I'm Losing Me
just my things
a light slowly appears in complete dark world. A boy who is all alone, no one who looks familiar to him. Long stairs heading towards a shining door, Do I have to go there. Now I can feel that the lonely person in dark world is me, I am heading towards the door slowly so that none can hear me stepping on these stairs. A knife in my hand, full of blood dripping from its edges.
Did I kill anyone, why I am full of tears, it's all pain of depression going through my veins, I can't handle the pain, the more I think, the more tears come out of my eyes.
a black energy is revolving around me. I am not this kind of person, rave , there's another door, I am going to open the door now... a girl lying on the bed... kind of cute and beautiful, black hairs, big eyes, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, as I head closer to her, a fantasy inside me thrashes my mind, I want to be with her, a night, may be the best night I could ever have, but I have to do this....for myself, I know I will be dead inside after I do it but can't help it, I am on the edge to die...to save myself...I must do it...I took the knife out, holding in both hands, before I hit her with the knife, tears came out from my eyes and the shining light blinds me completely.
Rave
(yawns)...grandpa....is it raining outside?
zuel
yes son, it is raining hard...I think you should take a leave from your school today.
Rave
yayy!! now I can have fun all day.
zuel
(laughs) kids these days..
Rave
i should just sit at my window to look outside my house...the weather...when it rains... everyone just feel happy and stress-free even if just watch the drops dripping on leaves.... beautiful flowers...with a little of sunshine...it's always perfect.
bell rings on rave's phone
himan
hey!! buddy...it's been so long of raining that we haven't played any game today....is there any plan for today as Zoro and Edward are also eager....
Rave
that's good!!.. as soon as the rain stops...meet me at the school ground.
Rave
inform Zoro and Edward...we will have fun today
himan
they are with me at my house... don't worry...we will be there.
himan
yes...he will be there as soon as the rain stops..
RAVE IS WAITING AT SCHOOL GROUND FOR THEM TO COME......
Rave
you all are always late....by the way you know one thing..???
Edward
Ohh no...another stupid question...
himan
tell me...what is it??
Rave
a kangaroo can jump ever higher than your house
himan
wait what!! are you kidding...
zoro
how can this be possible??
Rave
it is possible unless your house learns how to jump..😂😂
himan
oh come on...not again
zoro
you will never change...Rave
Edward
i have even started imagining what if our houses use to walk around....jump...have meals...
Rave
of course....I will be honoured to see himan's house making love with Zoro's house at night😂
himan
if this starts happening...there will be earthquake every night at someone's house...if you know what I mean😂
zoro
hey...look!! there's a cute girl walking aroung the park
himan
she is yagami from our class you malnutritioned child😂
Rave
you all have fun here...let me just go and talk to her...
Rave reaches out for yagami
yagami
Rave...what are you doing here...??
yagami
for me...what happened...?
Rave
himan, Zoro and Edward over there dared me to at least walk a round of the park with you or I will be asked to do things that I don't want to...you can understand 😅
yagami
you boys never lose a chance to be weird I must say...
yagami
I'm ok with it...till you bore me..
Rave
i never bore anyone...and by the way you know one common thing between all the flowers...??
yagami
nope...what is it???
Rave
they all are beautiful like you...
yagami
(blushes).....have your friends also dared you to flirt with me???
Rave
hell! no...these are like.....just my things...
Rave
i notice everything...
yagami
i guess you have noticed something in me too...
Rave
i did....you are mostly trying to do your hairs behind your ears...or just messing with your fingers...which means you are not even slightly bored talking to me and trying to be calm in front of me doesn't matter how much messy your thoughts are right now
yagami
(laughs loudly) haaah!! noob
yagami
your dare is complete...
Rave
it was not dare...it was like a complete date for me..
himan
what happened there ...Rave??
Rave
she is completely into me...
himan
oh shut up...you dreamer
Edward
you will be beaten to hell by others if you did continue to do the same....
Rave
I'm sure she is really interested in me ....confess that you all are jealous of me now...
himan
(laughs loudly)...haaah!!! noob
Rave
(looks angrily to himan)
himan
don't be angry my child....it will be night at any moment...you all just go home and have your dinner fastly...we will meet together at Rave's house...we will have fun
zoro
don't you want to go home and sleep...
Edward
oh...come on... there's a life ahead of sleep...
zoro
and that life Don't deserve me😂
Rave
i will clean up my room and we will talk a lot today...
Rave
hey!!! himan....you told us someday before that when you were about to reach your home and a bee bit you...
zoro
I'm gonna pass out...
Rave
come home early or my grandpa will bit you😂
Am I attractive?
yagami
Hey! Lisa...are you taking classes??
Lisa
Yes but what happened?? is their anything urgent or something?
yagami
nope..it's just that I want to talk to you about something
Lisa
something?? go on...I'm all ears
yagami
ahh....not here..let's go in the park...it will be awesome like we will bunk our classes not to have fun but just to talk
Lisa
that is not a great idea...just like your face...(laughs)
yagami
oh come on!! I think I'm cute... don't you think..eh!!
yagami
boys do really find me cute..
Lisa
ok now I am having some ideas of what you are about to talk...
Lisa
there's a bench...let's sit there
Lisa
now tell me what happened??
yagami
i just want to ask.. think like a boy...am i attractive??
Lisa
what kind of stupid question is that??
yagami
just answer babe...
Lisa
ok so first tell me what happened??
yagami
so there's one guy...he approached me and he is kind of interesting ...
Lisa
don't describe too much or you will find me beside him saying hello he is my boyfriend..to you
yagami
no I'm not...we just met...I'm not saying that we never meet but I never thought he will approach me like....you know
Lisa
see honey!! I don't know who he is...and what does he like.. everyone has a different taste..
Lisa
you never know...most important thing is...he must know your personality...
Lisa
by face... attraction will fade away...
scene changes to Rave and his friends...
zoro
wait what happened...it's just a normal question
Rave
like seriously...who loves personality??
Rave
as if the top qualifier of personality development classes gets most of the proposals..
Edward
so what.. according to you..is most attractive in girls...if not personality
Rave
I prefer thighs...and waist more...
scene changes to yagami....
yagami
so you are saying...we must know each other's personality first to get into relationship
Lisa
yes!! if you want to take it for long... there's an advantage like you know how he is....it will be easy to adjust...
himan
what..why is that...
Rave
you know the difference between school time friends and relationships
Rave
when we are in school...we make friends according to ourselves...we never make adjustments...you never want to subtract anything within you...
Rave
if he is like you...adds fun to your life... adventure and time wasting moments...you make him your best friend...
zoro
and in relationship??
Rave
in relationship...you just know even from the beginning that you have to adjust...
Rave
no one in his life wants to be bounded...
yagami
is it important to adjust according to someone?? be something that you were never...
Lisa
you need to make adjustments...it's natural...
Lisa
have you seen any plant in tropical areas or in dense forests...??
Lisa
they want to live...they want sunlight...and where they get sunlight...they bend accordingly
Lisa
if you want to make an unbreakable wall...you need to fit in the vacant part of it by making adjustments...
Lisa
and for the question that you asked...if face is important...no it's not...
Rave
nope ....for me at least..face is least important...
zoro
what if someone is not attractive by face...??
Rave
I'll use handkerchief...and then can have sex...(laughs)
zoro
hail the RAVE saint...
scene changes to Lisa....
Lisa
let him know what you are from inside...
yagami
let's see if I can manage to talk to him today...
They all meet in corridor....
Rave
yagami...how are you??
zoro
(whispers in himan's ears.) Lisa is damn hot... isn't she??
himan
stay away...she is your sister in law...
zoro
this means war....( with angry attitude)
Lisa
hey!! Rave...what are you doing here..
Lisa
(whispers in yagami's ears..)...yagami...say something..
yagami
I'm good...I'm good ...(with a little shyness)
Rave
we are going to play football....want to join us...??
yagami
no.. no...I love my face ( stammered)
Rave
in cheering ( completing his question looking strangely at yagami)
Edward
(Whispers in Zoro's ears)...why the hell is yagami too much excited?
zoro
she is always in excitement...(Whispers)
Lisa
Sure...we will see how our classmates play...(sarcastically)
rave and his friends were Playing....
Lisa
why were you acting so strangely there??
yagami
actually...babe...rave is the guy who approached me... yesterday when I was roaming in park..
Lisa
he is too much attractive...for you...and even me
Lisa
he must be just messing around... don't take it seriously
yagami
i dont know...may be you are right...
Rave came near them for drink and took off his t-shirt
Lisa
(excitedly)...he is so hot...I'm gonna die
yagami
shhhhh....say slowly..or he will catch us talking about him
Lisa
I'm in love with him ( with hearts in her eyes... metaphorically)
Lisa
i just want to kiss him hardly right now...i can't control...
yagami
will you just shut up...
Lisa
imagine yagami...he is with you and he grabs your waist and kisses you ( in excitement)
yagami
you are insane...i will never imagine that...
Lisa
yagami....(shouts in whole crowd)
yagami
(still in imagination)
(whole crowd shouts)...yagami....
yagami
(still in imagination)
(whole management shouts on speaker)....yagami...
yupp!! that's right...she is still in imagination and now we also want to know what she is imagining....must be something horny and naughty....
she's on radio....(everyone on radio shouts...) yagami...
on TV news channels..( anchor shouts..) yagami....
scene changes to outside world..in somewhere....
aliens...still trying to decode (with naughty laugh) what yagami must be imagining
RAVE naked in yagami's imagination gets up from his bed and says....yagami...what are you doing... answer everyone
yagami sees TV news reporters everywhere and UFO'S camera down towards her to get an answer what she was imagining...
Nope...that's not what happened....
Lisa
what were you thinking??
yagami
i was imagining him( hearts in eyes)
yagami
him!...him... Himalayas, I was saying...(with confusion and shyness)
Lisa
what are you thinking??
yagami
am I attractive?? (looking at rave with disappointment)
Lisa
(falls down the bench)....
It's dating time
It was the night time...when it started raining...I'm in my bed.
Oh my! I was inside my blanket and it was warm. I was naked, I can feel a hand on my chest, long nails....I kept my hand on it and pressed it. Lights were off, I can't see anything but still I can feel her warm body beside me. She was lying on her belly, long hairs...I put my hand on her hairs and they were messed up..
I moved towards her and i can feel her breathing hard....lips were apart...like they were inviting me to touch them...i came more closer and i kissed on her lips...the electric power shock wave is what now i can feel...i put my hand on her waist...slided my hand up from her naked waist...and kissed her neck...I grabbed her hairs tightly and she dropped her head backwards and I gave her a bite...a love bite...I get closer to her and kissed her and now again a electic power shock wave inside my body....
I kissed her hardly and as i increased my kissing intensity..the shock got more powered up... and i kissed her hardly again and it was a hard shock that i felt and i dont remember what happened....
i took my tongue out to feel and I felt a shock again....
I took my tongue out again and was trying to feel suddenly I opened my eyes and I was just about to put my tongue inside the electric board hole....
Rave
what the hell am I doing?
himan
exactly that is what we all are also trying to understand from past 3 hours
Rave
what's wrong with me?
zoro
what's wrong with you??
Edward
we are here to study at himan's house and as we started to study...you felt asleep
zoro
and trying to kiss a stupid electric board
himan
(with naughty look) what were you thinking?? something horny I can say
Rave
ahhh....forget about it....I'm done with studies...I'm going home
zoro
I'm still working on my assignment...I will leave after some time
himan
see you at school tomorrow
It was next day morning when i was running to get to my school....
I came in my corridor and it was her in front of me.... standing at the door...may be she had some work here
Lisa
(whispered) yagami...he is coming...ask him
yagami
(whispered)... don't push me...I will...just be calm
Rave
hey! Lisa...what are you doing here ..hey yagami
Lisa
We were just passing by and yagami thought that she can ask you about something
yagami
(confusingly) ah...yes I mean no...I mean yes!!
yagami
I'm thinking to bunk my classes today and it's cloudy weather out...I thought it would be better to hang around
Rave
yeah! go ahead.... that's a great idea...have fun
i was just about to enter my class and then i realised..
Rave
Do you mind if I Join you after sometime as I have a important class right now
Lisa
No no that will be fine...yagami is totally free...she can wait...
yagami
(whispered) will you please shut up
Rave
that's great...meet me at the park then
I entered my class and i was completely bored so I started watching out of my class room...
I saw a notebook falling from the sky....
I was WAITING for that notebook to get its front cover towards me so that I can read what's written on it
Rave
Damn!! is it a death note (thinking curiously)
As soon as the class was over....I ran towards the place where the notebook dropped....
Rave
it is a black coloured notebook
Rave
I'm sure it's a death note...
Rave
Thank you God of death (looking up towards the sky with proud emotions in my eyes)
I looked down and turned it towards its front cover....
And with double the speed and negligible proud emotions but tears in my eyes....I looked up at the sky and said....
Rave
God of Love (angrily)
Rave
what the hell is this....
Rave
seriously?? shiro loves shinoa.....Shinzo loves San....horse loves deer...
Rave
the love note is going in wrong hands I guess
Rave
i was just coming to you
Rave
and I found a note here
yagami
(curiously look in eyes) a death note
I turned backwards and asked God...
Rave
Why God why?? Am I a joke to you??
Yes my son....I'm still laughing...see
Rave
what's that noise...you heard it??
yagami
nope...maybe your eardrums are playing drums
Rave
you will love the traveling...I travel a lot
yagami
let's see where you take me....hope I like it as I had a hard day today
Rave
it's completely fine...trust me
I took her to a railway station...
yagami
a railway station??
we were waiting for a train to come...
yagami
where are we going??
Rave
just 6 stations far...
Rave
how many questions will you ask...come the train has come
I was sitting near the door and yagami came and stood near me....She was wearing a short skirt and a white shirt...it was our school's uniform....
Rave
(thinking) damn she's cute
I grabbed her hand and asked her to sit....it started raining and she sat beside me
Rave
Do you know that I love traveling?
yagami
no...you never told me
yagami
why do you love traveling?
yagami
but you are travelling by train
Rave
(thinking to look angrily towards her)... running from sadness
yagami
but you always seem so happy
Rave
yes I am but I still think I should have stayed...
Rave
they live 6 stations far from the place where I live now...
yagami
so we are going there now?
Rave
No...it's just...I just always feel the air there...
yagami
i am not understanding...why??
Rave
They are alive...and I always wanted them to be together with me...I always go there and feel the air...which they breathe in...
Rave
I never want to lose connection between me and them
yagami
(looking sadly) it's fine Rave...not everything happens in your way...
yagami
at least you know that how your parents look...
yagami
my mom died giving birth to me and my dad left me outside their house saying I was unlucky
yagami
a lady then took me at her place and she took care of me
Rave
my parents were drug addict
Rave
i watched them die for drugs everyday...
Rave
they used to hit each other for drugs...
Rave
I was afraid to live with them as may be someday they will kill me too
yagami
(puts finger on Rave's lips) don't talk nonsense...you are here with me...alive...and So me too...
yagami
we both have a long life to live ahead
and she came a little closer to me....and we both kissed
Rave
thanks for understanding me
yagami
that's fine...we both are on the same page
Rave
yeah!! let's go to school now we are already late...
the loom that yagami gave me with her eyes...I can see love through her eyes... that's cuteness of her cheeks..I can never get over them... those legs...I just want to use them as my pillow
Rave
hey ! yagami....would you like to go on a date with me??
She started walking away from me....and then after 7-8 steps...she stopped and said....
yagami
tonight at 8...near school as I don't know your address
Rave
Sure!! I will be there
it was the night time and I left my home ...
Rave
I'm on time...let's see if she reaches on time or not...
I waited for 5 mins... and then she came...
Rave
(with a shiny look in my eyes) wow...
She wore some kind of a long one piece dress...blue in colour... looking like a princess
Rave
Hi... yagami...you look so pretty
yagami
thanks and you look fine Rave
yagami
I was saying...my aunt is out of town for tonight...she will come tomorrow evening...you can come to my place...we will talk a lot
Rave
that's a damn good idea (imagining the scenes inside her house...her bed..and romantic night)
she took my to her house and it was like Nobita's house from Doraemon series
she took me to her lawn....
Rave
(thinking) lawn...that will be quite an open place...but it's ok...I will manage...
yagami
hold the pipe and climb up...(smiling)
Rave
first you go..then I will
yagami
you sure you will be able to...I have practiced it alot
yagami
now I can easily climb it
Rave
Don't underestimate me
she grabbed the pipe with her hands and as she placed her one leg on the wall...I grabbed her waist....
yagami
(surprisingly)...what are you doing Rave??
Rave
(with a naughty smile)... nothing just helping you...
yagami
(smiles..and shakes her head)
I started doing the same and I fell down..
yagami
ok!!...come fast or you will miss the feeling
Rave
(thinking) you will break my bones or kill me by making me doing all this just for a feeling.
yagami
ahh....rave...you said something??
Rave
No no...Just remembering Jesus
I rushed and I went half way up but my leg slipped and I fell down on my back...
Rave
i think i broke my back...
yagami
shit!... Rave...wait...let me come there
i was about to ask how you will jump and i heard a sound of opening a window...
she came down and i asked her...
Rave
from where you came down??
yagami
from the stairs and window
i was looking angrily to her...
Rave
Yess...I am..but just a cramp in my back...
She took me inside her room..and asked me to sit on the bed
yagami
here you go Rave...have some water...
She came closer to me to give me more water but I looked in her eyes
She was looking so cute that I couldn't resist and I kissed her...
She hitted my shoulders...and l was lying on her bed...she came over me...and we started kissing hardly....I got my hands on her waist and and then down to her thighs...
SCENE CHANGES AND SHOWS MOON FROM THE WINDOW....
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