THE SKY IS TURNING BLACK. IT LOOKS LIKE IT IS GOING TO RAIN. I MUST GO HOME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. ACTUALLY, I WOULD HAVE RETURN TO MY HOUSE EARLIER. THANKS TO MAGGIE, I ENDED UP HELPING HIM WITH HIS ASSIGNMENT THAT IS GIVEN TWO WEEKS AGO. F YOU, MAGGIE! WHEN I ENTER MY OWN HOUSE, I GOT SHOCKED BY SEEING THE MESS. BY LOOKING AT SOMETHING LIKE THAT, IT MAKES ME WANT TO FAINT. LUCKILY, I MADE THE MESS BY MYSELF. IF NOT, I WILL BE WORSE.

I CLEAN THE WHOLE HOUSE. IT TOOK A WHILE SINCE IT LOOKS LIKE COW'S BARNYARD. I SIT ON THE COUCH, OPEN THE TV, TRYING TO RECOVER MY ENERGY. THE NEWS? KINDA SUCKS. I WATCH A KOREAN DRAMA, IT IS KINDA CLICHĒ.I CLOSE DOWN THE TELEVISION, SINCE IT IS NOT USEABLE NOW. I ON MY PHONE. I LOOK AT THE BOX MAIL, BUT EMPTY. DAMN, I REALLY GOING TO DIE BY LIVING LIKE THIS. SINGLE, YET OLD. I AM 23 YEARS OLD. YEAH, I HAVE BEEN LOVED BY SEVERAL PEOPLE, BUT I NEVER EXCEPT THEM, INCLUDING MAGGIE. HE LOVES ME, BUT I CHANGED HIS FEELING FROM A LOVER TO A FRIEND.

I TAKE A BATH AND EAT A SLICE OF BREAD FOR SUPPER. SOMETIMES, IF I DON'T HAVE SUPPER, I WILL HAVE STOMACHACHE. SOMETIMES, IT EVEN GO WORSE. EVEN A CUP OF MILK WOULD BE ENOUGH. I AM LYING ON MY BED AND RELAXING MYSELF. SINCE I AM TIRED, IT DOESN'T TAKE LONG FOR ME TO SLEEP SOUNDLY. YEP, I REALLY DO SLEEP SOUNDLY.

THE SUN IS RAISING, BURNING MY FACE. F@CK. I FORGOT TO CLOSE THE WINDOW LAST NIGHT. SINCE IT IS ALREADY SATURDAY, I MIGHT CONTINUE MY SLEEP AS WELL. DO NOT DISTURB. ME AND MY BODY ARE HAVING A GOOD NIGHT.

I AM RESTING ON MY BED. AT NOON, I FINALLY WAKE UP FROM MY BED. I TAKE A BATH, TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF CLEANER AFTER ALL THE DROOLING LAST NIGHT. I TURN ON THE TV AND WATCH IT. ALL ABOUT THE DD WOW SHOP IN THE TV. I MEAN, IT TOOK TWO HOURS. NO CARTOONS, SPONGEBOB, CRABBY PATTY.. JUST THE ADVERTISEMENT FOR ALL DAY LONG! I TURNED OUT TO BE SAD. YEP, I ACTUALLY WATCH THE NEWS. DON'T HAVE ANY OTHER IDEAS TO DO.

"GOOD EVENING, CITIZEN. TODAY'S NEWS IS ALMOST FOURTY PEOPLE DIE IN A TRIP BUS. THERE ARE TWO BUS CRASHED AT THE SAME TIME BUT DIFFERENT PLACES. POLICE ARE TRYING TO GET MORE INFORMATION ABOUT THE CASE. THE CASE PROBABLY NOT AN ACCIDENT. THERE MUST BE SOMEONE THAT WANTS TO KILL THEM. THE BUSSES ARE THE 'WE GOING' BUS AND THE 'WINTER EXPRESS'." WAIT... I FELL LIKE I HEARD THOSE NAMES BEFORE. IT IS... MY PARENTS' BUS THAT THEY ARE TAKING TO COME HERE! MY HEART IS BEATING FAST. I CONTACTED MY PARENTS. BUT, THEY DIDN'T ANSWER. I CALLED MAGGIE.

"HELLO, MAGGIE! THE BUS.. THE BUS IN THE NEWS..." MY BREATHING IS UNSTABLE. "WAIT, WHAT? WHAT NEWS? HEY, TERRY, YOU OKAY?" HE SEEMS PANICKED. MY EYES ARE BLURRY.SLOWLY, I FALL DOWN. EVERYTHING IS BLACK. WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT?

I WAKE UP AND SMELL RANDOM MEDICINE. IT IS A BAD SMELL WHICH THAT MADE ME WANT TO VOMIT SO BAD. KINDA YUCK, ACTUALLY. WHEN I GET UP FROM THE BED, SOMEONE OPENS THE DOOR. "MAGGIE? HOW COME YOU ARE HERE?" HE SIGHS. "WELL, TERRYNA... LET'S TALK," WHEN I HEARD THAT HE CALLS ME THAT, IT MAKES ME FEEL WEIRD. HE NEVER CALLS ME TERRYNA BEFORE. I SIT ON THE BED AND KEEP SILENT SINCE I DON'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING. "TERRY, YOUR PARENTS.... ARE DEAD," WHEN I HEARD THAT, I GOT SHOCKED. " WHEN THE DOCTORS EXAMINE YOUR BODY, THEY SAID THAT YOU HAVE MESOPHORTAMIA WHICH CAN'T BE CURED. I KNOW, YOU DON'T BELIEVE IT, BUT IT'S TRUE." WHEN I HEAR THAT, I FEEL SICK. MY HEART IS ACHING. MY HEAD ALSO TAKE A REACTION BY EXPLODING. " HEY, RELAX. OKAY? I WILL NEVER LET YOU HERE AND NOT BEING CURED. DON'T WORRY, I HAVE FIND A PROFESSIONAL DOCTOR. HE IS IN CANADA," I LOOK AT HIM.HIS EYE IS RED. I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON, BUT I WILL MAKE SURE TO SURVIVE FROM THIS KIND OF SICKNESS THAT CAN MAKE ME FEEL SICK WHEN I HEARD ABOUT IT.

I WALK AROUND THE GARDEN. WHEN I AM WALKING, I SEE AN OLD MAN THAT IS SITTING ON A WHEELCHAIR. IT IS SO FRIENDLY OF ME TO COME AND TALK TO HIM. HE LOOKS ME LIKE I AM SOMEONE THAT NEEDS PITIFUL. I GET MAD BUT I MANAGE TO CONTROL MY EMOTIONS WELL. I SAID TO HIM, " HELLO SIR. I AM TERRYNA." WHEN HE HEARS THAT I AM TALKING TO HIM, HE SMILES. "WELL, I AM GERRY. YOU CAN CALL ME DATUK GERRY." I FEEL WEIRD. DATUK? I NEVER KNOW THAT WORD. " CAN I KNOW WHAT IS THE MEANING OF DATUK, DATUK GERRY?" HE LAUGHS AND SAYS, " THE MEANING OF DATUK IS GRANDPA. YOU CAN CALL ME EITHER DATUK OR GRANDPA." HE SAID. "WELL, I PREFER DATUK TO USE. THANK YOU, DATUK GERRY." DATUK IS A WORD FROM MALAYSIA. PEOPLE THERE CALL THEIR GRANDPA 'DATUK', ACTUALLY.

WHEN THE NURSE TELL HER THAT SHE NEEDS TO STAY IN HER ROOM, SHE NODS. SHE SAYS GOODBYE TO DATUK GERRY. DON'T WORRY DATUK GERRY, I WILL MEET YOU AGAIN. IT IS MY PROMISE TO MYSELF.

AUTHOR WORDS FOR READERS:

HELLO, DEAR READER! I'M SORRY IF THERE ARE SOME GRAMMAR PROBLEMS IN MY STORY. I HOPE YOU GUYS WILL LIKE MY STORY EVENTUALLY. ALTHOUGH YOU GUYS ARE READERS, I RESPECT YOU AS A FRIEND. PLEASE TREAT ME AS YOUR FRIEND TOO. IF YOU GUYS HAVE ANY IDEAS IN MIND, YOU CAN SHARE WITH ME AND I WILL IMPROVE IT. DON'T WORRY, ANY KIND OF IDEAS DON'T HURT. PLEASE READ IT. I HOPE YOU GUYS CAN COOPERATE WITH ME 😉. IF YOU WANT TO SAY SOMETHING PERSONALLY, YOU CAN. JUST TAP MY ICON AND YOU WILL SEE MY OTHER WORKS AND ANYTHING ELSE THAT YOU WANT TO KNOW. ANY QUESTIONS WILL BE ANSWERED, HOPEFULLY. SINCERELY, THE AUTHOR OF 'THE EMPRESS NEVER IMPRESS' STORY.

I WAKE UP FROM MY BED. I REALIZE THAT MY TIME TO LIVE IS GETTING SHORTER EVERY SINGLE DAY. I CRY AS LOUD AS I COULD. I ALREADY STAY IN THE HOSPITAL FOR FOUR DAYS! THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO EXCEPT WAITING FOR THE DOCTOR THAT MAGGIE MENTIONED BEFORE TO GIVE ME A PERSONALLY TREATMENT. IT SEEMS LIKE MY HEALTH IS GETTING WORSE. KNOCK! KNOCK! "COME IN, PLEASE,"

"MAGGIE? IT IS YOU?!" HE NODS HIS HEAD. I SMILE WIDER. " HEY, TERRY... IT SEEMS LIKE THE DOCTOR IS COMING TOMORROW. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOUR HEALTH IN THIS DAYS. I WORRIED SICK ABOUT YOU," HE SAID. I WAKE UP FROM MY BED, HUG HIM. I FEEL LIKE HE IS MY BROTHER. A BIG BROTHER THAT OFTEN TAKE CARE OF HIS OWN SISTER. HE IS SMILING LIKE AN ANGEL. WELL, MY ANGEL.

AFTER MAGGIE VISITS ME, I KINDA BORED TO DEATH SO I TAKE A WALK IN THE SAME GARDEN, HOPING THAT DATUK GERRY WILL BE THERE TOO. YES!! HE IS HERE!! AT LEAST I CAN SPEND MY PRECIOUS TIME WITH HIM. "DATUK GERRY, I MISS YOU!" I SCREAM LOUDLY AND HUG HIM SOFTLY. I HOPE HE DOESN'T HAVE HEART PROBLEMS IF I SCREAM LIKE THAT. HE SMILES AND PATTING MY HEAD. "GIRL, I AM OLD ENOUGH. MY TIME IS LIMITED. THE DOCTOR SAID I CAN LIVE FOR A FEW DAYS LEFT," MY SMILE IS GONE. TEARS COMING OUT AND DOES NOT STOP AT ALL. MY HEART IS SUDDENLY ACHING. "NO, DATUK GERRY...I ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. I WILL OFTEN VISIT YOU, STAY WITH YOU...PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE ME... YOU ARE THE ONLY PARENT THAT I HAVE LEFT.." I CRY AND DO NOT STOP. "DATUK GERRY, ACTUALLY, I ALSO HAVE A SICKNESS. IT IS METHOPORTAMIA. NO ONE ABLE TO CURE IT." WHEN HE HEARS THAT, HIS FACE IS PALE. I GOT WORRY AND HOLD HIS BODY. SUDDENLY, HE FAINTS. "NO WAY... DATUK GERRY! NO!" I FEEL HIS HAND AND HEAR HIS HEARTBEAT. MY TEARS IS LIKE WATERFALL. IT KEEPS FALLING. "NO! DATUK GERRY, NO..... I AM SORRY... PLEASE COME BACK!" HE STAYS PUT, DOESN'T MOVE. I CAN'T HELP EXCEPT SCREAMING AND CRYING. I HUG HIM AND MY PARENTS' FACE SUDDENLY APPEAR WHEN I HUG HIM TIGHTLY.

I AM ON MY BED, WATCHING THE SKY BY LOOKING AT THE WINDOW. EVERYONE THAT I LOVE IS NOT HERE BY MY SIDE. SUDDENLY, MY HEART IS ACHING. DAMN, IT HURTS LIKE HELL! AM I GOING TO DIE ALONE HERE? I WAKE UP FROM MY BED AND STAY BESIDE THE WINDOW. MY ROOM IS ON THE FIFTEENTH FLOOR. WILL I DIE IF I JUMP FROM HERE? MY ****** BECOME WORSE. I CANNOT BREATH AT ALL. NO MATTER WHAT, I WILL NOT DIE IN AN UNCUREABLE DECEASE. I, TERRYNA WILL DIE IN MY OWN WAY! I JUMP AND FALLING. AT THAT TIME, TIME IS LIKE IN SLOW MOTION. MY MEMORIES BEING SAD, HAPPY... IT ALL APPEARS AT THE SAME TIME. SORRY, BUT... I WILL NEVER COME BACK AGAIN. IT IS NOT A CUICIDE, IT IS SAVING MYSELF FROM DYING IN AN UNCUREABLE SICKNESS.