Yoonmin One Shot [Sad Stories]
clover
yoongi has been standing in front of jimin's apartment for 15 mins now, shifting his weight from foot to foot, anxious
yoongi
*inhales deeply then presses on the doorbell*
jimin
i thought i told you that we're over
jimin
what are you doing here?
jimin
*looks back inside his apartment*
yoongi
is he... is he here?
jimin
of course he is. he lives here now
yoongi
*swallows the lump in his throat*
yoongi
//right, how silly of me//
jimin
what are you doing here? did something happen?
yoongi fishes something from his jeans pocket and offers it to jimin
yoongi
i was in the park earlier when i saw the clover. i suddenly remembered you telling me before that you wanted to find one
jimin
*takes eyes off the clover then back to yoongi's face, observing the dark circles under his eyes*
jimin
//has he lost weight?//
a small smile lifts the corners of yoongi's lips
yoongi hears footsteps inside the apartment
unknown
"jimin? who's that?"
jimin
just a friend, baby!
yes, that's all they are now—friends
jimin
hyung, i... appreciate this *presses lips together thoughtfully* i'm so sorry and... thanks for everything
yoongi takes in a deep breath, daring his tears not to fall
yoongi
do you know the meaning of four-leaf clovers?
jimin
*blinks* um... good luck?
yoongi
*nods* each leaf represents faith, hope, love and luck
yoongi shifts on his feet again before lifting his eyes to jimin
yoongi
i wish the best for you and him, jiminie
jimin
*jimin's face crumples at the silly nickname* hyung...
yoongi
i'll be moving out of korea soon, so i thought that i should pay you a visit before i leave
jimin
*eyes widen* w-what? where are you going?
yoongi
wherever life takes me
jimin
*lashes flutter* are you... are you going to come back?
yoongi
*shrugs* don't really know
jimin
what about our friends? they'll miss you. i... *sighs* i'll miss you
yoongi pinches the bridge of his nose
yoongi
but i have to forget
tears gloss over jimin's eyes
yoongi
i'm sorry if we didn't work out, jiminie. i'm sorry if... you had to leave
jimin
*lets out a trembling breath* we're both at fault, hyung
jimin
you don't really have to apologize to me
yoongi throws all caution in the air and takes a step forward to kiss jimin on the cheek
yoongi
*smiles softly* good bye, jiminie
yoongi looks down at the four-leaf clover in jimin's grasp
he used to hold those small, pretty fingers and pepper them with kisses
and it hurts so fucking much that yoongi could no longer do that anymore
yoongi
i hope the four-leaf clover will bring nothing but good things to you and him
yoongi
/i hope your relationship won't wither like ours/
yoongi smiles, even if every part of him is breaking
yoongi
you'll always have a special place in my heart, jiminie. no matter where i am in the world
yoongi
yoongi pulls the hood of his jacket over his head and walks away, looking back at jimin for the last time before jogging down the stairs that will lead him to a new life
jisoo
I hope you like it 🥺🥺🥺
ghost
yoongi watches as jimin's eyes linger on his gravestone, pulling the scarf up hide his winter-flushed cheeks from the cold.
jimin
i miss you so much, hyung
yoongi sighs, looking down on his ghost body sitting on top of the gravestone
yoongi
i miss you too, jimin-ah
jimin kicks the dried leaves softly beneath his soles
jimin
i'm sorry if i haven't visited you in a while. things have gotten a bit tough in uni since graduation's just around the corner
jimin hasn't visited him for an entire week
jimin
i wish you could be there on my graduation
tears accumulate in the younger's eyes
jimin
you're so unfair for leaving me alone, hyung
yoongi's heart aches, even though he's sure it isn't possible because he's already dead
still, it aches somewhere deep inside his chest. like a lingering sensation from when he was still alive
far more painful that night when he was bleeding out from a motorcycle accident
yoongi
i'm so sorry (he whispers)
jimin sniffles and lays a bouquet of flowers in front of yoongi's gravestone
jimin
i'll come visit again, hyung. i love you
yoongi's eyebrows knot together
yoongi watches as jimin turns around and walks away
it's all yoongi has been doing since the day he died — he /watches/
watches people visiting their departed loved ones in the city cemetery
watches the birds flying in the sky
watches the leaves swaying with the wind
the snow has already melted, leaving a dirty puddle of water around his gravestone
green patches of grass surrounds him and buds of colorful flowers begin to bloom
and yet, jimin hasn't come back
it's been six months, and yoongi still hasn't seen a glimpse of that tuft of blond hair
yoongi is used to asking these questions over and over again, no one to hear his queries but himself
the day that jimin comes back, it's when yoongi is in the middle of counting the flock of birds swirling in the blue sky above him
jimin's hair is brown now, but still as equally beautiful
he's wearing a gray light coat and holding a vase of flowers in his hands
jimin tuts when he sees the withered bouquet in front of yoongi's gravestone
he picks it up and replaces it with the vase
jimin
i'm sorry for not visiting for a long time. for letting your flowers wither
there is something different about jimin right now
he used to look so sullen and defeated whenever he visited yoongi before
but now, he looks lighter and perhaps a lot healthier
yoongi lets out a relieved sigh when he realizes that jimin has been taking good care of himself
jimin
i've graduated three months ago. i'm sorry if i wasn't able to visit you, it's just... i was offered a job and i went on training right after graduation so i had a little free time
jimin nibbles on his bottom lip, thinking
yoongi
congratulations, jiminie. you did well
yoongi smiles widely, all teeth and gums
jimin
the training period ended yesterday and... i got in
happy tears spring into jimin's eyes
jimin
i got the job in the dance company, hyung. i'm now living my dream
yoongi's heart soars with pride for jimin
yoongi
i'm so happy for you, jiminie
jimin wipes the tears on his eyes, sniffling
jimin
i know you're proud of me, hyung. i know you'll hug me so tight right now if you can
jimin shifts on his feet anxiously
jimin
i'm... (he takes in a deep breath) i'm moving out of the city, hyung
jimin
the dance company is in busan and... i already told my family that i'm coming home
this city is supposed to be /their/ home
yoongi is supposed to be his home
jimin
i... bought you artificial flowers, hyung. so it won't wither anymore
tears brim in yoongi's eyes
it feels like a hole has been sucking him in from the inside
yoongi
i'm happy you're moving on with life, jimin-ah. i'm happy that you're still trying to live
jimin crouches to run his hand along the marbled gravestone
jimin
you'll always have a special place in my heart, hyung
jimin
/even if there's another whom i'll love in the future/
he /needs/ to let jimin go
jimin stands up and looks up from the gravestone, momentarily catching yoongi off guard because it is the first time that jimin actually appears like he's /looking/ right at him
jimin
if you're here, hyung, i want you to know that i love you and i'm so sorry
yoongi shakes his head, desperate to make his feelings known to jimin even if it's impossible
yoongi
don't apologize. i-i love you too, jimin-ah. so much. so fucking much
jimin sighs and smiles down at yoongi's gravestone
jimin
let's see each other again someday, hyung, yeah? wait for me
then yoongi watches as jimin walks away to live his life without him, a life full of happiness, surprises and /healing/
"wait for me" it was what jimin has said
it's not a good bye, but a promise — a promise that they will see and hold each other again
yoongi wishes that it's years and years from now, no matter how lonely and sad he will be
he will wait for jimin no matter how long it takes, through day and night, through all the changing seasons, because yoongi loves him so much
he will wait for jimin throughout another lifetime
space
"Out here in a soundless place, we're tangled with the stars and empty darkness."
[Apollo 52 was last seen near the orbit of the moon–]
[It has been fifteen weeks since the spacecraft Apollo 52 launched its mission to bring back lunar rock specimens–]
[The families and friends of the astronauts aboard are still not giving up hope—]
[NASA reported no sightings of Apollo 52 ever since the radio waves coming from the spacecraft were lost—]
[Representatives of the United Nations from all around the globe expressed their sympathy and support for the families of Commander Min Yoongi, Command Module Pilot Park Jimin–]
The younger astronaut looked over his shoulder, eyeing the floating figure approaching him.
unknown
Are you still not done plastering those ugly stickers?
Jimin rolled his eyes with a chuckle.
jimin
Shut up, old man. You’ll never understand the heart of a child.
unknown
You’re only like—two years younger than me.
jimin
Still. You’ll be old and gray faster than me.
Jimin stuck out his tongue playfully before directing his attention back to littering glow-in-the-dark star stickers on their spacecraft’s huge window.
unknown
Old and gray, huh.
Jimin felt a pinch in his chest.
After sticking the last piece of star, Jimin smiled and looked proudly at his masterpiece.
It reminded him of his childhood bedroom, the moon and star stickers plastered all over his ceiling and the spacecraft toys lined up on top of his dusty drawers–reminding him of his youthful dream of becoming an astronaut, and now years and years later, he had finally achieved that goal.
“You should be thanking me for this,” Jimin chided. “If it weren’t for these babies, you wouldn’t be able to see a thing.”
It had been five days since Yoongi commanded the crew to shut down the engines, +
jimin
You should be thanking me for this
If it weren’t for these babies, you wouldn’t be able to see a thing.
It had been five days since Yoongi commanded the crew to shut down the engines, killing off the lights, artificial gravity and other petroleum-powered machinery to preserve the last barrel of their remaining fuel, to direct the last source of power into keeping the heater and oxygen generator running.
Yoongi laughed quietly as he guided Jimin into his arms, both of them floating in a tangle of limbs and heartbeats.
yoongi
Your stars are the savior of this trip.
Jimin smiled despite the ache burrowing deeply into his chest, lifting up his head to press a kiss against the pulse point on Yoongi’s neck.
jimin
When we were trainees, when I said that I want to be lost in the space with you, I meant it figuratively.
The commander laughed and planted a kiss on the crown of Jimin’s head, embracing him tighter.
yoongi
Well, at least we still got lost together, yeah?
Jimin chuckled, arms circling more firmly around the other man’s waist.
he whispered against Yoongi’s neck, eyes slipping shut.
A beat of silence passed between them, before Yoongi spoke,
yoongi
Have you recorded your message?
The commander hummed and carded his fingers through the younger’s dark locks.
jimin
I can hear your heartbeats.
yoongi
I can hear yours too.
jimin
What are they saying?
yoongi
They said ‘Min Yoongi is handsome and I love him.
Jimin laughed and pinched Yoongi’s side.
the commander teased and pressed another kiss on Jimin’s temple.
Jimin huffed.
yoongi
And I love you too.
Another flutter of silence.
jimin
Hyung, where do you think we are now?
It took a moment for Yoongi to respond, long, slender fingers stroking Jimin’s dark locks absently.
Jimin let out a shuddering breath as he pressed his face closer to the pale skin of Yoongi’s neck, exuding warmth and comfort–
/alive/.
When the boosters malfunctioned weeks ago, the spacecraft drifted off the moon’s orbit and far back into space. For days and days now, they had seen nothing but black and the remnant lights of stars billions of light years away from them.
When the radio communication was cut and the ship tilted to an odd angle, when the navigation panels completely died, Jimin no longer had recognition of time and space. He didn’t know which way was north, or which time of the day was it.
Because everything in space seemed so alike—dark, lifeless, soundless and /empty./
All except for the man embracing him at the moment.
Yoongi gazed at him when he heard a slight tremble in Jimin’s voice.
Yoongi brushed away a stray lock of hair from his eyes.
yoongi
…I know. But I’m here.
Yoongi confessed as he pressed a firm kiss on Jimin’s forehead.
yoongi
I’m so fucking scared right now, Jimin.
Jimin felt the back of his eyes burn with tears, the knot inside his chest tightening further.
The younger followed the commander’s gaze, eyes landing on their own galaxy of shining, fake stars.
yoongi
We’ve always watched the stars together, yeah? This is just like one of those times when we laid under the night sky to point out constellations.
jimin
You said that you saw my lips beside the Big Dipper.
The memory made Yoongi chuckle.
jimin
It was a huge-*** pair of lips, hyung.
Yoongi smiled and bit down on his lower lip, staring fondly at Jimin before leaning forward and planting a gentle kiss on the younger’s lips.
yoongi
The /best/ pair of lips, Jiminie.
A warm flush spread across Jimin’s cheeks at the compliment and Yoongi’s silly nickname for him, remembering the first time that they had shared a kiss together.
It was just like this–them, lying under a blanket of stars on the rooftop of the training centre, holding each other as if they never wanted to let go, whispering love confessions as a rosy pink hue tinted both of their cheeks.
jimin
Have you seen the others?
yoongi
They’re in their cabins.
Jimin swallowed and buried his face into the crook of Yoongi’s neck, inhaling the faint scent of metal, disinfectant and rubbery fabric on his lover’s skin with a hint of succulent sweetness that only Yoongi possessed.
Jimin would miss this scent so much.
jimin
How much time do we have left?
Yoongi’s fingers stroked the back of his head, fingernails scratching lightly at the short ends of his hair.
Jimin let out a sigh as his fingers curled on the elder’s shirt, feeling his heart tremble with fear.
Six hours and the last barrel of fuel would completely run out.
Six hours and the heater and oxygen generator would stop operating.
...And Jimin would no longer hear the steady thump of Yoongi’s heartbeats.
He was so goddamn scared.
Jimin felt Yoongi swallow as his arms went tighter around him, as if frightened that Jimin would slip through the gaps of his fingers like sand.
jimin
Can you keep talking for me? I like the sound of your voice.
The thing about space was that sound couldn’t be transmitted. And once the air inside their spacecraft ran out, it would just be like everything around them now: soundless and empty.
Jimin rested the side of his head on Yoongi’s shoulder, lips brushing against the man’s neck every now and then as he listened to him talk about the good memories of his childhood and his disastrous dates during college.
Yoongi’s voice was deep and lovely, the sound resonating deeply inside Jimin’s heart with every word that came out of his mouth.
It was lulling Jimin to sleep.
Just before the last string of his consciousness drifted away, Jimin felt a warm pair of soft lips pressing against his forehead, muttering another love confession which made his heart flutter as if it was the first time.
Jimin’s eyes brimmed with tears as the elder’s arms tightened around him to keep him close, defying the lack of gravity around them as they both basked under the white, blue and green lights of made-up stars plastered all over the moistened window of their spacecraft.
With a kiss on Yoongi’s neck, Jimin whispered, Good night, hyung.
[After fifty-seven years, the lost spacecraft Apollo 52 has finally come home—]
[The spacecraft Andromeda-34 on their lunar exploration found Apollo 52 drifting a few thousand miles from the moon’s orbit—]
[The bodies of the five astronauts aboard the famous spacecraft that launched way back in 2020 were found—]
[NASA will air live the recorded videotapes retrieved from Apollo 52 today at 7 P.M.—]
jimin
“Hello? Hello? Is it recording? Ah, yeah, it is.”
jimin
Um, this is Commander Module Pilot Park Jimin and it’s–uh, sorry. I don’t know what time or date it is because our navigation panels and clocks has long since shut down. But it’s still year 2020 so it’s alright.
Jimin licked his lower lip before lifting his gaze back to the camera.
jimin
To my parents and little brother, I love you so much, okay?
jimin
I don’t know if you’ll ever see this, but I want you to know that the entire time I’m out here in space, I’ve never once forgotten about you. I hope you’re all healthy and will live a long life.
jimin
To my best friends, Kim Taehyung and Jeon Jungkook, just marry each other and get on with it, okay? I love you both and wish nothing but happiness for you.
jimin
If ever you’re worried about me, I want you all to know that I’m fine.
jimin
Yoongi-hyung is here with me, so even though I’m scared, I could never be truly sad.
jimin
I’m posting star stickers all over the window and I think it’s kinda annoying hyung but deep inside, I know he loves them.
Jimin chuckled, eyes averting from the camera, pondering.
jimin
If… ever no one finds us in time, or if ever no one finds us at all, I want you to know that it’s okay.
Jimin looked back to the camera, tears now glossing over his eyes.
jimin
I am out here in space with the love of my life. Nothing can beat that. Both of my dreams coming true.
Jimin laughed wetly, wiping a tear that fell down his cheek.
jimin
I probably should cut it short, because the others would still have to record their message.
Jimin wiped his eyes dry for a moment before he stared back into the lens of the camera and said,
jimin
This is Commander Module Pilot Park Jimin of Spacecraft Apollo 52 on Lunar Exploration 7.8, signing off.
Yoongi chuckled humorlessly.
yoongi
I don’t think it’s been a good one ever since we drifted off the lunar orbit, but yeah…
yoongi
This is Commander Min Yoongi and I am here to report about the current status of Apollo 52.
yoongi
I’ve decided to kill off the engines to preserve our last remaining fuel to power up the heater and oxygen generator. The lights and gravity panels were shut down, together with the hydrogen pumps and boosters.
yoongi
We have dismantled the lunar and docking systems as well.
Yoongi’s eyes cast down for a second.
yoongi
We roughly have seven hours to keep our shit together.
Yoongi huffed out an amused chuckle.
yoongi
Seven hours and everything will run out. Once the oxygen generator dies, the remaining air inside the spacecraft will keep us alive for about an hour or so. But I’m not sure if that will kill us or the hypothermia that will set in once the heater turns off.
Yoongi turned his head to the side, thinking.
yoongi
At least we’ve got Jimin’s ugly phosphor stars providing us a bit of light.
The commander laughed, this time with palpable fondness that made its way to his eyes.
yoongi
I was planning of proposing to him when we get back to Earth, buy a small house for us in a quiet town near the coast and adopt a puppy or two. Perhaps a kitten too, because Jimin fucking loves cats.
Yoongi’s eyes curved up, as if recalling a happy memory.
yoongi
To my parents, brother and friends, I want you to know that I am happy because Jimin is here with me.
yoongi
But if I would be given the chance to turn back time then I would kick his *** off this mission. I would never want him to drift aimlessly in space, even if he’s with me.
Yoongi paused for a while, forefinger picking on the thin skin above his thumbnail.
yoongi
As the commander of this spacecraft, I take full responsibility of my crew’s lives.
Yoongi looked back into the camera, a rigid set on his sharp jaws.
yoongi
To their families and friends on Earth, I sincerely apologize for my incompetence.
yoongi
It has cost you and them so much, and no amount of apology could ever atone for my sins.
The commander’s lips pressed together firmly before he lifted up his head and directed his gaze towards the camera’s lens.
yoongi
This is my last report as commander of this spacecraft.
Yoongi let out a heavy breath, swallowing the lump in his throat as he stared back at the lens of the camera with as much courage that he could muster.
With a final smile, Yoongi said,
yoongi
This is Commander Min Yoongi of Spacecraft Apollo 52 on Lunar Exploration 7.8, signing off.
jisoo
*credits to the rightful owners of the photos*
jisoo
hope y'all like this
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