As if I have taken cold medicines

I am drifting in sleep yet I want to write about you... I want to let it go but I Can't Stop Loving You!

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Hello to everyone, good morning I am kerra sheikh and you are listening to radio FM 89.2.

those who are still in bed with the dream of their first love in eyes getup before they end up with someone else!.....

Diya from the south has asked, "mam if I should confess my crush that I love him or not ?"

Dear," fill free to ask if you love someone or else another person might do it before you there is nothing to lose if you confess, there is a chance that he might love you!"

From diya to whom she love lets hear song,

(thousand years by Christina Perri)

All the best to all who wished to be together with their first love... I am signing off now goodbye till tomorrow...

saiky asked,"Kerra, you are looking pretty , is something special happening today?"

oh nothing, I was just supposed to meet one of my senior from the university, said kerra.

I am glad you could move on from your first love, said saiky

(Kerra smiled and left from the radio station to the cafe where she was supposed to meet with her senior Azhar )

hey, I am really sorry for being late said, kerra...

It's okay I wasn't here for a long time said, Azhar.

So have you ordered something yet?

I did, I have ordered a cup of coffee for me and a cup of tea without sugar for you.

Thank you Azhar, no one knows me better than you.so why did you call me today?

first of all, calm down and listen to me carefully without being panicked.

just say it already Azhar, is there anything I can help you with?

kerra, I want to be with you.i love you!

I have somehow guessed you are going to say something like this . Azhar , I respect you but I..

I deserve a chance kerra, I know about your fear of love.. it's okay if you don't love me please don't say no!

it's just...okay I will give this a chance but don't expect anything which is not possible

I can never be in love with you...

(after having dinner Azhar and kerra took a bus for kerras hostel.. every day this is the routine they have been following for 4 years but something has changed as Azhar give a kiss on kerras forehead when he was saying goodbye which definitely prove how much he care about her but for kerra Azhar wasn't much more than a good friend)

how was your date? tell me in detail.. asked, over enthusiastic saiky.

Stop smirking like a fool saiky, we had some food and nothing happened!

but senior said he was going to propose you....!

So it was your idea, huh you know that I love someone else how could you do that!

For God sake kerra sheikh, it's been 7 years since that first love thing happened..and that man doesn't even know how much you love him!

(Kerra knows there's no way she could be with him ,during this past 7 years there was 30 boys who she had rejected cause she can't let go her first love...stupid isn't it? but you can't help it when you love someone...you can't forget your first love no matter how much you try to forget him..)

saiky, be calm and listen to me first I have said that I will give his love a chance!

Aww, kerra I am so glad you did give a chance to Azhar .may you have four children in the future!

Thank you, saiky ,I am tried I want to sleep now and you have classes tomorrow good night.

(kerra is laying in her bed admiring the moon and thinking how she end up loving someone she can't even have a dream to be with!)

one drop of tear left the corner of kerras eyes

and like every day she dreamt about her first love again...

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Note:hey guys, this is my first novel I am a poet not a novel writer yet I wanted share this story...forgive me if there was any mistake....

A night full of talking that hurts,

my worst held-back secrets.Everything

has to do with loving and not Loving.

this night will pass.

Then we have work to do..(by Rumi )

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Like every day kerra woke up at 5 am, she had performed her morning prayer, she had made a list about the things she will do today. ... she did make breakfast and lunch box...now she is getting ready for university for today she have chosen a white dress with simple make up.(the fact is she can not do make up!)

Hey saiky, getup or else you will be late for your morning class!

Aish Kerra, it's 8 am now you are waking me up ,you should have woke me up earlier I have a microbiology class at 8.30 am...

It's your punishment for tomorrow...now stop complaining or else Mr.james is going to cut your attendance mark!

Kerra, I will take my revenge . I am going to complain Azhar about you.

Happily do that later but for now, stop whining and getup !

I am leaving for the the radio station .see you at lunchtime.

(Kerra is now at radio station waiting for going on air with the thumbs up of her radio engineer show starts)

Good morning south Carolina, I am your Kerra and you are listening to radio 89.2 FM...those who has to attend office at 10 hope you would be able to reach at time.

we have got message from Ava she is a high school girl .she asked, "hey kerra, what should I do if I fall in love with someone who is beyond perfect than me?" is there any chance that he will love me back!

Dear Ava, so what, if he is perfect! love him without limitation ,without conditions he will feel your love and even if he doesn't feel your love be brave ask if he loves you or not..

and lastly don't expect that he will love you back...trust me it hurts when things does not go according to expectations..loving someone unconditionally has it's own sweet taste!

The next song is dedicated to Ava's one sided love, the song is "I like you , by yeasabela" ( songs playing now )

Goodbye, everyone, I will be back tomorrow till then keep listening to 89.2 FM.

(Kerra has analog electronic class at 11.30 and Azhar is here to take her to the university

They have sir besides at university bus , kerra is looking outside the window while, Azhar is looking at her but as always Kerra has not noticed Azhar's glance, with small amount of time they are in front of university )

Kerra, "can I hold your hand?" Azhar asked sweetly.

Kerra was hesitating but she does not want Azhar to be sad..so she said, okay you can!

Kerra's friends were asking, if there'ssomething going on between her and Azhar.what she did was only smiling.

Analog class started with the teacher taking attendance .Mr.williams taught about Machine and motor today It was a pretty boring class yet Kerra tried to focus on taking notes...

( After class Azhar, Kerra and saiky was sitting at the cafeteria while other friends were talking about Azhar and Keras relationship and during that time they heard the announcement that because of sudden viral flu between everyone they are going to have an extra class about how to prevent this epidemic situation)

Huh, why do we have to do this kind of class saiky said? sounding annoyed by the sudden announcement.

Let's head towards the auditorium said, Azhar (as their lunch is over.)

they were sitting at the audience position meanwhile, the medical team arrived at stage..and Kerra was shocked to see someone she least expect it to be there. during these 7 years she has occasionally seen him in the family programs but never dare to talk and now he is here.

she thought, isn't it strange we know each other for so long yet we are stranger!

After the lecture, Kerra's senior asked her ,if she could take the medical team at the department head office? and again she couldn't refuse!

The department head office was at the second building it took time to reach there so during that time she had a chit-chat with other doctors but she never looked at romano...

It's the department heads office have a nice talk. I have a class so I will be taking your leave said, Kerra.

Like, always Dr.Romano keeps quiet as if they are strangers.

Thank you miss for guiding us one of the medical team members said.

(Azhar was waiting for Kerra they left the University together holding hands . Kerra felt that someone was watching her but she thought she was only assuming stuff.)

Azhar again took her to the hostel and kissed her on the forehead.

Kerra was laying at the bed, thinking what happened 8 years ago and how she fallen love with Dr.romano.the sight of her first awkward meeting flashed across her mind...

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hey, even if I don't know if someone is going to read my novel or not but I wish that everyone would have someone who is going to love him\her unconditionally!

we would love to hear about your first love at the comments .i would be glad to know that I am not the only fool who love unconditionally! ❤❤❤❤❤

The minute I heard my first love story

I started looking for you, not knowing

how blind that was.

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere

They are in each other all along. (by Rumi)

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(flash back)

I am going to break my own records for being late, said Kerra.

( Kerra was running so that she could get on the bus her luck wasn't at her side like always! she missed the bus. she was helplessly waiting for another bus where she saw Romano for the first time, reading a book with thick glasses, meanwhile, the bus arrives both of them went inside the bus.who could have predicted that she would fall in love with this nerd!)

Good morning, sir .kerra said when she reached the class middle of the lesson.everyone in the class was looking at her shockingly!

Miss Kerra, congratulations you broken your own record of being late! everyone started laughing hearing Mr.Ali's sarcastic comment.

Kerra ashamedly said that sir, God promise this time it wasn't my fault my alarm didn't work and top of that I missed the bus...

Enough with your excuses, I don't know anything just go and give the late fine so that you can get into the class, Mr.Ali heartlessly announced to Kerra.

(Kerra could get into the class during math period when math teacher was giving mark sheet and her marks were terrible so she had to hear a lecture from her math teacher also.

she thought in her mind, could I be more unlucky!)

Kerra reached home with a terrible mood, while her mother declares they were having guests today so she has to wear some decent clothes cause Kerra always loves to dress up like a hippy!

Mom, I am not feeling well so you can just tell them your daughter is not at home .kerra said to her mother showing her puppy eyes.

but mother cruelly ignored her request.

she was sleeping when the guest arrived at home but her mother asks her to cook nodules as she was busy chatting with guests. kerra made spicy noodles but as her mood was bad the noodles were the worst thing she had made in her entire life.

Everyone was having the food while someone said that noodles are salty with having a straight face with no expression!

Kerra stood there without saying any word as if she is a statue but hearing the complain she said, sorry with a perfectly fake smile on the face.

kerra's mother introduces everyone with kerra, and then she looked toward the man who complained about noodles and said he is uncle romano. and he is going to teach you as your scores are too bad to get into college.

Kerra was shocked she looked at the guy again and she prayed to God to save her dignity!

Kerra smilled with the memory of how she drew clothes for the ***** pictures of the human body..All she did only make her more embarrassed...it was clear that she wanted to hide the ***** pictures from her uncle who is going to be her teacher tomorrow!

Kerra mumbled in a daze, how innocently fool I was!

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