"People love to do things that make them happy, though they know that what they feel can reverse"

Soul of the rhythm: chapter 1

they say time heal all wounds but, honestly speaking it doesn't it just help forget yet it couldn't help people like me. let's say that it's some sort of gift but also a reason for a nightmare.

Hi, I'm Trinity Celeste. I came from a family known for their love through music. but unlike them... let's just say that, I'm different. it's not that I don't love music like my ancestors do. it's just that music isn't for me, my parents wanted me to play on the piano recital and be famous musicians like them.

they tried to teach me how to play different kinds of instrument yet, they say i am best at playing string oriented instruments and piano is what i chose to focus on.

so, i am here practicing piano for the recital, but the thing is....

"again from the top, your music has no emotion, find some anger, some pain, or love, just find something" my piano teacher eagerly said

I quietly obeyed. from there we started again and again, holding the same reason.

" if people see that you, yourself can't feel what you are playing, what more the people hearing your music." my teacher put one of his hand on his forehead, as if he was stressed.

" you may now leave, i will deal with her from here."  my dad said out of no where, made me still.

"play" dad said

and there like a cracked stone, I'm now covered with fear, what if dad give a punishment if I do a mess thing...

there on my dad's gaze I am at a state of paranoia. but still, I manage to make myself act normal...

( playing: canon D )

while I was at the middle of playing

when my dad suddenly...

He hit his walking stick on the floor, and it made me startled

I just miss a note!! What have I done...

AGAIN!!! "I was so frightened, I could not hold back my tears...

He stared at me with an angry gaze, which made me froze on the spot.

" You think you can do better by crying? Pull yourself together you cannot do any mistake while at stage, you will bring shame to this family..." He walk his way to the door, or so i thought...

He stopped half way and said..

" Practice until you can do it perfectly, you will only stay here in the piano room and practice, supper for you..."

Then he barge out of the room..

There I was left. Why every time he was here I felt like the world just caught me red handed. But I have no choice music is part of the family tradition and as the only heir of the Celeste's, do I have a choice

I was cut off my thoughts when my mom came to the room and hug me directly.

"Everything's gonna be alright." she said, then gave me her sweet smile...

at this moment that smile, I really adore mom. she can smile sweetly as if the world is the safest place, eve though it isn't really

"how about this I'll stay for awhile, I'll be your audience and your teacher??" she said still holding the same smile

"thanks, mom..." I replied blankly

>>>>>>

I played the piano in front of her. while I was playing she would dance gracefully within the rhythm of the music. it made me feel at ease... every time that I hit the wrong note, mom would intentionally make the wrong dance move, like sometimes while doing a pirouette she would fall on her own feet then she would come near me and give me a peck of kiss on my forehead.

"hahahah, hhhmmm I'm not as good as before at dancing..." she said sweetly, but I can see how much she would likely want to cheer me up...

mom held my hand and made me stand, it made me confused for some reason

"come here" she said with her sweet voice then guided me to where she danced.

she's taught me how to dance how to dance... and it felt like I am floating on the clouds while dancing, I feel so free...

this time, my mom got back at the piano and she played it... the way she played it has so many flaws, but I don't understand why, but i just can't stop myself from moving freely as if I'm dancing....

>>>>>

as she stopped playing the piano, she wiped the tear that fell from her eye, and said

" that's it for to day, you can rest now... tomorrow will be another day

After mom said that she rushed out of the room, as if something was the matter...

I followed her secretly. She went to a room....

"My eyes we're gloomy, but it is the skies that cry"

Soul of the rhythm : chapter 2

After mom said that she rushed out of the room, as if something was the matter...

I followed her secretly. She went to a room

"I haven't seen this room before" I whispered to myself "or maybe I was just too caught up with responsibilities that i never had time to know things way better"

The room so clean, the floor was so shiny, it was surrounded with glass walls

At a corner there were sets of pointe shoes arranged on a shelf... Mom, took a pair then wear it. Beside the shoe shelf was a dress cabinet, mom opened it. I was so astonished on how elegant the designs of sets of tutus, she picked i don't know, she just picked the set of dress randomly....

Then she went to center of the room... As for what i see, she moved as of her body doesn't have weight, as if she was a feather falling from high grounds...

I was so mesmerized by the way my mom danced, that I didn't notice that I accidentally moved the vase from the shelf i was hiding

"Who's there? " my mom asked

I was so nervous that i ran back to my room, thank god my room was just at the next hallway so i got inside fast and lay on my bed. Pretending to be asleep.. I can hear footsteps from out side the door

When I think that mom hasn't found out that it was me, calmed me a little... I fell asleep

..... Hours passed.....

"asdfghjklzxcvbnmpoiuytrewq..." i woke up with the noises a can hear from somewhere... it was like they were fighting over something, but i can't understand what they were arguing about

I decided to look or the noises, and to my surprise it is from the room where mom danced earlier, I hid at the same spot I was earlier

I hid at very same spot where i hid when i was secretly watching mom dancing

I saw mom and dad having a fight...

Dad was furious cause mom taught me how to dance insead of focus for piano, and mom arguing that, if he really wanted me to be happy he should've let me, cause it could at least make me smile for even just little while

Staring at them, I couldn't help my tears.

But at that moment I move the exact same vase from earlier, it fell off the ground broken. but o have no time to think about that, all i could think was: i need to escape from here before they found oit that i was there...

I hurriedly run back to my room...

Right there, I fall off my knees and cried my heart out

"why was this wold sp cruel, that every person who makes my life lively and happy suffer?" ask out of nowhere with a half whisper-cracked voice

I gather myself up to go to the balcony ang stare at the gloomy skies, it was most likely to rain hard tonight...

The dark clouds covered the stars of the beautiful indigo nigh sky. Hiding the stars above it

I guess the skies could feel grief...

I stared at the dark clouds as the rain slowly drops

It calmed me a little, at least. It felt like the skies could cry for me...

As if somebody felt the same pain that I did...

>>>>

I decided to go to the music room, but this time without a heavy heart..

I found myself standing at the platform near the piano, I stood there for quite a while staring at the stereo near the glass wall..

I turned on the stereo for some classical music and danced their gracefully, with only the stars as my witness

>>>>>

A new day it is but, it felt like the very same every time.

the piano practice, the heavy scolding, the little smiles from mom...

But this time when mom tried to comfort me, I pusher her away...

I saw pain in her eyes but, at least she won't suffer the pain that I do

She had no choice but to leave me there alone still trying to reflect on myself...

Asking my self "what have I done, wrong" again and again and again...

Then suddenly my piano teacher clapped his hands with his teary eyes...

"your smile will remain, as long as what you do reaches your heart"

Soul of the rhythm: chapter 3

"bravo, bravo. That's it use that pain, that grief make the one who hear your pieza feel that pain, that sadness, that grief" My piano teacher suddenly said

Which left me dumb founded...

"that was all for today fella, keep up the good work" my piano teacher said.

When he left the game music room, I can't help but cry out of happiness, it's the first time someone except my mom, encouraged that I did great

"trinity, don't even think that you did great once then and it would be enough, there is a music camp it is one week, and you must join to expose yourself with music, your recital will be held next month so we still have time. Gather up your thing cause you will be heading there tomorrow"

"okay, father" I said and walk out of the room with a heavy heart...

I like music camps honestly, not just that I am free of fathers scolding and control, it is also a chance to socialize with people...

"trinity..."

I knew who owns that voice that called me but, I didn't aught to talk to anyone now

I don't want her to make her see and feel that somebody is trying to ruin her happiness..

She cope up with my walking

"trinity, darling. Follow me i gotta show you something"

I didn't answer yet, I followed her..

This path was so familiar, I knew it this was the hallway leading to the room where she and dad fought.

It felt like there was a giant question mark above my head,

Why are we heading there does this have something to do with Father's nagging... I ask my self

Come on, Trinity. Know your mom would never go against your father.. I said to myself

As we continue walking it felt like the room was so far, or as if my feet were heavy

When we reached the glass door, I stared at mom she's smiling yet her eyes said the contrary

As she stare at the wide room I saw how a shed of year fell from her left eye...

I wanna console her but, I didn't know how...

She guided me to a door near the closset

Wait, I haven't seen this room before...

She gave me a key

"open it, my darling" mom said,

I stared at the key in her hand for a little while confused

I took the key and open the room,

I stood there strucked

I couldn't believe in my eyes...

I saw photo of father as prince Siegfried ang mom as Odette at a some sort of theater.

He looked so happy, I never knew father loved dancing..

"these photos are memories that locked a person into grief" mom said with unuderstandable emotions upon her face...

"please try to understand him, he just wanted to protect you..." mom pause for a while and looked at me

"something that he can't do for your mom....