It was really a cold night like any other night ,but the way the moon glistened off the ground, I just could not stay inside. The sky was so clear and bright, but the air was strangely chilled to the bone which makes me feel like something has been pushing me to do one important thing that I should have done it for a long time ago. At the same time, I also feel like I’m being watched by something strange from far away and about to strike me at any minute .Suddenly, I can feel a very strong energy is being busted out from my body and my blood is boiling so hot inside my entire body. Because of that, it makes me remember something that I have long forgotten and never wanted to remember again in this meaningless life. I remember all those stories as clearly as day right now and I'm not sure If I am lucky enough to able to forget it again this time. Since right now I already told you about it and might also make you a little bit curious about what kind of story it's going to be , I think this is the right time for me to tell this unsual story of the dream which I have buried it for a long time ago. It is about one strang story which haunted me and also motivated me to live at the same time. People might think it’s just a normal story but trust me it is one the story that you wish it would never happen to you in reality.When we talk about dream, I think most people tend to refer it to some kind of goals or careers that they aim or want to be in the future. However, in this story, the dream that I want to talk about , is something that we can only see when we close our eyes in our deep sleep. According to the study of psychology , dream is a succession of image, ideas, emotions, and sensation that usually occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep. Because of that, some people strongly believe that each dream has its own meaning and reasons. In contrast of that, most of us likely to forget everything when we wake up from it. There are only a few people who are lucky enough to remember briefly about their own dreams because once we are inside our own dream, everything seems to be out of control. We cannot control ourselves as we do in reality. Sometime , our personality also has changed base on what kind of dream we are in. We only manage to remember our dream when we wake up in the middle of process that psychologists called it as "R.E.M".Worse case than that, there’s also a chance that we might wake up in the middle of our dream and get stuck with no possible ways to control our body and wake up from that dream. It’s like our souls are being separated from our body which prevent us from controlling it for a short period of time which some people addressed it as "sleep paralysis".

Talking about sleep paralysis, there are some beliefs from people around the world that it's not just a normal sleep paralysis, but it is something more than that. They think that our body is being controlled by ghosts or some evil creatures that is why we cannot move our body as we please. There are also some people who believe that there's no such thing as " Sleep paralysis " but it's just a normal dream instead.

Do you think it’s actually happened in our real life? To people, this topic might be only just some folk tales or just some ridiculous rumors that people have been talking from generation to generation. But to me, it’s not just some rumors because I have experienced it all by myself since I was young. It was one of the worse feelings that I have ever felt in my life. Thinking back to that time, it was like a living hell to me whenever the night comes.

I always wishes that the day was longer than the night and I want it to come as fast as possible. Night time has been torturing me for eternity because every time I closed my eyes and tried to sleep , there was always something strange which came to me and kept me out of my control. I could not move my body no matter how hard I tried to resist. At the end of the day. the only thing that I could do was laying on my bed staying still waiting for the Sun to rise. It has been like that for quite some time and there was not a single day that I did not pray for everything to be back to the way it was. Days by days, life had getting worse as time passed by. I had reached the point where I’m too scared to even close my eyes right now because If I did, I would be reminded by the stuffs that I’d been enduring and the scary memories that I’m trying to forget. It’s not like I had never tried to move my body or something. I always did what I could but the result was always the same. Even if it's like that but I never gave up trying, not even a second even though I know I couldn’t do anything to help myself at all. I tried to reach out a few people about that but it seemd like I was just liar to them and just wanted attention. Because of that, I decided not to tell my close friends and even my family about it because I already knew that they are not going to believe it anyway. So , that’s the reason why I wanted to bury it with me and keep it as one of my biggest secrets and I also planned to take all of them with me until the day I leave this meaningless life.

One day, something has changed completely when I met one particular person.

a person whom I never met before. At that time, I’m not sure whether it’s fate or something, I have met someone who has been facing the same problems as me.The same person who’d been fighting with our own fear. We talked with each other a lot about that. We share our experiences and problems together. Every time we met, we talked more and more about that as If it was something interesting when in fact it’s something that took away our happiness for a long time ago. We’re getting closer from day by day without even realizing it. I have never imagined that the thing that haunted me most in my entire life turned out to be the thing that connected me with someone I have never known before and become so close like this, sometime I feel like this is just a long dream because this is just too unrealistic that even I myself doubt it too sometime. Not soon enough till I realized that its not just a dream that I’m enjoying but a nightmare as well. She suddenly disappeared without leaving any traces like a strong wind in the high sky. I tried to contact her in any ways but it doesn’t work at all. it seems like her whole existence has been erased completely from this world without any reasons. The person that I used to share my problems, the person that gave me happiness, is gone. At the same time, I also felt like I just woke up from a very long dream and piece of my heart is already gone. It would be better If this is all just a dream but I need to accept my reality and keep moving forward because whether I believe it or accept it or not, life still goes on with or without her. One thing that scared me most was that after she disappear, the sleep paralysis has been disappear as well. This has put me in a blank mind. I couldn’t think of anything but keep wondering how are these two things connected? is it possible that the thing which has been torturing me is also the one that gave me happiness as well?

That question has been stuck in my mind for a while but I couldn’t come up with any answers or clue at all. Even if we have known each other for just a short period of time but the pain and happiness that she gave me is unimaginable that I felt lucky that I was able to survive it even thought is already broken for a long time ago. However, I also felt grateful for her that my worst nightmare is gone whether I’m not sure she’s the one who made it disappear or not because at least we met and had a very great time talking with each other about our secret and our worse fear. If possible, I hope that we wear able to meet each other again even just for a short period of time because I have so many questions that I wanted to ask her and I don’t expect any answer back. I just want to speak out what’s inside my mind so that she could understand me even just for a little bit I’m still okay with it.

Unfortunately, no matter how much I wanted to say and no matter what ways I tried to do. everything is already over between me and her. she’s already long gone just like a thin air with nowhere to be found and soon enough everything about her will be fading as well just like memories that we soon forget after a long dream. it’s the first time in my life that I wish something become a dream since I’ve been living my whole life in fear of closing my eyes so this seems like a fact that I wouldn’t even are to admit it but I guess this is it about the story between me and her.