someone will help me.

Because, if she did nothing, her sister will be-

" Come with me." but, suddenly the door opened again and the woman suddenly grabbed her. There were other people behind her and as soon as the woman held her sister, the man held her.

She could not hear anything so she could not understand anything but, in the middle of the rain while wearing a plastic raincoat- they ran in the middle of the night. Used their lantern to some other house.

Again, she could not hear nor understand anything but, after the door opened and they had a quick conversation- a young lady from that house lead them inside their house and tidied up her dinner table so that they could put the baby there. Other old men, came to the baby and checked the baby. They did something to her and she who was still being held with a strange man looked at her sister anxiously. Her tears could not stop, and it was flowing like a river. But, when her baby sister somehow calmed down and her seizures stopped, the lady from the first house smiled at her.

" Your sister is alright." a really sincere smile just like the stranger lady on the last day of her previous life. A truly, sincere smile made her cry even harder out of gratitude as she knew what she said to her.

" Deng...kyu.." and unconsciously she spoke while using sign language.

And that stopped everyone from what they did as they were seeing a little child said her gratitude to them because they helped her baby sister and they were hurtfully touched by that moment.

After that, Irisha fell sick too, and the house where her baby sister is being treated volunteered themself to take care of both of them. They took care of her for several days, and the day that she became healthier, they refused to let them go back to their house in the forest. The man that worked as a doctor in this village then helped her in designing sign language after realizing that she had a conversation with her hand. just like 'thank you, she also said 'sorry' 'food', and other important words with her hand. Realizing that, he then helped her out.

" Pope!" said Arisha while running out toward an old man that is about to go inside his house.

The old man who sees her then opens his hand and hugs her. " My lovely Arisha, you are early today," he said. He is Pope Joseph was the one who treated her baby sister back then.

" Irisha and Arisha comes?" asked a young lady, she was coming from the opened door with her apron and looked at her with a smile. She is Anna, she was the lady that was also helped her back then. " You are early aren't you?" asked her while using sign language.

[ Yes, we have many loaves of bread to deliver.] she said while taking out two pieces of loaves of bread to them. [ here you go!]

" Ah, your bread is always soft and nice. Thank you," she said. " Why don't you guys join us with breakfast?"

" Ya ya, join us. Just prepare for them too," said Pope Joseph.

" No, thank you! I and my sister have works to do!" Arisha said with confidence while showing off her loaves of the bread bag.

and Pope Joseph who fixed her glasses becomes grumpy. " Humph, you are so busy. Then have dinner before you go back home," he said. " I don't understand why you guys just don't live with us here."

" I like our house!" she said. " But, I will have dinner here. Sister Anna's fish soup is the best," she said.

" Aww you are so cute, should I make fish soup for dinner?" Asked Anna while kneeling and hugging Arisha.

" I will get some fish then." then, Pope Joseph with her grumpy facial face looks at her. " Come here for dinner." while using sign language.

and she just smiles, because there is no one who could refuse Pope Joseph. [ We will, who will refuse the deliciousness of Sister Anna's soup?]

" Right?" said Arisha.

then after that, they then depart and do their chores. They deliver their loaves of bread to the households that buy it from them. her knowledge from her previous life is somehow helped her a lot. It becomes her main job to bake loaves of bread and then sell it to the villagers, sometimes she's got money, other times she trades it with other goods but the villagers here are too nice that they always just give her many goods for free. Just like  Aunt Marsha, the one that helped her that day too.

" Just take it, we produced so many vegetables. It is too much for our household," she said.

" Thank you, Aunt!" Arisha said.

" No problem, honey. You have to eat healthy for you to grow up!" she said. " Please tell your sister, if she is free could she help my work?"

and because Aunt Marsha is not able to use sign language, Arisha is the one who will translate it. " Aunt Marsha asked for your help."

[ Is it about a sales recap?]

" Yes! It is!" she said to something that she was familiar with.

{ Okay, I will come to your house after I am done with the delivery.]

and Aunt Marsha smiling so hard. " You are a great help. Thank you." and on this part, she is capable to use sign language.

That is basically how she is living right now. In the small isolated village. With a very refreshing scenery, and with her lovely little sister. she never thought that there will be a life that she expects each day to end to welcome another day tomorrow. To be able to enjoy every single beauty of nature, to appreciate every day's sky, to be able to rely on someone, and to be able to love someone so dearly. Despite her condition, how could she feel this much happiness?

***

After living for almost eight years, she kinda knew a little bit about the world where she lives now. The name of the world that she lives named Althera. Just like the earth, there are mountains, seas, plains and etc.,. At one glance, it is really hard to look for the difference between both of them except for the fact that there are 2 'suns' that are above her head which will then become one like an eclipse when the night comes. In 27 hours of a day, the suns will become two in the daylight and become united again in the nighttime.  Their light also changes in the transition from morning, noon, and night. It will be like a moon from the earth when both of the suns are united. Their light will be fading but could help the lighting in dark.

So it is quite wrong to say that the 'suns' are the sun while they are also 'the moon', but somehow in this world, they called them Solis as the representation of the God which people in this world believe. Pope Joseph once said that It the mainland, the big continent in Althera there is a superior Empire named Solisa Empire. The Empire where the monarchy who runs the empire is known to be blessed by the God of the two suns, Solis.

" The empire located right in the perfect middle between the two suns, when they rise in their prime time. The imperial family members also have their unique appearance as they are the only people that have blonde hair,"  said Pope Joseph while they are enjoying their dinner time.

" Woah, both of the prince and princess have that kind of hair?" asked Arisha.

and Pope Joseph nodded. " All of the Imperial family has that kind of characteristic," he said.

" Also, the empire is so beautiful! There are many things in there, many people also gathered as they are one of the superior empires," said Anna excitedly as she is remembering her moment. " It was really amazing."

" Wow!" and Arisha looks at her in excitement.

[ You said that the Solisa Empire is one of the superior Empire. Is there any more empire?] asked her. She could understand the entire conversation because they are using sign language. Even sometimes it fast, as she already read and being told by Pope Joseph some of it, she quite understands.

" Yes, there are many independent governments. the old one, the new one spread all over the world," he said. " The oldest just like the Empire of Fahir, The Kingdom of Jahar, Empire of Laka... Ah, I don't know. They are so many."

After doing some read with many books that Pope Joseph has, in the end, this world concept is still the same as the concept in the world. Where some war, trade, and political things will involve inside. Yet, she could safely conclude that this world is a kind of a world where men dominate the world. In the very simple example is just like in the village. The mayor, the priest, and the important person will all be a man just like Pope Joseph.

" If the empire is truly magnificent why don't you just live there?"

" Living in the empire is expensive. The air is also polluted, people like us are better to stay in the countryside," he said.

And that is also something that Irisha feels unfortunate about. To put it simply, there is something that is called 'mana' in this world. It is a kind of internal energy that could be manipulated to create something like magic. Truthfully she could not really understand as the books did not tell much and the Pope Joshep explanation was just too rough, but the mana inside the body differs. One has a large power other maybe have none. Sadly enough, the mana power is something that defined how worth you are in society. So, even though in this isolated world, there is a man like Pope Joseph who could develop the idea of sign language, he is not worth it as he has no big mana inside his body.

Hierarchy. She could say that right?

So, it was not so strange if she thinks about when the first time she came to this world as a deaf and muted girl. In a world where a normal person discriminate by the mana power, how then a person with a disability like her could face society?

Even for Pope Joseph, Sister Anna, and Aunt Marsha who was helped her that night. Their responses toward her were based on a mere pity. They pity her, so they helped her. It was not something she despised, even until now she is very grateful for their help at that horrifying night, but it was also the truth that their first thought about her was pity and they were thinking that there was nothing someone like her could do with her condition.

She was thinking the same too.

What could she do in this kind of world? Especially when she was slapped with an event where she could not do anything to her baby sister while she was sick.

She is deaf and muted.

Yet, she promised to protect and always be with her sister and it means that she has to be strong. She has to be the wall for her little sister. So that was why she took the opportunity to learn something when Pope Joseph and Sister Anna let them stay. She read many Pope Joseph's books every day, learnt to write, improved her reading, and just increased her knowledge of this world. Somehow Pope Joseph looked at her and helped her in developing sign language, and it then became easier for her to have a conversation and ask something she could not understand.

At first, not many villagers approached her except Pope Joseph, Sister Anna, Aunt Marsha, and her husband, and the priest. People tended to avoid her as much, somehow show their pitiful expressions to her but did not do anything as they thought that helping someone like her will just add their burden, and of course she understands that. Living in the village is not a joke. especially a typical medieval village where there is no water or electricity.  People here are mostly can not use magic so, of course, it was already hard for them to live even until now. She understand quite much that, there is no one obligation to help her in the first place. So, at that time she thought that she should be the one who helped herself. She did some work around Pope Joseph and Sister Anna's house, at first it was a simple matter like cleaning around. Then, the second time, they let her assisted Sister Anna in her cooking and somehow a simple technique in this world was something extravagant. Then, her previous experience in many fields, especially management and business helped the farmer who does the trade with outsiders. Starting from then, they trust her gradually.

[ To put it simply just ensure the expenditure is not higher than income.] she said while explaining to the farmer in this village about a simple ledger, the next day. [ You guys usually do barter as the main transaction but, sometimes it could give you a big loss because you can't equate wood and fish, right? but if, you ended up doing some barter just make sure to write it in the book to track down your transaction.] while explaining this she is not only using sign language but also using the board to write down the important thing down because not all of them could understand the language. Then they will write things down in their own note that they bring.

The one that she taught to them is actually not a new thing in this world. After having a discussion about several empires and kingdoms, their economic system is the same as the one in her past world. The difference here is that not all people have the same education about that. It is not because education is something that commoner could not have, somehow a formal education exists in several empires depending on the empire and the kingdom's regulations. It is just their mindset that believes if they don't have mana power or blessing, then, either they become a very humble farmer, maid, or just living in the isolated village where the living expense is almost none. By the way, is not that she is underestimating all of the jobs above but, after reading and asking, they all really choose to live in a very simple way. It is also not like they want it, it is just like they are surrendering to the situation.

" If my analysis is wrong toward this mindset thing, they will not study eagerly like this, right?"  She thought.

" Then Irisha, do you know some solution for the unwanted product." asked uncle Jacob who then look at Arisha who is sitting in the chair beside her. " How to say 'product' in sign language, again?'"

and Arisha stands up swiftly. " Like this, uncle!" and shows him the way while Uncle Jacob nods happily.

" Yes, yes. that part is always the hard one," he said who then looks at her. " Do you understand what I mean?"

and she nods, [ I understand but, the unwanted products that you mean are the products that are not purchased by merchants?]

" Yes, yes."

[ Well, the trading here in the first place is quite tricky, the farmer only sell what they grow and the merchants only buy what they need.] she said and goes in silent for a while to think. [ You have to gather some data of what merchants that comes around, what goods that they need. You could also gather some data of places that don't have or have limited produces like yours, then you can ask for cooperation to them to provide them with products that they need but they don't have. You can get a good price from that, too. Well it also depends on the distance and transportation too-] she said, while they nod while amazed with a new concept that maybe they never learned about.

then just like this her daily work in the village, at the end of the session she will come home with many gifts in their hand from the villager as gratitude for her lesson.

" Bye! Bye! Uncle Jacob, thank you for the ride!" said Arisha while wiggling her body because her hand was full of gifts.

Uncle Jacob who take them home wave his hand while galloping his horse and cart. " Don't forget to lock the door!"  he then said.

Then after the long day, as usual, they cook their food together and eat dinner while having a story. Their dinner table is near a big wood window that shows them the beautiful scenery of the night sky.  They always enjoy their time looking at it while imagining that some stars are home for another living thing.

But then she holds her hand tight who makes her turns to her. [ I have something to discuss with you.]

" Yes, sister, what is it?" she asked in confusion as maybe she kinda guessed that the discussion is quite heavy.

" Truthfully it is," she said but it was something she always thought for quite a long time.

[ You do know that the world is big right? There are so many things in this world that are beautiful.]

then Arisha nods. " Uncle Joseph said that there is a land that full with water, and land with full of ice."

[ Of course! If sister is not mistaken, there is also a dragon! Sister really one to see that one too!] even somehow she is skeptical about that, but, of course, she is excited to see one. [ There is also a place that you called an academy, you can study something there as a student. You can also meet many friends of the same age as you.]

and her smile somehow fades a little, but she tries not to show it to her. " Yes, but the academy is far from here. So I am okay."

You say that, but in the truth you always want it. Especially when in this village there is no villager with the same age as her. Every day she will just stay with her and most elder or adult like sister Anna. So, for Arisha the thought of meeting a friend is like a fancy wish she could imagine.

[ In the academy you can learn many things you know?]

" Yes, Sister Anna said that to me."

[ You still don't want it?]

and she shakes her head hard. " I am okay. I never wanted it in the first place." and she looks at Irisha in sad eyes. " Do you want me to go? I like living here you know, with you and the others."

and she smiles at her while standing up and comes to her sit. Put her hands in her cheeks and look her in the eyes. [ I am your sister, I know when you are lying to me.] she said. [ I know how much your eyes sparkle whenever you read a book about the outside world. I know ... because I always see you.]

Then, it becomes hard for Arisha to keep her smile as her sister already knew everything, so she opened her mouth and say " ... but, even though I like that does not mean that I have to! I already enjoy it enough by reading them in the book," she said and desperately trying to persuade her. " It is okay, sister. I really don't want it!"

[ Is it because I am deaf and mute?] asked her.

and Arisha suddenly frowning with tears coming from the edge of her eyes. "It's not a bad thing sister! It is not." and somehow cries in front of her, the tears that stream down her chubby cheeks that become reddish. The Arisha that always cheerful and full of smiles, cried so hard while talking about her.  Arisha is a smart one, a quick-witted that understand the situation. Even the time where she at the age that could understand something and Irisha already created a good relationship with the villager, does not mean that the opinion of being mute and deaf is disappeared from people in the village. Maybe, Arisha already guessed what will happen if someone like her sister go outside the world. How harsh and how dangerous it would be. " So it is okay if we are living in this village forever. I am okay if I am not going to the academic. As long as I am with you..."

As long as I am with you. sure such a beautiful word that makes her smile.

[ Of course, I will be always with you.]

" But, it means you are going to the-"

[ And, I am not that weak Arisha.] she said. smiles so brightly after kissing her softly. [ I am strong. I am your strong sister that could do anything for you, so please don't be a worry. Also... truthfully just like you, I want to travel the world too, seeing something that I could not ever see. Seeing the beach, the mountain, the Elfian forest just like in the story...how beautiful they truly are is something I want to find out. Do not you want it too?] asked her. But, Arisha still hesitate and Irisha then pinched her cheeks. [ But, of course in the end the most thing that I ever wanted is to see you happy. So... it saddens me if you hold yourself like this. You don't have to worry about anything... just do what you want to do and I will be there with you too. So, my dear sister... do you want to go to see the world with me?] asked her while smiles at her warmly.

and Arisha who always looks at her straightly puts her head down while tears fall down to the chair. But in the second after that she looks up with a big smile and hugs her. Of course, she could not hear anything but she knows her sister is exciting. Then when she could see her sister's face, Arisha said.

[ Thank you sister! Thank youu! I really love you so muuuch!] and give her so many kisses.

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