It was morning and suddenly I fell asleep. I was thinking deeply about the dream I had.

Also, my mother is calling me, breakfast is ready, you are late for college, look what time it is ..

When I look at the clock, I go to college just like I had a long time.

After reaching college, my classmates tease me ... Look how lazy she is, she was not ready, she is not coming, she is a crazy girl!

I don't aim and walk away and there comes a boy ... I like him very much,but I could never tell him because he is very smart and very famous and all the girls are crazy for him*

Why are you bothering her? she's learning in your class. You are not well either. You should help such students and you should take them along.

he's ask me Are you alright I'm Roy. if you ever need my help tell me. i will do it for sure but i am too busy ... just remember i go i have a job.

I'm really scared. It's a dream to talk to someone like you. Isn't it (I'm pinching myself) It's really cool ...!

When I go to class, I see my classmates pouring water on my beak, but I don't know what to say to them. Maths lessons were going on and then I remembered,that I forgot my book at home! What can I do now, teacher?

teacher said Let's take yesterday's homework. Everyone has done it, right? I hid under a silent bench! But then he called me .. I told him I forgot my homework at home. Sorry teacher, I will definitely show it tomorrow.

The teacher shouted at me and told me to leave the classroom. I left quietly and everyone was teasing me ...

Today is bad day! It's all happening because of that dream and Roy comes there. I see him in such a state. I feel very ashamed of myself and I keep my neck down. I know him but I think he was in a hurry somewhere.

I am crying a lot, then Miss Rose comes, she is my favorite teacher, she talks, why are you standing here? I say,"I didn't bring my book," I'm standing here. They talk to me. Let's take a draw with me. Do you like it? And where I am not suitable for any work, painting is my life...

We go to painting classes but I don't understand what to draw. I move my hand right away and I draw something new. Draw? miss rose said,'Do you like it too As such, the boy is very good but he does not like painting ...! i draw Roy picture^^

I was a little embarrassed and said that I have loved him for 2-3 years but he is not in my class and I don't want to impress anyone. This war is the same for me.

miss said It's easy, I'll help you a lot ... Do something, take a picture of Roy and love letter give it to him. Wouldn't it be weird if I told him that he was dizzy? I'm really scared...

mam say you don't speak now but who else went and talked to him and if you see her with him you will be sad see if you can do it now it is up to you do what you want .

...Okay I will do this but before that I get close to him*...

...*TBC*...

Next day

...I know i will make friendship with him today. i know who will make friends with a crazy girl like me i won't give up......

...college gate...

Joy was in front of him talking to his classmates about something important. I noticed it, so I didn't think it was appropriate to ask I was about to leave ... but I was so frightened by Miss Rose that she stopped me...!

I asked the," why they are so worried about what happened to them"

This morning a girl in a senior student class was hanged, in her classroom and her teacher took her to Noora Hospital but she died now causing a stir in the school.

I say seriously ... it's too bad but do you understand some of the reasons?

Miss Rose spoke No, I don't know. You know about this. our so busy drawing that you don't even know what's going on outside. But all the students were saying that it was due to joy.

I was horrified to hear this but I never knew why Joy's name didn't come up. I never knew what it was.

After I left school, I stopped at school and finished my studies and there was a bullet train running around with a hundred thoughts in my headabout joy and those girl. and also my math teacher would come there and ask me if it "would help me to keep this book in the library".

I immediately said yes to them and went out to help them because in a way I was impressing them that I am also a good student.

I was alone in the library a little scared so I was putting the books in their place early on...

I got a strange sound, I was stunned .. I started sweating and I spoke loudly in fear. Who is here in front of me doing such extravagance with me....I see a shadow approaching me I close my eyes in fear A beautiful voice falls on my ears ... You are here this time.!!!

It is joy..... Sorry i thought who was joking with me "joy tell me" if everyone jokes with you every day why don't you face?why are you so afraid to talk to them why should you suffer? Do you know what time it is He grabbed my hand and rolled his watch and said, "Look, you should leave at eight o'clock." I said it was too late to let it happen but why did you stop? Why don't you go home? I was doing my job so I was late! I was also leaving my work but I was watching who is here

If you're done, let's go home with me if you don't mind!

I was satisfied to hear his words and in a hurry I said yes and no but I am really blind. joy is confused..! what do you say speak soon i will not leave so you stay here? I said a little embarrassed yes yes yes I come with you,have no problem. They ignored it but we walked together.. He asks me why are you like that why do you think so scared and silent now i ask you...?

I said "My mother taught me not to argue with anyone and to treat the enemy with love. I don't care. I like to be a simple girl."He replied in lovely voice."I like girls who are shy like you let them go,Is it true that I have heard about you? I was shocked and asked.!tell me what you heard about me? early he's said you draw well and you're in drawing class all day.You're crazy, but there's no such thing as an artist. It's not easy to be like them. I said that Thanks to me for having respect in your heart for all the artists.

Hey, we've been talking for a long time. You've come a long way . I'm very hungry. Where did you come from? I said "if you are very hungry, my house is near. Let's go and eat there Say yes without thinking joy and we went home my.. My mother was shocked to see one of my friend... because no one has come to my house before because no one has come so close friend me before. Joy greeted my mom and started questioning her without hesitation. "I'm so hungry."Mom smiles and says "come on baby, sit down soon, I already have made a meal .. "she grows up loving him, joy tells me, "you also joined as sit down to eat, I don't like to eat alone Aunty, you too joined..."Mother smiled and spoke,"yes yes child".

He was eating like a wild tiger. I smiled a little when He said, "I am laughing at you. I see today that you look so beautiful." My mother was smiling when she heard that I was very embarrassed ... It was too late. He asks me if I have a telephone at home?I took this sideways and telephone He called his house and told him that I was staying at a friend's house because I was late and it was not a good time to come back. And he puts down the phone and happily tells me," we'll both have fun tonight". I'm very very shy... We both went to the room. He was looking at my picture. He liked it. But suddenly his eyes fell on the pictures in which he was. There is unique art in your hands Can I kiss that hand? yes sure I said.. (shy)

I'm totally mad about thisIt's not a dream, I'm tweaking it again, but it's really happening in my life He asks me,"you like me"? i think because i'm heard somewhere you can take a picture of your boyfriend without looking at him and it's true that i wasn't in front of you then? you crush on me..?Really tell me about this I said shyly this yes...

Ok i will think about you! If for sure play a song and dance with me, keep voice low, no one is bothered. I said yes and play Beautiful song well, We were dancing. he asks Do you have alcohol in your house?If it wasn't for me, I would order it I'm bidding but it's whiskey. you like it? yes of course Just bring me some ice and just a glasses Okay I'll bring it right away...

We both got drunk but he started crying. I felt a little bad and I asked him why are you crying ..? He said" the girl who committed suicide today she was my girlfriend." I don't know why she ended her life. I never bothered her, but she didn't think about what she wanted to do. She never thought about what would happen to me. it's my fault ,i could not take care of her, i will never hurt her, i never understood all wrong it because of me.. merry... come back! forgive me come back in my life. i will take care of you like a flower..!!!With that he fell asleep,I can understand the grief .. I put a sheet on it and I slept on the bed.

...*TBC*...

I woke up in the morning and went to Joy. He looked like a cute dog as if I was going to fall in love with him again.

He is sleep deprived. He wakes me up confused and says I have a headache. I drank too much. I'm sorry last night. No problem, wait, I'll get you some coffee, I'll take it and you'll be fine I leave the room and go to the kitchen to make coffee. Mom comes and asks me do you like him? I say yes to her. She is very happy to hear this and speaks but you take care of yourself and her in this relationship. I don't expect anything from her yet.

I took his coffee and he drank it immediately and he left without saying anything. I think he must be having a hard time ...

I didn't sleep well so I went to school lazily. I arrived at the school and sat in the classroom. History was being taught. I slept with my head on the bench. "A girl was in front of me, She spoke in a low voice, joy is too bad you don't go near him he will kill you as he took me killed please listen to me i say for your good! I woke up scared, soaked with sweating too much and I ran into the restroom asking the teacher it's bad dream... But who was she?Joy's girlfriend? No I'm thinking too bad so it's happening I'm getting selfish for joy ... Ohh my mind!#

Some senior class students come to the restroom and talk about the merry. I was listening to it like a thief. First girl: Poor merry, how simple it was and joy is mafiya boy. second girl: girls joy was not cheating, she was arguing with a married man ...! Third girl: The truth is that the police will see it now. our don't want to put your head in it, otherwise the police will suspect you. Let's go to class now. They go away but I want to know the truth ... I go out and go to the drawing class because that's where I'll find peace Miss Rose is there, she is very busy working on some projects, so I don't see them. I was trying to draw something, but my hand makes a picture of merry. She is sad in that picture. I don't know if it is made by my hand. A student comes merry is your a girlfriend I don't move my neck . I say no, he says, then why did you draw her? I'm crying i don't know why this is happening to me i think not well today i go home bye ...

I went home crying. I was crying in the bedroom with my head under the pillow."Suddenly joy comes into my room and asks me what happened don't you feel good?" I speak in anger. You can't come into someone's room without as permission Why have you come? I saw you crying and I didn't feel well so I followed and should I come to my girlfriend's room with permission? I don't think he needs it! I'm not your girlfriend ...! Do you understand that your girlfriend ended her life now and you want a new girlfriend? he said,"Because what she did will happen to me today and tomorrow because I'm in depressed this time. I need support you.If you don't want to pay, tell me so I won't force it on you".I says there is no such thing as I like you Give me some time...Ok i need your answer tomorrow he pushes me against the wall and kisses me deeply!:* Now you will definitely think about me i love you bye...And he immediately ran away My anger melts away than kissed me. Why did he go so crazy for me?Does he really love me? ? I have to be careful.

...next day...

Joy was waiting for me at the school gate. I saw her and i was walking towards the front with her neck down. He held my hand and led me to a place where no one was.

He asked in a romantic voice, "What have you decided now? Tell me soon, someone will see you both." I am saying this by moving my eyelids He understands my yes, he kisses me happily and runs away saying I love you.. I smile heartily and walk to class. I have fantastic thoughts about it in my head and when I see a piece of paper sticking to my head from the window outside, it is joy. They had something written on that paper. read it come in at four o'clock in room no ××× .. he yells at him with a pencil and even teases him he runs away fast everyone looks at me and talks she's is crazy girl (yes I'm full crazy girl only about joy i fall in love)

...*TBC*...